I'm going to the rink tomorrow and will see the doctor. It's also the first time I'll see the team since I got the puck to the face. All of that is really great. What I'm not happy about is that this is my last day with Sloan. She's gone back this morning to work. I wonder if people are going to put it together. I find that I don't care but I know that she does and I guess I should too. I hate having my personal life and hockey mix even if I've never had a girlfriend during the season. Wow, I never realized that since I've gone pro, I have never had a girlfriend during the season. I guess I've always wanted to focus on hockey.

Sloan is coming back her tonight so I've planned a great dinner for us - mine will be liquid of course - and then I'm going thank her for taking care of me in as many ways possible. I'm also going to give her the bracelet I bought for our last date. I can't believe that I was so distracted that I forgot to give it to her but, then again, she did tell me that she loves me so I guess it's understandable why I was distracted. I'm really hoping that no one noticed that Sloan has been gone and that it happened right after I got hurt. I haven't heard anything from the guys about her and they've been messaging a lot to ask how I'm doing. I'll have to ask her what she told her guys about being off for a couple of days. Of course Sam knows the truth but he won't say anything.

My biggest problem right now is boredom and feeling useless. The boredom comes from just sitting around with occasional escapes into sleep. I felt useless when I talked to my mom. Nana isn't doing well and it seems like this is the end. I can't fly until the doctor clears me which I hope he'll do tomorrow. Until I see him, I'm supposed to sleep and eat/drink and that's it. I hate not having teeth. It feels like my mouth isn't mine; it's just weird.

I'm so bored so I text Sloan to see when she'll be coming home. It's 6:30pm, she should be leaving soon. 'How was ur day? R u leaving soon?' I wait for a response but don't get one. A few minutes later, the phone rings. "Hi babe, I couldn't text back because I'm driving. I'll be there in a few minutes." I chuckle "thanks for giving me some notice." She chuckles too. "Sorry, I wanted to get home as soon as I could." Hmm, she's called it home too. "Ok, I'll see you soon." We hang up and I hurry to the kitchen. I planned dinner and now she hasn't given me much notice.

I'm so glad that I did all of the chopping earlier. She's been living on salads so I searched the internet for recipes. Who knew there were so many different recipes for salad? It's mostly stuff a rabbit eats but you can make it thousands of ways. Who knew that you could search by ingredients on the Food Network website either? I chose some of her favourites and it popped out a recipe; easy peasy. My dinner is liquid of course. While the blender is going, I put her salad together and try to arrange it like I saw on the website. Why can't I manage to make food look good? Oh well, it should taste good anyway. I hear the front door open. It's a good feeling to hear her coming in the door. As I hear her heels clicking on the tile, I realize how much I've missed her today. She comes in the kitchen as I put her plate and my glass on the table. "What have we here?" She asks me. "I know you love your salads so I found a recipe" I tell her tentatively. I melt as her eyes soften and she walks toward me. She slowly slides her arms around me and lightly kisses my lips. "Thank you so much." Ok, I really need to make her dinner more often.

"Why don't we sit down and you can tell me about your day?" I ask her. She smiles and sits down. I watch as she digs in and her eyes open wide. "Wow Sid, this is delicious, seriously." I know my smile is huge; I even made the dressing so I'm glad she likes it. We eat and talk about her day and the team. It helps me feel more connected to the team listening to what's going on. I need to know so I ask "what did you say to everyone about why you didn't go on the trip." She frowns and says "I actually didn't have to say anything because no one asked. That alone worries me a bit." Hmm she's right, that is concerning. "What do you think? Do they know?" She shrugs and says "Sam didn't say anything to them of course but it is quite a coincidence that I disappeared the same time that you did. Even if people know, as long as they are pretending that they don't then it won't reach my father." He has to know at some point but I won't bring that up right now. We're having a wonderful evening and I don't want to spoil it. In fact, noticing that she's finished her dinner, I take our dishes to the sink. I'll clean up later. I turn as she's standing and can't help myself. I sweep her up in my arms and she giggles, actually giggles, as I carry her up to the bedroom. Inspired, I drop her in the middle of the bed so that she bounces and hear even more giggles. I love this side of her; she seems so carefree and sweet. It's not a side she lets out often. In fact, I've only seen it a couple of times and only when we're alone. "Sidney, we can't do anything yet. You need to be cleared by the doctor first." I am painfully aware of that fact but I want to do this for her. She's been incredible to me. "I know I can't. Don't worry about it. By the way, you're wearing too many clothes for what I have in mind for you."

She smiles at me and pushes herself up until she's kneeling on the bed. Her skirt raises high on her thighs as her knees pull apart. My eyes follow every inch and Sloan notices. Her hands slide down her sides and her fingers slowly slide her skirt up higher until she holds it just below her panties. My eyes slide up her body to her eyes. They have gone a deep blue with desire and knowledge that she knows exactly what she's doing to me.

Her hands slide up her body and my eyes are riveted to them. They slide over her hips, slowly, pulling her skirt up further. She let's go of the hem and her hands slide up and over her waist, further up her sides and then over the curves of her breasts. I watch as her fingers slowly unbutton her shirt. She reveals her bra slowly; the swell of her breasts first, then the red satin, finally the shirt is completely open. She shrugs one shoulder and her shirt slowly slides down her arm. Then she shrugs the other shoulder and her shirt falls completely to the bed. I'm drawn back to her eyes which are smiling along with her full, pink lips. She shrugs again and her bra strap falls. Another shrug has the other one down too. They don't fall further. She reaches around and unzips her skirt. It falls to her knees. She slides back and pulls her skirt completely off. She lies back wearing only her bra, straps at her elbows, panties and heels. Fuck, she's killing me.

I take a step forward but she puts up a hand to stop me. I pause and watch her. She pushes up on her knees again. Slowly, torturously slow, she reaches behind her and unclips her bra. She keeps it from falling by crossing her arms. I'm begging her with my eyes but she simply smiles for a moment and then lets the bra fall. Her hands are still covering her breasts. I take a step closer and she puts out a hand again. Her remaining hand and arm are trying to cover her breasts but not doing a very good job, thank God. She smiles again and slowly drops her remaining arm revealing her gorgeous breasts. They are full and beautiful. As I gaze at them, I watch her nipples tighten and pucker. I love that just my gaze makes her body react. Now she slides back down and slides her panties over her hips, down her thighs and pulls them off completely. Now she's lying, on her back, wearing only her heels. Fuck, she's so hot. She throws her panties at me and I catch them in mid-air. Going with instinct, I bring them to my face and breathe in. It smells of her and my dick actually twitches. I need to touch her as badly as I need breathe.

I walk to the bed and my eyes travel the length of her gorgeous naked body. When I get back to her big, blue eyes, it gives me an idea. "Wait right here, don't move a muscle." She looks quizzical at me and then nods. I run downstairs and get the box that I left in a kitchen drawer.

When I get back in the bedroom, she is exactly where I left her, naked, except for her heels, and on the bed. I move to her and lie beside her handing her the box. She lifts an eyebrow at me and takes the box. Opening it, her eyes go very wide and she looks back at me. "Sid, what is this for?" She's smiling at least. "I bought this for you when we had our date. When you told me that you love me, I forgot about it. Seeing your big, beautiful eyes reminded me of it like it made me think of you that day." I take it out of the box and place it on her wrist. With the clasp done, I pull it to my lips and kiss her palm. "It's beautiful Sidney. Thank you so much." I kiss her palm again and she smiles. "I chose this because of the particular shade of blue in the sapphires. They are the exact colour of your eyes when I touch you." I can't wait any longer so I gently kiss her lips. I wish that I could do more, I love kissing her, but I leave her lips. I slide my hand from her neck and down to her breast. Rubbing my thumb over her nipple has her sighing. I flick it with my thumb now and she gasps. I slide my hand down her side, over her waist, hip and thigh. I push her onto her back and slide my hand between her legs and between her folds. I side my finger inside and feel her heat. She's already so fucking wet. I swirl my finger around the entrance and her hips thrust into my hand driving my finger deeper. I give into her, slip another finger inside and thrust them in and out slowly at first and then faster and faster. She's thrown her head back now and crying out for more. It looks like we won't be drawing this orgasm out; she wants it now. I push her back into the bed and my fingers in deeper, looking for that special spot. It's hard to find so I change angle a bit and, there we go, she cries out. I push on it again and then slide my fingers quickly to her clit and work it hard and fast now. Fast and faster I go as I watch her. Her head is thrown back and thrashing; her breathing quickens and then I watch as her orgasm overtakes her. She's so beautiful, stunning, watching her in ecstasy.

I see her body slowly come down from her high. I slide my hand over her cheek and into her hair. I so desperately want to kiss her and do just a little too hard because I feel the pain through my jaw. Instead, I shift and nuzzle her hair and breathe her in again. She tilts her lips to my neck and leaves soft kisses under my ear. I'm getting very uncomfortable in my jeans. "Babe you really need to stop. As it is, I have to have a very cold shower." She chuckles into my neck then pulls back. "I guess I owe you a very, very big thank you when you are cleared for, well, thanks." She's so cute right now. I definitely need a shower and a very cold one. I kiss her cheek lightly and then head to the bathroom. I'm just hoping that the shower is going to do it.

Last night with Sid was incredible. Not only did he cook dinner, gave me a beautiful bracelet but he also gave me an incredible orgasm too. I can't believe how generous Sid consistently is to me. I had an incredible night sleep too. He seems to be feeling better. The doctor will be seeing him today and Sid couldn't be happier to be back at the arena even if he isn't skating or working out. I made sure that I was down in the locker room after practice because I want to see how happy Sid is when he's around the guys. As I get closer I can hear and smell the guys. Do you ever get used to that horrible smell? I enter the locker room as the guys are finishing up with the press. Jen gets the media out of the room and then ushers Sid in. The guys are thrilled to see him and chirping him at the same time. It is so funny to watch and I'm so happy for him. This is what he needed; his spirits will definitely be lifted by this visit.

"Burkle?! Is that you Burkle?!" I turn around in time to be swept up in a bear of a man's arms and twirled around. A furry face is rubbing against my cheek but that's all I know right now. When I'm back on my feet, I pull back and see who it is and shout "Joey?! Oh my God. What are you doing here Joey?" I can't believe he's here in Pittsburgh. Joe Manganiello is a client of mine or was a client before I came to Pittsburgh. We started representing him before True Blood. He's a great actor and a really great guy. "My parents live here in Pitts. I came to visit them and had to come see you of course. How you doing in then hockey world? Having fun?" I laugh again and throw my arms around him. "It's so good to see you Joey. I've missed you." He kisses me and replies "I've missed you too kid." I realize that I have missed him; he's a client but also a good friend. "Have you met the guys? I know that you're a huge fan." He smiles and says "I haven't." I know he's silently adding 'but I want to.' I put my arm in his and walk him into the room. I see that Geno is alone and I know he loves True Blood. After I introduce them, Geno has all kinds of questions about the show. Kris Letang comes over, another fan of the show, and then they're talking about working out for looks versus sport. James comes over now so I leave the guys to talk. Jen and Michelle are at my side quickly and Jen whispers "do you know who that is?" I look at each of them and they have wide eyes and would be licking their lips if they weren't trying to hold it together. "Yes, Joe is a client of mine. His family lives here and he's visiting."

They continue to stare at Joe as he meets all of the guys. There's quite a circle around him. Sid is standing off to the side talking to Marc-Andre; weird. The girls bring me back to them. "Are you dating him?" Michelle asks me. "Forget that" Jen jumps in before I can answer. "Have you slept with him?" They're so funny. "No and no." They both say "awe" and seem disappointed. Of course this does tell me that they don't know about Sid and me. The guys laugh loudly and I hear Joey say "get your fine self over here Sloan. Tell these guys that I was an athlete." Joe always makes me laugh. I join the group and Joe puts his arm around me and pulls me beside him. "Go on Sloan; tell them I was an athlete!" I laugh and say "sorta. You went to college on a football scholarship and quickly blew out your knee. I guess that was an athlete." All the guys laugh and Joe pretends to give me a noogie. When we first met, Joe and I had an instant attraction and slept together immediately and often. When he became a client, we decided to stop our physical relationship. He knew I wasn't looking for anything serious and neither was he so it worked out well for us both. The guys continue to chat and joke around. Marc Andre has joined as some of the other guys have gone off to shower. I look around and don't see Sid anywhere. That's strange. Maybe he went to talk to the coaches.

I'm about to leave when I hear Joe call my name. I turn and he's saying goodbye to the guys and coming over to me. "You weren't going to run away were you?" I chuckle, it's just like him to say that. "No, I was letting you 'athletes' talk" I tell him. "Ha ha ha" he says. "It's almost lunch, let's go catch up." I mentally check my calendar and I can rearrange a few things. I'd love to spend some time with Joe. It feels like forever since we've talked. "Sure. Come upstairs and I'll get my coat." We chat as we head up to the offices. He fills me in on some of the gossip from LA. When we're in my office, he asks "is Mario here?" I chuckle remembering that he's a huge fan of Mario's. "Let me call over and see." I call Mario's assistant and unfortunately he's not there. Joe needs to leave first thing in the morning so he can't come to the next game to meet him. "Sorry Joe, next time you're in town I'll introduce you." "The next time I'm back here, you'll be back in LA babe." Wow, he's right. I'll be back in LA before I know it. That never used to make me sad but it doesn't sound right to be leaving.

Lunch with Joe was hilarious, as I expected. He's head back to filming for True Blood so he's been working out like crazy. He ends up naked a lot on the show and really needs to be at his best, physically. Of course I tease him about it. I also make fun of his salad, no carbs for him, even though I'm having the exact same one. As our salads arrive, I see some of the players walk in the door. Paul Martin sees us so I whisper to Joe "do you want me to invite them over?" I see his huge smile but he says "only if you're ok with it." I say yes of course. He's so cute with his almost hero worship of the Pens. I think they're all impresses with each other. I'm not surprised to see Sid with them. He's really missed being with the guys. They join us and all start talking so soon everyone is laughing. James and Geno came too. He doesn't talk a lot but when he does, Geno is hysterical. He starts picking on James and then Paul gets in on it too. We are all laughing loons soon. Except for Sid, I notice that he's been really quiet during lunch. Maybe the day has been too long for a first outing. He's got to be tired. I'm dying to ask him what the doctor said about his jaw but I guess that will have to wait until we're alone. Actually, I look at my watch and I do have to get back for a meeting. I say goodbye to everyone and make Joe promise to call when he's back in LA then I leave. I head out the back door because it cuts down an alley to the arena. It's a short cut I learned from Sam when we came here to lunch one day.

As I'm heading down the alley, I hear my name so I turn to see Sid walking up to me. I can't read his face. He looks really odd. When he's in front of me he says "I thought you said you loved me! I thought this was more than sex! What the fuck is going on with that guy?" What the fuck?!