Sorry, I know I have been delaying these updates a lot lately. And I am so sorry, I wish I could update but I just don't have the energy or strength to update lately. My life has become a downward spiral that is spinning out of control. I won't bore you but I just feel like crap 99 percent of the time. I know I am being a bitch but I don't need anymore stress without remembering to update these stories. I know you guys have done nothing but I just feel numb all the time because I feel so much pain. I just long for the feeling to feel nothing at all. I feel like a mirror that has started to crack. I wake up each morning, go through the meaningless actions the day brings. Do my homework, eat and at the end of the day I crawl into bed feeling no better. I know most of you probably don't care and are pissed with me but I promise I will and try to update before next weekend! Well night and goodbye x