Dear Miss Swan
Chapter 38
We made our way over to the hospice after we'd finished hugging. She'd gotten all teary and girly and I didn't get why but I held her anyway.
So now I'm sat here, listening to Bella talking to her mother's sleeping form, as though she's really there. She'd earlier shared with me her thought that sometimes she thinks her mom knows she's there even if she's asleep.
So I hold my loves hand as I introduce myself to the sleeping woman who means so much to Bella. I tell her all about myself, and I tell her how much I love her daughter and how I'm gonna take care of her. I even begin to tell her about our six sprogs but Bella tells me to shut up.
"I know he sounds like an idiot most of the time, but we just…we fit so well together. And he's freaking rolling in dough so I'm gonna hold on to him" she can't even finish the sentence before howling with laughter.
I know she's joking, of course. She fights with me over money all the damn time. Seriously, she wouldn't even let me buy her a magazine for the journey. I did anyway, but she wasn't happy about it.
"I'm just going to go to the bathroom. You'll be okay, right?"
"Yes Bella" I sigh "I'm sure the man child is capable of being alone for two minutes" and I roll my eyes to boot.
She just laughs at me, before leaving to room. The room is oddly…awkward when she's gone. Like I should say something but I have fuck all to say.
My eyes run over Bella's mother and I can tell their mother and daughter just by looking at them. Although Renee Swan's body had taken a lot of harm and batter during her illness her brown hair is the same beautiful shade as Bella's and they share the same shape nose. Renee has light blue eyes unlike Bella's deep chocolate pools.
Hold the fuck on a second. Eyes?!
"Mrs Swan! You're awake! Erm…I-"
"Edward? Right?" her voice is breathy and raspy and I can practically feel the amount of pain she's in.
"Yes ma'am. Should I get Bella" she winces and grabs her stomach "or a nurse"
"Don't!" she groans as I'm about to press the nurse buzzer thingy.
"Where's my Bella?"
"Bathroom"
"Good. You need to promise me something, Edward"
"What is it?"
"Please look after my baby. Please make sure she's happy and always feels loved."
"I will Mrs Swan. I promise. On my life, I'll love and protect Bella forever"
"Thank you" her eyes start to close, and I know what the fuck is about to happen.
I run to the door Bella exited a few moments ago and just begin yelling.
"BELLA! BELLA!" She comes running faster than I'd seen anyone run before. The panic on my face must be evident because she's crying before she's even entered the room.
"MOM! MOM!" she wails. She sat on the bed, both her hands on her mother's shoulder shaking her lightly as though she was just falling asleep.
"Bella. I love you, Bella. You're the love of my life, you always have been. You're such a beautiful, strong and intelligent young woman, and I wish I could spend more time watching you become this amazing person. But now I know you've got someone to love you as much as I love you, I can go now, baby. Let me go"
"I love you Mom" but she's gone. I stand and watch as Bella curls up hugging her mother to her as she cries.
I let her have a few last private moments with her mother, before I scoop her up and hold her tight.
I'll look after you now, baby.
A/N: yeah….