CLARKE POV
At first I think it is a bird dying,
but no it's just Jasper Jordan and his solo about true love.
The song is for Octavia. It's something about falling in love and kissing or something, and one aggravated look from Finn makes me laugh and tuck one of my blond escaping hair behind my ear. He watches me and for a second I think something must be caught in it.
It looks like Octavia likes it even less, "just stop Jasper, please," she relents and ends their little love thing they got going on.
Jasper looks embarrassed and he does so, ducking his head when the energetic Blake stalks away to go relieve herself.
All these strong attitudes was going to get us in big trouble,
I think to myself,
Finn comes over and helps me pack while can't help but watch our other friendly pair fooling around.
"She is so going to ignore you from now on," Monty Green says and looks like he is going to break into laughter.
"Shut-up Monty," Jasper pushes him over and into the moist dirt for the comment.
They both begin to laugh like it was all a game, and something about that reminds me of when I was that close to Wells. He was my best friend, and yet… he betrayed me in the worst way by getting my father killed, and what made it even more unbearable was the fact that I had to watch the whole thing.
It would traumatize me for the rest of my life.
I would never forgive him, no matter what Wells did.
He didn't deserve my forgiveness.
"Hey guys," Finn interrupts us, "what is wrong with her?"
The once sleeping Guardswoman is turning around on the forest floor,
her long curly mane is filled with leaves, and nonsense words pour from her lips, "no please, not him. Not him."
"Should we wake her?"
Finn looks ready to, but I remember what she did the serpent, how she attacked Octavia when I told them the truth, and how I didn't trust her or her motives for taking care of us. There was just something, off, about her. The simple fact,
I knew that she could kill me as easily as she did the sea monster and I was not in any way prepared to have a paranoid woman killing me while I was sleeping or had my back turned.
"Don't wake her Finn."
"Don't hurt," she rolled on her side, "save him, no please," and that is when she begins thrashing on the forest ground.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH," She screams waking herself up.
In a quick second she in on her feet and she pulls off the bandages on her arm, and around the bite is swollen, red, and raw looking wound. Infection. Even if I was not a medical assistant. I know that is not a good sign. It is as if she knows the same because she already pacing.
"Fuck," she curses, "I'm fucked."
"When did that happen?" Jasper says making her even more angry.
"Yesterday," the Gaurdswoman grits out and attempts to touch it, "when I saved Octavia from her own stupidity,"
"hey," Octavia is back, "no one needed to save me! I can take care of myself."
"You ungrateful little-" she winces. She is obviously in a lot of pain. If only I had more things for her...maybe on the drop ship, "it isn't the infection," she declared, "the snake must have been poisonous. It just," she gritted her teeth, "it hurts like a bitch."
I hear myself say, "If it was poison, you would have been dead. It would have killed you in hours."
"Infection doesn't get this bad, this fast," she says, as if she has all the answers.
"Sometimes-" I begin,
and she snarls, "just shut-up you aren't helping."
I sigh my frustration away, "You need antibiotics," I say aloud what everyone is thinking, "maybe they are on the drop ship."
She gives me the same look when I was talking about Mt. Weather.
She thinks it is a suicide mission,
and I know, "I know that it is a long shot, but we have to stay positive."
"Stay positive?"
I have not seen her like this before, it frightens me.
I finger the stone knife, and bring it out of my back pocket.
I had taken it from her while she slept, "I am going to die of infection," she says, "I only have hours before I go septic. The drop ship is a day's hike from here Clarke," she says, "I won't make it back."
"That isn't true, you can have at the most a few days," I try to reason with her, but she doesn't want to listen.
"Don't try to placate me Clarke Griffin," she sneers, "I know when I see a death sentence, and this," she squeezed her red arm, blood, and puss came out of the wound, "this is not going to get better just like that."
"Not if you keep doing that!" I scream at her.
Still, she won't listen, "I can't go back like this," she says, "I won't survive the first few hours. I am an easy target," she says, talking to herself, "and something tells me an army of delinquents will pick me off the moment I come back," she looked directly at Octavia, "it wouldn't surprise me if your brother would be at the front of that line."
She is getting crazier by the moment.
I look to Finn,
but there is no hope in his eyes.
"Then don't come back," Octavia fires back.
We all stare at Octavia like she unleashed a tiger and thought it would be funny.
"What did you say?"
"Don't come back," Octavia says, showing me that she really cares nothing for her survival or appreciation to the people that sacrifice life and limb to keep her breathing. I can't imagine what is going through the girl's mind, "if your such a badass I'm sure you will find a way out of this."
"Yeah," Jasper says, naturally on Octavia's side, "go on."
I can't believe their childish temperament to play king of the playground right now. This was Earth. We didn't get to choose who we ended up with, we had to deal with it. I think of Wells and keep my mouth shut.
"You think I won't do it," the girl threatens, "you guys won't last without me," she says, "even like this," she indicates her infected arm, "I still can fight-"
"You can't fight for us," Monty Greene interrupts, "when you're dead."
There is a great silence after his words, no one had expected him to say that. Even if it was a high possibility that was not something you said to anyone, even to people that deserved it.
"Monty!' I never expected him to say that, "you guys stop it! Stop treating her like that!" Without much thought, the girl grabs her bloodied jacket, and ties it back over the flesh wound.
"I can find my own way back," she says, "forget you guys." Her eyes land on a fierce Octavia and then turn to me, "take care of yourself Clarke."
She turns around and starts jogging into the forest.
"No wait," I say, my feet carrying me forward, "don't leave us!"
"Just let her go Princess," Finn comes up to me and massages my shoulder.
He must know how much I didn't like what just happened.
"So who wants to go back to the river?" I give a look of disappointment to Jasper. I had thought him kind before, but now seeing what he was capable of, I just didn't know anymore.
"I do," Octavia raises her hand, still forcing a smile on her face to Jasper's invitation.
I roll my eyes at her. She was just being the worst person right now. I wanted to see if we could follow the infected girl… but Mt. Weather was still our priority. We needed to bring back food.
"We never even got her name," I say to Finn, "we didn't even care enough to ask."
"Yeah, I know," he agrees, "I really hope we don't regret this."
"Me too," I look to the trees where the nameless girl went off jogging, "me too."