Kuroshitsuji: Another World
Chapter 36: A good writer knows…
"Do you think it was a good idea, scaled one?"
"As much as I hate this, it's for her…"
"But you're so miserable. Are you still so sure?"
"Even if I'm not," Snake replied, the wind steadily blowing through his hair as he gazed back at the manor that he left, "and even if I live to regret it, I'm doing this for her. Besides it's better this way. It's better that…that I left without seeing her one last time."
"Still, you're the one who told us that she was the one…the one who could bring you happiness."
"At what cost? She's not happy."
"But now you'll even make her even sadder. She really does love you. I can sense it."
"I can too!"
"and me!"
"We all can."
"It's not her love for me that you sense, it's her lust for Sebastian." Snake replied, sighing and turning to continue his journey, "She never loved me, the only thing that she ever has was my eyes."
"You're feeding yourself that crow's lies."
"A cat can never fall in love with a bird. The cat always eats them."
"Nekohime wants to find happiness," Snake commented, the pent up feeling of sadness beginning to well up within his heart, "I can see that she has. I had promised her that I would do anything to make her happy, and if it takes distancing myself away from her so that she can finally be comfortable around him to show her feelings….then I must willingly accept the fact that she doesn't want me."
"Cats and serpents always get along. Both pay the price."
"Shut the poet."
A momentary hiss and a warning bite.
"Be nice, Bronte," Snake commanded, separating Charlotte and Dan, "But you seem to forget, Dan, cats also eat snakes…..after playing with them. If Neko is to be compared to an actual cat and I the serpent, then she was already toying with me from the very beginning. Luckily, she was in no mood to go for the kill."
"Scales, you deserve her. She doesn't want the crow. Keats mentioned last night before, she screamed that she wanted to protect you from the crow."
"Yes, she had this look that clearly stated that she is madly in love with you. She would die for you. Don't you remember when you saved her from that horrible house? She was more than happy to see you. She cried when she saw you."
"She probably cried because it was me and not Sebastian who found her first," Snake retorted bitterly, "I couldn't even break the chain that bound her to the bed without help."
"Luckily Red Death was there when you need him. Even Red Death knew that she loves you, that's why he helped you free her."
"Go back."
"It's not too late, you can still save her…from him."
"Scales!"
"Enough, please," Snake begged, stopping, "please don't make me go back! I don't want to see her knowing that I can't have her! Please!"
"Scales, you need her…"
"…And she needs you."
"Think back, when were you ever this happy? You were so happy that you began singing again, you sang to her and she loved it. Isn't that what kisses mean, that you love someone?"
"You had once promised us that once you found happiness, that you'd do anything to keep it."
"I did," He sighed, now continuing to walk through the windy trees, "but I've come to realize that if you truly love something with all of your heart and soul….then you'll let it go….even if what you loved never loved you back."
"Where will you go then? Smile offered you your only home and treated you like an equal."
"We don't want to see you suffer anymore…."
"…Please, go back."
"I'll suffer just for going back. I can't stay there…not anymore."
"For us then, please?"
"…..Someday….."
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain
I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity?
Cause I can't justify why everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain
I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain
I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I am somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I am somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
'Somewhere I Belong' by Linkin Park. For some reason, when I listened to this song, I began writing this chapter solely for Snake. It kinda fits...anyway, tell me what you think!