**Tara POV**

Tara was pacing again this time though she was pacing at the hospital. Jax was in surgery and it was reaching the 4 hour mark. Tara was going crazy. She didn't know what she would do if she lost Jax. She tried not to think about it but every second the clock ticked her thoughts would become a little more darker. The guys would try and console her but she wasn't listening. She wasn't even speaking to Gemma. No one but Thomas got threw to her. She was so grateful that they had gotten Thomas back but she was to numb to express it. She was numb to everything. she couldn't even see straight.

"You need anything Tara?" Opie asked for what seems the 100th time.

"I need him to be ok Ope" Tara hadn't cried yet. She was holding it in to busy worrying about Jax that she didn't let out her own sorrow but now everything just fell right out of her. She felt her chest cave in and she clutched on to Opie "He has to be ok Ope he can't leave us he can't" she cried "where were you Ope?!" She yelled "Why didn't you protect him" she punched at his chest. Opie grabbed her arms and hugged her tightly "Why didn't any one protect him" Her knees gave out and she crumbled to the floor. Opie got on the floor next to her and took her in his arms once more. She cried into his chest and he let her. He whispered how sorry he was to her several times. He felt extremely guilty. Tara didn't mean to put the blame on him she was just lashing out. She needed him more than the air she breathed. If Jax didn't pull threw she wasn't sure how much of her life she would be able to go threw.

"Family of Jackson Teller?" Some said. Tara jumped up and joined Gemma at her side.

"How is he?" Gemma asked hopeful.

" He coded 2 times but we were able to bring him back. He made it out of surgery but is in very critical condition and he slipped into a coma. He'll be in the ICU till he wakes up. Which were not to sure he'll do. These next few days are going to be the toughest. If he doesn't wake up soon we'll to start talking about other options" He gave Gemma an apologetic look that got Tara pissed off.

"Look doc. You don't know Jax. We do. He is the strongest man that i know. He will wake up. He won't be leaving us so there will never be ANY need to talk about "Other" options. It just ain't happening buddy so take that white lab coat and shove it. Focus on waking him up cause that is and WILL be the ONLY option!" Tara finished angrily.

The doctor sighed and shook his head "And you are?" He referred to her like she as a nuasanace.

"His fiancé and the mother to his child. I would show some respect doc" Opie said from behind her.

"I'm sorry I didn't know" the doctor back tracked. "If you'd like to see him he'll be in his room in a about 20 minutes"

"would I be able to bring our daughter to see him?" She asked. She knew that if anybody would be able to wake him up Kallie would do the trick.

The doctor cleared his throat "Children are allowed yes but I must warn you. It might be frightening for a little girl to her father hooked up to so many monitors"

"You let me worry about my daughter doc." Tara looked at Opie "Can you pick up Kallie and bring her here?" She asked Opie nodded and kissed her forehead before leaving.

Tara wiped her face free of tears. If at any point Jax needed her to be strong it was right now. She turned to Gemma and hugged her close. "He's going to be ok gem. He won't leave his family behind"

"I sure hope your right sweet heart" Gemma cried. Tara had never seen the maticarch so vulnerable. She released her to clay and turned to face the rest of the guys.

"Any one hungry? I'm gonna go grab something to eat before I go see Jax in his room"

"We'll go get it Tara. Don't worry about it." Tig spoke up. Tara went to object but Tig silenced her with a look "I insist. Sit down and relax Kallie will be here soon" Tara sighed and nodded. She wouldn't be able to sit still at all. Not until she saw Jax not until he woke up and not until they went home as a family together safly. After about an hour the nurse finally told them that they can go see Jax.

"Are you Comin Tara?" Gemma asked.

Tara shook her head "No. I'm gonna wait for Kallie and we can go see him together" Gemma nodded and left to go see her son. Tara put her head down on her knees and took some deep breaths. She had to get herself together. For Jax and for Kallie. She knew no one expected her to be ok or act strong but she felt she needed to do it for herself.

"Momma!" She heard Kallie yell. She smiled to herself and stood up. Opie was holding Kallie and Donna was right behind them.

"Hey Tara how is he?" Donna asked.

"He's in critical condition slipped into a coma." Tara sighed and shook her head.

"Oh my god Tara I'm so sorry" Donna hugged her tightly. Tara pulled her off and nodded

"I'm fine" she looked at Opie who gave her an odd look "Not now Ope" she knew he knew she was holding it all in she just didn't want a another breakdown. She needed to be strong. Strong enough to carry the weight of her whole family. She rubbed Kallies back and smiled "Hey princess" Kallie practically jumped into her mothers arms. Tara hugged her little girl tightly and breathed in her innocent scent. She sat down and bounced Kallie in her lap but it seemed Kallie wasn't her usual happy self. She placed her little hand on her mothers cheek and tilted her head. Tara let out a strangled sob. How would she be able to tell her little girl that her father was laying in a hospital bed.

"Momma sad?" Kallie asked and Tara held back her tears as much as possible. She took Kallies hand and kissed her little Palm.

"Just a little bit baby but momma feels better now that your here" she smiled slightly.

"Daddy?" She asked and looked around in search of her father. Tara took several deep breaths.

"Daddy is sick baby. We're going to go see him now. he might look a little scary but he is still daddy" Tara tried to explain. Kallie just looked at her. Of course she didn't really understand. She stood up and situated Kallie on her hip. She would just have to take her chances and see what happened. "I'm gonna go up and see him. I don't know how she'll handle it but if anyone can wake him up it would be her"she sighed.

"He will wake up Tara. He just needs to rest for a bit" Opie put a hand on her shoulder .

"I know. I just wish he could rest at home in our bed or on our honey moon. Not in a hospital bed in Ireland" Tara reached for Kallies toy from the baby bag Donna was holding and handed it to Kallie to play with. "Opie will you come in with me?" Tara a asked him.

"Of course" he wrapped his arm around her shoulders and they walked up to his room. Donna stood behind she was a mess and wouldn't be able to handle seeing jax that way. Tara was greatful she didn't have time to console her to. Gemma was just coming out of the room with clay. She was a mess and her tears hadn't dried since she found out the news.

"I'm gonna take her back to the clubhouse. She needs to rest." Clay told them. Opie and Tara nodded and clay left with Gemma tucked in his side. Tara walked into the hospital room to see Jax hooked up to all kinds of monitors. She silently thanked God there wasn't anything going down his throat. She didn't think Kallie would recognize him if he did. Her little girl began to squirm in her arms and she was reaching for her father. Tara stepped over to his bedside and placed Kallie down gently in a place were she wouldn't be able to pull any wires. She bent down and kissed Jaxs head and told him that she loved him.

"Daddy up!" Kallie hit his chest were her little hand trying to wake him up. It broke Taras heart to see her little girl try to wake her father. When he didn't budge Kallie looked at her mother and uncle than back to her father. "Daddy! Up up up" Kallie tried again. "Kallie baby he's not going to wake up right now daddy needs to rest" Tara tried to explain.

"no!" Kallie all but yelled "daddy up!" She cried out again. Taras let her own tears fall freely this time and Opie wrapped her in his arms. Heaving sobs wracked threw Taras body as she clung to Opie. She could handle most things but she couldn't handle watching her daughter trying to wake up her comatose father.

**Jax POV**

Jax had been watching as his family came in and out of his room and cry over his motionless body. He wanted to get back and console each and everyone of them especially when he saw his daughter trying to wake him up. He wanted nothing more than to open his eyes and at her commands and hold her close. It killed him that he was helpless. He just didn't know how to get back. He tried it all running and jumping wishing for it laying down next to himself nothing worked. He wasn't giving up though. He would try until it was to late.

"Hello son" He heard from behind him. Jax turned and gasped when he saw his father standing before him.

"Dad?" He asked in disbelief.

"In the flesh" John chuckled "Well sorta"

"still a joker I see" Jax shook his head "Your not here to like take me are you?" Jax asked back up.

"No son I'm here to help you get back" he smiled warmly. "If that's what you want"

Jax looked at his father in confusion "What do you mean?"

"Well if you want to go back i can tell you how to do that. But if you want to stay here with me that's also an option" John said patting Jax on the back.

Jax shook his head and looked back at his family. Tara clinging to his Bestfriend for dear life and Kallie trying to wake him up.

"Sorry pop. I can't leave Tara or my daughter."

"Or your son" John said with a smile.

Jaxs head snapped back to his father. "Son?"

John nodded "she doesn't know it yet but she will soon."

Jax looked back at Tara and shook his head "I am so going to be in the dog house when she finds out" he chuckled and ran a hand down his face "She might literally try and cut my dick off"

"Atleast your only getting her knocked up" John put a hand on his sons shoulder and laughed."You have a beautiful family son"

Jax smiled lovingly looking at his family once more "Thanks pop. I wish they could meet you." Jax put his head down and sighed.

"I wish I could meet them too, but I will always be watching over you and them." John turned his son to look at him. "what you and Tara are doing. Trying to find out the truth is the right thing. You need to get to the head of that table before its to late. No one knows the truth but you and Tara are close to finding out. If it gets dangerous -You'll know when it does- pack up your family and leave charming without hesitation. Don't break that promise."

"I won't but pop what happened that night?" He asked.

"I can't tell you. Just keep following the clues and don't let anyone in on what your doing and keep Tara close. She'll help you a lot and marry Her before she finds out. It might keep you out of the dog house" John laughed.

"I doubt it but I'll see what I can do" Jax laughed with his father.

"Keep her close Jax. That girl really loves you"

Jax nodded "I know" he looked over at her as she walked to his bed side and picked up a sleeping Kallie and adjusting her to be more comfortable next to him. Tara sat down and took his hand in hers. She started speaking but Jax could barley hear her. He looked at his father. "How do I get back?"

"Close your eyes and follow the voices back" John turned his son to him and hugged him close "I love you son"

Jax held on to his father tightly "I love you to pop" John let his son go and sat him down.

"Close your eyes and concentrate on the person talking to you" Jax did as he was told and felt him self drifting. His father voice got farther away and Taras got closer.

"You gotta wake up Jax. You promised me you wouldn't leave me" She rasped out her voice thick with un shed tears.

Jax felt himself settle and re gain feeling in his legs arms all the way to the top of his head.

"You promised Jax you promised" she kept repeating.

He found his voice although it was raw and raspy he needed Tara to hear him. "I told you I'd always keep my promises didn't I"

Taras head snapped up and looked at him "Jax?" She cried

"Hey baby" he whispered. He needed some water his throat was seriously dry. Tara started to cry and stood up kissing his lips in rapid secession. "I knew it. I knew you would come back to us" Then as if reading his mind Tara poured him some water and helped him drink it. He felt the cool water slide down his throat and ease the dryness there. He cleared his throat and smiled at the love of his life.

"I love you Tara"

Taras tears kept falling as she cupped his face in her hands and leaned her forehead against his "I love you to Jackson so so much"

He knew he had a lot to explain. He remember everything his father had told him. All the things he needed to clue Tara in on. It felt like a dream but he knew some how that it was all true. For now though he was content with just spending time with his girls.

A/N: So what do you think? How did you guys like Johns appearance? I was kind of a big baby and teared up during this chapter. I'm a sucker I know lol

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