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Impossible Heartache

Chapter 38

"My masterpieces are done!" Lea said enthusiastically as she walked into her livingroom with two plates of freshly baked cookies in her hands. She put them down on the low glass table in the middle of the room, that was surrounded by her friends.

As Mark and Cory immediately dove in to grab two cookies each, Dianna scrunched her nose. "If you wanna live, you won't eat that." She warned, stopping the boys from stuffing the cookies in their mouths. "Last time I ate one of Lea's infamous cookies I got food poisoning." She added matter of factly.

Lea coughed, clearing her troath as she gave her friend a pointed look "Ehm, excuse me, but I'm pretty sure that that had nothing to do with my delicious cookies. Besides, I didn't get sick that day." She said, crossing her arms defensively.

"That's because you didn't eat any." Dianna shot back with a smug grin playing on her lips.

"That's because you ate them all before I could even taste one." Lea said with a slightly annoyed, but still playful voice. "And I'm figuring that they must have been delicious since you decided to not even leave me a crumble."

"Yeah well, they still gave me food poisoning." Dianna dismissively said with pursed lips, waving Lea away with a guilty look on her face.

Lea scoffed knowingly before gracefully sitting down on the couch inbetween Dianna and Heather, leaning forward to grab a cookie from one of the plates.

"Thew awe dewicious." Cory said with his mouth full of crumbs. Mark hummed in agreement as he took another cookie from the plate.

Lea sent Dianna a satisfied grin which got answered by a playful nudge in her ribs. Lea squealed as she jumped away from Dianna's tickling hands, practically falling over Heather's lap, who playfully poked Lea's cheek.

"Shh!" Chris suddenly shushed them, turning his full attention to the reason they had all gathered here in Lea's house. It was Tuesday evening, which meant Glee was on. They didn't always watch it together with the whole cast, but this week they were all free and made the plans to watch the episode together. "It's starting!" Chris added, snapping his fingers at Lea and Dianna, who chuckled in response.

The episode started with the celebicy club, which immediately made Dianna and Lea stop their actions and turn their attention to the screen.

Naya rested her head on Heather's shoulder with a content sigh, folding her hands in her lap as they all watched the screen in silence. The episode that was aired tonight was Sexy. Naya and Heather were both very excited for this episode, but Heather couldn't help but feel slightly nervous. This was obviously a major episode for Santana and Brittany and it would change their whole storylines. Not only that though, but it would also change their fanbase.

They knew that there already were so called 'Brittana' fans and she was certain these specific people would be more than pleased to see that there was actually going to be a storyline involving them two as love interests. This made her slightly less anxious about eventually coming out with the relationship she had with Naya.

The part that she was less excited about was her mother. She hadn't told her mother anything about the episode, but she knew she would definitely be watching. She was almost sure that her mother wouldn't be very pleased with the new lesbian storyline, but maybe it gave her a chance to prepare herself for the fact that her daughter was in fact dating a girl.

Heather knew that the reason she hadn't told her mother about the new storyline was because she didn't know if she could tell her mother without feeling guilty or anxious that she wasn't telling the truth about her personal life. She was scared of her mother's reaction. If her reaction would be as bad as she was afraid it would be, she was certain that she would be even less ready to tell her mother the truth than she already was at that moment.

That's why she simply didn't tell her about the episode. Maybe not telling her made it seem like it wasn't a big deal. Maybe if it wasn't a big deal to her, it wouldn't be a big deal to her mother either. She wouldn't make assumptions. She would just wait for the phonecall that she was sure she would receive that evening or the next day like her mother always did after a new episode.

She was snapped out of her thoughts when she heard a familiar voice ringing through her ears.

"Hey Britt-Britt! So listen. How about you and I pop in some Sweet Valley High this evening? Get our cuddle on." The on-screen version of Naya said in a seductive voice as she felt Naya's arm wrapping itself around her waist.

They watched in silence as Brittany told Santana she thought she was pregnant and asking her not to tell anyone.

"Yeah sure, your secret's save with- Oh my God, Brittany's pregnant." Santana said, causing chuckles to fill the room. Jenna, who was seated on a pillow on the ground leaning her back against Dianna's legs, laughed loudly, throwing her head back in her neck. Her loud snorting laughter caused the whole cast to burst out in laughter aswell.

The laughter only added up when Brittany explained that a stork had build its nest on top of her garage and that it was obviously getting ready to bring her her baby. Naya smiled widely at Heather, who sent her a grin in response. When she wanted to turn her eyes back to the screen, Chris' eyes caught her gaze. He looked at her intentionally, not seeming to notice that he was actually staring at her. Why was he looking at her like that anyway?

The episode went on and everyone turned their full attention back to the screen once the laughter died down. Someone occasionaly made a fitting remark during scenes or sent eachother knowing glances. Many smiles and loving squeezes were shared between Heather and Naya during scenes between the two of them. Naya could feel Heather's heartrate speeding up everytime they both appeared on the screen.

Chris continued to study Heather every once in a while, but Heather tried to keep her gaze on the television, avoiding Chris' searching eyes. She honestly had no idea why he was looking at her like that, but it definitely made her feel self-consious and uncomfortable. If she hadn't known any better, she would've thought that he was looking at her like that because she was with Naya. But then again, Chris was probably the gayest person she knew aside from Ryan Murphy. Chris was out and proud and never judged a single person for being whatever they were.

When Landslide started, Naya gave Heather's waist another small squeeze, sitting up a little straighter. She removed her head from Heather's shoulder and looked at the screen with a smile, remembering all the emotions she had felt that day of shooting.

That was the day she had told her friends they were together. Heather had made the stupid mistake to kiss Chord at her birthday party to keep the truth from getting out, which made her lose Naya and break her heart. Heather grimaced at the memory and quickly wrapped an arm around Naya's waist, holding her closer as the song continued to play.

She had told her friends to show that Naya was really the most important person in her life. She didn't care that their friends knew. She realized that kissing Chord had been probably the biggest mistake of her life. Naya, though she probably hadn't deserved it, had forgiven her, and that's how their new relationship really started. Before that incident, it was all secrets. After they told their friends, Heather felt herself relax some more. She was finally okay with the fact that she was in love with a girl. From that point on, she had only started to take steps forward. A huge next step was telling Naya's parents, who had been more than accepting.

Heather watched in awe as a tear escaped Naya's eye on the screen. She turned her head to meet Naya's gaze, who looked back at her with a shy smile. Heather smiled adoringly as she leaned forward and placed a sweet, lingering kiss on Naya's cheek on the same place as the tear had been on the screen.

When the song drifted to an end, the whole room cooed in adoration as they watched Heather and Naya interact. Heather felt herself blush as Naya looked at her with a loving glare.

"So it is actually true, huh?" Chris finally said with a grin on his face. Heather looked at him questionally for a moment before she finally realized that Chris hadn't been there when they told the rest of their friends they were together. "I didn't really believe it when they told me." He smirked. That explained his studying glares from before.

Naya sent him a sweet smile and shyly nodded her head. Heather felt extremely self-consious when she felt all the eyes of the room on her and Naya, but when she saw Naya's shy smile, she couldn't stop herself from placing a quick kiss on the dimple on her cheek. The room cooed in adoration once again, which made Heather's face flush bright red.

"Stop it, guys!" Heather said with a blush. She wanted her friends to fix their attention on something else like the tv. She didn't like being the center of attention like this. It didn't have to do with the fact that it was Naya. She was sure she would've felt even more uncomfortable if it was a guy her friends were cooing over.

Naya smiled brightly in adoration at Heather's flushed face and burried her face in the crook of Heather's neck. Their friends chuckled at their adorable interactions.

Heather groaned at their glances, but couldn't stop a wide smile from washing over her face as she wrapped her arms around Naya's shoulders, holding her close to her body.

"Eyes on the screen, people." She commanded them, but they just laughed in response. "It's time for Afternoon Delight!" She said, trying to gather up excitement in her voice when the celebicy club started singing their song in those rediculous outfits.

"I really don't think it's the time for that now, HeMo." Mark, who was seated in front of Naya, said as he brought another cookie to his mouth with a smug grin.

Naya rolled her eyes with a smile and kicked his back playfully.

"Hey!" He said as he sat up straighter and grabbed Naya's foot in a reflex. She tried to pull it back, but he pulled it towards him, almost causing Naya to fall off the couch, making her squeal and clutch her arms around Heather's neck.

Heather kicked Mark's hands away from Naya's leg while holding Naya close to her. Mark retreated his hands and held them in front of him to defend himself from Heather's kicking feet, trying to still them with his hands.

"Do not touch my girlfriend." Heather said sternly as she finally stilled her feet and reached forward to pull Naya's feet off the ground, away from Mark's hands. She swung them over her lap and wrapped one of her long arms around Naya's waist and the other under her knees, pulling her closer onto her lap, causing Naya to chuckle.

"Shh!" Lea suddenly shushed them as she pushed Naya's wandering feet off her own lap, pointing at the tv screen intentionally. On the screen, Lea, Dianna, Mark, Jayma and John Stamos were still singing on the screen.

Heather rolled her eyes with a smile as she placed another quick kiss on Naya's temple before fully turning her attention back to the screen. Well, most of her attention anyway. The rest of her attention stayed on Naya's hand that was making slow circles on Heather's lower back, playing with the hem of her shirt.

The episode went on, and everybody laughed when Ms. Pillsbury thought an afternoon delight was a dessert, during the more than awkward talk Kurt had with his father, and finally during the mean comment by Holly Holiday: "My lips are sealed, just like your legs."

When the next scene started, Heather held Naya a bit more tightly in her arms. They all watched the scene in utter silence. Heather leaned her head on Naya's shoulder as Santana declared her love for Brittany, vulnerable and her face filled with fear. They watched as Brittany turned her down for Artie, and how Santana retreated from Brittany's arms as she walked away from her through the crowded hallway, her face filled with heartbreak.

Heather knew it was acted, but she still felt her heart ache when she saw that hurt look on Santana's - Naya's face. She didn't ever want Naya to really feel that way. She squeezed Naya a little tighter and pressed her lips right next to her mouth, not able to fully kiss her since her eyes were still fixed on the screen. She quickly turned her head and met her lips with Heather's.

Heather felt her heart speed up everytime she connected her lips with Naya's puffy, soft ones. Naya could make her forget about anything with just the simplest of kisses. For a moment she forgot that she was in a room with all their friends as Heather softly nibbled on Naya's soft, wet lower lip.

They were brought back into the room when Kevin let out a cry. "Ow! What the hell, Di?"

Heather whipped her head around to see Kevin rub his arm, where apparently Dianna had hurt him. Dianna looked at him with an angry, but playful pout. She looked like a four year old with her blonde locks falling over her face as she crossed her arms, her lower lip standing out in a pout.

"It's your fault that Brittany turned Santana down!" She said accusingly. Kevin raised an eyebrow at her that said 'Really, Dianna?'

"I don't think she turned her down just because of Artie." Mark said knowingly, and Naya couldn't help but kick him in his back again. "Hey, I don't mean because she's a total bitch," He quickly added defensively, "I mean you heard what Santana said. She's not ready to deal with all the crap that comes with being gay, like the reactions from other people. Maybe Brittany just doesn't want to have to hide in the closet along with Santana. At least Artie is proud to have her." He shrugged as if saying 'Just a thought.'

Naya couldn't deny that she was stunned by Mark's suddenly wise words. What the hell happened to him?

"Who are you and what did you do with Mark?" Cory said playfully, earning a smack from the guy sitting beside him.

"They're fictional characters, Mark." Naya pointed out. Brittany obviously couldn't really not want to be with Santana because, if they would be together, Santana would want them to be a secret, and Brittany didn't want to hide. Besides, love overcomes all, right? Would it really have mattered if they were a secret if they were at least together?

"Yes, they are." He said intentionally as he shot a quick glare at Heather before returning his gaze on Naya with an apologetic smile on his face.

What was that supposed to mean? From the quick glance he had thrown at Heather, he was obviously talking about the two of them. What was he trying to say? He knew Heather wasn't ready to come out to the world, but that definitely didn't mean Naya wouldn't want to be with her. She would wait for Heather until she was ready. They had already taken huge steps by telling their friends and her family.

She turned her head to read Heather's reaction to Mark's words. Heather's eyes were fixed on the wall above the tv and her face was filled with sadness and guilt.

'Thanks a lot, Mark.' Naya thought. She didn't want Heather to feel guilty for not being ready to come out. She understood. It would change her whole life. She didn't want to force Heather into doing anything she wasn't ready for. Pushing her would only push her away.

She knew Mark always meant well, but he was also very straight forward. He always gave his honest opinion, which was usually appreciated by his friends. This time though, Naya wished he hadn't said anything. He may think that Heather should come out and be proud to be with Naya, but he didn't know what it was like. She knew Heather loved her. Heather wasn't afraid to show her affection to Naya, just not in public. Coming out was a big deal. If Heather was forced to come out when she wasn't ready, it could practically ruin her life.

She sighed as the rest of their friends turned their attention back to the screen when they saw Lauren kissing Puck. Naya kept her eyes on Heather, gently rubbing circles on the small of her back, trying to soothe her from her thoughts. Heather slowly turned her head with a small smile on her lips, but Naya could tell it was forced.

'I love you.' She mouther towards her, which made her smile turn into a genuine one. She leaned closer to Naya and quickly grazed their lips together.

'Love you, too.' She mouthed back with a grin.
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When Heather drove Naya home that night, Naya turned to her and finally brought up what had been bothering her all evening.

"About what Mark said... You know I'll wait, right?" She said. She was surprised by how unsure her own voice sounded.

Heather kept her eyes on the road, taking a minute to respond, "I really am trying, Nay." She said, her voice broken, "I'm just not ready yet."

"I know, babe. I know you're trying and I know you're not ready. I don't blame you for that." She quickly said, trying to soothe Heather with her words. "You can have as much time as you need." She added. When Heather didn't respond, she softly placed her hand over Heather's and added, "I mean it. I would wait forever if I had to."

Heather sent her a small, loving smile as she laced their fingers together. "You won't have to wait forever. I promise." She said softly.

Naya felt her heart beat faster as her body filled with happiness. She knew not to get her hopes up, but the way Heather said it, made her feel so certain that it wouldn't take a very long time for Heather to be ready.

After a moment of comfortable silence, Heather chuckled, "So I received like six texts already telling me how much of a bitch I was for letting Santana down."

Naya scoffed playfully, "Only six? I get hundreds of texts telling me Santana's a bitch every other week." She exaggerated with a smile.

"Ooh, need me to kick their asses?" Heather laughed.

"Hm, that sounds super hot," She laughed as she placed a quick peck on Heather's cheek. Heather could feel her cheeks flush at the touch of Naya's lips. "but no, Santana can take care of herself." She smirked.

"Uh-oh. She's about to go all Lima Heights!" Heather laughed, and Naya laughed along with her.

"That's how we do it in Lima Heights!" Naya used the infamous Santana line through her laughter.