SPENCER'S P.O.V
"Hey honey"
Mum called this morning and made me agree to meet her at starbucks.
"Hey"
"How you been honey?"
"I umm"
I've been better.
"Glen told me about what happened the other day"
"Well Glen has a big mouth and he needs to shut up"
"Spencer don't be angry at your brother he didn't mean for this to happen"
"He brought a guy I hate to my loft even though he knew how I felt about him and then Aiden sold a story about me to a gossip website to hurt me"
Glen should have known better.
"He told them everything mum and i've never told Aiden any of that stuff"
"I know"
"I just don't know why Glen thought it would be a good idea to tell someone I can't stand, things I haven't even told some of my own friends"
"I guess he thought he could trust him"
"I walked out of my the loft the other day and got chased by a bunch of people with cameras"
"I'm so sorry honey is there anything I can do?"
"No I just want this whole thing to be over"
I knew this is why she was so determined to catch up.
"Have you spoken to Ashley?"
"No I really hurt mum and I just think it's best things go back to the way they were before"
"She really cares about you honey"
"I know"
"Glen showed me her press conference yesterday and she seemed really upset"
"She held a press conference?"
I can't believe Madison didn't tell me that.
"Yer she told them everything"
"Did she talk about me?"
"I think you should just watch it honey"
"I can't"'
I start picking at my coffee cup.
"Spencer you haven't been happy in a really long time"
"Mum can we please talk about something else?"
"Spencer if you shut Ashley out of your life you're going to regret it"
I know.
"I freaked out mum and I don't think I can handle being with someone as famous as her"
"She's Ashley honey and you've been in love with her since High School"
"I know"
"She can't change who she is and I really think you should just watch the press conference before you make up your mind"
Mum's spent years telling me Ashley isn't good enough for me and now she's trying to get us back together.
"I thought you didn't approve of Ashley?"
"She went out of her way to make things right with your dad and I and I think that just shows how much she's changed"
I hate that everything has to be so complicated.
"The Ashley you dated in High School would never have done that"
"Mum you make it sound like she used to be horrible"
"Honey she had no manners and she always used to say things that made me feel incredibly uncomfortable"
I start laughing.
"Okay mum how do I find this press conference?"
She's smiling.
"You're going to watch it?"
"Yer but it doesn't mean anything"
She pulls out her iPhone.
"You can watch it on my phone"
"This is why you called and asked to grab coffee isn't it?"
"I don't know what you're talking about honey"
"Sure"
She starts shuffling through her bag.
"Mum it's fine i'll just watch it when I go home"
"You promise"
"Yer I promise"
We weren't at starbucks very long, mum had something she needed to do, so I just left and started walking back to the loft.
I have a lot running through my head and I know everyone thinks i'm being ridiculous, but it's not easy having things you've kept private made public on a gossip website.
In only takes me a couple of minutes to get back to loft and when I step inside no one's home.
I hardly ever see Madison anymore and when I do she's with Johnny.
He's a great guy but right now things between Johnny and I are really awkward.
I saw him last night and I could tell he was annoyed.
He's Ashley's best friend and things between her and I didn't really end how I would have liked.
I walk over and take a seat at the kitchen table.
I'm nervous but I really want to see this video mum was talking about, so I reach out and grab my laptop.
When my computer loads up I click on the Internet and Google Ashley's name.
The first thing that pops up is a video of her press conference and when I click on it I anxiously sit back and wait for it to stream.
"Hi I'd like to thank you all for coming I'm Johnny Greene Ashley's manager"
I can tell she's uncomfortable and when she starts talking I feel horrible.
"I've had a problem with drugs my entire career and after an unsuccessful stint in rehab I felt I needed to get away from the life i've been living and focus on getting well. Three weeks ago I asked my good friend and manager Johnny Greene to release a statement to the media announcing that I had voluntarily checked myself into a rehabilitation facility. I felt that my best chance of recovering was to get out of my house in Beverley Hills and stay somewhere that didn't remind me of the unhealthy life i've been living these last six years. I personally felt that being stuck in a rehabilation centre wouldn't help my recovery, so I decided to move into a place that was unknown to the media. Yesterday the place i've been staying at was discovered by various members of the media and I have now moved back to my house in Beverly Hills. I'm incredibly proud of everything I've acheived in this industry and I would like to thank everyone that has supported me throughout my career. I would also like to thank all my fans that have bought my records and attended my live shows. I have been fortunate enough to work in an industry I love and have been able to make a living do something I have always dreamt about. In closing I would like to apologise to you the media for my dishonesty and I would like to thank you all for giving me this oppurtunity today"
I can feel the tears building up in my eyes.
She looks broken and i'm the reason she's like that.
"Have you read the article that was posted on celebstreet yesterday?"
"I have"
"Is it true?"
"You're going to need to be more specific"
"Have you been hiding out at a former girlfriends house these last few weeks?"
"I recently left my old management company and when I approached a new company for representation I ran into a girl I had been friends with back in High School. She was nice enough to let me stay at her loft and when I moved in I realised her roommate was a girl I had dated back in High School"
"The article also mentions a previous relationship with Rachel Jacobsen your producer who has worked with you for many years"
"Ray-J and I have never been in a relationship"
"The article says your relationship with the girl ended because you were unfaithful and they mentioned that the third girl involved was Rachel, is that not true?"
"No it's true but Ray-J and I are friends and nothing more"
"TMZ posted a video with Rachel on their website this morning have you seen it?"
"No"
"She says you're the most talented and most musically gifted artist she's ever worked with and she also comments on the celebstreet article. She had a go at the celebstreet website and seemed quite irritated that Spencer's name and other personal information was posted on the site, what are your thoughts on the article?"
She did?
"I'm obviously very disappointed that a website like celebstreet chose to run an article that touched on a number of personal things that I would have preferred to keep private. When you sign a record deal or appear in a movie you do so with the understanding that your life and career will be up for public discussion. But I find it incredibly frustrating that persons of interest or celebrites as we are often referred, have to sit back and watch people we care about be criticised and insulted by certain members of the media. I was an idiot and I let my career and my desperation to be successful get in the way of a relationship with someone I really care about. I got sucked into a lifestyle I wasn't ready for and it cost me the girl I love, a girl that deserves to be treated better than I have treated her in the past. Websites like celebstreet have a responsibilty to report information that is accurate and I find it hard to believe that someone I am not friends with and have not spoken to in several years is considered a reliable source"
I feel horrible none of this is happening because of her.
Aiden released this information because he wanted to get back at me and now she's the one who has to sit there and answer all these questions.