(Monday Afternoon)

"Why am I here, again?" I asked, looking at Edward as he worked quietly on his homework for English. I watched as his hands seemed to fly over the pages, the words appearing magically from the tip of his pen. It was...strange, but also kind of cool. "You obviously never needed my help." Now I grinned a little, though I felt kind of jealous at how easy he found all the work.

"I've had generations of practice." Edward raised an eyebrow as he glanced up through his long lashes. He looked good today, dressed in a dark grey t-shirt and black jeans. His hair was even hanging over his face a little more. "But that's besides the point. You knew you weren't here to teach me."

True. I nodded in agreement and turned back down to my Trig a little, I sighed and tried to focus on one of the questions in front of me, though I couldn't really make heads or tails of it. "You should be helping me." I pouted. "At least you know what you're doing."

There was a slight laugh and I heard and felt the couch shifting. Then a cool hand pulled my book slightly and when I glanced up, Edward was sitting next to me with a grin. "Trig." He nodded. "I took this last semester."

"And the semester before, and the semest before that, and the semester before that." I could hear several members of the family laughing loudly at my comment. Even Edward himself was laughing. "What? It's true."

Now he nodded. "It is. We metriculate alot." Raising an eyebrow he turned to me. "Didn't you see the graduation caps in the hall?"

Actually, I had. There was a big board in the hall, by the stairs, and there were five differnt colors of graduation caps on it, one right under the other. Then there were easily over a dozen different caps. "You have enough to take care of the entire Forks High School." Again the house hold laughed. Apparently it was a running gag. "Who's in the lead?"

"Me." Edward chuckled as he pointed out a few things in the book and helped me to understand the question a little more. It was actually kind of funny how Edward turned this 'study date' around. I was 'supposed' to be helping him, but he was helping me instead. Oh well, as long as I got to spend time with Edward...

There was a sound at the door and as I turned, I saw Emmett peek his nose around the corner. "Yeah, because you're a suck up." Rolling his eyes, he chuckld as he ducked back out of the room when Edward snarled and made as if to get up.

Laughing a little, I turned back to the book and paused when I caught Edward's honey eyes fixed on me. The breath I'd been about to take froze in my throat when he slowly leaned in. He rested his forehead against mine and closed his eyes, breathing deeply with a small smile. Then, he slowly leaned in further.

The kiss was sweet and slow. His lips danced across mine and I felt one of his hands come up to cup my cheek. It was like the world disappeared as I was filled with his intoxicating scent and taste. All too soon, however, he sighed and pulled away, his eyes darker but not black. I took the opportunity to catch my breath.

Shifting a little, I felt the book in my lap, and pouted at Edward. "Ugh! I hate homework. I can't wait until I'm done with school!"

All of a sudden, Edward winced and looked away. I didn't need to see his face to know he was in pain.

"What?" Worry flooded me at his pained expression. "Edward, what's wrong?"

With a heavy sigh, he got up and walked over to his glass doors. "You... Bella, you're going to finish school." He seemed very troubled.

"Uh, yeah. I never intended not to." Frowning, I put my books aside and got up. I stumbled a bit, when my foot caught the edge of my backpack, but I caught myself in time. My face burned when I heard laughter from below and knew the family heard my stumbling. "What's going on?"

"Once you're...changed, you won't be able to attend school of any kind. For several years. It will be too dangerous to take you near any humans."

That brought everything flooding back. The Prom was next week, and not a week later, the Cullens were leaving. Then I had two weeks on my own. They were leaving. I had to go without Edward and the others for up to fourteen days. I recalled how things were when he told me he was leaving before, and shuddered powerfully as pain rippled through my body.

All of this...was happening, because I was human, and I knew about vampires.

Strangely...I couldn't regret it. Even though things were a huge chaotic mess right now, and I was due to die within the year, I couldn't bring myself to regret loving Edward, and knowing about him and his family. I couldn't regret anything that's happened since I met him, except when he left, but I don't think there was anything I could have done to stop him at the time. He was back now, that's what mattered to me.

Still... Everything was spinning around in my head. I was going to die. I was going to be changed. There was less than a month left to spend time with my family and friends.

I was still confused. Edward told me he wanted me. He explained how he thought being a vampire was hell, and how none of the family had a choice when they were changed. I heard Carlisle's story, Esme's and Edward's. Even Alice and Emmett told me what they could remember of their worlds. The only difference is: Emmett thinks being a vampire is cool, and Alice doesn't seem to actively regret it. Jasper is pained, but to be with Alice, I think even he has times he doesn't regret it. Esme told me she could never regret being with Carlisle, and although he hates the creature he's become, Carlisle can't fully regret it, either. It's given him the chance to immunize himself to human blood, and become a surgeon to help countless people.

As far as I could see, the two who regretted it most are Rosalie and Edward.

Edward, I knew his story, but... If it's what his mother wanted, so he could live... And he was here now, with me. I couldn't help but wonder if maybe he wasn't changed...for me. So he could be here with me now, protecting me and loving me.

"Bella?" His voice sounded distant. "What are you thinking about?"

Looking up, I blinked and blushed when I found Edward watching me closely. Hesitantly, I began to tell him. At first, he walked over and held me tight, when I told him of my anxiety and confusion. Then he stiffened and tried to argue, when I told him about how happy I was, that I could be with him. He argued the fact that he didn't want me to want to become a vampire, but it couldn't really be helped. I didn't have a choice, really, and when I thought about it, I was just happy to be with him.

Then again, what was worse? Me wanting to become a vampire, or not wanting to but also not having a choice?

Then, when I told him about my thoughts on why he was here... It was difficult. I felt almost conceited, to think he was here now for me, but the look on Edward's face shocked me more than anything. He looked thoughtful, as if he was actually thinking about it, and when he locked golden eyes on me...

"You're right, I think." He was staring into my eyes, his stare wiping all coherent thought from my mind. "I never really thought too much on it. I always felt like I was wandering this world, looking for my purpose for existing, but then you came along. Like a shooting star, you light up my life. Now I feel...complete." A huge, crooked grin appeared on his beautiful face and he leaned forward, kissing me deeply. "You're my angel. I do love you, Bella."

Feeling my cheeks flush, I felt my heart soar happily. "I love you too, Edward.

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