Chapter 38 (I don't own crap) Read and Review please thanks!

Deanpov

"So where to?" I look to Sammy and Bella.

They both shrug.

"Hmm, well I for one could use some pie and coffee, so first things first."

I turn on the radio and pull out of the drive heading to the nearest café as I think about Crowley's visit last night on top of the millions of other things going on. I park at a café and get out.

I open the door for Bella and Sammy gets out following behind us but looks as if he's fighting something off.

"You ok there Sammy?"

He nods but hardly looks at me. We enter the restaurant and we sit down. Bella orders her some pecan pie and a coffee. She looks up in mid bite and freezes.

"Hey?"

She shakes her head then takes the bite and chews then swallows before answering me.

"Just thought I saw someone that seemed a bit familiar that's all."

"Oh…"

Sammy looks off to the other side of Bella as if someone's sitting right next to her.

"Stop…" He mutters looking down to the table now.

"Huh?"

Bella looks to Sammy confused. I put my arm around her knowing what's going on already but not wanting to reiterate it. We finish up and I throw the tip down on the table and go to pay. I turn back however and see Bella heading towards me but Sammy leaning over breathing her in. I shake my head as she doesn't even take notice of this. I wait till she heads outside and I yank him by the collar of his shirt before he can step outside.

"Don't you ever pull that shit again you jerk."

"What?" He looks to me confused.

"You know damn well what I'm talking about Sammy and you're lucky she didn't notice or you'd have a bullet in your heart about now."

"What the hell are you talking about!"

"I saw you lean over and sniffing her hair you fuck up."

"I didn't do that he did!"

I rear back.

"What the hell Sammy!"

"It was him I saw it myself he leaned over and did it. So you can see him now too?"

"Sammy?!" I say feeling sick.

"Please tell me you saw him too Dean."
"It was you Sammy I saw it with my own eyes."

He swallows back shaking his head.

"And I thought you said this thing is you!"

"It is but…"

I grit my teeth.
"Stay away from her!"

I say and shove him out the door.

"You're driving Sam." He nods as I pull Bella into the back with me.

Sammy turns on the radio and hits the highway.

Bella lays in my lap looking up at me. I run my fingers through her hair and teasingly down her shirt knowing Sammy couldn't see from that position. I work my hands underneath her bra. Damn I wanted to have my mouth around them something fierce. I remove my hand and wink as I lean over and kiss her then scoot down laying next to her and as small as the back was it was practically on top of me. She giggles a bit as she feels my excitement. We start this little make out session and I feel as though I'm literally about to cum in my damn pants. When suddenly the Sammy pulls over and slams on the brakes. I wrap my arms tighter around Bella to keep her from rolling on to the floorboard.

We both jump up.

"What the hell Sammy?"

I say leaning over the seat to see him gripping the wheel and hear his teeth grinding.

"OH come on really?"
I say as I grasp what this is about.
"I can't even touch my own fiancé' now?"

"Would you quit saying that?"

"Quit saying what Sammy?"

"Fiancé'!" Bella gasps out as he says this in a voice that's not quite his own it's like a deeper base version of his real voice.

"Well hello demonic bitch side…"

"DEAN!" Sammy yells looking to the back.

"What?"
"Don't let him!"

"Let him what Sammy what?"

"GET OFF HER!"

Bella looks to me her jaw dropping.

"Dean?" She practically whimpers.

"There's no one back here."

Sammy looks back and gasps out.

"Get him off her Dean!"

"What the fuck are you going on about?"

"BELL!" Sammy says turning around with his gun in hand aiming towards the back.

"SAMMY!" I quickly knock the gun out from his hand as it fires Bella screams out.

I immediately plant my body against hers blocking her best I can. My heart races as I look back to check on Bella.

"DEAN!" She says and looks to my shoulder.

She takes off her shirt placing it over the wound.

"What the hell…" I turn to Sammy as everything starts to go black…

Bellapov

"Dean!" Sam yells.

I point my gun at him.

"Drive! Get us to a fucking hotel!"

Sam nods his hands shaking. The tears come down as I try to get Dean to come to and I hold the gun towards Sam with one hand and my shirt over Dean with the other.

"Why Sam why!" I scream out furiously.

He pulls into a hotel.

"Get us a fucking room then get your ass back here so you can help me carry him inside."

I put my gun back in my pants and use both my hands to stop the bleeding much as possible.

"Come on tiger…" I plead as Sam comes back and parks in front of the hotel room.

He carries him inside the room and I lock the doors behinds us. I go back to holding the shirt to Dean's chest. After a few more moment's I pull the shirt back.

"Fuck this…"I say and put my bare hands to the wound.

"NO!" Sam yells at me.

"Bell… please…" He yanks me by the waist as I reach out to Dean.

"NO! Let me go!"

"NO!" He yells slamming me into a chair.

"I won't let you spend more of your life!"

"It's not your choice and it's DEAN!"

I jump back up and he grabs me again. I punch him in the face and shove him back as I rush back to Dean.

"NOOOO!" He growls slamming me against the wall by my throat.

"Sam…" He starts choking me.

"Sammy please… Dean… Dean…" I didn't care if he fucking killed me but he wasn't going to let Dean die.

I clasp my hands around his wrist and feel the life leaving me as I swore his eyes flashed black for a moment.

"Sammmyyy." I muster out.

Suddenly Sam is tossed about the room and Cas appears before me.

"Are you alright."I nod trying to catch my breath but I point to Dean.

He looks back and nods. I focus on catching my breath as Cas focuses on Dean. Sam rises looking to what's going on and see's my neck.

"Bell…"

"Stay away from me!" I yell and Cas grabs him slamming him down on the other bed.

Cas looks into Sam's eyes and they eventually close.

"He's asleep." Cas explains.

"Dean?"

"Give him time."

I sit next to Dean looking upon him. I lay against his chest and Cas puts a hand to my shoulder.

"He will be ok."

I nod against Dean's chest cuddling up next to him. I feel his arms go around me as he takes in a breath. I rise looking into his eyes.

"I'm ok angel…" He says running his hands along my cheek.

I lean into his palm and nod. He lifts himself off the bed looking around. He glances me over once more and runs his hand along my neck.

"Sammy?"

I nod and he sighs his jaw clenches hands fold into fist as he looks over.

"Cas put him out."

"Good little bitch…"
"Dean…"

"What baby?"

"His eyes… I swore they were actually black at one point."

"That's not possible angel…" He points to his tattoo.
"Dean…"

Cas walks back over to Sam looking him over.

"Any idea's Cas on how I can get my idiot brother back to himself or at least the side of him I don't want dead?"

Dean describes to Cas what's been going on with Sam. Meanwhile I keep seeing his eyes and thinking about the way he looked upon me. Chills fill me. He wasn't Sammy anymore he was literally a demonic version of himself. I turn to Cas.

"The darkness… I felt it… It coursed through me and it paralyzed for a moment before you tossed him off me. His hands cold, eyes dark, I felt the hatred and sadness that resides in him. It's like it's taken over."

"You felt all that?"

I look to the floor as Dean asks this.

"It was as if I had peek at his soul for just a moment and it frightened me beyond reason and he was petrified Dean I felt his fear it's incredible. It…"

I grasp the table next to me for support.

"Sammy…" I say in desperation I reach to my heart as it races and the warmth liquid rolls down my cheeks.

"We have to help him." I say.

"Get him out of that abyss."

I feel Dean and Cas each placing a hand upon my shoulder. I turn to Cas.

"Cas why do I feel these things?"
"It's the blood Bella. You will be able to see and feel things Dean and Sam cannot."

"How do we help Sammy?"

I raise up looking to them both.

"There is a way…" Cas looks to Dean.

"But it can be perilous."

"How?" Dean asks.

"We dig into his mind. Help Sam do a little soul searching and help him destroy whatever it is holding him back."

Dean looks over at me with a bit of a smirk.

"Oh is that all Cas?"

"It's the way we must go about it that can be dangerous. The mind has a way of tricking you and making you believe that things are real when they are not and visa versa."

"So how do we go about this?"

"Through me and I must be present as well in order for it to work."

"Present as in how. What exactly are we getting ourselves into?"

"It's what is known as drifting. It will be as if we've entered Sam's dream state only it's the real deal it's all of the mind."

"Isn't that what you use when you're asleep?"

"Not necessarily… There are many different processes that take over when you are dreaming as you know it's more of a subconscious thing. However what we will be dealing with is far more treacherous as this is not a subconscious thing it is what's real or the mind believes it is real, which sounds to be what Sam is going through."
"Ok all I heard was blah, blah, mind, blah, real, blah Sam."

"Dean…" I scold.

"What? Just sayin', this sounds like a bunch of mambo jumbo bullshit."

Cas looks to me.

"You're the healer meaning we will need you to stay here watching over the three of us. Even I am susceptible." Cas hints as goose bumps form along me.

"Ah, hell no, are you saying that if something happens she's going to be sitting back healing our asses?"

Cas nods.

"It's the only way. Sammy is in even more risk of harm as he will not know about any of this once we enter he will feel invaded and it could very well be him that harms us. Might even try to kill us depending on how threatened he feels that we are there."

"Pick another way Cas!"

"There isn't one."
"Then forget it!"

"Dean he's your brother!"

"Yeah a brother that can't wait to get his hands on you and has tried to kill us both!"

"It's not him Dean."
"Oh yeah it is… It's something that's always been there he's just finally managed to let the big guns go off and he's milking it for all it's worth."

"Dean please, I'll be fine."

"You want me to let you risk spending some years off your life in order to save my brother who's done this to you?" He runs his fingers along the marks again.

"Hell he just proved he's no better than that lowlife ex of yours."

"It's not him Dean! Not the real him anyway this is just the darkest thoughts he has his deepest darkest desires."

"Well hell, is that all?" Dean throws his hands in the air.

"If I had a nickel for every time I wanted to kidnap a girl, force myself on her and choke her out and…"

"Point taken Dean but you're not him. To us you're probably just as sick in your deepest darkest desires. Hell I'm sure I am too!"

"Are you now?" He winks.

"SERIOUSLY DEAN!"

"WELL WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME HUH TO GIVE YOU PERMISSION TO SUCK THE LIFE OUT OF YOU TO SAVE A COUPLE OF LOSERS?"
"Losers? I would never risk my life for a loser tiger. And furthermore I don't need your God damn permission."

I look to Cas and cover my mouth.
"I'm so sorry…"

"He will forgive you. However, yes please watch the tongue he hates his name in vain."

I nod.

"The hell you don't need my permission!"

"Excuse me?"
"You're my fiancé soon to be my wife of course you come to me FIRST!"

"OH my you freaking CAVEMAN!"

"Call it whatever you want sweet cheeks it's what it is."

"You irritating MAN!"

He winks with a shrug.

"Love you too angel baby. Once again you continue to warm my heart."

"Go fuck yourself Dean!"

"Now who sounds like Sammy!"

"Well maybe someone needs to!"

"You better watch what you say…" He threatens.

"You're impossible."

"Why? Because I fucking love you? Because I don't want to see you hurt or wipe even more years from your life that we could be spending together? Or are you tired of my ass already? Are you so quick to want to call it quits on me baby?"

"Jesus listen to yourself? How manipulative can you be to make sure you guilt your way into what you want! I care about Sammy too I wasn't lying when I called him my brother Dean. I'm sorry tiger but I am doing this! We are bringing your brother back!"

"You think I don't want him back? You think I don't love that son of a bitch?"

"Actually that's what pisses me off about all this tiger is that I know you do care. I know you want him back so why the fuck not? So what, I might take a few years off my life but Sammy is back to himself? Now you tell me tiger? Don't you think it's worth a shot?"