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Chapter Thirty Seven
"I'll Do Whatever It Takes"
-Eli's POV-
I arrived home from school and immediately went to my room. Making as minimum noise as possible; considering the fact that I dreaded having conversations with my mother. Let's face it, talking to an intoxicated person wasn't a very enjoyable thing to do.
And as you know, my mother is known to drink. I don't blame her though, I suppose it's understandable. My father treated her so terribly, that it pushed her to the edge. I love her, no matter what. And I've finally came to the point, that I understand that I can't change her.. Even if I want to more then any thing.
I threw my backpack on to my bed, and sat down at the computer. I entered my twitter account and noticed that Clare hadn't tweeted since last night. I also signed on to my Facebook account. Clare was online.. But I doubt she wants to talk to me. I clicked her name..
I typed the words- "Please talk to me"
But instead of sending them, I erased the sentence and closed out of her name. Sure, I look like a wimp, but she honestly doesn't want any thing to do with me. Whats the point in begging and begging for a second chance when we only have like six days left together? I don't blame her for despising me.
I signed on to my Skype account.. If she's on, I'll try to talk to her.
God.. I hope she's on.
Clare Edwards is Online
I went to her profile, and put my cursor on the 'call' button. I hesitated, but eventually clicked on to her name. I sat there, as a screen arose- and began making a ringing noise. I was praying for her to accept my call and talk to me. Lucky enough for me, soon- Clare's face popped up on the screen.
"Yes?" She said.
"Hi." I softly and awkwardly responded- Smooth Eli... "You answered?"
"Clearly."
I nodded and realized how idiotic my response was before.
"Yeah.." I quietly began "Where's your mom?"
"She's passed out on the floor in her room.. Like always." She responded- "And yours?"
"Same.. Except she's in the living room." I replied- "We should get our mother's together, and they can have a contest to see who can pass out the quickest" I added.
Surprisingly, Clare bursted out in to laughter.
"My mom would own your mom's ass." She replied.
"HA, never." I replied, with a smirk.
"Hopefully you and I won't be like them." She replied. "We'll have to come to our 50th reunion and laugh at each other for being so messed up."
"Hopefully, we'll know each other outside of reunions and school get-togethers." I replied.
"Yeah.." She awkwardly and quietly responded.. It was as if she was already over me.
"Why is this happening?"
"Because your moving."
I seem to be asking and saying really stupid things today..
"I know that. But shouldn't we be taking advantage of this last week?"
"Eli. Don't ruin a friendship that could be beginning.."
"Why can't we just be together for this last week. We can break up on Sunday, and just forget each other- if that's what you want to do." I offered an idea; but let's face it, Saint Clare would never be opened to doing this..
"No Eli." Told you she would.. "I don't want to risk a good friendship that we could possibly have."
"Alright.." I paused "I guess I understand.. I'd feel the same if I were you." That was a complete lie.
I wouldn't feel or do the same, that Clare's doing. I'd want to spend every last minute with her. I'd sneak out at night, just to see her. I'd get up early just to pick her up and go to breakfast.. I'd do any thing and every thing to make her last week as amazing as possible.. Maybe those aren't bad ideas..
"I'm going to go now." I replied. "It's been fun. Bye."
"Wait!-" She yelled; as I looked at her, she paused- "I'll see you around, okay?"
I nodded, and then clicked the 'End Call' button. I couldn't help but smile, as I shut my laptop. Her saying those words made me feel like she still cared.. Like she still wanted me, or wanted to have some thing to do with me. She still loved me... Or at least, I hoped.
As the night approached- I planned out what I was going to do. As I stated before; sneaking out, and early breakfasts would be an extremely cute thing to do if Clare were to move away.. But, I also see it as being a cute thing to do when I'm moving away..
My plan- to sneak out to Clare's, and show her I care.
As I finished up my homework; I couldn't help but be excited to see this girl. I could barely understand what I was writing down, for my Social Studies homework; but it didn't matter. All that mattered was making Clare happy; whether or not I was passing or failing every class.
I was a failure any way... How much more damage could a few F's do?
I closed my books and shoved them in to my backpack. I then grabbed my keys and put my shoe's on. After doing so, I made sure I had every thing and I looked decent. I walked out the front door and entered Morty
I drove to the Edward's home, and this two minute drive- felt like two years. I was driving slow, to be honest. I guess it was because I was scared; I was scared she wouldn't want to see me, or she'd be mad at me for being all over her- and asking for more chances... when she obviously doesn't want to give me another chance.
Begging her for another chance, that I obviously won't get, seemed stupid. But when it comes to wanting some one; you need to be stupid. You have to follow your heart, not your head. You have to do whatever it takes.. and that's what I was going to do.
I was driving down Clare's block; when I decided to park a few house's down from hers. Let's face it- my car was rare and her parent's would obviously get suspicious if they were to see a hearse parked outside of their home. I parked the car, and made my way to her home. I was right outside of her bedroom window, when I began to plan how I'd climb up there.
And to be honest.. This wasn't going to be easy.
After five minutes of- climbing, falling, and cutting my hands/knees; I was finally opening Clare's window. As I climbed in; I heard her heavily breathing, as if she was more scared then she had ever been before. As I face-planted on to the ground, the lights turned on. I sat up, and noticed Clare sitting on her bed.
"What are you doing?" She quietly asked, with a confused expression on her face.
Breaking in to your house..
"Saying hello?" I replied, with a smile.
"At 11:15, on a school night?"
"What happened to the rebellious Clare, that stayed up past her bed time?" I asked; She rolled her eyes.
"As if she ever existed." As she said this, I stood up and walked over to her bed.
"Nice PJ's." I said with a smirk, as I took notice to her gray tank top and polka-dot pajama pants.
"Sorry, I forgot to dress up for the burglars that break in to my bedroom every night." She joked with me
"Oh my God, they break in to your house too?" I joked back. She softly laughed.
"Eli. I don't think this is a good idea."
"What? Being in your bedroom, unsupervised?" I said, with a suspiciously guilty smile. Clare immediately rolled her eyes.
"No. Having a guy friend, who wants to be more then friends, in my room." She responded. Don't pretend like you don't feel the same way, Saint Clare- I can see it in your eyes.
"As if your not happy that I'm here." I replied. She was silent. "Point proven."
"It doesn't matter what I want, or what makes me happy - What matters is- who's going to hurt me."
"I won't hurt you."
"But that's a lie- Eli; On Sunday, your going to hurt me.." She told me "Even if we aren't dating."
"Then can't we at least just hang out every day, and be really amazingly close friends.. I need you to be in my life, in some way.. Whether we're dating, or we're friends. I need it." I begged her.
"I don't know." She softly stated. I then sat down, on the bed, next to her.
"Clare.. I don't care if you hate me, love me, like me, or don't care for me.." I then paused "I'll always care, want, and love you." I told her "I don't care if your engaged to the richest man in the world; I'll always try to win you back. I don't care if your a criminal- I'll always want you."
"I want to say the same.. But I'm scared." She admitted "I'm too fragile to be putting myself out there like this... I'm gonna get hurt."
"Every one in the world gets hurt at some point.. It's just deciding who's worth the pain." I replied "And I know you're worth it- and I hope I am too."
"I don't know, Eli-" She began.. But I cut her off..
By kissing her.
We kissed for a long time; once we pulled away, I couldn't help but be more happy then ever.
"I'll see you tomorrow." I stated, as I stood up from the bed, and exited her room, from the window.