Hi there all! So last chapter was some good stuff, huh? It doesn't end there! It's only going to get better: I promise! I was going to post this tomorrow but I don't know whether I will have an internet connection over the weekened or not... Thanks for the previous reviews as well. Please enjoy the update!
Love is a Lake
(A 'TFA' fan fic romance)
Chapter 37 Schism
(December 29th – Decepticon base: 9:00am)
"Get up, you miserable piece of slag!"
Blitzwing sprang up to his stabilizing servos as if he was experiencing the most horrible nightmare in his life. All he could remember was Blackarachnia talking to him and then darkness.
"Blitzwing, do you want to explain to me why you were unconscious in the woods?" Megatron had his arms folded across his chassis.
The triple changer was still trying to regain a grasp on reality. His optics sleepily scanned his surroundings, seeing he was in the mine and not in the woods anymore. Megatron was looking at him rather grimly. Starscream had a servo placed on his chin, stroking it with an amused grin. Lugnut's single optic stared at his partner in crime incessantly.
"Vhat…" Icy said weakly. "Vhat is going on?"
"I asked you that question," said Megatron. "And where did Blackarachnia run off to?"
"Not only that," Starscream added, "but Cynthia had to leave all of a sudden and her sister and Lockdown went home."
Blitzwing was still terribly confused and disoriented. The cyber venom was just wearing out of his system. He couldn't even process the information and questions they were assaulting him with.
"Vait, Cynthia left suddenly?" he asked.
"Yes, pay attention!" Lugnut thundered. "Have you no ounce of intelligence in that helm of yours?"
"Shortly after they left so suddenly, Lockdown contacted to me to apologize for such an unexpected displacement," said Megatron. "Apparently, from what he told me, Cynthia saw you and Blackarachnia having a private moment. She ran away when she saw her sitting in your lap and had them take her home."
Blitzwing simply couldn't believe what his overlord just told him. He shook his helm furiously, disbelieving this tale.
"Zhat's impossible!" Hothead roared. "Blackarachnia didn't do zhat…"
Then he remembered she knocked him out with the cyber venom. At that point, he assumed this whole mess happened when he was unconscious and not in control of the events around him. His jaw dropped when he at last realized the gravity of the situation as his reason and senses came back online fully. Blitzwing was ready to collapse to his knees in horror when he saw that Cynthia thought he had betrayed her.
"It's all a lie, every single bit of it!" he said steadfastly. "I vould never do zhat to Cynthia! Blackarachnia..!" His servos clenched into fists and he was visibly shaking in sheer anger. "I vill offline zhat vench!"
"To be honest and completely blunt, I don't care if you do carry on an affair with Blackarachnia or not," said Megatron casually. "I don't want your drama to interfere with the Decepticon cause. I do not know how Cynthia will further react to your betrayal…"
"I didn't do anyzhing! Ve're both zhe victims!"
The Decepticon lord shot a grim glare at Blitzwing. Even the volatile Hothead was reminded of his place and quickly mellowed.
"I don't know if she will disclose information to the Autobots in order to regain revenge on you," Megatron resumed. "I highly doubt it but I have asked Lockdown to closely monitor her. When the night falls, I want you to go out and make amends with her."
"It seems like that Blitzwing can't even make up his mind about what femme he wants to give his spark to," Starscream laughed haughtily.
"Shut up, Starscream!" Blitzwing screamed at him.
"Both of you silence yourselves!" Lugnut stamped a stabilizing servo.
"All three of you shut up," Megatron growled, "or so help me Primus I will offline you all!" His underlings quieted. "That's better."
"Vhere is Blackarachnia?" Blitzwing demanded. "May I offline her, Megatron?"
"Obviously, she must've fled," said Starscream.
"No slag… I vould go now if I could, Megatron, but I vill obey zhou and immediately depart vhen night falls. I vill save my relationship and prove to Cynthia zhat vhat she saw vas a lie."
(The apartment – 11:30am)
"Cyndi?"
Amanda could hear Cynthia vomiting in the bathroom. She hovered nervously by the door. Once again, the door was locked and she couldn't go in to comfort her sister.
"Kill me, God!"
"Cyndi, open up! You're scaring the shit out of me!"
Lockdown's holoform paced around in the hallway outside the bathroom. He was hanging around so he could be of any possible assistance in this grievous time. Truly, he couldn't believe that Blitzwing would deliberately betray Cynthia in such a sly and conniving manner. In fact, he wondered if it actually was credible. He saw how the three faced robot treated his Human love. Lockdown was definitely convinced Blitzwing was completely and madly in love with her. The thought of him having a fling with Blackarachnia was unlikely: he knew the spider was greatly annoyed by Blitzwing.
"You're working yourself up and you're making yourself vomit like that!" Mandy tugged on the doorknob. "Unlock this now or I'm calling the cops!"
They heard the toilet flush. The sink ran for about a few seconds and then the water ceased to flow. Another few seconds later, the lock clicked and the door opened up.
"Please, just leave me be," Cyndi was still crying profusely. "I just had my heartbroken by the one whom I thought loved me with all his being."
"Sis…" Mandy shook her head. She embraced her sibling. "I still cannot believe this happened. You didn't deserve this at all. What Blitzwing did was totally uncalled for, heartless, evil and selfish."
Cynthia wept on her shoulder, soaking Mandy's shirt.
Lockdown watched the scene and his feelings were conflicted and undecided once again. He just didn't know if it was appropriate to extend condolences or not. He loved Amanda and while he did see Cynthia like a friend, he wondered if it was wise to comfort her. It was foolish to deny she was terribly shaken and infuriated by the betrayal. From what he could also see, her emotions were blaringly unstable and vehement.
"Is there anything I could possibly to do help out?" he asked, unsure of himself. He was still new to being softened.
"No… No thanks, Lockdown," Cynthia sniffled. "Thanks for asking though… I think all I need is to eat a gallon of ice cream, burn my love poems and sleep."
"Hey, we got your back and everything's going to be okay," Mandy said in a hopeful tone.
"I don't want to go back to the base! I don't want to see their wretched faces again! I swear I will somehow find a way and kill them both!"
"Sorry to say this," said Lockdown, "but you still work for Megatron. I contacted him last night and told him what the issue was. I think you have to still deal with Blitzwing. According to what he told me though, Spider Lady flew the coop. No one knows where she ran off to though."
"You just have to ignore him and pray that Megatron doesn't pair you with him on any missions," said Amanda. "You can hang out with me and Lockdown! We'll be the coolest trio!"
Her attempts to brighten her spirits were futile. Cynthia looked at Mandy glumly and it was clear this female wasn't going to be cheered up anytime soon. The blonde frowned and almost wished Blitzwing was Human again so she could kick him in the place where the sun doesn't shine. She simply couldn't believe he had done this to her sister, her best friend. Just when she thought life was going to be kind to Cynthia, it all came crashing down once again mercilessly.
"Is there anything Lockdown and I could possibly do for you?" she asked, holding Cynthia's hand.
"Well, besides killing the one who stole my love away from me and beating Blitzwing's big metal ass," said Cyndi, "I require nothing else."
"I can arrange that for you," Lockdown smirked. "You want me to bring her helm to you?"
"No… She's a Decepticon and I'm sure Megatron wouldn't be a happy camper if he found out I asked you to kill Blackarachnia."
"We are going to help you get some good old revenge on Blitzwing!" said Mandy, trying to empower and boost Cyndi's spirits."
"Look!"
Amanda was taken aback by her sister's raised voice. Cynthia wrenched herself free from her hold and sighed. She wiped away some tears that trickled from her eyes.
"Please, don't talk about him or even mention him for that matter," she said, trying to maintain her composure. "I just want to go hide in my room, curl up into a ball and cry."
"You can't do this to yourself!" Mandy asserted. "When you're heartbroken, you need friends and family to be there to give you comfort…"
"You have never experienced the pain I feel now and you cannot imagine how awful it is! You need to back off and leave me be! I will come out when I feel like I'm ready for it!"
She abruptly abandoned Amanda and Lockdown in the hallway. Cynthia slammed her door with a force so powerful it seemed as if the whole apartment shuddered. She tossed herself onto her bed, burying her face into her pillow.
"I hate you!" she screamed into the pillow.
Then Cyndi remembered the passionate evening they had during his final night of being an organic. Her very bed held the memory. Disgusted, she pushed herself away from the bed and proceeded to tear the covers off. Like an enraged animal, she threw them to the floor. She felt like getting a can of gasoline, coat the mattress with said liquid and then set the bed on fire.
Overwhelmed by her fury and the ache in her heart and soul, she collapsed to her rump and buried her face into her hands. Her emotions were still as turbulent as the moment when she saw Blackarachnia and Blitzwing in the woods. With every fiber of being, she wanted to discredit her eyes and believe it was some cruel, sick illusion her mind randomly conjured. As much as she wanted to deny it, Cyndi knew it was the truth: he wasn't the one she had thought he was.
(6:00pm)
Cynthia was sitting amongst a sea of crumpled up and torn pieces of paper. All around her were the love poems she composed about Blitzwing. Anymore, those happy and giddy verses taunted her. Her knees touched her chest and she idly stared at the blank wall across the room.
Her blue eyes looked at a notebook that lay next to her. A poem's title looked back at her. She picked up the notebook and she sullenly read the poem. It was 'Love is a Lake'.
Huffing in abhorrence, she threw it across the other side of the room and it crashed to the floor.
"Falling in love with you was the stupidest thing I've ever done…" she muttered, talking as if Blitzwing was right next to her. "No, making love to you was…" Her tears made an umpteenth return. "Now, I'm going to suffer forever for those choices. Why did you do this to me? Why couldn't you just say no if you didn't love me? No, you had to lie to me and have her on the side. You reckless, inconsiderate, cruel and lying bastard…"
Her monologue was interrupted when she heard her cellphone ring. Slowly, she stood up and walked over to where it sat on her nightstand. As soon as she saw the caller I.D., she chucked it. The phone shattered into many pieces as soon as it smashed into the wall. The plaster was chipped and there was a tiny dent in the wall.
"You want to talk to me?" she said lowly. "I'll give you the conversation of your life, Blitzwing."
She didn't doubt he was on his way to meet her as soon as possible. Evening fell and it was his prime visiting time. Cynthia grabbed her jacket that was lying on her chair and put it on. She unlocked her door and emerged from her bedroom for the first time in over six hours.
Amanda left her seat on the sofa as soon as she heard her sister emerge. Without even acknowledging her Amanda or Lockdown, Cynthia walked past them.
"Where are you going, Cyndi?" Mandy was obviously concerned.
"I'm going for a walk behind the complex," she answered. "Do not follow me, please."
"Just let her go," the holoform whispered into his love's ear. "Let her cool off some more."
Reluctantly, Amanda abided by his advice. Cynthia walked out of the apartment and out into the evening.
(Ten minutes later.)
"Hello, Blitzwing."
The somber and solemn voice greeted him from the shadows of the slumbering trees. He turned around, seeing Cynthia sitting on a stump. Her legs were crossed and her arms were folded across her chest. The eyes that once displayed so much peace and love towards him bore nothing but contempt and woe.
"Cynthia," Icy said slowly, "allow me to explain myself…"
"Shut the hell up," she cut him off.
Her voice sounded different. To him, it seemed like he was talking to a complete stranger. She appeared before him as his worst enemy.
"Cyndi, vhat did zhou see?" he resumed a few moments later.
"Don't play dumb with me, Blitzwing," she bellowed. "I think you have a good idea of what I saw. I saw you in the woods with Blackarachnia. She was sitting in your lap and she kissed you. And apparently, you've been running around with her behind my back for awhile."
"It's not vhat zhou zhink it vas!"
"Really? I suppose you just couldn't break free from the seductive spell she placed you under!"
"She knocked me unconscious and she must have set up vhat zhou saw so she could ruin us! She tried to seduce me because she vanted to tear us apart! She knows I love zhou!"
"You're lying!"
"No, I'm not!" Hothead yelled. "Do zhou honestly zhink I vould betray zhou?"
"You know, anymore, I'm not sure. I should've seen this coming. We are too different. Why couldn't you be a man and tell me you didn't want to get serious with me? What is wrong with you?"
"Vhat are zhou talking about?" Icy came back. "I bonded vith zhou as a Human and I still take zhat as a very serious and sacred gesture! I love zhou, not her! She is nozhing more zhan a vile seductress!"
"I know what I saw! She was sitting in your lap!" Despite her determination to cloak any signs of weakness, her tears came back. "Is she that beautiful? Is being with her that fulfilling where you see her behind me back?"
"Cynthia, she stunned me vith zhe cyber venom she vields! I vas knocked unconscious! Everyzhing vas planned by her!"
"I don't want any explanations! I know what I saw! I don't trust you anymore!" She scoffed. "Decepticons… Masters of deception. I should've known. I was an idiot to fall for you."
The calm persona's serenity steadily shattered even further. Her hateful and stubborn words sliced through his spark and made him feel so grievous. He told the truth and nothing but the truth but she refused to believe him. This made him lose his composure and his anger seethed like magma.
"Zhou know zhat's not true, Cynthia!" he gritted his teeth. "I vas almost beat to zhe point of being offlined for zhou! I saved zhou and Amanda from Megatron! I ran down to zhe station in my pajamas vhile I vas a Human to get zhou out of zhere. I bonded vith zhou… I love zhou more zhan anyzhing else in zhe universe. No one ever cared for who I vas vithin zhe Decepticon ranks. All zhe femmes feared me and I never could find love. Vhen I found out I loved zhou and zhou felt zhe same for me, I knew zhou vere special. I svore I vould alvays treasure and protect zhou, Cynthia. I vill never break zhat promise, my love."
"So…" Cyndi placed her hands on her hips. "You found a chance to boost all three of your persona's self esteem by courting a lonely and somber twenty two year old girl." She shook her head. "That is so low and sickening. After you got more confidence, you decided to give a try at the hooker bot. As far as I can tell, it all went according to plan. Congratulations, Blitzwing! You fooled me so royally… You lied to me for eight months and deflowered me. I'm so glad it turned out wonderful for you in the end, you sniveling, cowardly, weak-willed, loathsome piece of shit!"
Icy lost control because he was so infuriated. Hothead emerged and it was obvious he was less than pleased. Cynthia was not intimidated by this angry being who towered over her.
"Zhou're insane!" he said. "I can't explain to zhou anymore zhe truth and my feelings for zhou! Vhat do I have to do to prove I am telling zhe truth?"
"Absolutely nothing, Blitzwing," she said calmly. "I don't believe you. All I see is a liar. I want you out of my life. Yes, I will still work for Megatron but I will never speak to you again. Further, I will ask him to keep you away from me." Her eyes glazed over with an evil and rage-filled gleam. "I don't love you anymore! I hate you!"
Blitzwing thought his spark stopped pulsating within his chest. For a moment, no feelings existed in him. All he could experience was abysmal and cold hollowness. Those two powerful and annihilating sentences echoed within his helm. The malevolence in her voice was something he never heard before in her. He thought his audio receptors were malfunctioning. As he stood there stunned and motionless, he knew her words bore the horrible and ugly truth. Cynthia no longer loved him.
The triple changer finally regained control of himself. Blitzwing took a few steps back. All he could do was stare at her in shock and disbelief. He couldn't believe she had done this to him while all he did was love her so truly and intimately.
"Farevell, Cyndi," Random said mournfully. If he was an organic, he'd be crying like a baby. "Zhou may not love me anymore but I still love zhou. I still believe zhou are my sparkmate."
Cynthia watched as he transformed into a jet. Sparkbroken, he sped away at a blindingly swift velocity. She watched him flee until she could no longer see him. When he finally disappeared from her field of vision, she fell to her knees in the snow. She wept in isolation.
A little yellow robot finally felt like he was able to twitch a finger as soon as his much larger foe left. He was standing behind a tiny patch of trees where he carefully concealed his form. His blue optics were huge and it was daft to think he wasn't startled or disturbed in the least bit. Bumblebee jogged from the scene of the disbanding and turned into his vehicle mode when he placed some distance between him and Cynthia. All that mattered was getting back to home.