Ch 37 You are so perfect already

A/n: Just checking in to make sure you are all still with me...so there's only one more update ready after this one...but...it's a doozy...I'm anxious to get it out to you... Enjoy this one!

I could feel her thinking, she was so deep in thought as she tightened her arms around me.

My heart swelled at the feel of her as she tried to get even closer to me.

And that damn morning log had to be poking her belly.

I hope she understands that I simply cannot control that damn thing. I don't know what to do about it anymore.

So, I've decided to just let it be. Blue balls or not, it's just the way it will be until 'it' can find it's way inside of her; I resolved to myself.

I feel her tense and then I feel wetness against my chest. Is she crying? Is she unhappy about something? Oh god, is my boner upsetting her?

"Bella, why are you crying my love?" My voice is hoarse and still full of sleep as I spoke to her.

She gasped.

"You're awake." She whispered.

"Just barely," I admitted. "But that doesn't explain your tears." I slowly opened my eyes to see her look up at me, eyes full of red, cheeks damp from moisture.

I run a thumb along her cheek, "Baby, talk to me, I'll listen to whatever is bothering you. We can work it out together." I move her up a little so that we are lying face to face again but I don't remove my arms from around her body.

She hesitated to speak and I could tell she searched her mind for the right words to express herself. Her brow formed that little 'v', which she has always done, even when we were younger.

"I don't think I'm enough for you. I'm so plain and you are so perfect. I'm scared that you'll see that I'm not as good or perfect or beautiful as you are...I'm scared you'll leave me and I'll be left alone again." Her voice was as wet as the tears she released down her face.

"Bella, love, you are so perfect already. You are not plain. You are more beautiful that I can express. And let's get one thing perfectly clear right now, I will never leave you and you will never be alone again." My words were forceful and confident, because I knew that I spoke the truth on all accounts.

"But, Edward," I placed my finger over her lips to stop her from speaking.

"No buts, Bella. I meant every word I just spoke. I know that you are 'the one' for me. You don't see how perfect and beautiful you are. You've had noone in your life for the past ten years to tell you. But, I am here, now and from this day forward, I will always remind you of just how precious you are to me, in everyway." I let my words hang there for just a second before I leaned over and kissed her, hard.

I couldn't help it but my body rolled over to cover hers. She had to feel it, she had to be shown, she had to know that I was hers, body, mind and soul. I know it was to soon but I had to do something to prove to her that I meant it. My actions had to prove my words. So I laid almost all of my weight over her, I pushed her knees apart as I laid her on her back and placed myself between them. I know she could feel my hard shaft against her panties, but I didn't care.

In that moment, it was all about reiterating to her that I was hers and she was mine.

She moaned against my mouth as I deepened the kiss. Her knees tightened around my hips, which caused me to press my raging wood in a thrust against her body as I groaned into her mouth.

We slowly moved against one another. We unknowingly allowed the moment to take over our bodies as we made the motions of a couple making love. Because, if I had been inside of her in that moment, I would definitely have been making sweet love to her.

I poured my soul into the actions I showed her with my body. I could feel her soul do the same.

I felt her love all over me. I knew that the depth of our love for one another was mutual, in the moment.

And, I was about to cum. I felt her tense up and I knew, she was too.

I went with it.

She hadn't stopped me. She hadn't told me no.

It was the right moment as Jasper had reminded me. I would just know.

I felt the tension rush through my body as I exploded in my boxers and pajama pants. Just as her back slowly arched and she broke from my lips, my name fell from her lips.

And I knew she felt it too.

We both struggled to breath. Fast pants fell from my mouth as she gasped for breath, too.

"I love you, Bella." I whispered through a breath.

Her eyes opened, finally.

She smiled, "I love you, too, Edward."

Best morning of my life.

Hands down.

Cum filled shorts and all.