Cat's P.O.V
Sweet Six-Teen
A/N Lyrics to Sweet 16 by me Lyrics To Die Young By Kes$a When I look at you lyrics by Mariah Carey ]
A bright new Pink convertible sat in the parking lot with a big rainbow on it and a dozen balloons saying "Happy Sweet 16" "We Love You Princess"
I couldn't stop screaming and jumping Jade eyes were wide she kept grinning.
Thank you Daddy!
Thank you Mommy!
Oh my god I can't believe I got a car! AH!
Mom and dad were laughing high-fiving each other grinning as they leaned into a hug and started kissing
I think we did well this time honey don't you?
Yes I believe our Catrina is happy
I didn't even have time to get grossed out I was so busy yelling and hugging Jade and my car.
Jade why don't you take the car out for a test spin so Cat can see how it works
Oh my god can we? No way! Are you sure?
Yes darlin' I am just be careful loves
Oh my god we can oh my god yes thank you !
I'm sure god is happy his name is finally being used in a good light and not being damned
I'm sure he is Jade just be careful girls
We will Daddy thank you
Yea lets go Jadey!
I grabbed her hands running with her taking the keys hugging my new car.
What are you naming her?
Jade asked I thought about it long and hard as we went over to her god she was so pretty.
I love you so much
How much did I love my car? I couldn't even say she was so beautiful her shiny pink paint her sleek black and purple rims.
Intensity that's her name
Nice name Cat
Thanks Jadey
It was amazing cruising down sunset blvd with Jade people checking us out boys looking at us well why wouldn't they? We are fine.
Jade looked amazing sitting in the drivers seat hair shifted to one side.
Flipping on my Cd player one of Andre's new tracks started playing it was instrumental and so pretty I couldn't help but starting to sing.
Sweet 16
I grew up believing that this was a special day
Sweet 16 illusions filled my mind would it live up to everything
I hoped for everything I dreamed it could be should be
Driving down sunset Blvd everyone thinks we are so cool
Isn't this what life is all about at almost 16
Living life were young were loud we are proud
Were insecure and searching for what our life will turn out to be
But for now were just living for every moment
Tomorrow I'll blow out my candles and make a wish
What will it be? Will it come true?
Only time will tell
The day is young even when the sun is winding down..
It's a disguise be cause when the sun goes down we come alive
Sweet 16
Come find me downtown hanging with my friends
Dancing my a.. off at the hottest club
Long red hair flying behind me as I kick my feet up shake my butt
Laughing at the joke no one gets but me
Young and in love a secret no one knows about me
I will take it to my grave
It's all apart of who I am who I will be
I wanna know what it feels like to be in love
To not hide behind a smile or an illusion
To shout it from the top of the tallest building to dance with
My lover in my arms and not in my dreams
When I look at them I know it can't come true
They smile at me like they share my secrets but to them
I am just a friend a crazy fun loving silly little red head
They have no idea the way my heart has beated in its own secret rhythm
With Love that's more then just friendship fifteenth years and it still goes strong
Will Sweet 16 be the year the secret comes to life?
Will my feelings come out to play in day-lighted sun or will these tears come out at night?
Sometimes I get so sick of playing this role I just want to scream
But it's Just The Way it has to be at least until I can come clean in any place
Except my dream I would Love The Way to express my feelings to my secret love
Any way it would be okay would someone show me
The Way
Is Sweet 16 The Way?
Everyone tells me it would get easier in time
Well I guess I'll have to wait and see if Sweet 16 is
The Way
Jade was smiling but looking at me like she was trying to figure it out who was my secret love?
I couldn't believe I had just belted that out oh my god how stupid was I?
She knew me to well oh god... I couldn't help myself the music just took over me. Oh god what was she going to say?
I felt my face creep with color as she opened her mouth I braced myself for what she would say.
Sweet 16 it's just a lie
Another version of a fairytale they tell little girls
Sweet 16 was just like every other day...
My parents fighting blood shattered on the walls
Tears clogging behind my eyes
My fathers words shattering my soul
Pain ripping through my body
A birthday present from daddy
Happy Birthday to me
The marks that he leaves on my body
You can't see it with your eyes
I've learned a long time ago how to hide my tears and shove away
The pain it's just The Way I grew up I learned to run to hide
To smile and to scowl when the time came to be
But there was a bright side to every darkened spot
Through every storm every break every loss of blood
Sweet 16 still had some meaning
You were there by my side smiling that beautiful smile
You were that song You know everyone says that there was a song
That shaped their child-hood The one where the memories pour out
That song that saved their life
You are that song
You made me smile when I wanted to crawl in a hole and die
You may never know it but you are the reason I hold on
When I was bleeding when I stopped hoping believing
When I am chocking Yous how me
The Way
When I am with you age becomes timeless pain becomes a ghost
You are my wind beneath my broken wings
You are my freedom my air I feel my heart beating with new life
You are my bible my song my vitals
I feel emotions I thought were buried deep inside
Cause inside my head in my heart it's crazy
Kids turn away no one wants to touch me
Afraid of what I will say of what I will become
Mirrors can't lie but mirrors can't see inside my soul the way you can
The Way to unlocking who I am who I long to be
Secrets, wishes, desires
Sweet 16 it's what we all hope it would be
A banner year one step closer to becoming free
Driving down the Blvd drinking the night away
Making memories while were young so someday we can come back
Laugh at the stupid crazy s...t we did when we were young and dumb
Sweet 16
Is it everything you hoped it would be?
Is it over rated?
What was it all about? What did you make it out to be?
Backstabbing and whispered lies?
Innocent and naïve all in fun?
High school memories look in the mirror
What do you see are you proud of who you are?
Now is the time to change it
Sweet 16
It's what you make it out to be
So if you want someone to Show you
The Way
Look in the mirror cause you are the one in the drivers seat
Sweet 16
Ignorance ain't bliss open up your eyes and take a step
It's time to grow up
Sweet 16 one step till
The Way
One step till were 18
Freedom
Happy sweet 16
Make it all you want to be
Live Life Live Young Live Loud Live Proud
Just Live
Sweet 16
Sweet 16
Jade parked outside one of the clubs grinning I looked around .
Jade what are we doing here? Daddy will kill me
Shh not if he doesn't know come on I'll get us in
Jade I don't know
Cat shh Your almost 16 lets make it memorable
Trust me you do trust me right?
Duh of course I did I trusted her with my life. I let her take my hand and lead me to behind the club I could hear the music blasting vibrating the walls. Slowly we sneaked up she held me close as we inched closer to the door. I was sweating and nervous a bit dizzy.
The beat of the music made me braver as I let my grip loosen she smiled at me as we moved along the walls. She was looking for some one I knew by her facial expression.
She looked determined and focused I felt my body start to move. She found whoever she was searching for and within seconds a 200L.b man had moved beside us and let us in jerking his head towards the dance floor.
Once inside we quickly moved to the main dance floor I saw the bright lights before they hit my eyes.
Everything was an array of colors neon signs flashing off the club name Rage Jade took my hand leading me to the dance floor.
She seemed to know everyone that worked there as we moved to the bar area I felt my feet start to move Jade's smile was all worth it as we stopped walking and started dancing she looked like an angel so beautiful and so vibrant her body was pressed so close to mine I could feel every curve every bone every part of her pale beautiful soft skin.
We bounced to the beat of the music as she wrapped her arms around me all around us everyone was dancing and laughing drinking. I let go of the thoughts about my dad killing me as I closed my eyes and just enjoyed being with her. I may never get that chance again to feel her arms around me her amble chest pressed against my flatness.
Young hearts, out our minds
Runnin like we outta time
Wild childs, lookin' good
Livin hard just like we should
Don't care whose watching when we tearing it up (You Know) Looking for some trouble tonight I hear your heart beat to the beat of the drums
That magic that we got nobody can touch (For sure)
Take my hand, I'll show you the wild, side
Like it's the last night of our lives
We'll keep dancing till we die
Oh what a shame that you came here with someone
So while you're here in my arms,
Let's make the most of the night like we're gonna die young
I was laughing so hard I couldn't even stand straight Jade was holding me up as we went collapsed at the bar. She motioned for the bartender to bring us some kind of drink. I couldn't hear what she said. But I trusted her so I just let my hips move I could hear people whistling and I sensed them watching.
I have no idea how many hours passed but I was slightly buzzed off whatever Jade had given me it was fruity and sweet.
Some slow song had come on as we were dancing and I was starting to get tired so I laid my head down on her left shoulder as we swayed to the song.
Turning me dipping me I smiled up at her as we danced side by side and in perfect rhythm beat to beat feet to feet dipping each other pulling each other close her hips grinded with mine there was a heat that built up in every part of me it felt like I would explode.
Soft heavenly eyes gazed into me
Transcending space and time
And I was a rendered still
There were no words for me to find at all
Or as I stood there beside myself
I could see you and no one else
As Jade Spun me my hair flying I couldn't help but smile as her arms enclosed around me pulling me close our legs entwined as we danced as one.
When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe, I fell so deep, ohh ohh
When I saw you
When I saw you
I'd never be, I'd never be a same
Have you ever had that one moment where everything just hits you and all at once you knew just knew without a shadow of a doubt that everything that happened happens for a reason and you just knew you had to make a decision. Even though you knew it would set the pace between what happens next. Good or bad.
Ohh ohh only once in a lifetime love rushes in
Changin' you with a tide and dawn's ribbon of light
Bursts through the dark
Wakening you inside
And I thought it was all untrue
Until there, all at once, I knew
Pulling me up I looked into her eyes and I melted but the feeling of her arms wrapped around me the look in her eyes and the remembrance of her voice as she was singing in the car propelled me to make my next move closing my eyes I leaned forward.
With no beginning
And without an end
You are the one for me
And it's evident
And your eyes told me so, oh oh yea
Your eyes let me know, ohh ohh ohh
Her lips touched mine and it was as sweet as I could ever imagine.
Happy Birthday Catrina I love you