Author's Note: I know I've said it before but damn! This is a long ass chapter! It took my three days to type...I can only type at night really. I know some parts will be boring and others entertaining...my favorites are with Sam and Sirius...Just so you know. Btw, I know it's unlikely but just so you know, I became obsessed with piercings and tattoos(sp?) and that's why that certain part is in the story...I know that it would never really happen...in the books if this was in the books...Anyway! Enjoy the chapter!
Chapter 37: Girl Fight.
Remus and Sam were lying down on his bed, talking. He was still making fun of her for the nicknames she gave him and Sirius. She groaned. "When will you stop making fun of me for that?"
Remus smiled. "It's only been ten minutes since I've found out! You have a little more torture to go through."
She sighed. "Ok, if you must."
He kissed her. "Oh, I must."
Sam straddled his hips and tickled him. "You can be so mean!"
He laughed and tickled her back. He soon stopped when he saw a mark on her neck. "What is that on your neck?"
She looked away from him and sighed. "I-It's nothing."
"Is that the reason why you and Sirius needed to start over again today?" She nodded slowly. "Sam, what's going on?"
Sam bit her lip. "We were talking and…it just happened. It was a mistake, Remus. It was a moment of weakness. I swear that we just kissed. I stopped him before anything could happen."
"Sammy, you don't have to explain yourself to me. We aren't together anymore."
"I just felt like I had to." She sighed. "I know I shouldn't have done it and there's no excuse for it." He looked at her closely. "I still love him and I still love you. Sometimes, I feel like I'm torn."
"What do you mean?"
She looked away from him but he forced her to stare at him. "My feelings for the two of you drive me up the walls. I'll always love you both so much. You two have meant so much to me for so long and I just don't know what to do about it. We aren't together anymore and Sirius is with Sarah…I don't know what I'm trying to say. I guess it hurts that everyone has someone but me."
Remus smiled at her and kissed her. "You'll always have me, Sammy. I know that we aren't meant to be but that doesn't mean we can't still enjoy being together. This is the longest we've been single and I think it's good for us."
"We can still be together occasionally, right?"
He laughed. "Of course we can." He looked at her and sighed. "You don't want to be with me to make madman jealous, do you?"
Sam laughed and shook her head. "No, I don't. I'd never use you like that, Hero." He laughed. "I love you, Remus. You'll always have a special place in my heart. No one can ever take that away from you."
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Lily walked into the common room and sighed when she saw James sitting on the window seat. He was staring out the window while looking confused. She sat across from him and smiled. "Come to hit me again?" He asked while he continued to stare out the window.
She held his hand and smiled. "I wanted to say that I was wrong to hit you. It's just that you surprised me and…I didn't…I just didn't understand."
James looked at her closely. "You could have just told me that instead of getting violent. I would have explained it to you. I'll explain it to you now if you want."
Lily blushed. "I had someone else explain it to me."
He looked like he was in pain. "Who explained it to you?"
Her blush grew darker and she nervously laughed. "I had Sam explain it…while Sirius and Remus were around."
James groaned and blushed. "They'll crucify me!" A thought hit him and his eyes went wide. "Wait! Did you just say that Sam explained it to you?"
"Uh…yeah?"
He put his face in his hands and sighed. "That's just great! Could this day get any worse?"
Lily laughed as she held his face in her hands. She kissed him deeply and smiled. "You should be grateful."
"Why's that?"
"She convinced me." His eyes widened and he gave her a curious smile. "Believe me, she felt awkward about giving me advice but she did it so we can be happy."
James pulled her into his lap and kissed her. "Lily, I'm sorry I sprang it on you. I honestly didn't mean anything by it."
She blushed and smiled. "It's ok, James."
He blushed. "I love you, Lilykins."
"I love you too, cuddlebum."
They kissed deeply but were interrupted by their friends. "Aw, did the cute little couple make up?" Frank said.
They looked up and blushed while rolling their eyes. "Shove off, Longbottom." James grumbled.
Alice smiled at them as she poked Frank in the ribs with her elbow. He let out a loud yelp. "I'm glad that the two of you made up."
Sirius sat down next to them and smiled. "Yes, it's a great day! The super couple is back together!"
Lilac rolled her eyes. "Oh stuff it, Black! You're just upset that you're dating a shrew!"
He nodded. "You're right, Lilac." She smiled. "It could always be worse though." She gave him a curious look. "I could be dating you." She rolled her eyes.
Kevin laughed but stopped quickly when Patty and Mary slapped his arms. "Ow! What the hell was that for? It was funny!"
"Where's Sam and Lupin?" Chris asked.
Sirius sneered while Lily rolled her eyes when she looked at him. "They ran off somewhere together. They said that they had to take care of something."
They walked up to the boys' room but stopped before walking in. They heard Remus and Sam on the other side. "Oh, you've got to be kidding me!" James groaned.
"It sounds like Sam kept her promise to Sarah." Chris laughed.
"It sounds like Sam is converting to the Church of Lupin." Frank said.
"Praise the Lord." Kevin muttered. They laughed when they looked at each other.
Lily smiled. "We can't stay out here listening to them."
Peter ran up the stairs and glared at them. "Thank you for waiting for me! McGonagall really laid into me! You'd think she wasn't used to my screwing up by now."
"Peter, we're sorry." Sirius smiled evilly. "Why don't you go in first?"
The other's eyes widened in surprise as Peter nodded. He walked into the room and Sirius shut the door and held it closed. "Peter!" They heard Sam yell.
"Get out of here, Wormtail!" Remus growled. "We're in the middle of something here!"
They laughed while Peter banged on the door. "Let me out of here before they kill me!"
The door flew open and they saw Remus and Sam hiding under the sheets. "Oh, you've got to be kidding me!" Sam groaned while trying to hide behind Remus.
James had an overwhelming urge to scratch out his eyes. "What the hell are you two doing?" He yelled.
"Mate, you know it's a bad sign when you need it explained to you." Frank said. James glared at him.
"Do you all have to stare at us like that?" Remus mumbled while blushing.
"Cover your eyes, Alice! We don't want you to jump on Remus. We all know you like to see him naked!" Kevin said.
Alice blushed. "Shove off, Kevin!"
"Can you all leave until we're done…talking?" Sam asked.
"How long will this take?" Frank asked with a smirk.
Sirius groaned. "Believe me mate, they take hours!"
They laughed while Remus and Sam blushed. "We'll be in Frank, and Kevin's room. Come by when you're done." Patty said. Lily dragged a shocked James out of the room and shut the door behind them.
Sam let out a loud groan when the door closed. "That was so embarrassing!" Remus nodded in agreement. "Nothing's quite as disturbing as your brother and your friends walking in on you while having sex."
"We don't hear you finishing!" Lilac yelled through the door. They heard the others laugh.
"Go away, Lilac!" Remus yelled. They heard them finally leave. "That was fun! Let's never let that happen again!"
Sam laughed and kissed him. "Let's never forget to lock the door!" He nodded and laughed.
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They walked into Frank and Kevin's room an hour later and were greeted by cat calls and wolf whistles. They sat down next to Kevin and Patty and blushed. "Would you lot please stop that?" Sam begged.
"Are you begging us to stop, Sammy?" Chris asked with a mischievous smile. "Did Remus have to do the same thing?"
The others laughed while they blushed. "Shut up, Chris." Sam grumbled.
Remus wrapped his arms around Sam and laughed. She leaned into him and sighed. "What's going on?" He asked.
"We know what's been going on with you two." Frank laughed.
"Can we stop talking about that?" James grumbled. "I'm trying to repress that memory."
"I agree with James. Let's forget it ever happened." Sam said.
Lily smiled at them. "Are you two back together?"
Sam blushed when Remus kissed her cheek and held her tighter. "No, we're not. We are just friends."
"We're just friends, why don't we do that?" Sirius grumbled. They stared at him with wide smiles. "Did I say that out loud?" Sam rolled her eyes in response.
Kevin laughed loudly. "Nicely done, Lupin!"
James glared at him. "What the hell is that supposed to mean, Johnson?"
"N-Nothing! It didn't mean anything!" Kevin stuttered.
"Lay off him, cuddlebum!" Sam glared at him.
"'Cuddlebum?'" The others exclaimed in unison. James and Lily blushed.
"Can we please talk about something else?" Remus asked while blushing.
The conversation luckily changed quickly. Sirius stared at them and sighed. Seeing them like that again made him beyond jealous. The only saving grace was pulling that prank on Peter. He wanted to respect Sam's wishes and just be her friend until she was ready to come back to him, he really did, but it was hard. He missed her and really did enjoy spending time to get to know her again like they've been doing. When she was sent away, he realized how stupid he truly had been. Of course, he did know this before he even broke up with her but it took her not being around to make him realize just how impossibly stupid he actually had been. He watched and listened as their friends started to make fun of Sam and Remus again. "I've got to break up with Sarah and get Sam back!" He thought to himself.
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Remus was waiting outside of the statue entrance to Professor Dumbledore's office, waiting for Sam to finish talking with her counselor. He looked up and almost busted with laughter. Sirius was being dragged by Professor McGonagall to the statue. James and Lily were trailing behind them, trying to stifle their laughter. "Of all the nerve! You would think this being your final year that you would be over hexing people." Professor McGonagall scolded as she pulled his arm.
"Professor, he asked for it!" Sirius said with a smile.
She stopped and stared at him. A smile threatened to break out on her face. "Mr. Malfoy asked to be tied up, levitated, and spun around above a flight of stairs?"
He awkwardly nodded. "Well…he dared me to do it. He said 'I dare you, Black! You don't have the guts!' I had to prove to him that I had the guts to pull it off. So you see, it's not my fault, it's his."
Remus was shaking with his held in laughter. James and Lily were doing the same thing. "That's the most absurd think that I've ever hear!" Professor McGonagall said. She turned and glared at James and Lily. "Where were you two while all of this happened?"
Lily blushed. "W-We were patrolling the halls, Professor."
"Snogging in the halls does not count as patrolling, Ms. Evans." She said. Lily blushed in response.
"Professor McGonagall, Lily is telling the truth! We were patrolling like we were supposed to! We just didn't get there in time to…stop Sirius." James said.
Professor McGonagall rolled her eyes as she turned to the statue. She was surprised to see Remus standing there. "Mr. Lupin, what exactly are you doing here?"
Remus stood straighter as she glared at him. "I finished patrolling and I'm waiting for Sam to finish talking with…Professor Dumbledore, ma'am."
She smiled sadly. She knew about Sam's meetings with Dr. Roberts. "That's very sweet of you, Lupin." Remus blushed in response. "The four of you will wait outside the Headmaster's office until Samantha is finished. Then the three of you will explain to the Headmaster what happened. Is that clear?"
They nodded. They walked up the staircase and waited outside his office. They shared a laugh when she finally left. "Nice job with Malfoy, Padfoot." James said.
Sirius bowed. "I try, Prongs."
Lily rolled her eyes at them. "You're all gits!" They laughed in response. She looked at Remus. "Why is Sam meeting with Dumbledore again?"
Remus shifted uncomfortably and slightly shrugged. "I-I have no idea. I think he wants to meet with her weekly just to make sure she's doing ok." They nodded slowly.
"Samantha, calm down!" Andrew yelled. "Just tell me about them!"
"It hurts too much! Plus, I've already told you everything about them!"
"Who the hell was that and what are they talking about?" James growled.
Sirius and Lily shrugged while Remus looked away from them. "N-No idea, Prongs." He stuttered.
Sirius opened the door slightly so that they could hear and see what was going on. "Let's find out." He whispered.
"Sirius, get away from there! We shouldn't be listening!" Lily hissed. He rolled his eyes and smiled smugly when James and Remus stood near the door. She rolled her eyes at them. "Fine, just be quiet!"
"Why won't you talk about them?"
Sam groaned. "I just said that I told you everything about them! Why do I have to talk about them again?"
Andrew sighed. "They have been big parts of your life for a long time. They are the center for most of your pain. You have to talk about them because it will help you let go of that pain."
"What if I let go and lose them entirely?"
He smiled. "You will never lose them, Sammy." The boys scowled at that. That was their nickname for her. "You will have them in your life but to keep them, you have to let go of the pain they caused you." She sighed and nodded. "Tell me about Remus."
Remus' eyes widened in surprise. Sam lightly laughed. "I could talk about Hero forever!"
"Why do you call him 'Hero'?" Sam and Remus blushed. She told him and Andrew blushed while James glared at Remus, who looked away from him. "T-That's fascinating."
She giggled at the sight of his blush. "Did I embarrass you, Andrew?" Her eyes widened. "I-I'm sorry, Dr. Roberts."
Andrew winked at her and she sighed dreamily while the boys sneered and rolled their eyes. "You can call me Andrew. And just so you know, you didn't embarrass me. I was just surprised. Tell me about…uh…Hero?"
She blushed. "Remus is…amazing!" Remus blushed. "He is one of the sweetest, most caring, and gentle man I know. He has the patience of a saint! If you saw him help Peter with his homework, you'd know what I mean." They stifled their laughter. "He was my first real boyfriend, my first love, and my first…well, you know. He's very protective of me. He doesn't trust you with me after I told him about our last session."
The others stared at Remus accusingly but he just shrugged in response. Andrew laughed. "Why doesn't he trust me? You're the one that hit on me!"
Their eyes widened. "He thinks that you enjoyed that. I told him that you were trustworthy." She sighed happily. "He has this way about him. I've always felt safe whenever I was with him. I would have done anything for him. I still would. Despite everything that happened between us, I still love him. It's stupid but I still get butterflies in my stomach whenever I see him, kiss him, and when we…you know. He means so much to me and I couldn't imagine my life without him in it."
Remus was practically glowing. Andrew smiled at her. "That's not stupid, Sam. As you said, he was your first…everything. You never get over your first love." She smiled fondly. "Now, tell me about your true love."
"What?"
"Sam, Remus was your first love but Sirius is your true love."
She rolled her eyes and groaned. "Do I have to talk about him?"
He laughed while Sirius sneered. "I thought you two were trying to be friends again? That was one of the assignments I gave you."
Sirius' face fell. Sam sighed. "We are friends. It's just hard to talk about him."
Andrew nodded. "Yeah, I'm sure it is. Why should we talk about that git? I say, cut him out of your life for good!"
Sirius growled but stopped quickly when Lily slapped him upside the head. "He's just trying to make her talk!" She hissed.
Sam stood up and glared at him. "I can't cut him out of my life! He's my brother's best friend and he lives with us! Plus, I love him!" Sirius smiled brightly. Sam laughed. "Nicely done, Andrew. I give up! I'll talk about him." Andrew smiled and nodded. "Sirius is one of a kind. He can be so sweet and caring when he wants to be. He can also be incredibly immature and childish." Sirius made a face when the others tried to hide their laughter. "Sirius is fiercely loyal to the ones he loves. I honestly think he would give up his own life if it meant that his friends would be safe."
"He sounds like a good guy to have around."
She laughed. "He really is. Whenever I'm around him, I feel like I can do anything. He makes me feel brave and strong…it's stupid to love someone who never loved you in the first place."
Andrew and Sirius sighed. "I think he does love you, Sam. From what you told me about Sirius' family, he never knew how to express his feelings. You are so open and true when it comes to the people you love and maybe he wasn't used to that."
"Maybe you're right. Sirius is a really great guy and he knows it!" Sirius rolled his eyes. "He can be so damn arrogant but I guess that's a part of his charm. I bet he could charm Dumbledore out of his robes if he tried. I just hope that he doesn't." They laughed. "Hero and Madman mean a lot to me."
"'Madman?'" She blushed when she told him the reason behind the nickname. James hit Sirius on the arm while Andrew blushed. "Please, no more explanations."
Sam giggled. "I promise, Andrew."
"Now, I want you to talk about your first breakup with Remus."
Her face went to stone. "D-Do I have to?" Andrew nodded. She sighed. "It was in my fourth year when it happened. We'd been together for close to a year. I-It started out like a normal day and then all hell broke loose." She bit her lip for a moment before continuing. "We were all worried about Sirius. Ever since the day we went to Diagon Alley, he had been acting oddly. He would snap at everyone, especially Remus and me. Well, the day before Halloween, he met me outside Charms and said he wanted to talk in private. We made plans to meet after dinner."
"What does Sirius have to do with your first breakup with Remus?" He asked.
"He has everything to do with it." Sam let out a breath and continued. "We went to his room to talk. He said that he knew Remus and I were sleeping together but that we loved each other so it was ok. Then he said that I shouldn't be with Remus. He said that I was supposed to be in love with only him even though he didn't love me in that way and then…he kissed me. I punched him and yelled at him. I called him an arrogant prat and that I couldn't believe how selfish he was to try to mess up a good thing between his two so-called friends." She wiped away tears that fell down her cheek. "Little did I know that Remus saw the kiss but nothing else. I only found out because Lily told me that he stormed off."
"What happened next?"
Sam made an angry face. "I found him and tried to tell him what really happened." She growled. "He wouldn't even listen to reason! Remus said the most terrible things to me!"
Andrew held her hand as she silently cried. The others stared at Remus closely. He looked like he was in physical pain. "What did he say to you?"
"H-He said that my plan to get Sirius work. There was never a plan. He said that Sirius finally loved me. He accused me of sleeping with him to gain experience for when I was finally with Sirius." Her chin trembled. "H-He c-called me a-a whore. He said that he only pretended to love me. R-Remus said that every time we slept together, it made him sick because he was trapped in my fat and ugly body."
"Keep going."
"I never imagined in my entire life that someone as wonderful as Remus could be so cruel. He would flirt with anything in a skirt if I was around. He showed me a picture of him and that…Hannah Benjamin snogging. He even sent me a package of the same picture with an opened condom wrapper underneath the picture." Sam glared at the floor like it was her sworn enemy. "After I received the package, after classes were over, I was walking down the hall with Lily and saw him with that person and they kissed right in front of me. I was livid and kissed the first boy that walked by. I gave Severus a right good scare with that kiss." She sighed. "James saw the kiss and dragged me to his room. He made me tell him everything. He was so angry to find out his little sister had been violated at thirteen by a trusted friend."
Andrew smiled encouragingly at her. "How did you two get back together after all that?"
"Sirius went to Professor Dumbledore and learned how to do pensieves. He showed Remus what really happened."
"You forgave him after that?"
She shook her head quickly. "I couldn't. It was the night of the Christmas Ball, the night that was supposed to be our first anniversary. Remus got hurt and we went to the hospital wing. When we got back to the common room, we started talking. That's when we made up."
He gave her a moment to compose herself before speaking again. "Why did you break up the second time?"
"Please, don't make me talk about that."
"I know it hurts but it helps to let it out."
She groaned. "It was almost Halloween and I just started my fifth year. James begged me to join the Quidditch team. It was my O.W.L. year and I had all this work and the added pressure of daily practices made me very stressed out. I was in the library with Lily and I realized that I was late."
"What do you mean by 'late'?"
She rolled her eyes. "I thought I was pregnant!" His eyes widened and nodded slowly. "I didn't tell him right away. I guess I was scared of his reaction. I had a row with McGonagall and was sent to Dumbledore. He convinced me to tell Remus. The night I told him, he got drunk. After finding out that it was just a false alarm, I went in search of him. He was on the astronomy tower snogging and groping Hannah Benjamin." She let out a shaky breath. "I didn't break up with him right away. I was afraid to be without him. The night of the Christmas Ball, I realized that he wanted to be with Hannah. I ended it with him that night." She licked her lips and sighed. "He was upset but it was the right thing to do. If we stayed together, we would have torn each other to shreds."
"Do you ever regret that decision?"
She nodded. "Pretty much every day." She gulped back her tears. "I just wanted him to be happy. There was no point in staying together when he really wanted someone else."
Andrew tightened his grip on her hand. "Tell me about your break up with Sirius."
Remus was completely silent. Hearing Sam describe their break ups was almost too much for him to bear. Sirius went pale. He didn't know if he could stomach listening to her talk about what happened between them. "It hurt." She muttered.
"Tell me what happened."
"We got together over the summer. He was so attentive and sweet. It was unlike anything I ever imagined, you know?" He smiled. "Sirius didn't want anyone to know about us. He said the reason for the secrecy was because he didn't want to hurt Remus. The stupid git that I am, agreed to keep it from everyone." She rubbed her temples aggressively. "When we came back to school, things started to change. He lied to me about talking to James and Remus about us. I thought he was embarrassed to be with me. He was and I told him that when he got over his issues then we could be together. I broke up with him."
"How did you two get back together?"
Sam slightly smiled. "That night at dinner, I was talking with my friends. Lily was yelling at Sirius to stop being a git and try to get me back. I swear she had more faith in our relationship than anyone." Lily nodded solemnly. "Sirius barged his way over to me because I think he was jealous that Chris was giving me a hug. Chris was just trying to cheer me up and Sirius saw red. He made all these declarations of love and not caring about what people thought. He slid underneath the table and kissed me in front of everyone. I was in complete shock. He was so worried about what people would say about us but he kissed me for all to see!"
"That's a good thing."
She rolled her eyes. "I thought the same thing at the time. Too bad I was wrong." She sighed. "After that, things seemed to go up and down hill for us. Sirius became extremely moody. One moment, he didn't want me anywhere near him and the next, he would be all over me…I was coming back from the library after leaving him because my friends and him got into a row. Monica Winston, one of his ex-girlfriends, stopped me. She told me that she saw him kissing Sarah Rudolph in the stacks the previous night. I was so beyond upset. I went back to the common room and talked to Remus about it."
"Why did you talk to Remus instead of Sirius?"
Sam sighed and shrugged. "I-I don't know really. I guess I wanted to find out why he cheated on me, to see if there was something wrong with me that caused the people I loved to cheat on me."
"There is nothing wrong with you."
She pretended that she didn't hear him and continued. "After our talk, we headed towards the common room. That's where I heard…" She trailed off. The memory of that conversation still hurt her.
James looked down at the ground in shame. Andrew smiled encouragingly at her. "What did you hear?"
Sam wiped away her tears and sighed. "I-I heard…James calling me a whore. I don't know how it came up and frankly, I don't care. He said that our parents raised me better than that. Sirius…he barely defended me. He practically agreed with James!" Sirius looked away in shame. "Lily began yelling at them. I ran to my room, crying. Remus yelled at them for me."
"Continue, Sam."
"The same night, Sirius and I…I was yelling at him for not defending me and for kissing Sarah. He denied it, of course. H-He also did the strangest thing. He began to cry and I held him for hours. He said he was sorry for the way he acted and that he loved me. He only truly wanted me. Little did I know that was the same night he first slept with Sarah. He seemed so terrified at the thought of losing me and begged me to never stop loving him and to never give up on us. I, of course, promised." She grew quiet for a moment and Andrew didn't want to rush her. Sirius' chin trembled slightly but he refused to cry. "He seemed like his old self again. Everything seemed to go back to normal but I was wrong…again."
Andrew sighed. He knew she loved those two with all her heart and still did but that she was basically suffocated by the pain they caused her. "Keep going, Sam."
"The night we broke up…he said that he wanted to have a special night where no one could bother us. We went to the Room of Requirement for some privacy." She blushed. "When we were…you know, it reminded me of our first time together. It felt like we connected on some different level, you know?" He nodded. "He took me up to the astronomy tower because he said he wanted to star gaze." She rolled her eyes. "He held on to me so tightly and I felt like I was home."
Sirius looked up in surprise. Andrew nodded. "Is this when he broke up with you?"
She nodded slowly. "Sirius pulled away from me and that's when it happened. He said that we couldn't be together because he never really loved me. He just wanted to know what the big deal was about sleeping with me. He said he…I was nothing except a spoiled brat that whined when I didn't get my way. Then he called me a whore who didn't deserve to be loved." James gulped down his rage. "Sirius then told me about how and where he cheated on me with Sarah. He said I brought it all on myself because I said I was the one that cheated on Remus."
"Why did you do that?"
"I was trying to protect Remus. I didn't want to cause any problems between him and his friends." She bit back a sob and continued. "I begged him to stay with me. He laughed when I cried and he called me weak. I-I begged him not to leave me…I BEGGED HIM!" They jumped when she yelled. "I sat for hours after he left, crying and holding myself."
Andrew watched her closely as she held back her tears. He wished he never forced her to talk about it but she needed to let go of her pain. "He was a damn fool to let you go and treat you that way. They all were!"
"When Remus and I broke up, I barely took care of myself because I was so depressed. I barely ate a thing but no one noticed because I hid it well. I still managed a bite here and there so I wouldn't be questioned but I didn't really take care of myself. When Sirius broke up with me, I became depressed again. I rarely had a bite of food, I rarely slept, and I became the biggest bitch."
"I doubt that."
Sam lightly laughed. "Oh, I was! I fully admit to it!" He laughed. "Dr. Roberts, can I ask you something?"
"Of course you can."
"Is what they said about me true? Am I just a spoiled brat that whores herself around? Do I not deserve to be loved?"
He was shocked by her questions. The others shook their heads aggressively. "Samantha, how can you think that?"
She shrugged. "It's easy. Sirius, Remus, and James all said I was. It has to be true if they said that, right?"
"They were wrong! Sirius and Remus wanted to hurt you and they succeeded! I don't know why you're brother said that about you and I don't care! You aren't a whore and you are definitely not a spoiled brat! You deserve to be loved by someone who isn't scared to love you back! Sam, you love with your whole heart and aren't ashamed to do so! That's what makes you brave and proud! You should never doubt yourself because three gits lied to you!"
They nodded in agreement while Sam sighed. "I'm just tired of not being good enough. I'm tired of loving people that don't love me in return. I want someone who will love only me and who won't cheat on me." She blushed before continuing. "I want to be someone's everything. Is that stupid?"
Andrew smiled gently at her. "It's not stupid to want all that. It's perfectly normal and you will find someone like that one day. You might have already met him but haven't realized it yet."
"You're not talk about yourself, are you?" He blushed while the boys scowled. She let out a loud laugh. "I was only joking, Andrew."
"I know." He sighed. "I want you to tell me about your dream."
"Which one? The one that caused me to go to St. Mungo's or the one I recently had?"
"The recent one."
"All my ex-boyfriends were there. They said I had to make the right choice before time ran out."
"What choice did you have to make?"
She slightly smiled. "I had to choose the one. I had to choose the right man for me."
"Who did you choose?"
"I tried to choose anyone but they said I was choosing out of fear. I was even tempted to choose that git Patrick but…it was Sirius." Sirius' eyes widened in surprise. "He said that no matter who I'm with or where I go, I will always love him. He was the one."
"How did that make you feel?"
"I felt…complete. I felt that it was the right choice but I didn't want it to be true. I can't let it be true because if I do, I know I'll wind up getting hurt all over again."
Andrew shrugged. "You never know. If you give him another chance, he might make you happy."
"Do you think my relationship with him was a rebound?"
"What makes you ask that?"
She shrugged and sighed. "I was with Remus for two years. I had a brief relationship with Chris and Michael. Then Sirius and I happened. I think as much as I love him, I always wondered if a part of our relationship was a rebound."
Sirius scowled. "I'm sure a part of your relationship was a rebound but for the most part, I believe the relationship was real. If it wasn't, you wouldn't have behaved the way you did when he broke up with you."
"Maybe you're right." She sighed. "My head hurts. Can we cut this session short? Can we wait to talk more until next week?"
"I won't be here. I'll be in Egypt until February counseling curse victims."
Sam smiled brightly. "You're going to Egypt?" He nodded. "I might be going there this summer!" The others looked up in surprise. "Michael is trying to convince me to apply for an internship with Gringotts. If I do apply, I'll be stationed in Egypt!"
Andrew smiled. "That's excellent, Sammy! You should apply! I think it will be good for you." The others rolled their eyes. "I'll be in Egypt over the summer, I'll look for you." They scowled in response.
"When do you leave for Egypt?"
"Sunday night. Why?"
She blushed. "The Christmas Ball is Saturday…do you think you could stop by?"
He blushed as well. "I'll see what I can do." She smiled. "Would you save me a dance?"
She bit her lip and smiled while the others eyes widened in surprise. "Of course I will."
They stood up and Sam hugged him tightly when they stood in front of the fireplace. "You can write to me while I'm away. In case you need someone to talk to." He said.
Sam blushed when his arms wrapped around her tightly. "I will. In case I don't see you, have a good time in Egypt."
He held her closer and smiled softly. "You will see me at the ball."
Her eyes widened when he leaned in. "W-What are you doing, Dr. Roberts?"
"What happened to calling me Andrew?"
She awkwardly nodded. "An-Andrew, what are you doing?"
Andrew sighed. "I don't know."
The others were surprised when this mysterious Andrew leaned in and kissed Sam. Remus stomped on Sirius' foot. "Moony, get off of my foot!" Sirius groaned loudly.
Remus gave him a meaningful look and Sirius understood. "Well, excuse me, Padfoot! It's hard not to step on your feet! They are abnormally big!" Remus yelled.
"You know what they say about a guy with big feet!" Sirius said while wiggling his eyebrows.
"Shut up, Black! That's disgusting!" Lily groaned.
"Don't be such a prude, Evans!"
"She isn't a prude, Padfoot!" James said.
Sirius laughed. "Not anymore! Not since Sam gave her some advice!"
"I hate you, Black!" Lily grumbled while blushing.
Sam jumped away from Andrew and groaned. "I swear they follow me around!" Andrew laughed. "You better go. Only Remus knows about you."
Andrew kissed her again briefly. "I'll see you on Saturday, Sam."
He left and Sam shook her head in surprise. She couldn't believe he kissed her…twice! They walked in and stopped to look at her. "What are you lot doing here?" She asked in a small voice.
"I got in trouble and these two did as well because of me." Sirius said while avoiding her stare. He still couldn't believe that she thought of their relationship as just a rebound.
"Well, I'll wait for you outside until you're done with Dumbledore." Sam quickly left with Remus following her out.
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"So, what was your punishment?" Remus asked while holding Sam's hand. She was quiet. The kiss she shared with Andrew was still on her mind.
Sirius shrugged. "A week's worth of detention with Slughorn. Nothing too bad. I honestly think that Dumbledore was impressed by what I did."
"Did you two get in trouble?" Sam asked.
James shook his head. "No, we didn't. He understood that we didn't get there in time."
"That's good to hear." She muttered.
Sirius glared at her. "What's with you? Did kissing your counselor fry your brain or something?"
Their eyes widened and Sam stopped walking. "W-What did you say?"
He growled. "You heard what I said, Samantha!"
"You were spying on me?"
"Good thing we did too! How else would I have found out that I was just a rebound?"
"How could you invade my privacy like that?"
Sirius got in her face but she stood her ground. "How could you make me feel guilty when I was just an excuse for you to get over Moony?"
Sam was beyond angry. "How much did you lot hear?" They didn't answer her. "I can't believe you would do that to me!"
Sirius rolled his eyes. "Oh, get off your high horse, Potter! We heard you yelling and we were worried! I'm glad we listened! Now, I know how you really felt!"
Remus stepped in between them. "Would you two stop? This is ridiculous!"
Sam glared at Sirius. "Do you know what's really ridiculous?"
He sneered. "What?"
"Ever falling in love with the likes of you!"
James pulled Remus out of the line of fire, for his own safety. "Best to stay over here, mate."
Sirius' eyes bulged. "Oh really? That's rich! From what I remember, you couldn't stop saying how lucky you were to be with me! 'Oh Sirius, I love you so much! I can't imagine my life without you in it!'"
"Are you mocking me?"
"Yes, I am!"
"I can't believe I actually lowered myself to sleep with you!"
"Well, if any guy stayed still long enough, you would eventually sleep with him!"
"Oh shit!" Lily muttered.
James pushed Sirius. "Don't talk to my sister that way!"
They turned their heads suddenly and glared at him. His eyes widened as he took a step back. "Shut up! This is between us!" They yelled in unison. They glared at each other. "Don't talk to him like that! He was only trying to help!" They growled. "Don't tell me what to do!"
Sam groaned. "Why do I put up with you? You know, I really do hate you!"
Sirius rolled his eyes and laughed. "Like you haven't said that to me before! If you really did hate me then why were you all over me the other night?" She growled before walking off. Sirius followed her. "Where the hell do you think you're going? We're not finished!"
"Five galleons says he tackles her." James said.
"Ten says she head butts him after he tackles her." Remus added. The three of them shared a look and nodded.
"Get away from me, Black! Don't you dare touch me!" Sirius had a tight grip on her arm and refused to let go. "Get off of me or you'll regret it!"
"Twenty says she knees him in the groin before he tackles her!" Lily added quickly. She had faith in her friend's aggression. The boys laughed and nodded.
Sirius grabbed her other hand when she tried to hit him. "Stop trying to hit me!"
"Let go of me!"
"Make me!"
The others winced at his stupidity and when he groaned in pain. Sam had, in fact, kneed him in the groin. Lily giggled. "Twenty galleons for me!"
Sam tried to walk away but Sirius, despite being in incredible pain, tackled her to the ground. James arms went up in the air in a sign of victory. "Five galleons!" He quickly shook his head. "I should have bet more money." Lily and Remus nodded and laughed.
"What the hell do you think you doing?" Sam yelled.
"I'm preventing you from walking away! Every time we fight, you walk away whenever I speak!"
She leaned her head up and glared at him. "I only do that because you have nothing worthwhile to say!"
"Come on, head butt!" Remus muttered. James and Lily stifled their laughter.
"All I hear out of you is wah, wah, wah, and blah, blah, blah!" Sirius growled. Sam clenched her teeth before head butting him. Sirius rolled off of her and they held their heads and groaned.
"Victory is mine!" Remus cheered.
James and Lily laughed. "Oh look! Round two!" Lily said in an excited voice.
Sam got on top of Sirius and held him down. "You can be such an insufferable git! Why do I waste my time talking to you?"
"Because you want me!"
They rolled their eyes at his arrogance and Sam smacked the side of his head with her free hand. "I do NOT want you! I want Remus!" Sirius glowered at her. "You couldn't hold a candle to Remus! At least he has stamina! Especially around the full moon! He would be so aggressive! It was wonderful! I would have to beg him to stop so I could get some rest!"
Remus sheepishly grinned and blushed when James and Lily stared at him in surprise. "Way to go, Moony!" Lily muttered. James looked at her in surprise while Remus chuckled. "What?" She asked innocently.
James just smirked and shook his head. "Whatever Sam said to you today, I'm grateful for it."
"You begged me to stop!"
"Because I was bored to tears!"
"Ten galleons that he puts her over his shoulder and tries to prove he is better than me." Remus said.
"Don't forget to add that she will hit him in the groin again when she's over his shoulder while saying something along the lines of 'I can't believe you! Let me go! You better put me down!'" Lily added.
Sirius twisted his wrist out of her grasp and rolled over. "Oh please! You know you loved being with me!"
"As much as I love seeing my parents naked!"
They, including Sam, cringed at that thought. "That's disgusting!" James shuddered.
Sirius threw her over his shoulder and started to walk down the corridor. "I'm going to prove to you that I'm better than Moony! You will see I'm better!"
Remus smiled brightly. "Told you so!"
"I can't believe you! This is so pathetic! Let me go! You better put me down!" Sam yelled.
Lily batted her eyelashes at James and Remus. "Wait for the kick!" She said in a singsong voice.
They turned when they heard a loud groan of pain. They saw Sirius fall to his knees as Sam slammed down on the floor. Sirius had a protective hand around the middle of his pants and fell on top of her. Sam was rubbing her back and they simultaneously groaned in pain. "Well done, Lily!" James said.
She slightly bowed. "I try."
"As much fun as this is, I don't have any money left. Let's go back to the common room and let them at it." James said.
They walked down the hall and left Sam and Sirius to finish. "Ok, one last bet! They continue to wrestle; Sirius gets on top and…kisses her! After that, he says something stupid and the fight will continue into tomorrow." Lily said with glee.
"Don't forget that he will mostly grope her while kissing her." Remus added. James glared at him but Remus just shrugged. "What? You know it's true!" James rolled his eyes and reluctantly nodded. "How much should we bet?"
"Five galleons?" James asked hopefully. They nodded. "By the way, we forgot to add that she will definitely kick him in the groin after he says something stupid." They nodded again.
"Wait! Shouldn't we stay? I mean, how will we know what happened if we leave?" Remus asked.
Lily laughed and rolled her eyes. "We're their best friends! They'll tell us everything! You know they will!"
Sam and Sirius were panting heavily. Her back was aching and his middle section was in agony. He glared at her before holding her down. "Just admit that you want me and I'll let you go." He panted.
"No, you won't, liar!" She grunted.
He laughed. "You know me too well, Sammy." She rolled her eyes and tried to get up but he pushed her back down. "We aren't done talking yet."
"You want me to kick your ass even more, Black?"
"Who's on top of whom at the moment, Potter?"
She smiled evilly and before he realized what happened, she was on top of him. "What do you have to say for yourself now, Black?"
Sirius grinned broadly. "I always did like you on top."
Sam sneered and rolled her eyes. "You're such a prat!" She made to roll off of him and he took the chance to get back on top. They wrestled for a few more minutes but in the end, he wound up on top again. He leaned in close and her eyes widened. "What the bloody hell do you think you are doing?"
He slightly smiled before kissing her. She fought against him for a moment before responding. She ran her fingers threw his hair as his hands roamed her body. His body leaned into her and she moaned in his mouth. He pulled back and smiled brightly. "I told you, you wanted me."
She glowered at him. She quickly kicked him in the groin again and he rolled off of her. She rolled away from him and caught her breath. "You're such an arrogant ponce!"
"You've got to stop kicking me in my…special area!" Sirius groaned. "There goes any chance to have children!"
She let out a small laugh. "Then I did the world a favor!"
He rolled his eyes and cautiously stood up. "You're completely hysterical! You're a real laugh riot!"
"I try!"
"Stop trying so damn hard!"
"What the bloody hell is your problem! You spied on me and invaded my privacy yet again! I'm the angry one!"
Sirius glared at her. "First, you say that I was just a rebound, then you keep kicking me in my family jewels and thirdly, you say I'm bad at sex! I have a right to be angry!"
"I said that I thought that you might be a rebound! There's a difference! You deserved to be kicked in the family jewels because you kept senselessly attacking me! And I only said you were bad at sex to make you angry and to get back at you for insinuating that I'll sleep with just about anyone!"
He stepped closer to her and she took a step back. He rolled his eyes. "I'm not going to tackle you again!" He stood right in front of her and then pulled her to him. He pushed her against the wall and inwardly smiled when she kissed him back. His hands greedily roamed her body as she pulled him closer to her. They pulled apart and were breathing heavily. "You want me so bad."
Sam groaned and kneed him in his privates. He fell to his knees in front of her and groaned. "Stay away from me, Black! If you don't, you'll be sorry!" She left him leaning against the wall groaning in pain.
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Sam and Sirius were glaring at each other during breakfast the next day. James, Lily, and Remus shared a smile. "How many times did he kiss you?" Lily asked as if she was doing some sort of check list.
Sam gave her a look and grunted. "Twice."
"Did you grope my sister?" James asked in an accusing tone.
Sirius smiled brightly at Sam. "Yes, I did! Twice!"
"How many times did you kick him in the…privates after we left?" Remus asked with a smile.
Sam practically glowed when she answered. Sirius scowled at the memory. "I got him two more times."
"Brilliant!" Lily exclaimed. Sam and Sirius gave her a weird look. "Five galleons all around!" James and Remus laughed.
They looked at them in surprise. "You made a bet about our fight?" They yelled. They glared at each other. "Don't say what I say!" They sneered. "I'll say whatever I want!"
"And the fight continues! Damn, we're good!" James said laughing.
"I can't believe you lot made a bet about our fight." Sirius said with a smile. "I've got to say that I'm really impressed."
"It wasn't just one! We made a couple and won every time! You two are so predictable at times! Just shag and get it over with!" Lily said while rolling her eyes. She noticed that they were staring at her in amusement. "What?" She asked innocently.
Sam smirked. "My advice really must have helped you a lot!"
She blushed when they laughed. "Shove off, Potter!"
They got up and started walking to class. Sam rolled her eyes when Sirius poked her in the side. "What is your problem now?"
He laughed. "Stop being so bitter!"
"What are you talking about?" Lily asked.
Sirius smirked. "She's just upset that she practically admitted to still wanting me."
"I did not!"
"You kissed me back!"
"So, what does that prove!"
"Come off it, Sam! You want me and you're just sad because I don't want you!"
Lily, James, and Remus rolled their eyes. Sirius was so full of it sometimes it even amazed them. "You don't want me?" She asked incredulously.
"That's right!"
"Prove it!"
"How!"
Sam ripped open her shirt and their eyes went wide. "I'm blind! I'm blind!" James groaned while putting a hand over his eyes.
She smiled as Sirius gazed dreamily at her exposed top half. "Now, tell me that you don't still want me!"
All Sirius could do was stutter. "What the bloody hell is the hold up!" They turned and saw Lucius Malfoy and Narcissa Black glaring at them.
Lucius' mouth opened in shock as he greedily stared at Sam. "What the bloody hell are you gaping at, Malfoy!" James growled.
Sam smirked at Sirius' dumbfounded face and closed her shirt. "I think I just proved my point."
"When did you get that?" Lily asked.
"Get what?" Sam asked.
She rolled her eyes. "When did you get that belly piercing?"
Sirius shook himself out of his daze and started walking with them. "How the hell did you notice that when she just exposed herself in front of us, my git of a cousin, and Malfoy?"
Lily laughed. "Unlike you, I wasn't busy drooling over her bra!"
Sam laughed as James continued to glare at Lucius. "I did it a week after my break up with the witless wonder over there! I found a charm to lessen the pain and just did it."
They heard James yell a hex and heard a thud. Lucius was down on the ground turning blue and appeared to be tied up with invisible rope. Narcissa leaned over him and gasped. "That will teach you to stare at my sister, Malfoy!"
They laughed and walked away. "James, that was brilliant!" Sam exclaimed.
He glared at her. "Did you have to expose yourself like that?"
She rolled her eyes. "I had a point to prove! Plus, I had on a bra! No one saw anything important!"
"You just like to show your chest off to anyone!" Sirius said.
Sam stopped and glared at him. "What are you implying, Black?"
"Ten galleons says she punches him after he answers." Lily whispered to Remus and James. They nodded.
"I'm just saying that you will use any excuse to show anyone your body!"
"Excuse me?"
"What! It's the truth!"
"I hate you!" She yelled before punching him in the eye. He fell to the floor and groaned as she walked away.
"She's really got to stop hitting me!" He grunted.
"Stop saying something stupid and she will stop hitting you…so much." Remus said while helping him up.
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Sirius stood by the doors to the Great Hall. There was a piece of mistletoe hanging and he thought it was the perfect plan to get Sam to talk to him. She had ignored him all day except when he poked her in between classes and she punched him again. He honestly couldn't understand what her problem was. They used to fight like this all the time but she would have usually started talking to him by now. He saw her coming closer to the door with her friends and he smiled evilly when she stopped short right outside the door. "Are you scared to walk through the door, Sammy?"
Sam glared at him. "What are you up to?"
He smiled as if he had a halo over his head but she still saw his horns peeking through. "I have absolutely no idea what you are talking about. I'm just standing here waiting for you, dear friend." Her eyes narrowed into thin slits. "You are acting very paranoid, Sammy."
"Step away from the door and then I'll come in." Sirius had a giddy smile on his face as he took a giant step back. She eyed him cautiously before slowly walking through the door. Once she was under the mistletoe, he grabbed her and pulled her close to him. She pushed him away. "What the hell do you think you are doing?"
He rolled his eyes and laughed. "It's a tradition, Sam."
She rolled her eyes. "It's not a tradition to arrange the kiss."
"It doesn't matter how it happens just as long as there is a kiss."
She smiled. "You want a kiss?" He smiled brightly and nodded. "A kiss is what you'll get." She barely kissed his cheek and he pouted. She saw Sarah stomping her way to them and Sam's smile grew. "Oh Sirius, I think you're in trouble."
"What do you mean?" He followed her gaze and inwardly groaned. "Just what I need!" He muttered. Sam walked away and sat down with their friends just as Sarah reached him. He put on a fake smile. "Hey there, Sarah!" They began to argue.
Sam smiled brightly as she heard them fight. She ate happily and noticed James staring at her closely. "What are you looking at?"
James watched her continuing to eat and slightly smiled. "I'm glad to see that you are eating still." She smiled. "Have you been taking your potions and clearing your mind at night?"
She rolled her eyes. "Have you stopped being a git?" He gave her a look and she sighed. "Yes, I have, I promise." She nodded towards her friends. "They watch me do it. They want to make sure that I continue to take care of myself."
"That's good." James said with a sigh of relief.
She leaned her head on his shoulder for a minute while smiling at him. "Thanks for the concern but I'm doing much better, Jimmybean. I learned my lesson and I'm not going to make the same mistake again."
He wrapped his arm around her shoulders and squeezed her to him. "I just want to make sure that my Sammabelle is ok." She blushed and laughed. "I'm entitled to worry about you, you know? That comes with the job of being an older brother."
Sam giggled and hugged him. "I know and I appreciate that. You are the only older brother I've got and I think I can freely admit that I got the best one of all." He blushed.
They went back to eating and talking with their friends but quickly stopped when they heard Sirius's voice. "What the hell is your problem? We're just friends!"
"Do you want to be with her? Do you actually love her?" Sarah grumbled.
Sirius groaned. Of course he wanted her and loved her but he wasn't read to admit it. "No, I don't! I'm with you, aren't I?" She pouted and nodded. He resisted the urge to roll his eyes. "Sarah, stop acting this way! I-I like you, not Sam. What happened between us is over and it didn't mean anything! How many times do I have to tell you that!" Sirius noticed his friends staring at him in utter disappointment and the hurt look in Sam's eyes broke his heart. "Oh shit." He muttered. He really didn't want her to hear that part.
Sarah wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him. "Oh Sirius, I'm sorry! I love you too!"
Sirius walked over to his friends and cautiously sat down next to Sam. She refused to acknowledge his presence. He sighed just before beginning to eat. Sam finished and stood up. "I have to go to the library to finish up some work. I'll see you lot later." They nodded and Sirius followed her. He stopped her by the door and she looked at him with no emotion. "What do you want, Black? You're not going to try to kiss me again, are you?"
"I'm sorry you had to hear that. I just had to shut Sarah up." She looked at him with a bored expression on her face and merely shrugged. Sirius groaned. "Why do you have to be like that? I'm trying to apologize!"
She tried to walk away but he stopped her. "What do you want? You apologized and that's fine. I know that our relationship meant nothing to you and I've accepted it! Just let me go!"
"I can't do that! You're angry and we have to resolve this!" He looked up at the mistletoe and slightly smiled at her. "You can't leave until you kiss someone…me, for instance."
He leaned in but she pushed him away. "I don't have to kiss you if I don't want to!" Severus pushed his way past Sirius and she stopped him. She kissed Severus in front of everyone. The room went silent as Sirius scowled. "I kissed someone, are you happy now?" Sirius shook his head in disbelief and she smiled at Severus. "Severus, would you like to go to the library with me?"
Severus smirked at Sirius. "Yes, I would."
They walked out, holding hands. Sirius felt the room staring at him and heard rapid whispering. He growled before following them. He caught up to them on the landing. "Did you think that was funny, Potter!"
Sam turned around and smiled. "Yes, I did."
"Are you bitter because she chose to kiss me in front of everyone instead of you, Black?" Severus smirked.
Sirius pulled out his want and pointed it at Severus. Sam stood in front of him. "What are you going to do, Sirius? Are you going to hex us both?"
"Get out of the way, Sam!" Sirius grunted.
"I will not! Leave us alone!" They walked away but Sirius ran after them and grabbed her arm. "What are you doing! Let me go!"
Sirius got in her face. "Why should I! I thought you liked guys grabbing at you!"
Sam sneered. "What the hell are you implying?"
He shrugged. "I think you know! How many guys have you slept with since you've been back!"
Sam's eyes slightly watered and he immediately regretted saying that. "Why do you care! I was just a toy to you!"
"I was a rebound to you!"
"No, you weren't!"
"We have to talk, Sam!"
She groaned before turning to Severus, who seemed to be enjoying the show. "Severus, I'll meet you in the library. I have to talk to this moron." He nodded and kissed her. Sam slightly laughed but glared when she turned back to Sirius. "What?"
"How could you let him kiss you? Are you that pathetic that you let anyone touch you!"
She slapped him. "Stop implying that I'm a whore! I'm not a whore!"
Sirius stopped her from leaving. "Was I just a rebound?"
"No, you weren't! I love…loved you with my whole heart! If you were a rebound like Chris and Michael then I wouldn't have been with you! I wouldn't have…" She looked away and blushed.
He sighed. "Then why did you say it?"
She shrugged. "I wanted to make sense out of what happened between us. I wished it was a rebound so it would be easier to let go but I couldn't!"
Sirius hugged her. "It hurt when I heard you say that. I don't want to be some guy that was just some rebound to you."
"You're not. You mean…meant so much to me." He kissed her but she pulled away. Sam walked away from and leaned against one of the pillars. "It hurts to hear what you think about me."
He stood next to her and sighed. "You're not a whore, Sammy. I said that because I was angry."
Sam looked at him with pathetic eyes. "I've only slept with you and Remus because I was in love with the two of you. I only will be with someone I love. Why can't you understand that?"
"I do understand that. I just get so jealous at the thought of you with someone else."
"Why? You're with Sarah, and you didn't love me. There's no reason for you to be jealous."
Sirius kissed her and was glad when she kissed him back. "I may be with Sarah but I've only ever lo-" He was cut off by her kissing his neck. He pulled her closer and hungrily kissed her. He untucked her blouse from skirt and unbuttoned her top buttons. She loosened his tie and opened the top buttons to his shirt and held him tightly. "I want to be with you again, Sam." He grunted in her ear as she went back to kissing his neck.
"I knew you still wanted me." She laughed.
He smiled. "I do. I can't help it. No one makes me feel the way you do." He nibbled on her ear and she shivered. "Be with me again, Sam."
"I want to be with you but we can't."
"Why not?"
"You're with Sarah. All this kissing that we've done has to stop. It's not fair to any of us, including Sarah. You love each other and I can't keep getting in the way of that."
Sirius massaged her back and pressed into her. She bit her lip but quickly stopped when he sucked on her bottom lip. "We can just pretend. My room is free."
She ran her fingers through his long hair and looked into his eyes. "I promised to meet Severus. I can't just ditch him like that."
"Yes, you can." She gave him a look. "If you didn't have to meet him, would you come with me to my room?"
"Yes, I would even though I know I shouldn't." He smiled. "Kiss me again before I have to go."
"Whatever you want, Sammy." He leaned in and kissed her again.
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Sam walked into the library with her hair disheveled, her shirt wrinkled, and a blush on her face. Severus stared at her in amusement as she sat down. "What happened to you?" He asked.
Sam awkwardly smiled at him. "Sirius and I got into a fight…again. We tend to attack each other when that happens."
He laughed which surprised the hell out of her. "I can see that." She blushed. "Did you hurt him?"
She shrugged. "I did…in a way. Did I miss anything?"
Severus looked across the room and she followed his gaze. Lucius was staring at her while Narcissa talked his ear off. Sam sneered at him. "You missed Lucius asking me if I've ever seen your purple bra." She laughed. "I think purple is his new favorite color."
She groaned. "I really wish he never saw that! I've caught him leering at me all day!"
He laughed and poked in her the side. "That will teach you to open your shirt in the middle of the hall."
Sam blushed. "I had a point to prove and I did!"
He blushed when she gave him a brief hug. "From what I heard from Malfoy, you proved your point very well."
She cringed. "Don't remind me! He better stop staring at like that or James will hex him again." They saw James glaring at Lucius. "I'd pay to see that."
Sirius walked in and smiled at Sam. She blushed when he winked at her. He sat down next to James and Lily. They saw his disheveled appearance and laughed. "I see your fight with Sam went well." Lily said.
He lightly laughed. "It did, indeed. If she didn't promise to meet with Snivellus, we would not be in the library right now."
James groaned. "Padfoot, that's my sister you are talking about."
"I know, Prongs." He said while rolling his eyes. "Your sister just so happens to be the same girl I love. Get over it already!"
"As much as I love the two of you fighting, get back with her soon if you can! I can't stand her hanging all over Snivellus like that. And if Malfoy keeps looking at her like that, I'll hex him so damn bad! Plus, I can't stand Sarah at all!" James grumbled.
Sirius smiled as Lily sighed. "I'm working on it, Prongs. Believe me, I'm working on it!"
"So, are you going to the ball this year?" Sam asked.
Severus shrugged. "I am being forced to attend. Are you going with anyone?"
She smiled. "Yes, I am. Remus asked me." He nodded. "I'll save you a dance or two if you like?"
He looked at her closely and slightly smiled. "You can if you want."
"I think I will." Lucius left and gave her one more creepy look. She cringed once again. "I'm glad he's gone now."
Severus lightly laughed. "He has become quite obsessed with you since this morning. I don't think it helped much when I told him the colors that I've seen you in."
Her eyes widened and she let out a loud gasp. "You didn't!" He sheepishly nodded. "Why would you do that?"
He sighed. "He wouldn't stop questioning me. He knew something happened between us. So, I told him about the black one, the…hot pink one, and the blue one." She blushed. "I am sorry. You only have to worry if he starts to wear anything hot pink. That color really excited him."
She laughed and poked him in the side. "You're such a prat! You're luck that I don't hex you!" He laughed in response.
"What are they talking about that is so damn funny!" Sirius sneered.
Lily rolled her eyes. "They are just friends! Why does it bother you so much?"
He gave her a look. "He's the enemy! Plus, she should be with me right now, not him!"
"Well, it's your fault that she isn't." James said. "If you weren't such an ass, she would be with you."
Before Sirius could reply, Sarah came in and sat down next to him. "Hey Sirius! I missed you!"
The three of them inwardly groaned at the sight of her and rolled their eyes. "You just saw him." Lily muttered.
Sarah glared at her. "I can miss him I want to! What's your problem?"
"I think it has something to do with your incredibly whiny voice." James said.
Sirius laughed and Sarah narrowed her eyes. "Good one Prongs! Sarah, don't look at me like that. He was only joking." She started to babble in his ear but he was distracted when Sam walked by. She smiled and winked at him. He sighed happily. He didn't understand it but Sam had this way about her. The mere sight of her made him feel elated. "That's great, Sarah. I've got to go. I'll see you lot later!"
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Sam walked out of the library and sighed. She didn't understand it but Sirius had this way about him. The mere sight of him made her feel elated. The thought of the even that happened earlier that night brought a smile to her face. She wanted to go with him so badly but knew it wasn't right. She really hated Sarah. If it wasn't for her, they would be in his room right now. "Hello Potter."
She stopped and turned around. She sneered and groaned. Lucius Malfoy was smiling, if you could call it that, at her and was staring at her in a way that made her skin crawl. "What do you want, Malfoy?"
He stepped closer to her. "That was quite the display you put on this morning." She rolled her eyes. "You could have just told me that you wanted me. You didn't have to make such a grand gesture like that."
Sam slapped his hand away when he went to touch her. "You disgust me. I wouldn't touch you with a ten foot pole someone else was holding."
Lucius let out a creepy laugh. "You shouldn't deny your feelings for me anymore. It's obvious you've been suppressing your feelings for me."
"The only feeling I have for you is revulsion! Leave me alone!"
He forcefully grabbed at her but she pushed him away. "You don't want me to leave you alone. We could find a spare room and-"
She slapped him. "Don't you dare finish that sentence! I don't want you! I want you to disappear! Stop staring at me like I'm a piece of meat!"
Lucius leaned in to kiss her but she, once again, pushed him away. "What's your problem? I can make you forget about those mudblood loving freaks you waste your time with. You should realize that I'm better than Severus. Come with me and forget."
Sam smiled shyly. "What about Narcissa?"
He started to play with her hair. "She doesn't have to know." He leaned in again. "I could teach you things and show you things that you've never experienced before."
He was an inch away from her when she punched him and kicked him in the groin. He fell to the floor and groaned. "I don't want to learn anything from the likes of you! You are a disgusting toerag!"
"Sam, are you ok?"
She looked over and saw Sirius with his wand out. "I'm fine, Sirius. I just had to let Malfoy know what I really think of him."
Sirius quickly walked over to her and hugged her. "It's always nice to see you hitting someone else." She laughed and they started walking away. "Nice work by the way."
"I try."
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Sam was leaning against the wall while she was talking to Michael. He had just broken up with Krista. She smiled at him. "I'm sorry about you and Krista." He shrugged. "Are you two still going to the ball together?"
Michael sighed and nodded. "We planned on going while we were together. There's no reason to take someone else. The Ball's tonight and there's no one else to ask." She nodded. "Do you have a date?"
She nodded and smiled. "I'm going with Remus." He made a face and she laughed. "I'll save you a dance if you like?"
He smiled and kissed her cheek. "How about you save me two…three dances?"
"Whatever you want, Michael."
Michael tickled her and picked her up and spun her around. "Whatever I want?"
Sam laughed and rested her forehead on his. "Oh, I love you, Michael!"
He stopped and stared at her. "You love me?" She smiled brightly and nodded. "I love you too, Sammy."
She blushed. "I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you in my life. You're such a good friend to me."
Michael's face fell slightly before he smiled. "You're a good friend to me too."
She touched his cheek. "Are you ok? You look a little sad."
He shook his head. "I'm not sad. I'm with you right now. That always makes me happy." She bit her lip and blushed. He leaned in and her eyes widened. "Do I make you happy, Sam?"
Sam nodded quickly. "Of course you do." He was an inch away from her. "Michael, what are you doing?"
"I've been in love with Sam since I met her!"
Michael's head snapped back. He looked around and saw Sirius with James and the others. They looked like they were fighting. "Did you hear that?" Sam asked.
He shook his head. "I didn't hear a thing."
She sighed. "I guess I'm hearing things."
Michael took her by the hand and led her away before she could see Sirius. "Let's take a walk." He wrapped his arm around her and smiled when she put her arm around his waist. He stopped and looked at her before leaning in again.
"Michael, what are you going?"
"That's what I'd like to know." They separated and saw the group staring at them.
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The boys were walking down the hall and saw Sam talking with Michael. They saw him whisper something in her ear and she laughed and hugged him. Remus rolled his eyes while Sirius scowled. His blood boiled as he watched them talk and hug again. "I hope she doesn't start going out with him again." Chris groaned.
Sirius felt a new found respect for Chris at that moment. "I thought you two were best mates."
Chris sighed. "We were. We were as close as you and James are."
"What happened?" James asked.
He shrugged. "It all went downhill when we started dating your sister. He became really possessive of her. He would try to exclude me from hanging out with her and it got annoying so I started to make fun of him. He knew that Sam and I were only going out to get over Hannah and Remus but it still bothered him."
"That's stupid." Remus said.
"Don't I know it. I mean, I know he's been in love with her since his second year but that's no reason for him to act the way he did. Yes, Sam and I kissed once or twice…three times actually but we just did that to see what it was like. We have always been close since that day we got on the Quidditch team together. There's never been any…romantic feelings between us."
Frank smiled. He saw the relieved look on Sirius' face. "Well, it looks like Black is happy about hearing that."
Sirius smirked. "That was very funny, Longbottom. Yes, I am happy about hearing that. It means that I have one less person to deal with to get Sam back."
"You want her back?" Kevin asked.
"Yes, I do. Why?"
Kevin slightly shrugged. "I just think it's very convenient that you only want her back when someone else shows an interest in her."
"Excuse me?"
Frank groaned. "Come on, Sirius! You've got to admit that when you had her you treated her like crap. When she slept with Lupin and was sent away for her heart condition that was when you realized you wanted her. It seems to me that you only want her so that no one else can have her."
James and Remus stood between Sirius and the others so a fight wouldn't break out. Sirius was beyond upset. "Where the hells is this coming from!" Sirius grunted.
Frank glared at him. "You lot aren't the only ones that care about her, you know? She has been friends with us for a long time. She's the reason why we didn't smash your face in when we found out about you cheating on her. We really wanted to but Sam asked us not to. She didn't want you hurt and she didn't want James to find out that his best friend could careless about his sister."
"I've been in love with Sam since I met her!" They were shocked by this. Sirius was even surprised by this confession. "I made a mistake, ok? You lot didn't help things by always telling me that she had me whipped. Maybe if you would have shut up once in a while, we would still be together!"
They stared at him in disbelief. "Please, don't tell us that one of the reasons that you broke up with her was because we said that." Kevin muttered.
Sirius looked away from him. "I didn't say that."
James glared at him. "You didn't have to! They said the same thing to me about Lily but you didn't see me break up with her!"
"That's got to be the stupidest thing that I've ever heard!" Chris said while shaking his head.
"Padfoot, what the hell is wrong with you?" Remus asked in disgust.
Sirius glared at Sam and Michael. He kept touching her hair. "What do you want me to say? I was a prat! I fully admit to that! It was all too much, ok? We were fine before everyone knew about us! Then everywhere I went, people told me she had me whipped! People said it wasn't going to last and she deserved someone better! People who weren't even friends with her said that I would just hurt her! Sarah was constantly following me around and I gave in! If I could go back and change it, I would!" They shook their heads in response.
They continued walking down the hall and Chris' eyes narrowed when he saw Michael leaning into Sam. "Michael, what are you doing?" She asked.
"That's what I'd like to know." They separated and saw the group staring at them. Chris sneered at him. "How pathetic are you, mate?"
Sam rolled her eyes. "Chris, leave him alone! We were just talking!"
Chris glared at him for a moment before smiling at Sam. "I'm just looking out for you, Sammy. You don't need a ponce like that hanging all over you."
Michael sneered. He pulled Sam closer to him and smirked at them. "What's it to you, Anderson? Are you jealous that she would rather be with me than you?"
Chris got in his face as Sam was trying to break free of Michael's hold. "She will never want you!"
Sam got in between them. "Would you two stop acting like such prats! You two were best mates!"
"We were obviously not good enough friends before!" Michael said.
"That's obviously true with the way you acted!" Chris grunted.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
They started to pull Sam between them by her arms. "You acted like a git when we went out with her! You were too damn possessive! She only used you as a rebound but you were too thick to realize it!"
Sirius rolled his eyes and grabbed Sam by the waist and got her away from them. She smiled at him in gratitude as he wrapped his arms around her from behind. He kissed her cheek while glaring at Michael. "You two were rebounds. Stop treating her like she's your property!"
Michael and Chris rolled their eyes at him. "That's rich coming from you!" They said in unison. They glared at each other.
Sirius smirked. "You just don't know how to treat a woman as special as Sam." He pulled her closer to him and kissed her neck slowly as he glared at the boys. She blushed and looked down at the ground. "She needs to be respected and treated like a queen."
They rolled their eyes. "Sirius, stop laying it on so damn thick! We're choking over!" James grumbled.
"What the hell is going on with you lot?" Sam asked.
Chris turned to Michael. "Just because you've been in love with her since you're second year doesn't give you the right to act like a git!"
Sam's and Michael's eyes widened. "I told you that in confidence!" Michael said through gritted teeth.
Sam felt Sirius' arms tighten around her. "Chris, you've got to be mistaken! He only had a crush on me last year. Michael isn't in love with me. He's over his crush. Isn't that right, Michael?"
Michael blushed and looked away from her. "Sammy…" He trailed off. He was so embarrassed. This wasn't the way that he wanted her to find out.
Chris looked at Sam. She looked surprised as hell. "Did you also know that the only reason he started talking to you when you were a bitch, I'm sorry but you were one, was because Lupin and Black asked him to keep an eye on you?"
She stared at Michael. "Is that true? You only wanted to spend time with me because they asked you to?"
Michael looked like he was in pain. "They did ask me to keep an eye on you but I was worried about you too. I only told them certain things. I didn't tell them everything you told me."
Sam's face fell. The boys shifted uncomfortably. "I trusted you, Michael. You were my friend."
"Sammy, I'm still your friend. We were just worried about you."
"Sirius, what the hell are you doing with her like that?"
They groaned when they heard Sarah's voice. Sam stared at Michael like she never saw him before in her life. Sirius rolled his eyes. "I'm not doing anything, Sarah! We are just hanging out!"
"Get away from him, Potter!"
Sam tore her eyes away from Michael. She couldn't believe that he only hung around with her because Remus and Sirius asked him to. Sam glared at Sarah. She picked a wrong time to mess with Sam. "I won't get away from him."
Sarah's eyes narrowed. Sam pushed Sirius against the wall and kissed him deeply. Sirius' eyes widened and it took him barely a second to respond. The boys stared in shock while Sarah was fuming. Sam untucked his shirt and unbuttoned a part of his shirt and loosened his tie. Her hands went under his shirt and she smiled as he gasped when she ran her nails down his chest. She bit his lower lip and began to suck on it. He was greedily grabbing at her. Sirius slightly jumped when she grabbed his bum. He slid his hand under her shirt and rubbed her back in an excited manner. He was unaware of the people around him at that moment. She started nibbling his ear and he had a dreamy expression on his face. The boys laughed at this. Sam pressed her body into his and he heard her lightly laugh in his mouth when she felt his reaction to what was happening between them. Sirius ran his hands down her body and rested his hands on her bum and started to rub it. James groaned as he took off his glasses and handed them to Remus. Remus looked at him oddly. "Why are you giving me these?"
James nodded towards Sirius and Sam. "I'd rather be blind than have to see my best mate grope my sister…again."
Remus laughed and rolled his eyes. "Take your glasses back. I think Sam is almost done annoying Sarah."
Sirius had his hand tangled in her hair while the other continued to rub her bum. He moved his hand from her bum and tried to sneak it up her skirt. "Whoa! I don't think so!" James grunted.
Sam pulled away and smiled when Sirius protested. "Hey! We're not finished!" He groaned.
Sam lightly touched his face and smiled brightly. "Did you enjoy that, Sirius?"
Sirius nodded quickly and stared at her like he couldn't get enough of the sight of her. "That was…wow!"
Sam smirked as she traced her fingers along his mouth and laughed when he affectionately bit them. "Do you still want me or do you want to be with Sarah?"
Sirius gave her a perplexed look. "Sarah who?"
The boys laughed as Sarah's face fell. Sam's smile widened at that. "Do you still want me, Sirius?"
He nodded eagerly. "That was…wow!"
"It most certainly was." She turned to Sarah. "Now, what were you saying?"
Sarah took a step closer but Sam stood her ground. She wasn't afraid of her. "You little slut! You stay away from my boyfriend!"
She rolled her eyes. "That obviously didn't work the last time you said that." She smiled when Sirius nibbled her ear. "Sirius, do you want me to stay away from you?" He shook his head and tried to kiss her neck but she moved away slightly. She lightly laughed when he whimpered. She looked back at Sarah. "Would you like me to kiss him again?"
"You can kiss me again!" Sirius exclaimed. The boys stifled their laughter.
"You're pathetic, Potter! You're just jealous he's with me! If you and your little friends knew how to satisfy their men, then they wouldn't have come to me!" Sarah yelled.
Sam's eyes widened. "What are you talking about? You were only with Sirius."
Sarah smirked. "Ask them! They know what I'm talking about, whore!"
Sam turned to look at the boys. "What is she talking about?" The boys didn't look at her and she just shook her head in disbelief. "I can't believe this. James? Remus? Did you sleep with her?"
They shook their heads. "She came on to me while we were going out but I swear I turned her down!" Remus said.
"Same goes for me. She offered herself to me last year but I said no!" James said.
She nodded and stared at the others. They wouldn't look at her. "Tell me who has slept with her besides Sirius!"
Sirius stared between his friends and Sarah. He just shook his head in disbelief. "You've got to be kidding me!" He muttered.
"Sammy, it was before Alice and I started going out!" Frank sighed.
Kevin nodded. "Patty and I started going out a month after it happened."
Sam gave them a disgusted look before turning to look at Chris and Michael. "Well?"
Chris looked away from her. "It was just after Hannah and I broke up. It was before we went out. It was a horrible mistake!"
Michael was glaring at the ground. Sam was looking at him with such hurt in her eyes that it made him feel sick. "I slept with her too."
Sam's lips pursed together. "When did you sleep with her?"
"Why are you getting so upset that he slept with her?" James asked.
"I just want to know when."
Michael sighed. "The night we broke up."
"Before or after?" She grunted.
"Of course it was after! I would have never slept with her while we were together! You have to believe me, Sammy!"
Sam looked away from him. "Why should I?"
Sarah smirked. "Are you upset, whore? Your ex-boyfriends and your friends slept with me because you and your little friends couldn't hack it!"
Sam was fuming. She punched Sarah right in the face and Sarah fell to the ground. "How am I the whore? You slept with more than twice the amount of people I have! At least they aren't ashamed that they were with me! Did you see the disgust and guilt on their faces when they admitted to sleeping with you?"
Sarah rolled her eyes. "This isn't about them! This is about the fact that Sirius cheated on you with me. He couldn't stand you and wanted a real woman!"
Sirius winced when Sam jumped on top of Sarah and punched her. They began to wrestle on the ground. "I've always wanted two girls to fight over me!" Sirius said. The boys watched them closely and laughed.
"I wish two girls would fight over me." James muttered.
"It really is a beautiful thing." Remus said with a bright smile. The boys laughed at him.
"What's going on here?" The boys looked up and saw the girls running over to them.
James smiled at Lily. "Sarah called Sam a whore and Sarah confessed to sleeping with these guys and she also said that Sam wasn't woman enough to hold onto Sirius. So, Sam punched her."
Lily's eyes widened. "You slept with her!"
James shook his head. "No way! Remus and I were the only ones with enough sense not to sleep with the likes of her!"
Alice, Patty, and Monica glared at Frank, Kevin, and Chris. Lilac and Mary were too busy watching the fight. They knew for a fact that Sarah was going to pay for saying that to Sam. "When did you sleep with her!" The girls yelled.
The boys quickly explained but it didn't seem to matter. They were already in the doghouse before they even opened their mouths. Lily tried to break up the fight but soon joined in when Sarah spoke. "Shove off, Evans! Sooner or later James will stop wasting his time with you and come look for me!"
"You little bitch!" Lily yelled. "Move over, Sam! She's mine!"
Sirius smirked at James. "It looks like you got your wish, Prongs!" James laughed.
"Alice, it was before we started going out! It didn't mean anything!"
Alice's eyes were filled with tears. "You said that I was your first."
Frank looked like he was in pain. "I-I know. I'm sorry. I was just embarrassed that my first time was with her." He went to hug her but she slapped him and pushed him away. "Alice, I'm sorry."
Kevin yelped in pain. Patty was slapping him with such force. "You lying son of a bitch! You said you never understood why Sirius was with a slut like her! You said that you would never touch the likes of her!"
He tried to block her hands but it was useless. "Patty, it was a mistake! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to lie!"
"Yes, you did! You're a disgusting lying jerk!"
Chris stared at Monica. "How mad are you?"
Monica glared at him. "I'm very upset that you actually lowered yourself enough to sleep with her. She is nothing but a piece of trash! Look at what she did to Sirius and Sam! She isn't worth a damn thing!"
"I know that! I was just depressed about Hannah and me breaking up!"
She rolled her eyes. "Oh, another winner you wasted your time with!" Chris threw up his hands in frustration.
"It's not my fault that your friends couldn't keep their men satisfied!" Sarah yelled.
The girls' heads snapped up and glared at Sarah. They dropped their bags and went to help out Lily and Sam. The boys' eyes widened. "Oh shit! She's in for it now!" Sirius said. The boys nodded. "I warned Sarah to never piss off Lily and Sam. Now, she has to deal with them all! By the time this is over, I'll need a new date for the ball." He looked at Remus. "Do you mind if I share Sam with you?"
Remus smiled. "You're asking first this time?" Sirius rolled his eyes. "Even if you still go with Sarah, I have a feeling that I'll be sharing Sam with you anyway." Sirius nodded slowly. "We should be used to sharing her by now."
"Shouldn't we try and stop them? Before Sarah gets really hurt?" Michael said making no attempt to move.
The boys shook their heads. "How many times in your life are you going to see something like this?" Kevin muttered while watching the girls in a trance like state.
Sarah screamed as Alice pulled her hair. "You little slut! You don't ever go near Frank again!"
"Get her, Alice!" Frank cheered.
"Shut up, Frank!" Alice grunted.
The boys sighed when Sarah screamed again. They reluctantly pulled the girls off of Sarah. Alice and Patty pulled away from Kevin and Frank. Monica let Chris hug her. "Don't you dare touch me!" Alice yelled at Frank. "I trusted you!" Frank ran after Alice. "Get away from me, you creep!" Alice yelled when Frank tried to stop her from walking away.
Patty started smacking Kevin again. "I can't believe you!"
Kevin walked down the hall with her and winced every time she hit him. "It was a mistake, Patty!"
Lily hugged James. "I'm glad that you had enough sense to say no to her."
James kissed her and smiled. "So am I."
Remus picked up Sam and hugged her tightly. Sam wrapped her arms around his neck and rested her forehead against his. He kissed her. "Are you ok?" He asked with a smile.
Sam nodded. "I'm fine. Are you mad at me?"
"Why would I be mad?"
"For kissing Sirius like that and for fighting Sarah."
"I'm not mad." He smiled and kissed her again. "It was entertaining."
She hugged him and laughed. They started walking down the hall when Michael stopped her. "Sam, can we talk?"
Sam glared at him while leaning into Remus. "What's there to talk about? Someone I thought was my friend lied to me about wanting to spend time with me. This so-called friend also slept with the same piece of trash that stole my boyfriend. What are you going to say to make that ok?"
Remus sighed. He may not have liked Michael but he felt bad for him at that moment. "Sam, he made a mistake. Sirius and I were worried and asked him to look out for you because you wouldn't let us. Michael was worried about you too. As for sleeping with Sarah, which I will never understand, he knows it was a mistake. He obviously feels bad about it. You should talk to him."
Michael was surprised by Remus defending him. "Thank you, Remus." Remus nodded. "Sam, can we talk?"
Sam reluctantly nodded and walked over to the corner with Michael. Remus watched them closely. "What do you want to say?" Sam asked.
Michael sighed. "I'm sorry, Sam. I should have told you about talking with Sirius and Remus. We were worried about you and I thought if I said anything you would stop talking to me." She nodded slowly. "I shouldn't have slept with Sarah. It was a moment of weakness that I will always regret. I was upset because we broke up and I thought that if I distracted myself with her then it would be ok."
Sam stared at him closely. "I shouldn't have reacted the way I did. I just thought you of all people had better sense than to sleep with her." He looked away from her. "Michael, you really are my friend, aren't you?"
He nodded eagerly. "Of course I am. Sammy, you are one of my best friends! I hate the thought that you're mad at me."
Sam hugged him. He held her as tight as possible. "I'm not mad at you, Michael. I was just really surprised by what I heard." She smiled at him. "You're one of my best friends and…I love you. I don't want you to think I hate you."
"I don't anymore. I don't want to lose you, Sammy. I don't want to lose our friendship."
She smiled. "We'll always be friends." He smiled. She sighed. "Michael, is what Chris said true? Have you been in love with me since your second year?"
Michael looked away from her but she made him look at her. "I've…had feelings for you, that's true. You don't have to worry though. I am…over you. I don't want things to be awkward between us because of this."
Sam hugged him and smiled. "If you're over me then there's no reason for things to be awkward. I just want us to be okay." He smiled. "I promise to save you those three dances."
He laughed. "Thank you. That would really make my night."
They walked over to Remus and he smiled at them. Sam gave him a kiss while Michael's face fell. He loved her but he knew that she would never feel the same way. He was just some friend to her and that's all he'd ever be. "Is everything ok between you two?" Remus asked.
Sam smiled as he wrapped his arms around her. "We're fine. We're still friends."
Remus gave Michael a sad look. Michael shrugged in response. "I'm sorry." Remus mouthed to him. Michael weakly smiled and nodded.
Sirius sighed as he held Sarah. She was crying into his chest. "I'm sorry, Sirius. I didn't want you to find out this way."
He awkwardly rubbed her back. "I told you not to egg them on like that. You're lucky that they didn't do anything worse."
"I-I know. You were right. I promise I won't do that again. Please, don't leave me."
He inwardly groaned. "I'm right here, Sarah."
Sirius watched Sam hugging Remus while they talked with Michael. He was surprised that he actually felt bad for Michael. He loved Sam almost as long as Sirius had and they both lost their chances with her in some way. Sam looked at him with a guilty expression on her face. "I'm sorry." She mouthed to him. Sirius sadly smiled and winked at her. The three of them walked away while he stayed with Sarah.