Here's the new chapter for ya'll. I had some trouble but came through in one piece, next chapter might be special, not gonna tell why though. You'll see. :) Hope you guys like it, lets get to 500 reviews! Woo!
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Pissed. Enraged. Furious. Heartbroken. All wrapped into one. That's what I'm feeling. I could go on, but no one wants to hear me bitching about my problems, when they could be watching me kick the bastard's ass.
By "the bastard" I mean Austin, of course.
Oh, just wait till he gets back. Cue maniacal laughing and twitching.
Kira has just left, in her fancy expensive dam limo, thank god. If she stayed just a little longer, I swear all her fake extensions would be ripped off by yours truly.
Course after she left my sight of vision, did I snap out of my paralysis, then let the tears fall. But surprisingly they stopped after a short while. Guess I'm just sick and tired of crying over him. Now all that's left is a bitter cold feeling, that makes me want give him a piece of his own fucking medicine. That bastard. I swear to god this is the last time, Austin will ever break my heart again. I'm done with him and his fucking cheating self. This time I swear.
And you know what the fucking worst part is? I can't heal my broken heart. We're supposed to get fucking married! Married! I won't ever be able to get away from him! Till we get divorce…But still! He's gonna be with me, for about another two years, at least three years!
You think I'll survive?! With that…bastard! No I'm sorry I'd rather stay single the rest of my life. I fucking hate him. I hate Austin Monica Moon! For all I care he and Kira can go raise their own spoiled stupid child, actually, by my calculations, Austin and Kira will never be official, instead he'll probably knock her up or something then leave her, with their child to raise. But then again…she'll probably, just get an abortion.
Shaking my head, I sniffle a little and get up from the spot on the floor, I wipe my eyes angrily. Running upstairs, I try to call up my parents. Maybe, we could postpone the wedding or maybe cancel it! I'll try to make the money…we could…Oh fuck this. I groan, and shut the phone. Why don't they pick up? Probably at some fucking stupid fancy dinner.
Suddenly, I hear the door open then shut. There's two male voices, and instantly I know who it is. My heartbeat picks up, and the fire flares, inside of me. Time to give Austin a piece of my fucking mind.
God, that dickhead.
I get up and storm downstairs, spotting Dez and Austin walking into the kitchen laughing and joking around. My anger rises, at how normal Austin acts, how he fooled me, to think he actually loved me?! How he wormed himself into everyone's heart, making them think he's such a perfect boy.
They both look at me once I arrive, both instantly noticing my puffy eyes. Austin reacts first surprisingly, coming over to me, "Alls, are you okay? What's wrong?" He asks worriedly. He rests his hands on my arms, and I remain rigid, shrugging his hands off.
"Hey Dez." I say. "Could you, um, could I talk to Austin alone…?" I ask.
He frowns glancing back and forth between, me and Austin. "Uh…sure…I was just heading out anyway."
I nod, and wait till I hear the car pull out, before turning to Austin, tears already springing to my eyes. Wow, know I start crying? Amazing timing. "You know who decided to drop by today?" I ask lightly.
He shakes his head confused and slightly nervous. "No…? Ally, what's wrong babe?"
I grit my teeth, but keep my composure, "What'd you do while I was gone to New York?" I ask.
His eyes widen momentarily, and that's all I need. So it is true, she wasn't lying…"Ally…why are you asking?" He asks nervously.
"Just answer the dam question!" I snap.
"Ally I thought—" He starts but I don't give him a chance to answer. Ironic how I was just asking him to answer the question.
"Thought what Austin? That I wouldn't find out?"
He looks heartbroken, and that nearly softens my heart but soon his expression turns into anger. "Ally I don't get why you're acting like this! You're overreacting!" He yells.
My eyes widen, and I feel so angry. So dam angry. "Overreacting?!" I ask, completely baffled, "You think I'm overreacting. Oh I'm so sorry Austin, next time I'll just go ahead and let me boyfriend cheat on me with a first class bitch!" I yell sarcastically.
His eyes widen, and the anger drains from his eyes. "What?" He asks looking confused.
I roll my eyes. "God dam it, stop acting like that!" I yell. "Kira! Kira Starr, you asshat! I know about the way you guys are fuck buddies and all! And you couldn't even have the decency to at least tell me! She came by today, and told me!" I stop, and glance at him to see his eyes frantic and desperate. He should have thought of this before he cheated.
"I-I can't believe you fucking did this, and after all the fuck we went through." I whisper, my emotions going on overdrive. He frowns, and opens his mouth but nothing seems to get out. This spikes my anger, I just fucking told him I know that he has cheated on me, and all the guy can do is stare and look at me like a broken puppy.
"You know what," I hiss. "Everyone was right about you. The media, the critics, the world. They were right. You are just a fucking pathetic man whore who doesn't give two shits for anyone but himself and a good fuck." I say, and I nearly take the words back when I see the hurt and pain in his eyes, but I stop myself. He deserves it. He deserves it. He deserves it. "I thought that hey who the fuck are they to judge someone who they don't even know, I thought that maybe you were different. That you actually could really care about someone…" I stop myself taking a deep breath to prevent from crying.
"But I was wrong. So dam fucking wrong. And guess what? I don't fucking blame you. I blame myself for actually letting myself think you loved me. I told myself countless times, you'd break my heart. But I just didn't fucking listen even to myself."
"Ally…" He croaks but I don't listen.
I shake my head, and bite my lip. This is it Ally, break it off. "We may be getting married, Austin." I whisper looking him straight in the eye. "But I will never love you again. In fact as for right now. I hate you. I hate you more than anything in this world."