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As much as I was over Sirius, I couldn't help taking notice of his little game. If it's sole purpose was to get at me he surely would have given up when he realised that I don't care.

And to put the cherry on the 'I'm over you' cake I had begun drawing and charming the curtains around my bed. I knew when Sirius wasn't with me when I was concious he would spy on my unconcious self to try and weasel information from my subconcious mind and lips.

So many girls had been brought up to the dorms that me and James were masters at silencing charms, to put them over our beds, which ensured they were impenetrable by soundwaves, which the female always seemed to be making more of. Peter wasn't that skilled and so had resorted to a pillow over his head, which really didn't work.

November brought with it a cold snap that threatened to stick indefinitely, and with that came the freezing of the great lake. Everything worked like a chain reaction in humans lives. Firstly, the lake froze, which lead to Sirius's latest participant in his 'are you better than Remus' game (which I was pleased to say no-one had won yet) come flitting up to Sirius and squawked the idea of skating on the lake; which caused Sirius to suggest it to us, which caused James, Sirius and Peter to peer pressure me into ice skating with pleas like "We'll look after you." and "I'll break your fall". Which lead to my current predicament.

That being, Sirius whispering so sexily in my ear, trying to get me to wake up. Reluctant to join the living world I snuggled into the warm soft thing that I was leaning on. To my surprise it groaned and tried to wiggle away, somewhat half heartedly. "Oh, c'mon Moony-for fuck's sake. Are you torturing me on purpose, please, or I might be forced into doing something to you. Leaving yourself all open like that." I shot up, cheking myself all over for any sign of unwanted physical contact.

"What did you do?" I hissed through my teeth, while glaring as hard as I could, prying open his mind for answers through his eyes. He leapt back, hands up, truly innocent. I guess it was my fault for falling asleep on him. "Nothing, nothing at all" He babbled, and from what I could deduce he was telling the truth. I glared at him, once more for luck.

"Ask Prongs and Wormtail, they were there the whole time" He leapt off of the carriage and into the blanket of white. A shower of disturbed snowflakes speckling over his trousers, and then more littering in his hair. It had lengthened slightly lately, sticking in all directions, so irresistably messy. The kind of hair you wanted to run your hands through. "Pick up your skates and be careful on the way down, it's a long jump and you're a little drows-"

An overly audible shriek accompanied his worrying about me. "SIIIRIIIUUUS" I rolled my eyes and took my hair from the ponytail it was in, formulating a plan of action to mark my territory. I shook it so it got a little messed up and then retied it, rubbing it with my hands to try and make it more rugged. After warding his "girlfriend" off for a few more seconds I stood, my groin the exact height of his face. A predicament that wasn't entirely new for either of us. "Can you help me down?" I pouted.

He added another small explanation to his whatever and looked up at me curiously "Please" I added, leaning towards him in the slightest way, and rubbing my hands together to fight the icy winds. "How is this gonna work?" He asked, I smirked a little and put my hands firmly on his shoudlers, relishing the small brush with his hair that I recieved. "Well, maybe, um, just a bit like that." I said, adjusting my hands to stop my wrists snapping on the way down. Chancing a glance down at him I realised his current eyeline. It was entirely atmy crotch. I subdued a laugh, due to the current size of his eyes and was so tempted to say something snide.

To stop his imagination going any further I put some more of my weight onto him "OK...don't drop me." I confirmed, knowing that to be in Sirius's arms was the safest place I could be. Still slightly stunned it seemed he lifted me down, his hands lingering on my hips for a split second of heaven. Wait, I was over him, so over him, so over him. I would not go back down that road. He had broke my heart so many times and I would not allow him back inside to do it again.

The sudden release of pressure and the disappearing of Sirius's sweet scent told me that his girlfriend had tugged him off. Was I really that much of a threat? I smirked to myself and took an exceptional amount of pleasure from the look on her face. It looked as if she were going to explode. Obviously, then she realised I was watching and pulled him into her, nibbling on his ear and whispering something.

I groaned and skated, wait no, stumbled and fell over to James and Peter, who were both looking at Sirius, with a mixture of disgust and disbelief. "I know right, it just makes me want to throw up." They nodded, and my left leg began to betray me, making me slip over backwards. Two hands grabbed either of my arms and suddenly I was upright again. "Thanks guys" I breathed, trying to steady myself, and not letting go of James's arm until I was perfectly still.

That was until he saw Lily, "HEY, hey, LILY!" He called, speeding off in the direction of her. I squealed and fell over, sitting there in denial, trying to look natural. Trying to get up was my next challenge, eveytime I put my foot down it slid away, unable to take my scarce weight.

"Never one for sports were you, Moons?" A silky smooth voice slid down from above. And like a guardian angel there he was. Glittering in the white sunlight and standing tall and magnificent as always. I managed to find the strength to get up "No, and these things are going to kill me." I grumbled, slipping again and clutching onto his arm for support. "Help-me" I gasped, still sliding around like a baby deer.

After hours of trying to skate on my own with Sirius's careful guidance I managed to feel stable enough to take most of my weight off him. "There, see you're getting the hang of it." He encouraged. "I think you can let-" My eyes snapped up to his and I gasped. I had forgotten how beautifully deep his eyes were. They were like the fresh snow around us, light and cheery and completely perfect. However much his appearance had changed through our turbulent relationship his eyes had stayed perfectly constant. They were the eyes that had loved me through the times when I hated myself. The eyes that had made me realise that the monster in me wasn't actually me. The eyes that I had fallen in love with countless times over. My vice-like grip on his arms loosened a little bit and I looked down, ashamed in letting my walls that I had been so carefully cultivating for months now come crashing down around my feet in one stupid move.

"-go?" he finished breathlessly, as if that moment had meant as much to him as it did to me. As fast as I had let go my feet had entangled themselves in each other and I was sent hurtling into Sirius, knocking us both flying over. I was half sat, half lying on top of Sirius, hands either side of his head. My hair had freed itself from its bindings and fell freely around my face. Sirius hair was still much shorter than it had once been but was splayed over the ice with such an improvised grace that I found it hard to gather oxygen from the abundance of air around us. It felt like there was no ground and no sky, we were just floating, just him and I for the rest of time.

One of his hands glided up to stroke over the most prominant scar on my face, one from a while ago that had refused to heal properly. The rest of him, following his hands lead sat up to take in the rest of my face."You're beautiful Remus." He murmured sincerely, placing a hand on my cheek and caressing the rough texture of my skin, from years of scarring with his thumb. His hand continued to move back to push my hair away from my face.

His eyes closed so angellically and I knew what was coming next, I knew I would have hell to pay later but right now I didn't care. His lips met mine with a smooth softness that only Sirius Black could achieve. I leant into him and dully noticed when he hit the ice again. That was probably the least of my worries as a welcomed electric current pulsed between us, with the dancing of our racing hearts. I needed more of him. I needed to put an end to his stupid game and make him mine once and for all. I only then realised how much I had missed him. But I was over him, I was over Sirius Black, I was not going there again. I couldn't go there again. But I already had.

I slowly got up composing myself with each jagged movement. Stretching up to my full height, to the face of Sirius's latest bitch. She looked a tiny bit angry at me. Not enough to phase me, but enough to irritate. After a loud and mildly painful slap she began revving herself up for a fight. But I wasn't gong to give her the satisfaction. "You're a freak, a disgusting freak. How dare you, first you turn the fittest guy in the school gay, just for you, you selfish bastard, then you dump him just as fast as you got him. And JUST WHEN HE'S GETTING OVER YOU YOU PIN HIM TO THE GROUND AND MAKE OUT WITH HIM. There's a circle of hell for people like you." I laughed in her face and turned to leave, finally finding the ability to skate well enough.

"Cammie, leave him alone." Sirius sighed exasperatedly. By that time I was at the edge of the lake, wrenching the skates off my feet and finding my shoes, so that I could get back to the dorm before the waterworks started. There was a dam of emotions in my mind and it was beginning to crack.

Sprinting away from the fight that people were crawling over each other to see, between Sirius and 'Cammie', I found that getting back to the dorm was a hell of a lot longer than getting away from it.

I muttered the password and ran full pelt at the staircase that led to the dorm that my bed was housed in. My bed, the only salvation in this place. I flung the covers over myself and curled up in a ball beneath them, sobs shaking my slight form as I let the emotions take over me.

I had well and truly destroyed myself this time. Entirely. I swore myself I would never fall for him again, but that was all gone the minute I looked into his eyes. Those eyes, the eyes that I loved so dearly. Maybe if I pretended this never happened then I could move on and try and ge ton with my life without him.

Maybe.

The dark stuffiness of the capsule I'd sealed myself in, both by drawing and locking the curtains and covering myself with the heavy duvet seemed to be an effective tool at making it seem like the world didn't exist. At the moment I wished I didn't exist, that I could just disappear out of existance.

The time was no longer of use to me, therefore I had no clue what time it was, whether I had missed dinner or not, or when my firends would be back in the dorm. Hushed voices at the door told me they were back.
"I'm going to try and talk to him." One whispered.
"Sirius, don't be an idiot...ugh, fine, you talk to him, but if he comes down to the Common room in a worse state than he is now Lily is going to have your eyeballs for earrings."
"Charming." Sirius groaned anda dull thud brought me to peep out from the covers.

I gasped as Sirius's head popped up over the curtain rail, joined by two crossed arms, "Remmie, what are you doing in there?" He asked, trying to get around me by using that annoying pet name he employed when we were dating. "More to the point, what are you standing on?" I snapped, having very little tolerance for this murderer at the moment. Murderer because at the moment life didn't seem worthwhile. And death wasn't a problem, it's hell I'm worried about. "You're trunk" he laughed. I sat up and scowled at him, as hard as I could through my red eyes.

"Oh Rems, I'm so sorry, come out please. I didn't mean to, please. I don't want it to be like this between us. Why can't it be like it was?" As much as I wanted to curl up and start crying at that, I wouldn't let myself look any weaker than I did right now.

"Because, Sirius, you can't break my heart and expect me back at the snap of your fingers. It doesn't work like that. And Sirius..." I was about to commit the darkest form of blasphemy, just to get him to go away. "I don't love you anymore. Sirius, I don't ever want you in my life that way again." I said solemnly, staring dead into his eyes, trying to convince him that I was serious.

"Ok, I understand. Can you come down though? Everyone's worried." He muttered. I think I'd killed something in him. I hadn't wanted to have that much of an effect, didn't he believe in all of those years of professing my love for him in every way imagineable. How could he give up on that in one sentence.

If he truly believed that, I didn't love him how would I survive?

Ooh, was that a twist you had seen coming...I hope not, not even I had seen it coming. So...review, tell me what you think!