Girl Behind The Red Door Confessions

by breathbookslove

On her 17th birthday Brooke's daughter is gifted her mother's diary. She starts to read and begins to see that the stories she's heard only give her parts and pieces this is the truth. And as she reads it she begins to question the people around her and herself while she is in the process of figuring out who she is and who she wants to be. Review reader feedback is important to me.

38. Chapter 38

Girl Behind The Red Door Confessions

Chapter 37

I've been losing my mind.

I've been living a lie.

I've been running away for so long.

I try to put on a face.

And cover my heart.

But I'm needing it now.

So bad.

I don't know how I feel.

Maybe I'm mad

Or maybe I'm

Proud.

Mellie stared back at her unsure of what to say. This woman was responsible for giving her the chance to be a mother to a boy she loved more than anything and had felt privileged to have been able to call her son. And yet her being here. Just the sight of her reminded Mellie of why her being gone all this time had been to her benefit. She never had to worry about sharing Matt and feeling that ache of jealousy whenever Rachel and Mouth were together. He had filled her in on their history. And the pain their parting ways had caused him. Through that though she was able to see glimpses of love in his eyes when he spoke of her. And that terrified her the thought of building a life with him knowing his heart would never fully belong to her made her feel so many emotions at once. But that fear lessened over time.

Looking over at Rachel now. The reflection looking back at her was nothing like she imagined it would be. She saw a woman who had made mistakes but felt and cared a lot more than she let on. A sense of understanding came over Mellie as she spoke.

"Would you like to see a recent picture of Matt and Dakota his daughter.?" Mellie asked looking forward at her. Noticing the way her eyes lit up at the suggestion.

"I would appreciate that but I don't want to make you feel threatened or anything like that." Rachel said in response. Looking back at her.

"I have plenty of photos and videos." "You can keep this one." Mellie said. Putting the picture in the other woman's hands.

Rachel took a breath. As she felt tears well up in her eyes.

"He looks very happy like he's had the best life." "And she is just beautiful." Rachel said. Feeling herself being overcome with emotion.

"We've given him all we can." "And her name is Dakota." Mellie said. Smiling at the picture.

"Do you love him.?" Mellie asked her.

Rachel paused her heart felt heavy with all the emotion she had built up inside it. As she turned and started to speak. "Yes, I do very much." Rachel said. Wiping her eyes. Taking a breath. While she looked away.

Mellie took a deep breath. Pausing as she began to speak.

"I was talking about Mouth."

"And your answer gave me all the confirmation I needed."

"You're in love with him." "And he's in love with you."

Mellie said. The realization sinking in.

"Come to the burning boat festival tonight." "You can meet Matt."

Mellie said. As she got up and headed towards the exit.

"Thank you." Rachel said her voice breaking.

"Just don't break his heart." Mellie said. Swallowing the thump of emotion in her throat.

As she left the restaurant. The door closing behind her.

Rachel sat there for a few minutes longer taking in the picture of the picture in front of her.

And the grace and strength from the woman who had just left her.

A sense of nervousness ran through her. She would be meeting her son. The simple thought alone gave her a sense of peace she couldn't describe.

Deciding to go home and get ready for the festival. Once inside her room. She put the picture by her bed.

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Author's Note: Thoughts on the meeting.? Mellie's offer to Rachel about meeting Matt.? And her realization of Rachel and Mouth.? How do you think Rachel meeting Matt will go.? Thoughts on the chapter.? Review!