Long Live Life
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In this next chapter, Damien end things with Sarah when he heard a false rumor from Owen Decker, who is infatuated with Sarah, that Sarah is using Damien since she never notices him until now. Let's see how they both dealt with this kind of pain.
Outtake 7 – Damien Grant & Sarah Black Part 3
Damien's POV
Can you ever believe the fact that it's been almost a week since Sarah and I became friends? You can understand why I can't but I'm happy. I know I get nervous being around Sarah but at the same time, I felt comfortable with her. I felt like I could trust her about everything, like she's there for me when I need her.
The one problem is me and Sarah being friends. Why? Well, ask the guys at school who have been trying to ask Sarah out since the first day and she turns them down numerous times. This results me having my ass beaten, if they could that is. You see whenever a guy who has a thing for Sarah tries to make me look bad, Lucien and the Cullens step in to defend me. Yes, even the guys of the Cullen family apart from Bryce and Jasper stepped in even though Evan still has those glares at me.
Also, it really pisses off Sarah for what the guys at school try to do to me. Every time a guy gives me a hard time, Sarah looked like she is ready to kill. Now I'm hearing things because I thought I heard Sarah growl. Plus her body was shaking like a cell phone vibrating. Normally I would be a bit freaked out about Sarah's reaction but somehow I feel relieved and okay with it. I don't know why but I just went with it.
Still, through it all, I have a bit of doubt to understand why Sarah suddenly wants to be my friend. Why is it exactly? Is she being genuine about it? Is there more to it? Should I know something about what this is? I don't know, this is a lot to get used to.
"Does that teacher even know he even has a class?" Sarah asked as she and I were walking out of history class together.
"I think the big question is whether he wanted to be a teacher." I said causing Sarah to laugh. Wait, was I making a joke?
"Well, I should get going to my class." Sarah said when we arrived at my locker. "I'll see you at lunch." She smiled.
"O-O-Okay. B-Bye." I said earning a wave from Sarah as she started walking away to her class I don't have her with.
"I still can't believe she's my friend now." I said to myself still watching where she disappeared around the corner.
"No one can." That's when something bounced off my head hard causing me to almost fall but I caught myself before that happened. I grunted while rubbing the back of my head and turned around to see who it was that did that. I sighed seeing a slender guy with sleek white-blonde hair wearing his varsity letter jacket and by his sides were two muscular guys.
"What do you want Owen?" I asked as Owen Decker tucked his basketball under his arm as his friends Greg and Donald just stood there and watched.
Like all the guys here at school, Owen is head over heels for Sarah. He's been giving me a hard time since we were kids. There wasn't much between me and him since we arrived at high school until now.
"What you just said earlier, no one can believe that you and Sarah are friends when she should be with someone that's in her league and clearly you aren't and she deserves to be with someone with better status, someone like me." Owen said as I resisted myself from rolling my eyes.
"I don't have time to deal with you, Owen." I said turning around and opened my locker to get what I needed for Biology. "I have class since education is the main thing in life. You should know considering that you need to keep your grades up if you want to stay on the team after almost getting cut off." I said hiding my smirk. That earned me another hit in the head from Owen when his basketball bounced off me causing me to stumble when my head hit my locker.
"Pathetic, Grant." Owen said. Greg and Donald laugh as they and Owen walked away from me.
Well it's not as bad as I thought it was gonna be. I thought as I grabbed my notebook for Biology.
"Can you believe that Damien is with Sarah?" I heard Owen say, talking to his friends. Well I wouldn't call that she's with me. We haven't gone out yet, if I had the guts to ask her out that is.
"Sarah, wanting to be that loser's friend?" Donald scoffed.
"Puh-lease." Greg said.
"Ignore them Damien," I muttered to myself. "They are just jealous and are trying to get in your head like before."
"What does Sarah see in him now?" Owen asked.
"That guy is a total outcast." Greg said.
"Yeah but that was before Luna came here." Donald said.
"I so would have had a chance with her if Lucien hadn't got in the way." Greg said.
"I believe she's right for Lucien but Damien and Sarah? Come on." Donald said.
"Yeah, she was never interested in Damien since the first day and now suddenly she is, like instantly." Owen said. "I'm willing to bet that she's just using him for some laughs."
That had my whole attention as I hitched a breath. My heart just went off a beat from what I'm hearing.
"That must be it." Greg said in agreement. "She's probably pretending to be Damien's friend so that he could help Sarah catch up on homework. You know how the Cullens miss most of the classes these days."
"Of course, it all makes sense. I mean a girl like Sarah who is hot possibly having a thing with a lonely loser like Damien is a one in a million chance. She wouldn't date him if he was the last guy on earth." Donald said.
"Just wait, I'm willing to bet that Sarah ends it with Damien by the end of this day." Owen said laughing with his friends and I heard their footsteps walking away to class.
Could that be it? Is this why Sarah is suddenly interested me now? She was using me? As I thought of it, everything clicks in and I felt like I was just dropped down from a hole underneath me when reality hits me from the truth.
"Hey Damien." I heard Luna greeted coming up to me.
"Hey Luna." I said as I shut my locker still facing it with my head down.
"Is everything okay?" Luna asked.
"No." I said still facing the locker in the same position.
"What's wrong?" Luna asked.
"They're right." I said.
"Who's right about what?" Luna asked in confusion.
"The guys here at this school," I said facing Luna feeling hurt. "They're right about me and Sarah."
"What are you talking about? Where are you even getting at this?" Luna asked like she doesn't understand what I'm talking about.
"You know Owen Decker?" I asked and Luna nodded. "Just now, before you showed up, he and his friends were walking by pass me and Owen said," I was struggling, like my voice might break.
"What did he say?" Luna asked.
"He said that Sarah… never likes me, that she's… using me… as a joke." I said looking down.
"What the hell gave them that idea?!" Luna asked. "Damien, Sarah isn't like that to you."
"But Luna, think about it," I said looking at her. "I've been in almost all of Sarah's class ever since the first day. Not once she notices me, talk to me or even looked at me and then suddenly she is interested in me after seven months? How could she suddenly be interested in me?" Luna was silent for a moment. It looks like she knows I'm right but doesn't want to admit it.
"Look Damien, you shouldn't listen to what Owen said. He's just being jealous of how close you and Sarah are. Listen, I know Sarah long enough that she would never use you as a joke. She really does like you." Luna said causing me to shake my head.
"How do I know she's not pretending to be my friend? How do I know what's happening between me and Sarah isn't fake? I just… I just…" I couldn't take it anymore and with that I tried to take off but I was stopped by Luna.
"Where are you going? Class is the other way." She said.
"I… gotta go to the bathroom. I'll be there later." I said soon taking off down the hall as the warning bell rang but I did not go to class, instead I locked myself in the bathroom and sat down in the stall burying my hands to my face.
It was totally obvious from the beginning. I can't believe I was a fool to believe this. It's all too good to be true. Sarah never really likes me. She never wanted to be my friend. I was just a pawn to her. Everything inside me hurts so much like my heart was torn off replacing it with a carrier holding something sending jabs of painful truths. It will get worse when she tells me off when I least expect it. I tried my best not to cry but I couldn't. I wasn't crying like a girl but I was crying like the loser I am. I can't go through this. I don't want to get hurt more than I already am from finding out the truth.
I looked at my watch to see there were only five minutes until class ends. I had no idea time went by so fast. I wiped my eyes and grabbed my bag unlocking myself out of the stall and out of the bathroom.
"Damien?" I froze where I was when I got out from hearing her voice. I turned to see her, and at this time.
"Are you okay?" Sarah asked worriedly. What is she even doing here, coincidently? Oh why should I care like she ever had?
"Leave me alone." I said walking away from her.
"Damien, what's wrong?" Sarah said grabbing my arm to stop me.
"Don't pretend like I didn't know!" I snapped yanking my arm off of her.
"What are you talking about?" Sarah asked getting in front to get me to look at her as I saw the confusion in her eyes.
"Drop the act! I know what you're up to." I said trying not to cry again. "If you never wanted to be my friend you didn't have to go through all this and just go back to ignoring me like you always have."
"W-What?" Sarah said, her voice sounded like it broke. Way to keep up the act.
"Just leave me alone Sarah. Don't bother talking to me." I said getting passed her and took off running.
"Damien, wait!" I heard Sarah called but I was determined to get away from her, away from getting anymore hurt. I was out of the school building just as the bell rang signaling time for lunch but I was not hungry, not with a broken heart. I looked back to see if Sarah followed me, but she didn't.
I looked around to see I was at the football field and I took my chance before I was seen and hid myself under the bleachers where I stayed there for rest of the school day while I let the tears fall.
Sarah's POV
It hurt. It hurt so much. Damien told me to leave him alone believing I was just pretending to be his friend, that I was using him as joke.
How could Damien think I would do something like that to him? When Luna told me how Damien overheard what Owen said and that Damien knows that I never noticed him until lately made it comes to the fact that it was all my fault. I was the reason why Damien is hurt; I never noticed him and he sits next to me in all of my classes together. When he talked to me before, I never looked at him and just gave short talk, like I hardly care. I am a horrible person to Damien and now he wants nothing to do with me. I was willing to tell Damien about the reason why but I never had the chance.
Damien walked away from me, told me he never wanted to talk to me again. Ever. And you wouldn't believe how… how crushed I was. I thought my life ended right then.
It's been four days, eleven hours, twenty minutes, thirty seconds and counting. Yeah, that's how pathetic I turned. I couldn't eat. I could barely sleep. I hardly talk to anyone in my family including my parents and Evan. I just couldn't do anything when everything reminded me of Damien. Yes, I mean everything; I see my family paired up with one another with love even Evan with Korrina even though he's being a brother to her, every song I hear reminds me of Damien, every color of green reminded me of Damien's beautiful eyes as brown reminded me of his hair.
Damien hasn't spoken to me since he left me. Actually, he never shows up to classes I have with him but only Biology since Luna has that with him and knows. Alice told me that Damien's been in the library, under the bleachers, an unused classroom and any other places to avoid me and everyone else. I would go to him and talk things out that I really do want to be his friend and that I was never using him but Alice said that if I go up to him, Damien would continue avoiding me until he can't take it anymore and he and Calvin might have to move out of Minnesota. That, I couldn't let that happen because I can't stand being away from Damien and I didn't want to drag my whole family to follow them. Damien will hate me for it and I couldn't do that to him.
I wasn't able to stay away, nevertheless. Every day after school when I'm not on patrol, I would follow Damien using his scent and arrived at his house where I watch him from a distance being able to see Damien through the window; he would watch TV, play video games or do his homework and I watch him sleep before it was time for me to return home not caring that my parents will be mad at how late I was out and when I make it to my bed, I cried myself to sleep.
My entire family and Luna tried – multiple times – to talk to me but I wouldn't listen. I refused when Carlisle suggested therapy. They just don't understand what I'm dealing with here. None of them went through this. Not even my dad. Sure he was heartbroken when Grandma Bella chose Grandpa Edward over him before mom came in but that's different in a weird way.
Luna tried to talk to Damien but he hardly speaks to her except when they do homework at her house. Damien has seemed to have made it clear about his decisions.
Mom was always there for me when I cried. She never really talked to me about it, my tears were loud enough. And, well, dad must've filled her in on everything that was going on in my head since he was in wolf form at one time. He looked like someone had died each and every time he saw me now. Do I look that bad? Well I didn't care. Physically, I didn't look awful; my hair is tidy and I change my clothes every day. I hated how they and Evan were suffering because of what I was going through but I can't help it. It just hurts so much.
"Hey Sarah." I heard someone called my name on a Wednesday morning. I was just out of my first period with Lucien when someone called and then came in front of me but I didn't look up.
"What." I said with not much emotion. That's when I heard Lucien growl so low that only I could hear.
"I was wondering if you're free this weekend." He asked happily.
"This is not a good time Owen." Lucien said bitterly. That's when my head instantly shot up when I heard what Lucien said and saw sure enough facing me was Owen, the guy who ruined it all!
"I wasn't talking to you Summers, I was talking to Sarah." Owen snapped at Lucien and then turned to me with a smile. "So what do you say?" He asked.
"No thanks!" I said as blood was boiling inside me from the anger I've been given to what Owen has done.
"Hey I know Damien hurt you but I can totally make you feel better if you go out with me." Owen smiled still.
"I said I'm not interested!" I said gritting my teeth.
"Listen Sarah, I can understand how hung up you are about him but I can give you something better than that loser Damien couldn't –" Owen was cut off when I snapped and lunged myself at him slamming him against the lockers.
"Shut up! Shut up, shut up!" I shouted as I pinned Owen while he had a horrified look on his face while I heard everyone calling out what was going on but I didn't care. "You're the one who's a loser! You and the rest of the boys who been picking on Damien! Why Damien, huh?! What makes him a loser?! He's smart, kind, patient, and funny than you all! So why does that make him a loser?!"
"You think you're so cool and think a girl like me would go out with a guy like you? Like hell I would!" I said as I was blinking the tears away even though I was beyond pissed at this guy. "I would never go out with you even if you were the last guy on earth! Never, especially what you did taking away the one guy who made me so happy so if you're gonna treat Damien poorly, then you can treat me the same! It's you who make Damien think he's below the rest of us when really he's miles above any of us, including me! If you ever do something to Damien again I will never forgive you!"
That's when I felt a pair hands on me trying to pull me away from Owen.
"Whoa chill princess, let go!" Lucien cried.
"Jasper, a little help here!" Lucas said and that's when I felt his calm waves hitting me causing me to loosen my grip on Owen.
"Come on." Jasper said calmly as I was being pulled away while I started crying. Next thing I knew was that I'm in a car. What's going on?
"We're taking you home early." Grandpa Edward answered hearing my thoughts and I looked to see him driving his Volvo with Jasper sitting next to me in the back.
"Everything's gonna get better Sarah. Trust me." Jasper said taking my hand with an assured smile.
I wish I could believe him, but it's hard for me to.
My day just gets worst as today goes by. Today was my turn to patrol (it was me, Evan, Colby, Roxanne and Garret) but it's hard to do so. Actually, it's hard for the pack. Since we are in wolf form, we can hear each other's thought no matter what which means that they can see and feel the pain I was going through. It hurts how most of the pack wanted to avoid patrol with me around but I guess I expected that. What happened there made me lose it.
"Sarah, come on. I know things may seem bad but it'll come around." Colby said as he came up to me as I was just lying down on the ground.
"Yeah, Damien can't stay away from you forever. He's your imprint after all." Roxanne said as she rubbed her head against mine to comfort me.
"But he hates me. After all I never noticed him throughout school and he was right next to me." I whined.
"So you made a bad timing on the imprinting. You're not the first." Colby said, chuckling in his head.
"Colby." Roxanne said in a 'you're not helping' tone as Colby gave a wolf-like shrug.
"Give Colbs a break Roxy. He's trying to cheer Sarah up like my family and I are trying to do." I heard Evan said and saw him coming over to check on me in person.
"I'm sorry." I said to Evan.
"Don't say sorry if you're gonna keep acting like this, princess." Evan said firmly. "We're worried about you. You're going through the same thing Lucien went through six years ago."
"I think what happened with Lucien, Skai and Kourtney is a lot different with me and Damien." I said. Evan was about to say something but was cut off.
"Oh shut up!" Garret said as he came over to us. "I can't patrol with you being miserable that your imprint rejected you!" He said to me in annoyance.
"Garret! Can't you see that Sarah's having a hard time dealing with the situation she's in?" Roxanne asked in a disapproved tone.
"Ugh! Sarah, it's been like four days! He doesn't want you and he shouldn't considering that he's a pathetic human and you're part bloodsucker so just get over it god dammit!" Garret said and that's when I snapped getting up and attacked Garret in rage.
"Don't you dare talk that way about Damien!" I said in between fights.
"What, it's true, isn't it?" Garret asked.
That's when I was able to tackle Garret hard sending him flying into a tree. Not taking any more of this, I took off running, away from the pack and home ignoring the other's call for me to come back.
I was still in my wolf form since I ran away. I am once again watching Damien from afar at his house at night. He was once again doing homework. I saw through the window that Damien looked just as bad as me but not worst. He was in pain and confused. Damien, if you knew how sorry I am for not noticing you, you would understand that I really do like you.
I continue watching until Damien put his stuff away and turned off the lights going to bed. I wonder what Damien's dreaming about. I wish I had Evan or my grandpa's mind reading ability to know. Could Damien be dreaming about me before what happened? Or is he dreaming about being with another girl? My heart was crushed at the idea.
It was getting late, I should be home now. But why would I go home when I'll give out more misery to my family? Better me suffering only, alone, than my entire family.
With that, I decided to turn around and run away, away from home until I was stopped by a huge figure in front of me.
Renesmee's POV
"Seriously Evan, what were you thinking?" I asked as I washed my son's face with a warm towel.
"I was thinking about giving Garret a piece of my mind." Evan answered.
"Don't you know by now that violence doesn't solve anything? I thought you were the calm one for heaven's sakes." I said shaking my head after I was done and rinsed off the towel in the sink.
It was late at night and Evan and I are at our cottage. Evan was a bit dirty. Apparently from a fight with Garret.
"May I ask what exactly happened? Because all I got from your father is that he had to go find Sarah." I said. Evan sighed and replayed everything that has happened with his gift like he does when he's a wolf except in human form.
It turns out Garret was being rude and told Sarah to just get over Damien since he ended things with Sarah. That caused Sarah to attack him when he insulted Damien. After that, Sarah took off running still in her wolf form. That's when Evan attacked Garret both for hurting Sarah and attacking her. They were at it for a while until Jake came in breaking them apart after he was called by Colby. That must have been why Jake went off to find Sarah after he brought Garret over to his father Brian.
"Still, you shouldn't have acted out so rationally." I said looking at the clock to see it was late. Jake has been gone for a while. You would think he should have no problem finding Sarah if she was still in her wolf form if he phased or even with directions from Jalen.
"Well maybe if Garret would stop being an asshole and learn to accept that there's a difference between us and those that survive on human blood, then maybe I'll cut him some slack." Evan said.
"Thomas, watch that language!" I scolded.
"What, it's true about him." Evan shrugged like it was nothing. I was about to tell my son to watch that attitude until we heard a fuss outside. Evan and I came out when we heard who it was and to my relief, saw Jacob carrying my daughter in her spare white dress that was always outside for emergencies. Sarah's eyes were bloodshot and Jake didn't flinch as she hit his chest.
"Why can't you leave me alone?!" She whined. "It would've been better! It felt better!"
Jacob's face was fixed on an expressionless state. "I know how it's like, you're not running off Sarah. I know it hurts but it isn't happening." He said to her.
"What?!" Evan and I exclaimed in one breath.
"Running off? What do you mean?" I asked. Jacob's eyes held more than hurt; grief.
"As in staying in her wolf form for a while, a long while." Jacob answered.
Evan looked at Sarah in shock as I couldn't help but cry. My poor Sarah. She's in so much distress with what's happened between her and Damien. She was willing to go far doing what Jacob once did. I ran over to Sarah after Jacob put her down and pulled her into a hug as Sarah flung her arms around me sobbing.
"You know what Sarah?" Evan said and I looked up to what he has to say. "You're not phasing unless I tell you that you're needed. And if killing that guy is what it takes for you to finally snap out of this then I'll do it.
"Thomas!" Sarah warned Evan while glaring forcefully at him.
"Alright I won't." Evan promised. "But know that I'll do anything to snap you out of this, even if it meant murder." He said as Sarah continues crying in my arms.
Sarah's POV
Why can't they just leave me alone? I would've made things better from them. Maybe not happy but better with less suffering. I can't believe my dad caught up to me and stopped me from running away and stay in wolf form for a while. I guess I would've been found either way by him or Jalen with his tracking skills. Now I'm being told by Evan as the Alpha that I can't phase unless I'm needed. That's just great. Now what am I supposed to do?
I am outside at the main house sitting on the deck with nothing to do. My heart still hurts from Damien's word but also what I did to cause it. I can never fix the damage that is already done. If I have noticed Damien on the first day, then maybe things would've turned out differently. How so I wondered.
"Sarah?"
"What?" I snapped turning my head to see Lucien jump when he came over to me.
"Easy Sarah, I just came to comfort you." Lucien said being cautious.
"I'm not in the mood Lucien." I said turning away. Will anyone ever leave me alone so I can deal with my heartbreak? My imprint, my problems.
"Look Sarah, you're not your normal self… like I was before I met Luna." Lucien said as he slowly sat down next to me.
"This is different." I said shaking my head.
"No it's not because I wasn't dealing with love at that time." Lucien said. "Sarah, if you want to make things right with Damien, try talking to him."
"But he doesn't –"
"We know what he said!" Lucien said causing me to flinch. He sighed and continued. "But sitting around and avoiding the problem is not gonna help."
"No but I don't wanna make things worse." I said sadly.
"Maybe –" Lucien was cut off when someone came out.
"Lucien," I heard Alice said. "You need to get to Luna's house."
"Why?" Lucien asked sounding a bit worried.
"Just get over there." Alice said and Lucien got up and took off leaving me alone. Well, Alice was still there for a few seconds and then she went back inside. Only when I heard someone else come out and sat down next to me.
"Come on sweetie," Dad urged giving me a gentle shake on my shoulder. "Esme made dinner. You should eat, you're killing yourself."
"I'm okay, don't worry about me." I said for what felt like the millionth time. "I don't want to eat, I'll just throw up." Dad sighed.
"Sarah –" I cut dad off, looking at him with the puppy eyes.
"I beg of you," I whispered. "I'll eat when I feel like it, I promise. I won't starve myself to death."
Dad kissed the top of my head. "No," He decided firmly. "You will eat right now, whether you like it or not."
I sighed. "But daddy –"
"No buts now come on." Dad said getting me up. I groaned as we walked inside.
Damien's POV
It's been five days, four hours, forty five minutes, twenty four seconds and counting since I told Sarah to leave me alone. Once again, I'm pathetic. The following school week was horrendous. I spent every minute avoiding Sarah by not showing up to class I have with her minus Biology. I hear students snickering and making rumors to why I haven't been in class as I walked down the hallway but I didn't care. I've been places around school avoiding everyone; under the bleachers at the football field, library, an unused classroom, auditorium, and the bleachers in the gym.
I hate how my life is turning out. The love of my life was only using me just for a few laughs. I should've known her suddenly wanting to be my friend was too good to be true. It already hurts enough that she never notices me but hearing her reason why being interested in me now hurts more.
You wanna know something confusing? I am also hurt that I pushed Sarah away from me. Why? I should be glad I didn't get into something worse but this feeling was driving me crazy. Everything I see reminds me of Sarah. Every girl I see reminds me of Sarah (weird right?). Everywhere I go reminds me of Sarah. Why? It's like whenever I try to walk away from Sarah, I feel a pull like I was being brought back like a magnet except it's making me go around back to Sarah. Why is the universe trying to torture me?! What did I ever do to deserve this?
I am on my bed on a Thursday evening with my laptop on watching The Big Bang Theory where in this episode the guys thought about how their lives would've been like if Sheldon wasn't in it.
"Hi, uh," Leonard said walking up to Penny who turned to him when he got her attention. "Um, um, I'm Leonard?"
Penny gave him a weird look playfully. "Really? You don't sound so sure." She teased.
"No I am… he." Leonard said shyly. "Uh, uh any-anyway, um, there's been something I've wanted to ask you for a long time. Um,"
"What's that?" Penny asked.
"I-I was wondering, if you're not too busy, um, if you would be interested in…" Leonard was struggling looking nervous as Penny was patiently waiting on what Leonard was about to ask. "Telling me where the restroom is?"
Raj and Howard who were watching the scene had those looks like they should've known that was gonna happen as Leonard looked a bit awkward that he blew his chance to ask Penny out.
Penny was looking a bit awkward too and looked down with a surprised look. "I think you're too late."
"Come on," Leonard said to Penny bringing them back to the present day. "I would not had peed my pants." He said as Penny smirked after telling how it would've turned out.
Raj and Howard took a moment.
"She nailed it." Howard said.
"Sounds about right." Raj said in agreement.
Leonard is lucky though that he got to married that hot girl later on in the series. He's smart, I'm smart. Penny's hot, Sarah's hot but Penny notices Leonard from the very beginning when they first met unlike Sarah. Why can't I have something like that?
I was interrupted by a knock on my door and I looked up to see dad standing there.
"Can I have a word with you?" He asked.
"Sure," I said closing my laptop . "What's up?" I asked as dad walked up to me.
"Do you mind explaining to me why you haven't shown up to any of your classes except Biology?" Dad asked with his arms folded and I sighed when he gave me a disapproved look.
"They called you?" I asked knowing what the school did of my absence.
"They didn't have to. Well?" Dad said.
"It's… complicated." I said, unable to face my dad.
"Complicated with your teachers or complicated with the students? Or should I say a student, particularly Sarah." Dad said. Ah man. I thought. "That there was why the school didn't have to call me."
I should've known Carlisle told dad about this. The question is why when Sarah was using me this whole time?
"Damien, what's going on? Why are you avoiding Sarah?" Dad asked.
"She never likes me dad. She never wanted to be my friend. I was just a… a joke for her to use." I said feeling the hurt whenever I said it out loud.
"And you know this how?" Dad asked.
"I… overheard Owen and his friends talking about it." I said.
"And you believed them over Sarah?" Dad asked.
"Well… yeah." I said.
Dad exasperated with a sigh. "Son, did you even talk to Sarah when you heard about it?" He asked.
"She never notices me at all in the beginning dad. She hardly talks to me and won't even look at me and now she became interested? Doesn't that sound odd to you?" I asked looking at dad.
"Maybe, but I would still talk to her if I were you." Dad said.
"And have my heart broken? I don't think so." I said causing dad to sigh.
"Damien, you have to talk to Sarah. If you really like her, you should trust her on what she has to say. I'm sure there's a good reason why now she's noticing you for the first time." He said. Now it was my turn to sigh. There's just isn't much to talk about when I know the truth.
"Come on, we're a bit late for dinner." Dad said and I got out of bed and soon we arrived at Luna's house for dinner.
"Hey Calvin." Luna greeted when she opened the door for us.
"Hello Luna." Dad smiled as she let us in.
"Hey Damien." Luna said.
"Hey Luna." I said dully.
Dinner was quiet with the five of us eating and dad, Maureen and Korrina doing the talking. I hardly ate anything what was on my plate; I was just playing with my food with a fork. I wasn't really hungry. I didn't pay attention to what was going on.
"Come on Damien, we got homework to do." Luna said.
"I already finished the assignment." I said still looking at my plate.
"Well then you can help me with it. Come on." Luna said shaking my shoulder.
"Alright." I sighed and got up following Luna upstairs to her room. "What do you want Luna?" I asked knowing that Luna didn't brought me up here for homework since we finished that in class today.
"Look Damien, you've been avoiding Sarah all week. She's really torn up and everything since you… well, broke up with her, you would call it." Luna said. Sarah, torn up because of me? As if.
"You sure she's not faking it like she's faking our relationship?" I asked bitterly.
"Damien, you believe Owen over Sarah?" Luna asked in disbelief. "That guy is just being a jealous idiot seeing you two together, so close. That's why he came up with a ridiculous rumor about you two knowing you would hear that so that you might end things with you and Sarah and that way Owen can take Sarah for himself."
"Well it least Sarah notices him before." I said.
"She likes you Damien." Luna said. Whose side is she on?
"Luna, Sarah never notices me until three weeks ago. I've been trying since the first day to get her attention and it never happened until now. Why? How do I know she isn't using me?" I asked.
"She is not!" Luna said. "And as I recall you told me not to doubt things when Lucien wanted to be my friend even though I'd believe I would never have a shot with him and look how we turned out." Okay maybe I did say that but they sorta met right away and saw each other the first time. That's totally different!
"I think my relationship with Sarah is different than yours and Lucien's." I said.
"But she isn't what you hear Owen said. Sarah wants to be your friend and she really likes you." Luna said.
"How would you know? How can you be so sure she isn't lying?" I asked, demandingly. Luna was dead silent, like I got her in a dead corner.
"I… I can't… tell you." Luna said quietly. What!
"You're keeping secrets from me?!" I asked. "What's going on?"
"I can't tell you." Luna said. Are you kidding me?! She knows something that I don't and won't tell me?!
"What the hell Luna!" I said angrily causing Luna to jump. "Why would you keep secrets from me? I thought we were friends!"
"We are." Luna said.
"What kind of friend keeps secrets from their friends?!" I said.
"Damien, I want to tell you, really I do, but I just… I just can't." Luna said. I don't believe this! She can't tell me what's going on because she can't?! What kind of friend is she? After all I've done having this girl's back, this is how she repays me?
"I should've known," I said angrily. "You're starting to become just like the Cullens. You were… you were just… you were just using me this whole time just to get close to Lucien!" And with that, I left the room as Luna just stood there not saying anything.
"Everything okay?" Maureen asked when I arrived at the bottom of the stairs and I see her with my dad.
"I wanna go home." I said to dad and went out the front door and into my dad's car. I waited until dad finally came out and got in the car.
"What happened?" Dad asked like this wasn't the first time I got in a fight with Luna as he was now driving us home.
"Ask Luna for being a terrible friend!" I said feeling so pissed. "She's keeping secrets from me."
"And?" Dad asked.
"She knows what's going on with why Sarah's interested in me now and wouldn't tell me." I said.
"Well maybe she had a good reason for it." Dad said trying to reason with me.
"What, to make me look like an idiot in front of the whole school? Because it's kinda of working!" I snapped at dad. Dad was silent until he sighed as we arrived at our house.
I went inside without another word and marched up to my room slamming the door behind me. I kicked in frustration at my drawers which might've been a bad idea since that was too hard. The world hates me! I've been treated like an outsider my whole life! The girl I love never notices me! Now she was using me as a joke! And now my best friend who I can count on has been in on this the whole time! I feel so betrayed! Since when do bad things happen to people who do good things? This sucks!
I know it's too early but I changed out of my clothes into shorts and a t-shirt and went to bed since I couldn't do anything. Not with what's been happening to me.
I was lying in bed sleeping. Mostly I was tossing and turning. That's when it happened.
"Damien." My eyes instantly opened at the familiar voice and I got up looking around. That was when I saw her coming up to me; a woman with tanned skin and an elegant slim body was glowing, her long black hair with brown highlights and waves flow softly without the wind and her smile was shown on her oval shape face.
"Mom!" I said throwing the sheets off of me and gave her a hug.
"Oh Damien, you're continuing to grow by the minute." Mom chuckled as she sat down next to me.
"Am I glad to see you again." I said. Did I ever tell you guys that I see my mom in my dreams all the time? It was always a dream but it felt real. Mom always comes to me whenever I need her such as moving on without her in mine and dad's life and of course Sarah.
"As I am seeing you." Mom smiled as I stared into her bright green eyes that I got from her.
"Have I ever told you how much I miss you?" I asked seeing mom like she hasn't aged since she died in that accident. For someone in her early forties now, she looks young.
"Every time whenever I come to visit you." Mom answered placing her hand on my cheek as I leaned into it. God, I love my mother. Why did they have to take her away so soon from me? "Now tell me what's going with you and Sarah lately."
Where do I begin?
"Mom, it actually happened," I said when she let go of my face. "Sarah really talked to me, for real." That caused mom to smile big. "She's noticing me."
"That's great." Mom said.
"But that's the problem." I said looking down. "She now notices me even though I'm in all of her classes and I sit right next to her in all of them. She hardly talks to me and never looked at me before. And now she wants to be my friend only I heard that she's only using me as a joke. She was faking it this whole time."
"And you believed what they said about what Sarah was trying to do?" Mom asked.
"It makes sense from where I was going." I said as I looked up causing mom to sigh.
"Damien, I think you should talk to Sarah to be sure if it's true which I'm positive that she's not." She said causing me to groan.
"But mom –"
"Damien, how do you feel right now at this moment since you haven't talked to Sarah?" Mom asked.
"Well, I'm… hurt. Both when I found out the reason why Sarah talks to me now and when I… told her to leave me alone." I admitted.
"Then you need to tell Sarah how you feel about this. When I met your father, he felt so insecure about asking me out. He had no idea back then how madly in love I was with him. That's when before winter break of our freshmen year when it was just the two of us, I told your father I how felt and he nervously said he felt the same which made me so happy to hear him return his feelings for me." Mom said with a dreamy smile as she looked away from a distance before she turned back to me. "That's why you should talk to Sarah how you feel. It's better to talk things out instead of avoiding it."
"What is with you parents and talking things out all the time?" I asked and that earned a glare from mom. "Okay, fine, fine," I said holding up my hands in surrender. "I'll talk to Sarah." Just not now. I thought.
"You do that. I may not be with you anymore but that doesn't mean I can't tell you what to do." Mom said fighting back a laugh causing me to instead.
"Well, I should go now." Mom said, about to get up.
"Do you have to?" I asked sadly feeling like a child being taking to school for the first time, sad to leave the safety of their mother's arms. Right now, I can't stand to see her go, like always.
Mom enveloped me in a tight hug. "Well, I'm sure you know that I don't want to leave you. But I have to go pop into your dad's dreams. I'm sure he wants to tell me something important you and I deserve to know."
"What's that?" I asked curiously.
"Oh I'm sure you'll know soon." Mom smiled letting go only to kiss my cheek.
"Mom?"
"Yes?"
"I love you." I said earning a sweet smile from mom.
"I love you too Damien. So, so much." She said and with that, mom got up and walked away until she disappeared.
My eyes opened up suddenly and I got up. I looked around through the darkness until I found the switch of my lamp and turned it on. I looked at my alarm saying that it was three in the morning. Next to it was a picture frame I picked up staring into it.
There I was looking young at age three smiling big with my hair all neat wearing a white dress shirt and red bow tie. Then there's dad looking good wearing a grey dress shirt with a dark blue neck tie as he too was smiling big. Then there's mom looking beautiful as ever wearing a stunning black dress and like me and dad, she was smiling as her arms were around me while dad's was around us both.
Man, mom always gives me good advice. And tonight she has done it again. The question is though could she be right about this one? Could I have been wrong about Sarah? It was really hard to tell. We're talking about Sarah Black after all. But I guess if talking's the way to do it, then fine. It's just that how can I be ready if all of this is really true? And what if it's not? There's a ninety percent chance of doubt but the other ten is hope. We'll have to find out when I feel like I'm ready to talk to Sarah.
How do you guys feel when you read this? I almost cried writing this down. Please review and go to my poll. Also can you let me know if I misplaced the names? I don't wanna confuse you guys on who's who.