Joey came home that night hoping lauren would be asleep, but when he walked into the flat he saw she was sitting watching tv,
"im going for a shower" he said walking straight past lauren
Lauren sighed as joey walked past him, she had a plan, she waited for him to get in the shower before she let herself in the bathroom, she climbed into the shower with joey, she leant up on tip toes and kissed him, joeys hands went to her waist to pull her closer to him, it was the closest that had been in a while. Joey pushed lauren against the wall as she wrapped her legs round his waist, as he thrust inside her. They were both trying to dominate the kiss, lauren moaned into joeys mouth as she found her release, joey found his soon after and called out laurens name. lauren let her legs fall down so she was standing, joeys forhead resting against hers she smiled at him and he returned the smile.
"how was work tonight?" lauren asked later as they lay in bed
"it was quite busy" joey replied feeling tired
"did Natasha get on ok?" lauren asked
"yeah shes good" joey said before falling asleep
"I bet she is" lauren whispered feeling sad.
Lauren woke the next day to joey curled round her, she finally felt like things were looking up for them, she thought about telling him about her postnatal depression but thought against the idea as she didn't wanna ruin anything. Joey woke up and smiled up at lauren, she leant down and gave him a kiss, they were interrupted by joeys phone
"Natasha text me to say sharons gone away and she needs help with a delivery" joey told lauren reading the message on his phone
"but its your day off, I thought we could do something" lauren sulked
"sorry lauren, but Natasha needs me" joey said
"and what about me who needs you?" lauren asked
"you have me lauren" joey sighed getting out of bed
"hang on you didn't tell her that you had a son but you gave her your mobile number" lauren said getting angry
"lauren its just for work and she doesn't need to my business" joey declared before walking out of their bedroom.
Lauren laid back in bed sulking, JJ stirred so lauren went and got him out of his cot and put him into bed with her, joey walked back into their room with just a towel around his waist. Lauren really wanted to tell him about her postnatal depression but she knew it would cause another argument.
"why don't you go and see whitney or someone today" joey said leaning down to give lauren a small kiss before leaving for work.
Lauren gave whitney a text and asked if she wanted to meet for a coffee. A while later lauren was walking out of the flat with JJ, she saw joey and Natasha outside the club unloading a delivery, they were both laughing and smiling, lauren walked straight past him and went to meet whitney. Lauren walked into the café where she saw her friend sitting at a table waiting for her
"hey lauren ive got you a coffee" whitney smiled
"thanks whit, I could do with one" lauren sighed sitting opposite her friend
"JJ keep you up ?" whitney asked
"no,he sleeps quite well" lauren replied
"what is it lauren?" whitney asked seeing her friends sad
expression
"I don't think joey loves me anymore" lauren said as tears fell down her face
"hey of course he does" whitney said taking laurens hand giving it a reassuring squeeze
"I dunno whit, things haven't been right for a while now, and now theres this new girl at the club, and im just scared hes going off me" lauren sobbed
"whats not been right? And whose this other girl?" whitney asked
"sharons taken her on at the club, an joey just seems happy when hes around her, and ive got post natal depression but I haven't told joey, only my mum knows" lauren said
"oh lauren, joey wont cheat on you so scrap that from your head, hes probably just tired from working and with JJ, and maybe you should tell him, it might ease things up between you" whitney said trying to reassure her friend.
Later that day lauren was heading down the market when she bumped into Natasha
"hi lauren how are you?" she smiled
"im fine, wheres joey?" lauren asked
"oh he's still working, im just gonna get us a coffee and a cake" Natasha smiled
Lauren didn't reply to Natasha, she just carried on walking in the direction to the club, she walked down the stairs and saw joey sat at a table doing some paper work
"are you gonna be long?" lauren asked making joey jump
"I dunno" he said
"well mums offered to baby sit tonight, I thought we could go out" lauren said
"im sorry but ive gotta work here tonight, we've got a party booked in" joey said not looking up from his paper work
"oh ok, well maybe I'll do something with whit" lauren replied
"just don't go and get wasted" joey said
Lauren stared at him as tears sprung to her eyes, she finally walked out of the club and walked home, she put JJ down for his nap and she went into the kitchen poured herself a glass of wine, before bursting into tears. After composing herself lauren decided to take JJ round to tanyas,
"does that offer still stand?" lauren asked as Tanya let her in
"of course it does darling, where are you and joey going" Tanya asked
"we're not, hes gotta work, and I just need some time to myself" lauren replied
"ok darling, well me and your dad will have him" Tanya smiled
Later that evening lauren left her mums after saying goodbye to JJ, she headed home. She walked into the kitchen and got herself a drink, she sat at the table with a pen a piece of paper, she wrote a letter to joey
Joey,
Im sorry for being a terrible girlfriend and mother, I know you're a great dad and will look after JJ, you two don't need me anymore, but I cant walk away from you. So im doing the next best thing im gonna make it easier on us all for me to go. I'll always love you and JJ, please never forget me. Love lauren xx
Lauren sat and sobbed as she drunk her wine and wrote the letter, she knew it was for the best, after she finished her letter she went into the kitchen cupboard where she found a bottle of vodka, she then walked into the bathroom to find the paracetamol. She went back and sat on the sofa and took them both together.
hope you enjoyed this chapter, the next one will be more fluffy. x