It's been a while, I'm genuinely sorry for those who thought this was a chapter. I haven't updated sine last year. Happy late 2017!
Truth to be told, these past few months have been hard for me. Haven't been taking care of myself properly, I've been going thru a lot of health issues. I'm often find myself at the doctors. My health is one of my priorities, but I thought that for those who actually follow and enjoy the story deserve to know a bit about my situation.
Some of you probably don't care and you're just waiting for me to update, but I can't guarantee when the next chapter will be out. I've been working a lot on myself in these past months, but I feel like no matter how hard I try to change my situation, it won't.
Recently, people have been talking behind my back and some are telling me that they hate me. I also lost a person I thought who was my best friend. She chose her grades and other friends before me and yet she's the one who's mad at me. She thinks I'm a nuisance and she told me I wasn't worth her time and that she had better things to do. Because of that, all the friends we had in common are all against me and she's been making me miserably like glaring at me in the hallways, I eat alone now and everyone's hating on me when I feel like I did nothing. I have nothing left for me and school's been so horrible for me.
Another guy refused to work with me because he thought I was useless. People have pointed out that many things are wrong with me and they tell me that I should tell them how I feel, but they've given up on me so many times in the past, why should I talk to them when they truly don't care?
I've lost my trust in people and I've been really afraid to open up because I always get left behind and get tossed to the side when I'm no longer needed.
I know I'm rambling a lot, I'm sorry for that. I'm often changing subjects, but it's a habit of mine. One of the main reasons why I started writing was for me to escape reality and feel free to write and decide how the story goes. It was kinda like a therapy for me. It was working for me, but I've lost that spark and motivation. Right now, I really want to make everything work and satisfy everyone.
My goal is to try and write the most I can. There are many other things going wrong with my life, but if anyone's willing to listen, maybe I'll talk more about my situation. Basically, I'm going thru health and psychological problems. I'm still young, but I've gone thru a lot in my years. It's hard asking for help here since no one really wants to listen to me or just don't care.
Those online have been really supportive and have helped me. Thank you for taking your time reading this and being patient. I promise I'll try to get at least a chapter by the end of the year. One more year of high school before I graduate, time really does past by fast... There's also a chance I'll rewrite and modify a few things or abandon it. I really don't want to give up on this, but at least I have my ideas.
Honestly, I really do hope I get my life together and get my shit together. The next time I update, lets pray it's a chapter.
-E
*I'll be changing my user soon
*Important notice for my other story