Hours later I sat on the chair in Will's bedroom, the sun had set long ago but I just sat there in the darkness. The last four days had turned my world upside down yet again. I had touched four people, kissed Will, he held me while I slept, twice. Simon was as much as presence in my life as he has always been. He was right, he would always be apart of me, and I a part of him.

"I am going to miss you…" I watched him put the final things in his carry on and I could already feel the pull of the distance between us. I pulled the covers up over my naked body, and sat up in the bed.

"I am going to miss you too Love. But I have a fire to put out, grease some government officials and you are a huge distraction. I need all my focus for this."

Several of the Hong Kong factories were having issues because the Chinese government was systemically stopping production on what Archer Global was hoping would be the new must have gadget for the impending Holiday season. They were still five months out but it was an already tight deadline and millions were at stake. Simon said their "issues" were just a hard ball tactic based on the fact that the Kakushin Suru refused to manufacturer in China. Chiyo Honora was a humanitarian and was opposed to the conditions Chinese factory workers had to endure. It was a sticking point in the buy out negations, forcing Archer Global to look in to building factories in the US, Canada and of course Japan which was still trying to rebuild from the earthquake. The Chinese government got spooked and used what leverage they had to their advantage. The current factories.

"I know, I understand…It's just that…"

"We have never been a apart since we have been together." I exhaled relieved, he got what I was saying. "I know, but it's a week tops, I will be back before you know it."

"I know…but can't I come with you… I speak the language…"

"No! Amy no…Where I am going is just no place for you…It's not safe and you know that."

"Can't you send…"

"I wish I could, but I have connections there. I am the one who got these factories in the first place." I nodded, I was acting foolish and I knew it. I just didn't know how I was going to go an entire week with out him. "Look at me, you are apart of me. The best part, everything good a decent about me is you."

"Simon that is not true."

"Yes it is… My mind, my soul was full of darkness until you came into it. You are my light Amy and I am unfortunately your darkness."

"Ying and Yang…"

"Exactly. Ying and Yang…And a few thousand miles or a week or a month or year isn't going to change that." He wiped one of my tears away with this thumb and kissed me gently. "Nothing is going to change that. I am yours and you are mine."

"Amy are you ok?" Will flicked the light on and I squinted my eyes, holding my hand up to block the shock of light.

"Yeah, I am just thinking. I can't relax, I feel like Simon is watching me right now. Like no matter what he is always able to reach me." Will was silent, and he seemed so far away from me. Like his mind was somewhere else all together. Doubt and fear began to creep in, maybe he was having doubts. This was way more then he signed up for. I mean its one thing to deal with a crazy girl, but a crazy girl who can't be touched who has a crazy ex that is out to get her. I started to laugh, a tired sad depleted laugh. He was still silent, just looking down at me. And for the first time since we met I couldn't read his face. I stood up slowly and eased my way past him.

"I need a drink…" He stopped me, wrapping his arm around my waist and pulling me back against his chest. I could feel his breath on the back of my neck and his other arm wrapped around me.

"That's not what you need."

"And what do I need?"

"You need to come Amy." My breathing stopped, and my heart skipped a beat. I started to feel dizzy…1...2...3... "Breathe Amy." I took a deep breath, shaking as I inhaled.

"I can't…It's like with the coffee or the toothpaste, or the smell of blood…I can't"

"You won't… won't is not can't." He slid his hand under the hem of my shirt, his palm flat against the fleshy bit of skin covering my ribs, just under my bra. "A week ago, you wouldn't let me do this… and now I can." His hand splayed open, gliding over my breast holding it gently. "And now I can do this…" He kneaded me softly and I could feel my nipple harden, not sure if it felt good or not. I could hear the harshness of my breath, as I pressed my lips together trying to decide.

"Will… Please…let me go…" No sooner that the words were out of my mouth, Will released his grasp. I stood there feeling like a sheet on the line blowing in the wind. I turned to face him, his face plagued with worry and concern.

"It's like you said Amy…the coffee and the toothpaste…baby steps… Let's go to bed. It's been a long day."