Shikon no Go
The Language of the Shikon
A Fanfic in 100 Chapters
By DQBunny
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DISCLAIMER: This story is based off of "Kendo no Go: A Fanfic in 100 Chapters" by Akai Kitsune. Her story in turn is a parody of "In the Language of Love," a story by Diane Schoemperlen. My thanks and appreciation goes out to Akai Kitsune for letting me borrow her fic idea! "Inuyasha" is the property of Takahashi Rumiko.
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Chapter 38: Anger
Anger ripped through her, keeping her alive better than the blood that filled her veins when she was alive.
Anger at Onigumo, for the human thoughts and desires that led him to accepting a pact that contributed to the making of a monster.
Anger at Naraku, the being Onigumo became, for ruining the lives of so many people.
Anger at Inuyasha for not trusting her enough to see through the deception
Anger at herself for not trusting Inuyasha enough, for not stopping Onigumo when she first felt the slight twinge in the back of her mind that warned her the invalid would be the cause of something horrible.
Anger at Kaede for being so quick to forgive.
And...anger at Kagome for being the person she never was. For having the courage and the wisdom to accept Inuyasha as he was. For being so kind to her even though she wanted her reincarnation gone from this time.
As the weeks slipped by, the anger gradually slipped away. One by one, she let her grudges go. Except for Naraku.
And Kagome.
Naraku she held onto because he was the ultimate evil. He had to be stopped.
Kagome, because no matter what happened, she managed to retain the goodness and the trust that was also her weakness. Because she was too good. Because Kagome forgave when she, herself, couldn't.
It was only then that Kikyo realized that jealously and anger stemmed from the same emotions.
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AUTHOR'S NOTES: Disclaimer – this is NOT a Kikyo-bashing chapter. It's simply more of a study into her feelings. Anger fueled her during the early part of the series after Urusae resurrected her. But as time goes by, you can tell that she's let go of some of that anger. But she still seems to be ambivalent toward Kagome. I think that on some levels, Kikyo is jealous of Kagome for being accepting when she wasn't. It was Kikyo's desire to have Inuyasha become human that led in part to the tragic events of her death and his sealing. She is also frustrated whenever Kagome is always forgiving past the point where Kikyo couldn't forgive – when she makes her own life harder by saving Kikyo even though with her gone, so is the last major obstacle to her relationship with Inuyasha. But Kagome refuses to do that because she knows how much that would hurt him. She sees Kagome as rather naïve, I think. The original title for this chapter was "Anger."
The Language of the Shikon
A Fanfic in 100 Chapters
By DQBunny
*****
DISCLAIMER: This story is based off of "Kendo no Go: A Fanfic in 100 Chapters" by Akai Kitsune. Her story in turn is a parody of "In the Language of Love," a story by Diane Schoemperlen. My thanks and appreciation goes out to Akai Kitsune for letting me borrow her fic idea! "Inuyasha" is the property of Takahashi Rumiko.
*****
Chapter 38: Anger
Anger ripped through her, keeping her alive better than the blood that filled her veins when she was alive.
Anger at Onigumo, for the human thoughts and desires that led him to accepting a pact that contributed to the making of a monster.
Anger at Naraku, the being Onigumo became, for ruining the lives of so many people.
Anger at Inuyasha for not trusting her enough to see through the deception
Anger at herself for not trusting Inuyasha enough, for not stopping Onigumo when she first felt the slight twinge in the back of her mind that warned her the invalid would be the cause of something horrible.
Anger at Kaede for being so quick to forgive.
And...anger at Kagome for being the person she never was. For having the courage and the wisdom to accept Inuyasha as he was. For being so kind to her even though she wanted her reincarnation gone from this time.
As the weeks slipped by, the anger gradually slipped away. One by one, she let her grudges go. Except for Naraku.
And Kagome.
Naraku she held onto because he was the ultimate evil. He had to be stopped.
Kagome, because no matter what happened, she managed to retain the goodness and the trust that was also her weakness. Because she was too good. Because Kagome forgave when she, herself, couldn't.
It was only then that Kikyo realized that jealously and anger stemmed from the same emotions.
*****
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Disclaimer – this is NOT a Kikyo-bashing chapter. It's simply more of a study into her feelings. Anger fueled her during the early part of the series after Urusae resurrected her. But as time goes by, you can tell that she's let go of some of that anger. But she still seems to be ambivalent toward Kagome. I think that on some levels, Kikyo is jealous of Kagome for being accepting when she wasn't. It was Kikyo's desire to have Inuyasha become human that led in part to the tragic events of her death and his sealing. She is also frustrated whenever Kagome is always forgiving past the point where Kikyo couldn't forgive – when she makes her own life harder by saving Kikyo even though with her gone, so is the last major obstacle to her relationship with Inuyasha. But Kagome refuses to do that because she knows how much that would hurt him. She sees Kagome as rather naïve, I think. The original title for this chapter was "Anger."