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Edward POV
"How are you holding up ole boy?" Jasper asked me. I tried to distract myself with work, and business telephone calls, but I couldn't erase Bella's image from my mind. Unknowingly, I had isolated myself from Jasper. I had avoided Alice's eccentrics as well. I had no idea what else I could do at the moment.
"I'm doing the best I can." I shrugged. I looked at the notes I wrote from the last call. The investors had regained their trust in the business and me. Our sales had started to increase even though the economy was in such financial depression. It gave me a reason to smile. But unfortunately, I couldn't. My Bella, was no longer by my side. We'd be separated for an uncertain amount of time.
I wouldn't be able to hear her soft voice as she spoke. I wouldn't be able to hear her sing or laugh. I wouldn't hear her heart beat as she cradled my head lovingly against her modest chest.
I wouldn't be able to watch her eyes light up as I taught her something new. Or watch her bite her bottom lip when she was unsure of something. I wouldn't be able to watch her do absolutely nothing, and enjoy it for all of the days she's worked in her young life.
I wouldn't feel her fingers hold my hand or touch my face gently. I wouldn't be able to touch her brown skin with my pale fingertips. I wouldn't be able to kiss her…
"I won't pretend that I know what you're feeling." He started. Jasper turned his staggered steps into something more like a saunter. He used his cane, and hobbled towards me. He sat across from me. "I just want you to know that you are doing the right thing, Edward. Carlisle would be proud of the professional you've turned into. I'm sure Esme can rest easily knowing you're in charge. Not only do you control your family's financial future, you're also responsible for so many of the people that work for you. That's a great accomplishment."
He continued, "I know I'll never be anywhere near the capitalist my father is. But you Edward, you're doing great and you're a novice. Imagine what you'll accomplish after doing this for years. And you're setting a perfect foundation for a future with that saucer-eyed doll."
I looked up from my notes, placed the fountain pen down. Jasper nodded. Even in his casual clothing, he looked ready for the spotlight. Alice and him was a match made in fashion heaven. His hair, even though it was similar in texture to mine, appeared tame and controlled at all times.
"Thank you for the thoughtful words. Sometimes I get so absorbed into this, I need a moment to assess the bigger picture" I said sincerely. "Control isn't what I want; neither is the power. The financial benefits are an advantage that most Americans don't have at all. But Jasper, I'd trade it all just for her. I'd happily give away everything and runaway with her to some distant countryside if I could…" I envisioned myself outside in the grass watching Bella show our child how to pick flowers in a wild field.
"Don't you see that you don't have to trade any of it? You can have it all. There's still that chateaux Bedford. You can always take her there. But after business is handled here. Whoever is to blame for this," he pointed to area where he was shot, "and every other misery that has taken place. They have to be taken care of; if not, it will turn into an even greater problem. Like that mess over in Europe…"
"Well that's the honest truth. On the square" I said with a smile.
"On the square? Seems like Bella is rubbing off on you" he smirked.
"We're, rubbing off on each other I'd say."
"Sounds like you two have been doing a lot more than rubbing!" Jasper said as he laughed out loud.
"Well," I could feel my face turn scarlet by itself "we definitely have been doing more."
"You're lucky Alice is a heavy sleeper! These walls aren't as thick as you'd like to believe" He nudged me with the handle of his cane on my shoulder.
"Oh no. I-I-I thought we were quiet. My, my sincerest apologies" I was embarrassed. I thought I took the most careful measures to ensure we were silent. I ran my hands through my hair nervously. I wondered exactly what had he heard.
"Nonsense. I know you love her, and last night was sort of the 'last' night. I completely understand. It reminded me of my younger more irresponsible days in Houston. I'd leave the homestead and meet with the other sports my age. We'd be rabblerousing, sharing hotel rooms and that sort of thing. The kind of thing you'd expect from someone like Emmett" he said calmly. "Edward, I'd never judge you that. You know how I feel on the matter. Didn't I give you that love sock?"
"That's true." I said I started to feel less distressed.
"You should never be ashamed of expressing the love you have for her. No matter how passionate it is." he smiled.
"You have a extraordinary way of making me feel so calmed, even in the most awkward of situations." I thanked him.
"Well, I consider you my friend. I don't want you to feel any other way"
"Friend? You consider me a friend, even though I've placed your life at risk?" I asked him.
"Certainly. I've always considered us friends. Even before all of this. That can't change Edward. Don't you consider me your friend?" Jasper raised one eyebrow.
"I would like to…I've never really had any to be honest. To be frank, these last few months since I've come back from college, have been the most interaction I've had with others who weren't family. Back on campus, I kept to myself mostly."
As we spoke one of Jasper's housemaids came over. It was the one who poured my tea when Bella left this morning.
"Would either of you like something to drink? Coffee perhaps?" She asked.
"Thanks Lauren, I'd like a coffee and what about you Edward? Tea?" Jasper asked.
"Yes thank you. And something to eat please." I added.
"You have you appetite back, that's great ole boy" Jasper smiled. Somehow I felt like that was apart of his coming to speak with me.
After I had eaten, I felt more relaxed. I decided to put my work aside for a moment. I back to my room and closed the door, locked it. Even though the room was cleaned, there were memories of Bella all everywhere. As if they were being projected like a picture show, I could see the moments that we shared. The memories that played the clearest were the memories from last night.
It had been weeks since I was able to dive deep inside of her. She had been suffering from symptoms of her pregnancy. Margaret advised me to give her time, and that I did. I waited patiently for any signs of change in her health. When the sickness started to subside, and she returned to my glowing fairy, I knew the time would be soon.
I had to control all my urgency, all the primal urges that had built up to that moment. So very carefully, in the dimly lit room, I mounted my beautiful dream. I asked her to dance and she agreed. I took care not to hurt her; I slowly tried to enter her. She was aroused already so she was wet; consequently because it had been so long, she was very taut.
I closed my eyes momentarily as I savored our first contact. But instantly my eye opened when she started to whimper. My erection was too substantial for this initial entrance. I was too eager; I didn't want to hurt her. That was the last thing I wanted to do. So I pulled out the tip.
"Pace yourself Edward," I thought to myself.
So I rubbed my length along her slick opening. Slowly I moved my hips back and for. The friction of my girth was being lubricated by her wetness. That simple action, just the contact of my sex along with hers, caused Bella to sigh sweetly. Again I tried to enter her, but this time I opened her legs a little wider. I stared down into her beautiful face "Does it hurt too much Isabella?"
"No" she whispered "Make love to me."
"I will," I whispered. I lowered my hips, pressed forward and up into her. I exhaled so I could keep my tempo. Every part of my being was now awakened and told me to race for immediate release. But I couldn't, I waited so long and I had been calm.
So smoothly back and forth I moved. But I wanted to plunge deeper. I placed her leg over my shoulder to grant me further access to her. She sighed again out loud and I covered her mouth with mines. I forced my tongue in her mouth to soothe her.
But something happened. I couldn't keep the slow pace. I felt that primal urge thrust me forward and faster. I moved faster into her wetness. Her eyes closed and she arched her back. The sweat that had formed on my chest pressed against her smoothness.
I got more solid, more heavy, my hips began to move at a frenzied pace. Her body, the sound that we made together, intoxicated me. The sound that our bodies made when we moved…it caused me to growl and grunt like the animal I become.
"I waited for this for so long," I growled as I buried my face in her neck. I began to suck and bite on her delicate skin. She called my name in her tender voice. My hands clasped her body as I melted deeper into her. Until I released suddenly…
I sat on the edge of the bed as that image danced around me and faded away. I was left alone now. And my body was fully aroused now. My erection throbbed anxiously against my leg. Knowing that the door was locked, and I would not be interrupted, I unbuttoned my pants. I slipped them down to my knees along with my underwear.
My penis bobbed up from my lap happily. I exhaled as the discomfort left and I held onto it. Slowly I moved my hand up and down the length as I continued to imagine my night with my beautiful nymph. I closed my eyes and I could see Bella on top of me.
I remembered when Bella straddled me. She crawled on top of me. Her dark skin looked lustrous in the light. And even though she moved her hair behind her shoulders, it fell in her face again as she carefully placed me inside of her.
"Ahhhh" she sighed loudly as I filled her the second time.
I glided my hands to her buttocks and guided her movements. She was going to sigh loudly again but she bit her bottom lip to hold it in. Then I moved my hands up the side of her chest and ran them over her breasts. I could feel the difference in their softness, they were the same size, but somehow fuller. They felt perfect under my fingers. I squeezed each nipple gently.
I breathed out through my mouth trying to control the intense pleasure I experienced. She looked so beautiful, she moved perfectly. I felt my penis begin to swell and become harder inside of her. She moaned softly, I knew she felt it too.
Bella placed her hands on my chest to steady her slow movements. She rocked her hips…undulated her body against mine. I gripped her body tighter against mine; I needed her closer. I needed to be deeper in her, to be rougher. I wrapped my hand around her long thick hair and pulled it back. I showered her neck, her breasts with my ravenous kisses and love bites…
As I remembered all of this, I continued to stroke my hand up and down. Over and over until the tension that built, was ready to break. I felt myself stiffen and silently climaxed. I leaned my head back as the hot liquid flowed over my hand.
"Isabella I need you." I exhaled. The release was what I needed but it was nothing compared to her. After I sat there a moment, cleaned myself up.
"Edward do you intend on staying in there all day?" Alice called from the hallway. I had forgotten how I avoided her today. I opened the door and she flew in.
"It's about time. I don't know what you're doing in here but I surely hope it isn't moping. Do you think Bella is back at the mansion moping? No sir, she's working and acting like normal which is what you should be doing," she said as she pointed at my chest. "Why are you so flushed? Don't tell me you've been drinking. It's too early."
"Alice, I'm not going to mope. I promise."
" You know I can't stay here forever. I may be today's woman, but I am a respectable one. Mother will be sad with none of her children home. I'm going back home. But I wanted to see you before I left. I wanted give you something."
"A present?" I smiled.
"Yes. I saw this and I thought of you instantly" she handed over a package. I opened it carefully and pulled out a leather bound journal. It was perfect.
"Thank you!" I said, "It's wonderful."
"Open it" she urged me.
I opened the leather strap and on the first page was something that Alice wrote in her best penmanship. I read out loud what she wrote.
"To the best older brother a gal could ever hope for. Promise not to read this one. Love Alice"
"I promise" she said then she hugged me tightly. "Write all your deepest darkest secrets in there. Every single despair and fear. Keep them in there and be brave"
"For all the headaches that you give you me, I know you have my best interests at heart. You're a great little sister." I returned her hug.
"So could I read the old one then?" she laughed.
"Of course not." I laughed.
"It was worth the try. Could you keep a close eye on Jasper for me? He isn't as stubborn as you, but he has his moments. Make sure he takes his prescriptions. I told his maids to keep a eye out too, but they aren't like ours so I don't know if they will actually."
"I will. You have to give mother my love, and our grandmother. Keep a eye one Bella for me, watch her health."
"I will. Hey? Her health? What's wrong with her health?" she said as she crossed her arms.
"Nothing, she's in the best of health. Just make sure she's well." I said and flipped through the journal. I looked at the blank pages and avoided Alice prying eyes.
"Edward Antoine Cullen, you're holding a secret from me aren't you?"
"Mary Alice Cullen I'm not."
"Mary! I hate that name! It's so matronly! I don't know why mother didn't name give me a French name like you and Emmett. It could have been 'Marie' instead of 'Mary'" she whined. "And you to are hiding something from me. I'll find out eventually though. I'm a better flatfoot then detective Biers"
"I'm happy you brought him up. Please don't share with him every detail of what happens to Jasper and myself. I don't need him interfering. Make sure he isn't alone with Bella, I don't trust his motives."
"Edward, are you jealous of him?" Alice said with a sly look on her face.
"Of course not. I just don't like the way he looks at her. I can tell what he's thinking when he's around her."
Alice smirked and kissed my cheek. Within the hour Alice left. She was on her way back to the mansion. Back to keep our mother company and to maybe keep a silent eye on Bella for me. It returned to just Jasper and I. Since he considered me his friend, I thought I would behave as a friend would and make myself more available to him.
"Jasper, what was the last good book you've read?" I asked him.
"It's been ages since I picked up a book, but I the last one I really remember was 'The Great Gatsby' have you read that one?" he smiled.
"No, I don't like contemporary fiction. I rather classic stories." I answered. "I'd like to hear about it though."
"Well, it's about this guy Jay Gatsby and he's obsessed with this girl Daisy. I mean beyond dizzy with her…"
Edward is definitely missing Bella. It's a good thing he has a friend in Jasper to talk to right? And Alice won't stop her snooping…but who would she be without that? What did everyone think? Tell me what you think in a review or private message! I know it was short, but I had to share Edward's thoughts with you (how else would we know about their night of passion?)
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