The Worst of Words

by Kate Christie

"…Give thy worst of thoughts/The worst of words." -Othello, Act 3, Scene 3. After Castle disappears, the only thing keeping Kate Beckett afloat is her conviction that Richard Castle is alive. But in order to return to work, Beckett is forced by Burke to keep a daily journal. 6x23 2014 CastleFicathon. Thanks to Angie & E for gorgeous artwork & Alex for an amazing summer of editing.

38. Chapter 38

6/25/2014

I went to my appointment today; just saw a medical tech to draw the blood. She said I'd probably hear back from them tomorrow or Friday.

I feel like I'm in a fog. Everything outside my own head, my own body, is a little blurred, a little muffled. I know the boys have noticed I'm off - my attention keeps drifting in the middle of case updates.

We closed that one today, and it was Ryan who had the "ah ha." I would have sent us all off on a wild goose chase focused on the poor, innocent husband.

I need to pull it together, but every time I think about… this, I hear your voice from our last phone call, and I wonder where the hell you are.

I need to hear those words in my ear, Castle, not just in my memories.