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Chapter 37
"Edward, I think I'm gonna puke," whispered Bella.
I looked over at her, sitting huddled in the passenger seat of my car. She was shaking slightly, her face was pale, and she looked fucking scared out of her mind. Calmly I threaded our hands together, her pulse was strong and she didn't feel warm. It was nerves, pure and simple.
I pulled her closer to the middle and held her face. I ran my thumbs over her cheeks and I touched our foreheads together. I breathed on her, knowing that my scent could calm her down. Alice warned me she would feel like this. It was the one thing she did see when it came to this.
"You'll be fine. I told you, I'll do most of the talking." She gave me a shaky nod and then closed her eyes.
We finally decided to tell Charlie about our engagement. Alice was unsure of his reaction and she couldn't get a clear vision of it. We theorized that he was in such denial that it would or could happen that he has blocked all thoughts about it out of his mind.
In all the time that I had spent around him, if his mind even began to wander towards thinking about Bella married he would shut down and forced himself to think of something else. I had a feeling when it came right down to it, Charlie would be more anxious about everything than Bella.
It was only ten days until graduation and then another week or so before we executed the plan. I was worried that the closer it came to graduation and the all things that were happening after, that Bella would grow sad or anxious. In fact, she did the opposite. She was happy, carefree, even excited. When I asked her about it, she said she was ready. She had said her goodbyes, to both her parents in the best way possible.
She wanted to live her life, she was ready. She stated she felt that she was born to love me and in return, she was born to be a vampire. She wanted to be fully part of the Cullen Family. It was because she felt that way that the decision was made to tell Charlie. That was why we were parked a few blocks from her house so she could compose herself. This was why she felt like she would vomit.
"You can do this, Bella. We can do this together, remember?" She gave me another shaky nod. I had a feeling that was all I was going to get out of her, so I drove the remaining few blocks and parked outside.
We had timed our arrival to be before Charlie got home from work. Bella wanted to make him dinner and hoped by doing so, it would calm her down and help take her mind off what we were about to do. I held out the fake engagement ring, the real one still hung on the silver necklace around her neck.
Once it was in place on her hand we hurried on inside and Bella immediately began to work on dinner. She was pulling several ingredients out and I knew it was a recipe that would keep her busy. I watched from the doorway, making sure to stay out of her way. She was a blur of activity, browning meat, shredding cheese, sautéing chilies and onions. I wanted to ask if she needed any help, but I knew she needed to stay busy.
I put the TV on SportsCenter, knowing that it would absorb some of Charlie's attention. I began to read the paper when I got a text from Alice.
Charlie's coming home soon. Warn Bella.-A
Ok, thanks for the heads up.-E
"Bella, Alice says your dad will be home early."
"What?" came her freaked out reply. Her face peered from around the corner, anxiety and a smidge of fear written in her eyes.
I shrugged my shoulders. "That was all that Alice told me. It's going to be alright, I promise you."
She nodded and went back to making dinner. Minutes later I heard the cruiser down the block. I honed in on Charlie, he was calm, happy to be going home early and he was looking forward to the Mariner game that was on TV. I prayed that his good mood would last as I heard him walk up the sidewalk.
"Hello, Edward," he muttered, "Where's Bella?"
I nodded towards the kitchen, "Making dinner." He lifted his nose in that direction.
"Smells good." He took off his jacket, hung it up along with his gun belt.
Just then Bella came around the corner, "Hey, Dad. I just put the enchiladas in the oven; they will be ready in a bit."
Even from where I was sitting, I could see she was nervous as fuck. I motioned for her to come and sit by me. As soon as she was seated, I reached for her hand, rubbing what I hoped were soothing circles into her skin. The three of us sat there watching or at least pretending to watch SportsCenter. The more time that passed the more agitated Bella became. I needed to get this show on the road before she exploded with nerves.
I was trying to find the perfect way to begin when Charlie gave me the perfect opening.
"Are you staying for dinner, Edward?" I didn't want to force down more food, but I knew that Bella needed me to be there.
"Yes, if that is okay with you?" He grunted his acceptance. I squeezed Bella's hand to let her know I was going to tell him. "Charlie, I was wondering if Bella and I could talk to you."
I watched the color leech from his face and all thoughts immediately shut down. He didn't move his head in our direction, but I saw him glance at us from the corner of his eyes. I took that as a sign to keep talking.
"You know that we will both being heading to California later this summer. I will be off to Stanford while Alice and Bella move in together." I watched him and again, I got no response from him. Bella however was shaking like a leaf. I rubbed her knee to let her know it was going to be just fine.
"I love Bella, sir and well, I asked her to marry me and she said yes. We would like your blessing."
The words hung there, in the air, I swear that I could see them floating. Bella tensed up waiting for Charlie to explode. I watched and listened to Charlie, worried that he had stopped breathing. Before I could worry about needing to perform CPR, he jumped up from his chair.
"You've had sex!" he shouted. His hand flew over his mouth as if he couldn't believe he said that.
Fuck! Fuck, fuck. Why did I just say that?
I had to bite my lip to keep from laughing at Charlie's ramblings.
"No, don't answer that. I don't want to know." One hand threaded through his hair while the other patted his hip as he looked away.
Where's my fucking gun when I need it? I'll shoot him, lock Bella in her room, bury the body, and then run away with Bella.
The corners of my mouth twitched at Charlie's nonsensical thoughts. Looking over at Bella, I see that she is watching him with rapt fascination. She looked at me and mouthed 'Is he looking for his gun?' I nodded yes and she paled even more. I shook my head and gave her a smile.
"Why? Why? Ummm…why?" stuttered Charlie. His eyes were all over the place, still trying to look for a quick getaway.
I kept my face passive, "I just want to do the right thing. We are going to be close next year and we love each other. It feels right."
You want to take my baby girl away from me.
I had to fight the grimace that wanted to come out. That may be true, but I promise, I'll take care of her.
He turned towards Bella, "You going to let him do all the talking? Do you want to marry him? Is he forcing you? Is he…"
"Char- umm Dad, no! I love him and I want to marry him."
"It's not like you have to get married? There isn't any reason is there?" He flicked his eyes to her stomach and back to her a few times before Bella understood. She paled when she did.
"NO!" she screamed out. The look on her face was priceless and I struggled not to laugh. She shook her head so much that she looked like a bobble head doll and it made me want to laugh even more.
Charlie looked like he was going to puke. His mind was churning so fast, the thoughts were whipping in and out of his head so fast I couldn't keep up. They were half formed, irrational and downright bizarre. He turned his back to us and I chanced a glance at Bella. Her lower lip was quivering, trying to fight the tears that had pooled in her eyes. I rubbed her back, trying to help her calm down.
Suddenly Charlie whipped around; the look in his eyes was slightly manic and crazed. The urge to fling myself in front of Bella was strong, but I held back. Charlie wouldn't hurt her, he couldn't. I on another hand was an altogether different matter.
"Your mother will never approve." With that and before we could object, he dashed for the phone and dialed Renee's number.
Bella realized what he was doing and what would happen, tried to get his attention, "Dad? Dad!"
He turned his back to us once again. We both heard as he asked for Renee. Bella whipped her head towards me, "What's being said?"
I leaned down and whispered their conversation.
Renee, do you know what our daughter is doing right now? The anger was evident in Charlie's voice.
No, is she okay?
NO! She wants to marry that…that…that BOY!
Oh, I know! Isn't it lovely? They called to tell me yesterday!
Even through the phone I could hear how excited Renee was about us getting married. She sounded the same when we spoke to her the night before.
By now Charlie was stock still and barely breathing. I could hear the anger, sadness and betrayal in his thoughts, but surprisingly they were directed towards Renee and not Bella or even me.
You think this is a good idea? They're so young.
But Bella has never acted like a young person Charlie. They are in love. Who are we to stand in the way of that?
The silence not only on the phone but in the house was thick.
Fine!
Charlie slammed the receiver of the phone down and slowly faced us. There was so much emotion in his eyes and in his thoughts; there was no way I could make sense of it all. But Bella did. She ran up to him and hugged him. They stood there, silently holding each other and I stored the image away to tell Bella about it after her change.
"Just promise me that there is no big affair being planned anytime soon."
"No, Charlie. We will be waiting to have the big ceremony. We have time for that."
I saw Bella wince as I bended the truth. She knew like I did, it was the truth, she also knew he wouldn't be around to see the one being planned.
"Ok, fine…you have my blessing."
"Thanks, Dad. He will take care of me." She said that so softly I didn't know he heard until I heard his reply in his head.
That's my job, kiddo.
The days and weeks leading up to graduation were hectic. Bella and I were busy with our final project, there was all the arranging for Renee and Phil to come to town and our trip a few weeks after graduation to plan for. Alice was trying to talk Bella into a party, but Bella held firm and refused. Alice left grumbling that the wedding would be so lavish and ostentatious that Bella would be blown away.
I stayed far away from that discussion, much to both Alice's and Bella's dismay. But I knew that there was no way I would win with either of them. So I made myself scarce when they wanted to drag me into it. Emmett thought it was funny until Rose dragged him into it. If you have never seen a huge vampire cower…ohh man, you are missing out!
The day before graduation, the two families got together for a buffet style dinner. Renee, Esme and Alice talked of the move to California and the wedding. Alice was beyond ecstatic in having someone happy to talk to about it.
The ceremony was boring but mercifully short. Angela gave one of the better valedictorian speeches I had ever heard. There were the usual pictures of all us graduates and families. We then went to the Lodge for dinner. Now that was a sight to see.
See, Emmett had lost a hunting bet to Jasper and had to eat his entire meal, no hiding anything. Rose refused to sit next to him because of this and instead stuck Charlie next to him. This of course just gave Emmett fodder to make a fool out of himself.
He ordered a rare steak which even to us was the most revolting thing to smell. Let alone even eat. I barely managed to choke down the few bites of the fettuccine alfredo I ordered. All the vampires at the table watched in horror as Emmett chewed and swallowed bite after bite of his meal. Even Charlie was watching in something akin to fascination and revulsion.
Well it was most likely the latter due to the fact that Emmett forgot that he needed to chew with his mouth closed. He talked and chewed and talked some more. Food was flying from his mouth and he was so oblivious to it all. Rose was getting pissed by the minute and Jasper was egging Emmett on. He was throwing bursts of courage and bolstering Emmett's enthusiasm for sharing the stories he was telling.
By the end of the meal, it turned out Emmett was the only one who had finished his entire meal. The rest of us had forgotten to eat as we were enthralled by the freak one man show that was Emmett. In a daze we eventually made it into the parking lot. While there, Renee exchanged numbers with Alice and Esme asking to be kept up to date on all the wedding plans.
Bella had another tearful goodbye with her mom and Phil the next day as they left to return to Florida. She made Bella promise to call when we went to California. She wanted pictures of where she would be living with Alice. She promised and Renee left with a smile on her face.
Charlie was quiet and stoic throughout it all. It was funny when he would try and change the subject when the wedding was brought up. After failing the first few attempts, he gave up and ended up just leaving the area or not talking at all.
I told Bella it wasn't that he was opposed to us marrying. But more of what I suspected was that he was having a hard time letting her go. This of course made her feel bad and she started to cry. When I told her that he was proud of her, loved her and only wanted her to be happy, she felt better. But it was a few days later when I think Bella finally felt at ease leaving Charlie.
We were lying in bed, just holding each other when Charlie's thoughts struck me. He was looking at a picture of him with Bella. She looked young, so I assumed it was just before Renee took off with her. He was playing through all his memories of Bella, the younger one he remembered. But at the end he sighed, even from here I could hear the resignation in it. It was the last thought he had that I shared with Bella.
I only want her happy. If he makes her happy, then I am happy. He better take care of my baby.
The smile on her face was more than I could ever ask for. I watched as the guilt, concern and worry melted away. She snuggled close to me and kissed slowly up my chest. When her warm lips reached my ears she sighed, "Eternally yours."
Exactly twelve days after graduation we were packing our last minute items and preparing to say goodbye to Forks for good. Bella took only those things she really wanted to have and things that Charlie or Renee wouldn't notice were missing. She even packed a few boxes to make it look like she was preparing for the move. She wanted to do her whole room, but Alice said it would be too suspicious.
When my parents picked up Bella in the early morning to catch our flight, Esme walked in to talk to Charlie. She personally wanted to assure Charlie that she would take good care of Bella. We all knew what she was doing and no one could blame her for it.
We stayed in a resort that was on the outskirts of San Francisco and close to the forest. In the early evening, we paid a visit to the condo that we secured to stand in for the girls place. Alice and Esme fell in love with it right away. I watched Bella as she roamed from room to room; I followed her, trying to read the emotions that were there.
Unable to take it any longer, I came up behind her, wrapping my arms around her, "Penny for your thoughts." I murmured in her ear.
"I could so see me writing here. I really want to write." I could hear the wistfulness in her voice. We had talked about this many times. Each time I encouraged her to give it a shot.
"Okay, then write. Nothing is holding you back." She snuggled close as she nodded her head.
On the morning of the fourth day, Alice called our hotel room with a simple message, "It's time."
We both looked outside after I hung up and saw the heavily grayed sky. Rain was in the forecast. In silence we gathered up our clothes, careful to leave enough to make it look like we were going to return. I watched as Bella hugged her journal and then placed it on the desk. I knew what it was and who it was meant for.
She blindly held out her hand to me and we met Jasper and Alice by the elevators. They watched us as we walked somberly towards them. Alice hugged Bella close and Jasper gave me a knowing look.
She's sad Edward, but she's looking forward to marrying you.
I nodded to him and joined in the little love fest with Alice. Jasper, feeling left out decided to make us all giggle. He kept it up until we got to the lobby at which time we busted out, all holding our stomachs and Bella with tears running down her face.
We gasped and pleaded for Jasper to end it, which he did with one last burst of funny. Alice jumped on his back in retaliation and Bella begged me to hit him for her. Of course I did her bidding which started a small wrestling match that we got in trouble by the hotel for. We ran out, caught our cab to the airport and a flight to Vegas.
Alice timed our arrival to coincide with sunset. We checked into the Mandarin where I whisked her up to our suite. I knew she would love it and I was right when her eyes went wide and she gasped. It was a sight to behold. The pictures on the internet didn't do it justice. There were huge windows on two sides and they were almost floor to ceiling. The entire room was done in warm earth tones of tans, browns, yellows and some grays. A huge king size bed dominated the interior wall.
I sat our bags by the bed and walked with her into the huge bathroom. There were found a huge whirlpool Jacuzzi and a separate stand in shower. It reminded me of our cottage bathroom.
"It's like the cottage," whispered Bella. It never ceased to amaze me how in sync we were.
A few minutes later Alice knocked on our door. She had changed her outfit and was bouncing up and down. I knew what she wanted to do and I had to admit, I was anxious as well. We so rarely got to play like this and have it not raise too much suspicion. Even Jasper couldn't wait to play as he was smiling widely behind Alice.
Bella looked between the three us and noted the huge grins we all sported. "What am I missing?"
"Gambling!" we chimed in together.
She looked confused, so Alice explained how we rarely got to gamble and with our enhanced abilities we didn't indulge it much. But Alice had seen that a few hours of playing wouldn't hurt anyone. Bella said she was game if we were and headed out with us as we hit the casino next door.
When we got there, Jasper hit the high stakes Texas Hold 'Em tables, Alice darted off to the craps table and I headed off with Bella in tow for the blackjack tables. I had Bella stand by me as I joined in. I knew that I couldn't win every hand so I made a show of losing big, like three thousand dollars big. I could feel Bella's anxiety and I rubbed the hand she placed on my shoulder.
Slowly I started winning, just a hand or two, and then I started to win the bigger ones. I threw in a few smaller pot loses just to keep people from thinking that I was counting cards. I took a break and then had Bella play a few hands. I let her go on her own luck as I knew that would mean more to her. She didn't do too badly, in the end she made five hundred. Nothing compared to the fifteen thousand I won, but she was thrilled.
By the end of the night, Alice had cleaned the craps table of twenty-five thousand and Jasper had won the most by netting close to fifty thousand. His unique gift allowed him to hone in on peoples tells and the way they bluff from their emotions. Once he gets a good read on them, he just plays along.
We went to the gift shop of our hotel to spend our money. Bella picked out a pair of pearl drop earrings with a simple matching necklace. Alice squealed when she saw it.
"It will be perfect with your wedding dress!"
Bella blushed and nodded, "Wish it was now." She played her part well.
Jasper sauntered over to us, "Well, why not now? We are in Vegas after all." He gave a conspiratorial wink before Alice did another supersonic squeal.
"Yes! Now." She looked over at Bella, who looked at me.
"Please, Edward. I don't wanna wait. Can we do it now?"
I pretended to mull it over, all the while the store clerk was listening in. "Bella, I promised your dad we would wait. I hate breaking my promise."
This was Bella's idea. She didn't want Charlie upset with me, thinking it was my idea to run to Vegas. The store clerk would be a witness to my hesitation. We shared a silent showdown, before I finally acquiesced to her request.
"Fine, but you're telling your Dad."
Alice and Bella clapped and hugged in delight while Jasper offered me a silent handshake.
We took a cab to the place that I had made all the arrangements. Alice pulled out a duffel bag that she announced had Bella's wedding dress along with ties for me and Jasper. When we made it to the chapel, Alice and Bella made a bee line for the dressing room. Jasper put on his tie while I checked us in.
The concierge at the hotel had given me a detailed account of the preparations that he made according to my directions. This chapel was the only one that specialized in what I wanted. I hastily did the tie and waited anxiously for them to come out of the room.
I heard Jasper chuckle and I cracked a smile before raising my brows at him, "What?"
He smiled at me, "I'm happy for you, Edward. You deserve this after all this time."
Next to Alice, only Jasper really understood how lonely I was for all those years. He could feel it and he did his best to shield the rest of the family from it. I owed him for all of that and more. He truly has been like an older brother to me since he joined our family. His wisdom and guidance meant just as much as Carlisle's does. It seemed only fitting that he was here tonight.
A door opened and I spun around to see Alice had changed as well into a simple pale lilac dress. She looked pretty but nothing like the beauty that followed behind her. Bella was wearing a cream baby doll dress. The bodice and sleeves were covered in lace. The rest of the dress was satin with a few layers of tulle overlay. It was simple, demure and all Bella. She had on a pair of simple silver ballet flats, she was wearing her pearl drop jewelry and her hair was a mess of curls atop her head with sprigs of baby's breath.
"You are stunning, Bella."
She blushed and looked down.
"Ready?"
"Yes," she whispered.
I stared at her, to make sure she wanted to go through with this, it was ever too late to change her mind. But what I saw stunned me. Her eyes were bright; there was no hesitation, no fear or regret. There was only love, deep and abiding love. She wanted this, she wanted me.
"Together," she whispered as she reached for my hand.
"Together," I vowed.
BPOV
He placed a soft kiss against my temple and then took off with Jasper to wait for me in the chapel. He refused to tell me what he picked for the actual ceremony. Even Alice was mum on the details. Alice faced me as the chapel attendant handed me small bouquet of wildflowers. My hands shook as I grasped them in both my hands.
"Ready to become my sister?" teased Alice.
It eased some of my nervousness, so much I quipped back, "Almost as much as I looking forward to being one of the Mrs. Cullen's."
She laughed and when the attendant asked if we were ready, I was able to nod without any hesitation. I was ready for this, I wanted this. I wanted Edward. Every step in my life was to bring me to him. We were soul mates and I wanted nothing more than to take this last step to bind him to me.
From inside the chapel I heard the familiar strains of music begin to play and before I could recognize the tune, the chapel doors were flung open and all thinking stopped. I could feel my mouth pop open wide as I took in the sight before me.
There had to have been hundreds of vases and bouquets of wildflowers strew all over the room. Some were so huge that they towered over me, while others decorated every flat surface. The entire chapel looked as if it was lit with natural outdoor light. There was even a small bubbling fountain in the corner. At the end of the aisle there was a massive archway where soft gauzy fabric and more wildflowers were weaved in the slats of the archway.
Edward had tried to recreate the meadow for our wedding. It was amazing and absolutely breathtaking. I don't remember watching Alice walk down or even when I started down myself. But somehow I found myself standing face to face with Edward. I knew I had only seen him minutes before and I knew nothing was different about him. But he looked different. He was smiling; his eyes had a light I had never seen before. It took my breath away.
I vaguely heard the minister as he spoke. I just couldn't help but stare at Edward. I wanted to cry, laugh and scream in delight, I was so fucking happy. He was who I needed in my life. He completed me like nothing else ever would.
"Would you like to say your vows now?" I was lucky he was speaking to Edward because I was nowhere ready to speak. I made myself focus on Edward and his words instead the lips that were moving.
"Isabella, there are no words to describe what you mean to me. The joy and the happiness you brought into my life are immeasurable. But what I can do is promise to love you, care for you, and protect you for as long as I shall live. You are my best friend, my mate, my lover and now you will be my wife. I love you."
I couldn't help the tears that fell, there were too many of them to hold back. Edward gently wiped them away while Alice pushed a hankie and a piece of paper into my hand. I dabbed at my eyes as I looked down at what I wrote just a few days ago.
"Edward, it seems as if I have always loved you, even before I met you. You make me feel beautiful, cherished, desired and loved. I know the struggles that you have faced alone and I vow before you today that you will never be alone, for as long as we both shall live. You are my soul mate, my confidant, my best friend. I am yours, eternally."
I could no longer hold back the tears. My hands were shaking and my eyes were blurry as I watched Edward slip on the simple platinum band with diamonds embedded in it. I slid on the matching band on his hand.
"By the power of the state of Nevada, I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss your bride."
I watched in slow motion as Edward bent his head towards mine, his eyes closed, his tongue wetting his lips. Ever so softly he pressed his lips to mine. Shivers of delight rolled through me as that familiar electrical charge zinged all through my body. I licked his lips in silent invitation. He parted his lips and our tongues met in slow, sensual dance. His breath was mine and I was his.
I pulled away to gasp for air. It was when I also noticed that Alice was clapping, loudly and Jasper was busy clicking away. Edward tucked me close to him and we swayed. There were just no words to describe what I was feeling.
We walked back out to the reception area where the attendant had our paperwork. I watched as Alice and Jasper signed their names as our witnesses and then Edward as he wrote in his elegant script. When the pen was handed to me I saw there was a place for me to put my maiden name and then my married name.
With a flourish I signed it, Isabella Marie Cullen.
We were given our copies and told that the official license would be mailed to us in Washington. I made a decision to ask Alice to watch out for it and out of the corner of my eye, she nodded. As we waited for a cab to take us back to the hotel, I finally figured out where I had heard the song that was playing as the chapel doors opened.
"That was my song wasn't it?"
Edward's face broke out into a huge smile as he nodded yes. I shook my head, this man was extraordinary and he was all mine.
"I love you, Edward."
"I love you, Mrs. Cullen."
The cab ride back to the hotel was silent; I spent it snuggled up next to Edward with a smile that I was unable to contain. We did it. I was married to Edward, I was irrevocably his and he was mine. I refused to think about the next few days, I would only focus on the here and now.
When we finally made it up to the room, we looked at each other; no words could encompass all that we were feeling. But what there was between us was a hunger. It hung heavy and thick. It charged the air; it pulled us closer and closer together. Our foreheads touched, our breathing ragged, his hands stroked my sides. My hands played in the hair at the nape of his neck while my heart thumped loudly.
I licked my lips, trying to get them wet to speak. "I'm going to change and freshen up." I kissed his lips and ran into the bathroom.
I leaned against the closed door, my hand over my wildly pounding heart. I needed to calm down before my body exploded. It felt as if every nerve ending was electrified, I could feel a thrumming racing through me. I craved Edward, his touch, his smell, his kisses.
Hurriedly, I stripped out of the dress; I folded it and placed it on the large counter by the sinks. I brushed my teeth, washed my face and then brushed my hair till it hung glossy and straight down my back. I dug through the bag that Alice had packed and when I pulled out the nightie, I smiled. It looked exactly like the one I wore when he asked me to marry him, except this one was white. I put it on along with the matching robe.
I took a few calming breaths before I opened the door. Boy was I glad I did. Edward was standing by the windows overlooking the strip. The lights were casting colored glows all over the room and Edward. He had taken off his shoes and his feet were bare, gone was the tie he wore earlier and his dress shirt was unbuttoned and hanging open. The signs from the strip created a kaleidoscope of reflected colored light on his chest.
He faced me and I watched as his eyes traveled from my bare feet to my face. His nostrils flared when he saw the nightie and robe, his eyes darkened when he saw me looking at him. I knew that desire was mirrored in both our eyes; I could feel it in the air.
He swallowed hard and licked his lips, "Take the robe off."
His voice was rough, thick with desire, but there was no mistaking the command in it. A shiver raced down my spine as his words washed over me. Without hesitation, I untied the belt of the robe, shrugged it off my shoulders and let it fall to the floor.
I cocked my knee out so it would expose the slit in the nightie. Edward's eyes flashed, dark, dangerous and so fucking needy. I swear I whimpered at the sight of it. I looked to his groin and I could see that he was hard. I wanted that, I needed that. I licked my lips and flicked my eyes from his face to his groin.
I couldn't form the words, to tell him, to explain the ever consuming desire I had for him. So I kept my eyes on him, begging him silently, hoping he will see what I am asking for. He held out his hand.
"Come here."
Again with the commands and again I followed it with no further thought. The idea of him being in control set my entire body aflame. It wasn't from a blush, no, but the overwhelming arousal that I felt at the mere idea of Edward being in control.
When I reached him, he didn't pull me close and something in me kept me from reaching for him. He focused his heated gaze on me, probing, searching, for what I had no clue. I could feel my nipples harden; my arousal grew and coated the tops of my thighs. I wanted to fidget, his scrutiny was too much. But I was frozen where I stood.
In a flash of movement, I was flush against the windows looking out. My hands where out at my sides and slightly above my head, his palms forcing mine to stay flush against the glass. His nose skimmed from my temple, down my cheek, nuzzled my earlobe and then ghosted down my neck. His icy breath cooled and heated my skin simultaneously.
"Stay. Don't move," he ordered.
I closed my eyes in surrender. For now he was my commander and I was at his mercy. I felt his hands at my ankles, long fingers touching, rubbing. When he reached the hem of my gown he slowly drew it up, exposing my naked pussy to the air, then my belly where goose bumps erupted, over my puckered nipples that grazed the cooler glass and finally it was off, carelessly thrown away.
His hands started a downward path, over my cheeks, lightly scraping my neck, over the bumps of my spine while the other flicked and kneaded my breasts, then moved to rub circles over my stomach. Both hands worked in tandem, while one rubbed and massaged my ass the other trailed fingers in my drenched slit, careful to avoid my clit.
"Needy, Bella?" his lips were so close to my ear I could feel them move.
My only response was to moan. My breath momentarily fogging up the glass.
"Oh, baby girl, I like it when you're needy. Want me to help?" With that he rubbed my slit more forcibly; I could hear my wetness as it coated his fingers. Whimpers escaped as I struggled not to turn around and push him to the bed. I wanted more, harder and so much deeper. I flexed my hips in hopes he will give me what I wanted.
"I told you, DON'.MOVE!"
My forehead fell to the glass in frustration. Mewls and cries of need fell from my lips. I was so fucking hot and horny. I was about to beg and plead for more when I felt his breath at my pussy. His hands pushed my thighs apart, giving him better access to my dripping center.
I opened my eyes in time to see the reflection of him as it delved towards my pussy. His cool tongue lapped at the juices that had collected, then traveled up and down my slit, coating it in his venom. My eyes were mesmerized by the sight of his head working between my thighs. His hands were like vices on my legs.
I lost myself in the feel of his tongue; rough, demanding, probing, teasing, demanding, sucking. All while leaving my poor clit neglected and throbbing. Too many times he would come close only to back away. I wanted to pound on the glass in helpless frustration one second only to fall to the talent of his tongue the next.
There came appoint where I couldn't take it any more. My legs were shaking, I was on the verge of cumming and I was about to say fuck it and grab his hair and move him to where I wanted him to be. Through the haze of need and want, I heard his chuckle. He could feel my restrained fury, the desire and want that simmered just beneath the surface.
When I was about to unleash hell on him, I felt it. So soft at first that I wondered if I imagined it before I felt it again. It was a soft fluttering against my clit. It wasn't nearly hard enough to get me off and I wanted to grind myself on his tongue, take care of my orgasm myself.
But before I could break his commands, he laid the flat of his tongue against it, rasping it over and over. Harder and faster he went, his tongue had turned into a mini clit vibrator. He suckled and licked it. My eyes clenched shut and my head fell hard against the window. I concentrated on the magic that was Edward's tongue. I rushed towards the cliff, needing to fall, to tumble into oblivion. The tight pressure of his lips and the humming finally pushed me over.
I screamed in pleasure as waves and waves washed over me in relentlessly. I felt the gush of fluid and the sound of his lips and tongue slurping it all up. As I floated, suspended in that sweet place of bliss I felt the tip of his cock as it slammed into me.
Instantly I was overtaken by another orgasm so powerful that my whole body fell against the window. Edward wrapped his arms around me and then began to pound his cock deep inside me. My orgasm hadn't finished so I hung there, never really ending but never increasing. There was a constant fluttering of my pussy, a stream of fluid that coated his cock and the constant motion of Edward fucking me.
I panted, whined, groaned even begged him for more. My head thrashed from side to side, fighting the overwhelming feeling of him being so deep in me. Every ridge, every vein was being tattooed to the inside of my pussy. I could feel it all.
He was everywhere; in my pussy, in my ear whispering to me how much he wanted me, in my heart, his hands caressed every inch of my skin. My body was being tuned to him, I was his finely instrument that only he could play.
Without shame I begged him; more, harder, deeper.
I screamed my love for him over and over.
I screamed that I was his, only his. His voice joined in, chanting that I was his. He was claiming me all over again, this time as his wife. Those bonds that bound us as we claimed, then as we mated grew stronger, thicker, they multiplied.
Over and over he pounded his cock into me. His pace was maddening, relentless. He reached so deep in me I swear he touched my cervix. Even though I was leaning against the cool glass and Edward's icy body was behind me, I was hot. Sweat beaded on my brow, I could feel it gathering between my breasts.
I couldn't move, locked so tight into his embrace. I was completely at his mercy, only able to do what he willed, what he compelled me to do and I thrived in it. I wanted more, tighter, harder, and faster. I tried to tell him, but all I could manage were whimpers and cries. Finally, I just let myself feel secure in his arms.
He pulled me up, away from the window and with a mighty growl, I felt him let go and it triggered me as well. One more strangled cry ripped from me as I shattered. I felt Edward as he emptied into me, one cool spurt after another, it seemed endless.
When my body rearranged itself back together, I slumped in his arms. My entire body felt like jello, I couldn't feel my legs anymore and I struggled to breath. I was shaking and crying, not able to contain how I fucking felt. It was too much. I clutched onto Edward, there was no way I would let him leave.
We fell onto the bed, a pile of legs and arms intertwined. His hands ran down my body, helping to calm me down, he matched our breathing to each other and I nuzzled myself close. In time, my breathing slowed and my heart stopped feeling as if it was busting through my chest.
I wanted to ask him, why, where did this all come from. But the more that I thought about it, the more I didn't care. It was what he needed and I had just vowed to give him whatever he needed. There was no need to ask questions, I was just happy to give him what he needed.
With my last thought, I whispered, "I love you, Edward."
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