Title:Living Life

Summary:When Edward fell for Bella he knew his life would change forever, watch as he navigates this life with just love and a plan.

Rating:M because we all love our OCD lovin'

Pairing:It's always going to be an E/B story

Disclaimer:No, I still don't own these characters. Although I wish I did.

Chapter 37 – Bella
Dawn

Being pregnant was this weird happy purgatory thing that I couldn't exactly put my finger on if I was being quite honest. Especially while trying to run a new business.

Thankfully I had an amazing hubby to help me through the chaos of the last seven months who was only too willing to head out at 02:30 for chocolate ice cream and Xerox paper because his crazy wife got a business idea and a craving at the one time.

Being pregnant during the winter had been no picnic either. Edward spent the whole time terrified I was going to fall over or get in a car accident while I was constantly at extreme temperatures, plus I got the flu on top of my normal exhaustion from making the baby.

I looked down at my baby bump and smiled.

It was definitely worth it.

We would have our baby soon and I couldn't wait.

"You are a really cute pregnant Lady." Edward said pulling me out my thoughts. He was driving me to work. I hadn't felt comfortable driving lately plus I had this fear of hitting the bump off the steering wheel so Edward was my personal chauffeur until after Baby Cullen made her appearance.

"Are you serious?" I asked him.

"Yes. I think its cause you're so short you know? And your bump is just so neat and tidy." He said smirking at me.

"Only you could think I was cute because of something that was neat." I told him and he shrugged.

"So how are my favourites Ladies doing today?" he asked me with a smile.

Yes you read that right. We're having a baby girl.

We had wanted to keep it a surprise until the birth but at my last doctor's appointment we both caved and found out we were having a little girl. We were going to keep it a secret until she was born though from the rest of the family. Everybody was wondering when the first Cullen Granddaughter would be born so we wanted it to be a surprise. It would be easy to pull off; because everyone thought we had no idea.

"We're doing well" I said gently rubbing my stomach "Although this little lady has to learn not to jump on Mommy's bladder while in the car." I added.

"Almost there Love." He said and I nodded taking a deep breath. "Are you sure everything okay?"

"Yeah I'm just a little bit tense I think I just need to... okay ow." I said getting hit with a pain.

"Bella?" Edward asked pulling up to the curb and stopping the car.

"I'm okay; I think I'm having another round of Braxton Hicks." I told him. We had already been caught with them already, but that had been scary because it was way too early the last time. Technically I can give birth at any time now, so I was more relaxed.

"Are you sure you don't just want to go..." He began when I got another one. "I'm bringing you home." He said putting on his blinker to turn the car back.

"Edward, I have to go to work I have a meeting and..." I said when I realised I felt damp. "Oh" I squeaked realising what was happening.

"What?" he asked before glancing over at me. "Holy crap. Okay we need to go to the hospital." He said and I could only nod. I heard him unclip his seatbelt and lean over. "Everything is going to be fine Love." He said before cupping my face kissing me. "Are you ready to get our baby Mrs. Cullen?" he asked me.

"Let's go get this baby Hubward." I told him.

I could do this as long as I had him standing beside me holding my hand.

We drove to the hospital quickly. Edward being the smart man that he was had been keeping a bag stashed in every possible location so we didn't have to go home first should the time come while we were out somewhere. Seriously we had a bag in both the cars, one at the centre, on at his office in case he got a phone to say I had gone into labour while he was at work, there was one at his parents' house, Charlie's house, Angela's house... just everywhere. I was quickly checked in to the hospital due to our health insurance programme and got situated in my private birthing suite. I liked being in a private room. I really did not want to be in a room with a group of women while I was going through what was considered the most painful thing known to man... or woman.

"Now who do you want me to call?" Edward asked as he straightened my pillow but I shook my head.

"Not yet." I told him. "I don't want everyone arriving while I'm trying to give birth. Please can we wait until after she's born?" I asked him and he nodded.

I think he was somewhat relieved he wouldn't be expected to deal with people while trying to comfort me. As far as Edward had come he knew his limits. And I knew he was not going to like having to watch me go through any sort of pain either. I needed to keep this as minimal as possible otherwise it would not end well for anybody.

The nurse came in and took a blood sample and hooked me up to a heart monitor before my doctor came in to my room to give me a status update. She explained that we were right on track, that my cervix was dilating at the appropriate rate and that the baby was engage properly, so now it was just a waiting game. Alice and Rosalie had recommended Dr. Meyers when I told them I was pregnant and she had been great the whole way through my pregnancy. She answered every question Edward and I had and didn't get annoyed when we called her over every small little thing.

For our next kids we would definitely be going back to her. That was something Edward and I had decided on. We had also planned our next kids and when we wanted to have them. We wanted to wait two to three years in between each child, he thought it might be a bit too long but I thought it was best because we would get time to enjoy all of children this way and there would only be six years between our oldest and youngest. Unlike Alice who almost had eight years between her kids or Rosalie who had less than a year between her three.

I'm not going to lie, labour is really painful and hard, and energy zapping, but then they give you the drugs and it's just really uncomfortable and weird feeling. Like seriously it was crazy and suddenly you're vagina is like a tourist attraction, everyone comes to see it, and the saying is true that you leave your dignity at the door when you give birth. I was beginning to think I should charge admission in to my room to see my vagina but I was pretty sure that was just the drugs. I supposed though when you worked on a maternity ward this was just a daily occurrence. But to me it was a little daunting.

Plus it didn't help that Edward was in complete panic mode and would not sit still. Like seriously he would sit down, stand up, pace the room four times, come over and check on me, sit back in his place again and then repeat this all over again. He was making me dizzy if I was being honest.

"Baby, come here." I said grabbing his hand, I knew he was worried but he was driving me crazy. He pressed his forehead against mine. "Don't pass out on me okay?" I asked him and he nodded. "We can do this. You can do this okay?" I asked him and he chuckled "What?"

"You're comforting me? Now? When you're about to give birth?" He said and I shrugged.

"Habit I guess." I said with a shrug.

"I love you." He said kissing me.

"I love you too." I told him.

"Right Bella, are you ready to get this little girl?" Dr. Meyers asked me and I nodded.

"Bring it on." I said with as much energy as I could muster, I was finally going to get to meet my baby girl. Edward kissed me before they moved me onto a trolley wheeled me down to the delivery room. He tied a blue smock on to cover his clothes before taking my hand in his again. "Are you ready?" I asked him.

"Am I ready?" He asked nervously chuckling. "Bella for the first time in this relationship, don't worry about me." He said kissing me. I nodded as the nurse lifted my legs into stirrups. "This is 100% about you and our baby. I'll be here the entire time okay?" he asked and I nodded. "I love you and I can't wait to meet her."

"I love you too." I told him before kissing him again.

Most beautiful natural thing, my ass. Seriously you left your dignity at the door of the hospital when you gave birth.

"Alright Bella we are going to count you in and then you are going to push okay?" Dr. Meyer asked me and I nodded. Edward kissed the top of my head as I was instructed to give my first push. "Great work. Take a breather and we'll go again in a few seconds."

After an eternity of pushing I managed to get her head out, but seriously you could have told me she was entirely out and I would have believed you. I was exhausted, how the hell did women do this without drugs.

"Come on Bella, she's almost out." Dr. Meyer said and I gripped Edward's hands which had turned white I was pushing down on them so hard.

"Come on Baby you can do this." Edward murmured as I cried out as I pushed.

"God" I cried out throwing my head back.

"That's it Bella" Dr. Meyer said. "Right I'm just going to turn her. You're doing great."

"Go look." I told Edward and he shook his head. "No go look." I told him. He kissed my forehead before watching our daughter come into the world.

"That's it Bella." Dr. Meyer said.

"Bella I can see her. You're almost done Baby, come on." Edward encouraged me before grabbing my hand again. "Just one more push and she's here." He said.

I nodded and mustered up what I could of my depleted energy and pushed one last time, as hard as I could.

"And there you have it." Dr. Meyer said when a wailing entered the room. "Well done Mommy. Look at that little beauty." She said as she laid the baby down on my chest.

She was pink and purple, covered in goo and blood but she was the most beautiful baby I ever saw in my life. She wailed against my chest as the nurse rubbed the after birth off her back.

She was ours. A little bit of him and a little bit of me, made this beautiful little girl.

"Edward" I said and he nodded crouching down beside me looking at her. "She's beautiful."

"Perfect." He said kissing my forehead and then hers.

"Hello Baby Girl." I said. "Hi, we've been waiting for you." I murmured as she slowly stopped her wailing. "That's a good Baby." I cooed.

"Right Bella it's time for the after birth, Edward you can go with the baby or you can stay with Bella if you want?" Dr. Meyer asked him as the nurse lifted the baby off of me. Edward looked torn but I knew I could do this part by myself.

"Go with her." I told him and he nodded. "I'll be fine I promise." I told him and he nodded.

"You are amazing" He said as the nurse took the baby to go get cleaned. He kissed me before following the nurse out of the room.

"Okay once this is done I promise you can sleep" The doctor said.

"Oh thank God" I said with a sigh of relief I was so freaking exhausted it wasn't even funny.

Passing after birth was the weirdest sensation I have ever had in my life you know that, but thankfully it was over quickly.

The nurse brought me back upstairs and helped me clean off and changed, before helping me into the bed. Figuring it would be wise to sleep now I quickly drifted off, completely exhausted after such a physical exertion but it was worth it. My Baby was here, I was a Mommy. And Edward was a Daddy. Everything was perfect.

Once I was in bed I dozed off, dreaming of holding my baby again.

I slept this weird quasi sleep, my whole body ached so I knew I needed to get some sleep, but at the same time I wanted to see my baby. Just to see that she was real, it was so hard to grasp that she was a person who I could see and touch.

After what felt like five minutes I heard Edward mumbling somewhere close by. It was then I realised he was talking to the baby.

I opened my eyes and saw him sitting in an arm chair beside the bed rocking the baby in his arms where she gurgled.

He didn't realise I was awake and I was not about to interrupt whatever moment he was having with the baby so I stayed quiet.

"We've been waiting a long time for you" He whispered. "I think I have been much longer than Mommy but don't tell her that. You're so beautiful. Just like Mommy." He said kissing her forehead. "I'm not always going to be the best of Dad's Baby Girl, but I'll try. I promise. I still have bad days but I'm trying to get better and make sure they are few and far between. I love you so much." He told her. It was then I decided I would let him know I was awake.

"You know she loves you too?" I asked him and he looked up. "I could feel it when she was inside me. Every time she heard you, she was happy." I explained and he smiled. "I say she likes putting a face to the name." I told him and he nodded.

"Well she's asleep right now." He said standing up and walking over to the bed. "We made her." He whispered showing me our beautiful little girl.

"We are just that cool." I said with a smile. He placed her in my arms making me smile. "Have you called anyone yet?" I asked him.

"I sent this out while you were asleep." He explained showing me his phone. It was a picture of our beautiful baby girl wide awake in her crib having been cleaned by the nurse "I put this with it 'look who arrived this evening. Our beautiful, healthy baby girl arrived at eleven p.m. yesterday. No name yet but Mommy and Baby are doing well.'" He said and I nodded smiling at him.

"That's perfect." I told him. "She looks so cute in that photo. You know your mother probably has it printed out already." I added and he nodded.

"And you're Dad is sitting there wondering how to open picture messages." Edward said and I laughed, before looking down at the tiny sleeping baby in my arms. "We need to name her before her legion of visitors arrives." He said and I nodded.

Ever since we had found out we were having a girl we had been looking at different names but we hadn't decided on anything. But the other day I had been thinking of something and I wanted to see what he thought about it.

"I was thinking of something, the other day." I told him gently rocking the baby.

"Yeah?" he asked as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder so that I was closer to him.

"You're always talking about how our relationship was the beginning of your life, and I agree it changed mine too. But she's an even bigger new beginning." I said and he nodded with a smile. "So what do you think of the name Dawn?" I asked him.

"Dawn?" he asked me and I nodded. "Dawn Cullen... I really like that." He said with a smile.

"Dawn Lucy Cullen?" I asked him.

"It's perfect for her. Our perfect little Dawn." He said kissing me. I smiled against the kiss before looking down at my baby.

"She perfect for us." I told him and he nodded. "I can't believe she's here."

"Neither can I, it's kind of surreal."

As I held her I thought of everything that had happened in the past two years. To think just over two years ago I was agreeing to cat sit for the brother of a friend who I had met once in and passing, and now I was here holding his child as my own as his wife.

Time could really be baffling. It really could.

But looking at Dawn I knew that everything we had gone through was worth it. All the fights, the struggles with Edward's OCD. The family fallouts, the make ups and the almost break up, the craziness of setting up my business while trying to orchestrate the wedding of the century, it was so worth it.

Because everything I had ever done had led me to being the mother of this perfect little girl.

I thought about everything that I ever thought a mistake. And I had made so many, my relationship with Jacob, my time as an elementary teacher, me opposing my mother adopting David. But they made me who I was.

Mistakes were part of live and the only thing we could was live it.

From the day I met Edward I knew he was special. But I never expected he would impact my life this way. And I was so happy that he had.

I kissed Dawn on the forehead before smiling at Edward.

It was definitely tied. Falling in love with Edward and falling in love with Dawn are the best things I would ever do.

But I was the lucky one, because I got to live my life knowing that.

And really? Could anybody really ask for more?

I think not.

And that's the last chapter before the epilogue, I'll do the thank you's there because I can't over shine this little girl's birth, gah we've all been waiting for so long I feel like they are real people who I know having a baby.

If I keep typing I'll get emotional, so just tell me what you think of the name. I know it's not a traditional 'fanfic baby name' but I love it so much, I think it really fits with the story!

Review please.

Love The Irish Cullen.