Don't Ever Look Back!

When Emily's eyes opened, she saw that she was on the couch, confirming that last nights confession was real. That only brought more tears to her eyes. She was losing her husband and instead of spending four months together as much as they could. She only had half the time... less even. How was she going to break the news to the kids? How would the rest of team react? All those thoughts vanished, when she saw a peacefully sleeping Spencer Reid. Emily gently ran her fingers through his short hair, before kissing his cheek, which startled him awake.

"Sorry I didn't mean to wake you up, Spencer"

"It's alright. What time is it?" he said in a scruffy voice.

"It's seven-ten in the morning. JJ and Garcia should be here at around eight with the kids"

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As the weeks went by, Spencer saw that he had gained five pounds. This shocked him since he had lost almost 15 pounds in two months. He then thought more about it and realized that he had been sleeping better, he could even keep a certain amount of food down. Emily was at work, the kids at the daycare and he immediately called up his Oncologist.

"Hello?"

"Dr. Sanders, it's Spencer Reid. I need to make an appointment"

"Unless the pills have been helping, I don't see why waisting your time coming all the way here"

"No that's the thing... I lost fifteen pounds in two months and just now it says that i've gained five pounds, i've been sleeping better and able to keep a certain amount of food down"

"Come as soon as you can, because we'll get a CAT scan and MRI ready for you, when you arrive Dr. Reid" he said before hanging up. Reid then dialled a familiar number.

"Spencer, are you okay?" Asked his worried wife.

"Can you take the afternoon off. I need a lift at the Cancer building by the general hospital"

"What's wrong?"

"I don't know but it's nothing bad, and I'm telling the truth this time Emily"

"I'll tell Hotch that' i'm taking the afternoon off. I'll be on in about twenty minutes"

"Okay" he said before hanging up and getting ready.

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Emily had been waiting in the doctors office for almost half an hour and it wasn't until she felt herself dosing off, that Reid walked in.

"Do they have the results?" she quickly asked.

"We have to wait another twenty to thirty minutes to make sure that everything is right and that there's no mistake"

"Alright..." then everything was way too quiet for a while, until Dr. Sanders walked back into the room.

"Well first off, is to let you know that I expect you back here tomorrow for Chemotherapy" he said with a smile, "It shrunk enough that you would only need one, two maximum treatment before we can operate and remove the entire Tumor"

"So the pills worked after all?" he asked, dumbfounded.

"Sometimes the amount takes time for the Tumor to adjust, meaning it slowly shrank, but the side effects hit you like a ton of bricks. Now we'll take you off the pills, no more. And tomorrow you'll get a not so strong treatment and then next week we'll check again and see if it shrunk enough to operate or give one last treatment" Dr. Sanders explained, "If you have no other questions, then i'll see you tomorrow at noon Dr. Reid?"

"Yes, you will" he said, looking very relieved, before walking out with Emily.

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Reid woke up on the very edge of his bed, laying on his stomach, a white sheet covering him from waist down. Was this all a dream? When he saw the same dress shirt that he had wore at the doctor's office he knew that it hadn't been a dream. Then the memory slowly returned to him. He and Emily had returned home, both of them going at it, full force.

"Oh Dio, ti amo così tanto, fa male" she whispered to him, in Italian.

"Penso che fa male, a causa di ciò non è successo nemmeno un'ora fa, il mio amore", He told her before kissing her bare shoulder softly, before feeling her hand smacking his butt.

"Goof" she told him, while laughing. She then stopped when her eyes met his and she found herself crying.

"Emily, what's wrong?"

"Everything's going to be alright" she sobbed out, which confused him.

"Isn't that what we hoped?" he asked in a confusing tone.

"I don't have to pretend anymore... because it's happening" she said before pulling him into a tight hug.

"Shh, it's okay sweetheart"

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A week after the first, and hopefully last treatment, both Emily and Spencer were back on the docs office to find out the MRI and CAT scan result to see if another treatment was needed or that tomorrow morning surgery could be done. Almost a full hour had passed before Dr. Sanders walked into his office holding a small stack of papers.

"These are the surgery papers for you two to sign" he said with a smile. Both of them let out huge breathe of relief. But they weren't still out of the woods yet, but at least they were closer and closer of getting of that forest.

Translation!:

"Oh Dio, ti amo così tanto, fa male" - Oh god, I love you so much, it hurts.

Penso che fa male, a causa di ciò non è successo nemmeno un'ora fa, il mio amore

- I think it hurts, because of what happened not even an hour ago, my love.