Even If
It's hard to tell
where everything intersects,
where the past ends
and the future begins,
the near-infinite and
crystalized,
fired in ovens of
experience,
which is really the only way
that anything sticks.
You can say yes,
or no,
or something in-between,
blurred but not
indistinct.
It's easy to point and say,
after,
that "this was wrong",
or,
"this was right",
though that doesn't help in
present tense,
but that's to be expected
because that's not
what it's for.
I think I've come to the
conclusion
where I can
hold up my hand and say,
"the present flows to the past
just as much as
the past flows to the present,
and neither one
precludes the other
from being just as true",
and know what that means,
or one definition,
at least.
It's just that
the space of the maybe
is wider than I'd thought it was
before everything else
got in and out of the way,
and that still means something,
even if that's the only thing.
Recommended Listening:
Changes - Sarah McLachlan
River Understands Simon - Firefly
Temptation - Moby
Notes:
1. This is also about the same conversation that takes place in Future and Shift/Gradient, as well as referencing Obligations, but with a slightly different context.
2. "because that's not / what it's for" is partially referencing an OT3 fanfic, I think, but I can't remember which one it is, right now. I want to say that it's harukami's Completionverse, but I'm not 100% positive. The line in question in the fanfic is something to the effect of "[that other thing] is what hearts can do, but this is what hearts are for". If any of you guys know which fanfic that line is from, I'd be grateful if you mentioned it to me in a review.