March 1st, 2012
Dad called us last week to say he had some sad news. We thought it was cancer. Turns out, Sue is divorcing him.
He has to have known we weren't shocked or even concerned. He cheated on her, and she's divorcing him. I'm surprised she hasn't said anything sooner, given her reaction when she found out. But Dad was incredibly devastated when he told us, and that made us feel incredibly guilty.
We haven't talked to Sue, and we don't really know how things are going to pan out from now on. And I'm absolutely sure they can't divorce immediately. As far as I'm concerned, they have to spend some time apart to make the divorce official. I can't see my father going through that – doing his own laundry, cooking, cleaning the house or even surviving without Sue worrying about him all the time.
I don't know either how things are going to be when it comes to the bond that we have created. She's like a mother to me, and she has been more caring and supportive than my real mother has ever been. How can I be losing my mother again? How can this be happening?
Kate seems off and aloof lately, and I'm guessing she's currently seeing someone. She comes home late at night and goes out even before I'm awake, and I have no chance to ask her how she really is. I guess she doesn't want to talk about it, then.
I also haven't had time to think about Edward, and when he comes to mind, I quickly think of something else, and I pretend that we didn't kiss the other night and that it wasn't the greatest thing that has happened to me in a long time. But I know I can't afford to think like that, because he's Edward, and I know what he's capable of. And even though I'm starting to get my feelings in order, I know it won't be enough until I fall for him again. I'm not just saying it's a possibility. It will happen.
I'm going to be buried in work until that happens. That buys me some time, right?
Bella
I know not much was addressed when it comes to Edward, but these two will have a talk pretty soon.