Foreword: I am so sorry! I know, I know, I haven't updated since last year - THAT'S COMPLETELY MY FAULT. I was just travelling with my parents and I was so tired and yeah..excuses.
Although, a little warning to those who does not want to spend their first week of new year sad, angry, depressed or any other emotions that simply feels BAD. Then PLEASE, PLEASE don't read the following chapters ahead. I'm warning you now. It is not pretty.
On to the story!
Chapter Thirty Six
Bella's here.
Bella's here.
Nothing matters except that Bella's here.
Her smell surrounds me, drowning me.
And God, I never want to resurface. Never again. Not when Bella's the water, and I am the victim of the ocean's onslaught. I can just float in the water, only hearing the water breathing. No noises, no anything.
"I love you," I mutter into her hair and press her against to me. No space, just us. One as whole. No one could tear us apart ever again.
Never again.
Love her right, Jasper...
Love her right.
I will do so gladly. So, so gladly.
I hear her laugh in my shirt. "I love you, too."
And that's that.
Bella and I.
When you feel so strongly for someone that no words could even define what you're feeling, when no time and no world ruled you. There's really no explaining it, because you just can't.
The mere thought of explaining this, of writing this...you just can't. Because it's the most powerful thing in the world you'll feel. That you'll be left speechless about it. There's no evil, no good, no power.
It's just you and her.
Bella and I.
I twirl her around, making her hair dance in the wind and making her laugh. And there's nothing in the world but her laugh.
That laugh.
"Oh, Jasper," she whispers. "Make me swear to never leave you again. Not for one minute."
I grin. "Swear to me that you'll never leave me again, not for one minute. Not for one second. Swear to me you'll love me until the Earth stops existing. Swear you'll love me and will forever be with me until we both could fly. Swear it to me, Bella."
She kisses my forehead, my cheeks, my lips. "I swear. I swear. I swear... I swear."
I kiss her again on the mouth. It's a series of emotions, of things I could never name. Never. Fireworks, peace, the world beneath me, sparks, the air,everything I could be the master of. Everything when she's with me. Everything and anything.
Oh Bella. "Never leave me again," I mutter to the air, to the sky, to her lips. To anyone who can hear me.
She pulls away from me. "Oh but, Jasper," she says, "I'm always with you. Always and forevermore."
I kiss her again, and we both roll to the grass.
I believe her. She will always be there. Always and forevermore.
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Why did she come now?
Why did she come now?
Why did she come now?
No, no, no, no, no.
No.
No.
Not now.
Never, please.
So, fast. So, so, fast.
Every one of us all thought that she would come later. Not this soon. No, no, no. There are already so many people dead and half of the forest in Forks is already burnt to the ground. No, no, no, no.
Victoria.
I hear Edward snarl upstairs when I think of the name.
There's no time.
No time to prepare, no time to think of strategies.
No time at all.
Charlie's helping anyone he can. From the many killings that happened within just an hour, to the forest fire that's spreading fast around Forks.
There's just no escape. If the fire spreads east, the people of Forks will be trapped, making Forks a circle of hell. People will scream, die, cry.
Victoria has been more psychotic than we all thought.
The killings are probably the worst though. Victoria and her newborn army (which we just learned about half an hour ago) are vicious. The devil and his minions incarnate. Dead people started to show in Port Angeles in groups, then it spread to Forks in just a few minutes. Thirteen people dead and still counting.
Reporters and photographers all around the state seem to want to know more of what's happening to the little town of Forks, where nothing seems to happen.
No, no, no...
The emotions all over the house are killing me. I want to get out. I needto get out. I close my eyes and put two fingers on my nose bridge. Vampire migraine is worse than a mortal one. It keeps on pounding on your granite head. There's no aspirin for a vampire headache.
Ugh.
"Go, Jasper, run around for awhile. Nothing's going to happen," Edward says from upstairs.
I look around at the room. Nods of encouragement and smiles.
"It's alright, Jasper. Go for a run. We'll look out for news and Bella," Esme says with a pat on my shoulder.
"Thanks, Esme. I'll be back in an hour."
An hour turned into four, I kept on running. The world is in my feet, the air is on my face, and I leave all my problems behind.
There's nothing but me and the woods. The trees sway, the flowers bloom. Everything's perfect in this world. I wish Bella was here to see it all. So that it can be truly perfect.
I shake my head and head back to reality.
What greeted me changed my life.
"What happened to you?" Alice screeches at the top of her lungs as I walk to the porch.
I look at her with surprise. "I was calming down."
"Didn't you receive my calls? My messages?"
"I left my phone in Bella's room."
Alice screams and walks around so fast even I couldn't keep up.
"Alice, Alice. What happened?"
She faces me, her golden eyes almost unbearable to see. "Bella," she says and crumples to the ground to sob dryly. "Bella. Bella. No. No."
Three steps and I'm in front of her, kneeling. My insides are clenching and unclenching, and my throat feels like sand. "Alice? What happened to Bella?"
"No... no... no..."
My eyes tighten, and I fiercely shake the crumpled, small girl in front of me. I don't have the time to comfort her. No time, no time, no time.
"Alice!" I call out harshly. "What happened to Bella?"
She cries out like a wounded animal. Oh no...Oh no...Please no.
"Bella's been t-taken. We're all trying to f-find her. I got the task of telling you what-what happened."
Alice clearly has more to say, but I do not want to hear it. My insides are tight, my throat is constricted, and my muscles are clenched together fiercely.
Jasper...
I close my eyes.
I can almost hear her whispering my name.
But it is just the wind.
Bella screams in anguish as another bone is broken.The vampire on top of her smile so evilly that it makes Bella think she is the devil incarnate.
"How does that feel, you stupid girl?" Victoria taunts, her white teeth stained with red, coppery blood.
Bella glares at her, there is no use talking back or begging for release. If she talks back, it will only mean more pain; if she begs for release, it will only irritate Victoria, and she will crush more bones.
Bella doesn't know how many crushed bones in her body anymore. The pain is everywhere. All so consuming.
All so pitiful.
To those people who said that death was easy, it wasn't.
It's painful, pitiful and miserable.
Especially dying this way.
This is probably the worst way to die.
"The Cullens and those werewolves of yours made it too easy. So, so, easy." On the last sentence, Victoria, with her long nails, drew blood on her cheek.
It stings. Bella quietly weeps. For herself, for the situation she is in, for Victoria, who only meant to avenge the one she loved in the only way she knew how.
By killing the one who started it all.
Bella has the nerve to smile at the irony. The one who started it all.
A crack.
A scream.
Blood.
She can no longer clench her fingers together since Victoria had crushed them all.
Jasper...
She sobs, with noise this time. She wanted more time to say 'I love you's' to him, to travel the world with him, to make sure she lived.
But the sands in the hourglass are running out, and this seems to be the end.
Almost to the end.
Bella wonders when the last of the sands in the hourglass will fall down.
For she can no longer take the pain.
Afterword: *peeks out her fluffy pillow* Are you guys still with me?
We're so close to the ending I can feel it! Can you guys feel it too?
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Also, a little note, after this story is finished I will be writing, editing and plotting Bellow of the Ocean, my Bella/Edward fic. I will also be the Beta of VampriesAreCool and will try to write another fic soon - if I can. School this year is starting to get serious, with all this university preparing and all. Also, don't expect too many updates from me - life will be long and hard this year. Will try to break bad habits, create new ones, be a better person, and at the end of the year feel proud of myself for what I've done.
So, that's my little update on my writing life - to those people who care! :D
See you soon, readers!