Amelia opened her eyes to the darkness. She felt completely drained. She looked over and saw Loki in the chair next to her bed. There were dark circles around his eyes that were twinged with red. His elbows were on his knees and he was staring at her.
"Loki." She said quietly.
He got up and came to her bed. He leaned down and kissed her forehead. He put her hair behind her ear and held on to her hand. He let a tear run down his face.
"Loki what's wrong?" she asked. "Where is Addy?" she sat up.
Loki put his hand on her shoulder. "Shh its okay she is with my mother."
She slumped back against the bed. "Okay good." She put her hand on Loki's cheek. Loki what is wrong then? You are alive and I'm fine. Come sit with me please."
Loki sat down next to Amelia on the bed. He wrapped his arm around her and pulled her close. How was he going to tell her about the baby? About their son who would never be. Amelia held on to his hand playing with his wedding band. He felt a tear from her face fall on his hand.
"Loki I thought I had lost you." She said.
Loki squeezed her hand. "You almost did."
"How did I do it? I have never been able to do this before."
Loki took a deep breath. "You have always had magic in you. It came down from your ancestors but was dormant. My death and your emotions towards it unlocked them where they lied dormant."
"Oh okay well that's cool I guess." She said.
"Amelia that is not all. The only way you were able to perform that powerful of magic was because it was combined with my magic."
"How did I have your magic?"
Loki really did not want to have to do this. He was going to have to tell Amelia something that was going to shatter her heart. She would never be the same after hearing this.
"My magic was in my child inside of you. But Amelia magic like that has a price. It was my life for his."
Amelia's head was spinning. "You mean…? I was pregnant with a boy?"
"Yes but he did not survive it."
Amelia put her hand on her empty belly. She had lost her son. She did not know what to even say to this. She turned and pressed her face into Loki's chest letting her tears flow. Sobs racked her entire body. Loki held on to her holding her close as they cried together.
"I'm so sorry my love." He said stroking her hair.
She was shaking in his arms. He didn't know what to do for her. He had no idea what she was going through. She was very quiet though her sobs had turned to silent tears. He used his shirt to wipe the remaining tears off her face. He kissed her temple.
"I want to see Addy." She said.
"Okay I will go get her."
Amelia watched as Loki left the room. She pulled her knees up to her chest and wrapped her arms around her legs. She put her chin on her knees and covered her face with her hands. She let out the remaining tears she had been holding back when Loki was there. She did not know how to feel. She had been carrying Loki's son and now they would never meet him. She felt guilty for being happy that Loki was alive. It was a tough spot for her to be in because if she had not brought Loki back then she would have her son but then she would be without her husband. This was not fair. She tried to compose herself before Loki got back with Addy. She did not want her daughter to see her like this. Loki came back into the room with Addy awake in his arms. Addy caught sight of Amelia and immediately reached for her. Amelia smiled at her little girl. Loki set her in Amelia's arms. She cuddled her daughter against her. Addy smiled up at her mom. That smile never failed to make Amelia happy.
The healers decided it was alright for Amelia to go to her own room. Amelia and Loki lay in bed with Addy cuddled between them. Amelia had spent some time by herself with Addy while Loki was updating Thor and Jane. She had some time to do some serious thinking. She saw Loki was beginning to nod off so she wanted to talk to him before he fell completely asleep.
"Loki." She said.
"Hmm?" he said opening his eyes.
"I am not sorry that I saved you. I love you and would not take that back. Yes I am sad that we lost our son before we even knew him. I will always have a place in my heart for him but we can have more children too. I wish I could have kept both you and him but at the end of the day I am glad I chose you. I'm not going to feel sorry for myself and I'm not going to dwell on this. I have you and I have Addy and for now that will have to be enough for both of me."
Loki reached out and held her hand in his. "I'm sorry that you couldn't have both too. I will never forget what you did for me and I will spend the rest of my life proving myself worthy of that decision."
Amelia smiled. She could do this. She could get past this and move on with her life. She looked at her sleeping daughter and her husband in front of her. They were her life and she would not despair or shut down. She would live for them. They deserved for her to be there with them. She would get up tomorrow and live life.