CHAPTER 37
Tris POV
I felt the hurt. It was awful. How on earth did that happen? Everything was going fine one minute, and he just had to ruin the moment. I mean, he didn't exactly, something on his mind did. Gosh I am so selfish! I should ask what's troubling him. Yeah, I should. I hope it doesn't involve that creepy old guy who happens to be his biological father.
I repeatedly told myself that it wasn't my fault he acted that way. Nor was it my crappy appearance. At least I hope it wasn't because of that. Oh my God I'm such a sucker! I don't even know what he finds in me that is so interesting. Curves? Yeah, bye bye I don't have them. Height? Meh, I'm happy being short. Not. Badass? I wish. Pretty eyes? If dull blue-grey counts as it then yes. I continued on with the list but found nothing that might've made him find me attractive.
He's just tired. I told myself. Yes, I made quite a racket in here ever since they brought in the big needles. He must've heard some of it. God, that would be so embarrassing, I hope he didn't hear a word. Now why exactly am I panicking again?
Inhale. Exhale. It's gonna be okay. It's okay. I get to leave the infirmary another 7 days top, and during that time, I'll just have to find things to entertain myself. I doubt my friends would come visit every day, what with school and being guardians and all. Though a certain someone across the hall might be available… Yeah right.
So, about Tobias. I've been thinking. There might be a book that might be able to give me answers whether an angel and devil could be together, in some way. Might being the keyword. Why won't I stop thinking about this? It's getting a bit ridiculous. My phone blared through the room. "Yellow?"
Please let it be Tobias. Please.
"Beatrice?" my mom's sweet voice made me forget what it was I wished for. "Yes mom, it's me," I smiled, though she can't see it. I wonder how the line up there connects to the one down here. "Beatrice honey! Are you okay? I've met Tobias and I know what happened….." I didn't let her finish.
"What?" I asked, dread filling my stomach. I hope she's not mad. How could she be? "As I've told you before, I'm not a pure angel," she said.
"Okay mom. You can stop explaining, I don't want to know," I chuckled. It's complicating enough knowing what I do now. "Okay, so I bet you're in the infirmary?" mom sighed. "Yeah, again," I copied her sigh. She sighed again. "You do know how to get yourself in there, don't you?" she joked. I laughed at her weak attempts to see this as a laughing matter.
"So, your dad and I were planning on visiting for a while. Would you mind?" she asked. So polite, I don't own the world. "I don't. Come, come."
I heard her laugh. "Okay, Beatrice. Take care, we love you," she said. "Love you too," I said. After a few moments, the call ended.
I would, actually, mind her coming down. We're gonna have a serious talk about how I shouldn't mingle with devils and such and dad would totally disapprove and my life won't be perfect though it technically isn't. I should really stop ranting to myself. I could always say she couldn't come because I won't be free… But I don't lie. I do, I'm just not supposed to. Ugh, why am I an angel again? I would've preferred being a devil like Four. That way things won't be so complicated and we could be together without going against the law. It will be legal and we will have major make-out sessions and then get married and have tiny little babies that look like me and Tobias.
Gosh, my thoughts are so wild nowadays, I'm surprised. Maybe I should just focus on the fact that I'll be here for another torturous week.
Four POV
I ended the call. Frustrated, I threw the phone on the bed. I would have thrown it against the wall but then I'll have to go through the trouble of buying a new one. But I'm not frustrated. I got what I want. But the decision I made, it kills me. I hope it doesn't kill her. She'll be happy after a while. While I'll be miserable knowing someone else is making her happy, not me. Someone else will have the opportunity to make her feel special, not me. She'll get hugs and kisses from someone else. The thought alone makes me want to undo my wishes. For once, I felt the need to be selfless, and think of someone else first, in this case, it's Tris.
Her happiness comes before mine.
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Early morning, I woke up to the sunlight streaming through the drawn back curtains. I wanted to go back to sleep, but knowing I only have 6 days left, I forced myself up and took a quick shower. Scratch that, it was a long, hot shower. Hopping out, I dried myself and put on something casual. What to do today?
I grabbed an empty book I bought yesterday and some pens. Making sure the hall's empty, I entered her room and locked it behind me. I hope the doctor's not behind me. Luckily, luck's on my side today.
Tris is still asleep on the bed. I tiptoed to the bed and stared down at her angelic face. A soft sigh escaped my lips. Oh, Tris. What have you done to me?
5 hours later, I am still staring at her sleeping figure and she hasn't moved an inch. What did the doctor give her? knock-me-out-2-days medicine? I brushed back a strand of her soft strawberry scented hair from her forehead. Time to wake up, Tris. We don't have much time.
As if answering my unasked question, her hand reached out to rub her eyes. She quickly covered her mouth as a yawn escaped. How is she so cute? She made a cute sound and slowly opened her eyes. "hmmm, Tobias," she smiled and turned to hug me. "This is a good dream. I like this," her voice is muffled by my shirt. "Tris, it's me. I'm here," I chuckled. She froze.
"Oh. My. God. This is so embarrassing!" She turned away and hugged an extra pillow. "Please tell me I didn't do that," she muttered into the pillow. "You did," I confirmed it for her. Embarrassing her will let me see her cute blush. "Oh God," she groaned.
"Chill," I said, finally. "Okay," she took in a deep breath and turned to face me. "Okay," I replied, clearing my throat.
"So, what's the plan for today?" she asks, grinning.
"You'll see," I laughed. What better thing to do right?
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"Oh gosh I suck at this!" she groaned in frustration. There were a lot of groanings coming from her this past hour. We've been drawing. No, really, I'm serious. We have.
I laughed, looking at her drawing. She wanted to draw a dragon but it ended up looking like a weird looking llama. "No, it's cute. Don't give up yet," I stifled a laugh. "Ha ha, easy for you to say. Your drawing is exactly what you pictured it to be," she muttered. I'm not exactly sure what I drew but it looks like a horse. "No, no. Keep on drawing, you're an artist," I bit my lip to stop myself from laughing. "Really? You think so?" she asks, a bit unsure.
I nodded, afraid my laugh would escape. No shit, it's cute. Exactly what a 2 year-old would do. I snorted. "Oh stop messing with me," she shoved my shoulder. Great, now the secret's out. She's bad at this. "Hey Tris?"
Before she could answer, her phone rang. With an apologetic look, she answered the call. "Hello mom," she put it on loudspeaker. "Hi honey," I heard Natalie's answer. "Hey Natalie," I said before I could stop myself. Tris just shrugged.
Natalie hesitated. "Tobias, didn't know you'd be there," she said. "With my daughter," she added nervously. "So, you coming?" Tris asked. "Was planning to. But Tobias is keeping you company right? I wouldn't want to disturb you two," Natalie forced out. I heard a grunt in the background.
Tris POV
"No, it's okay mom. You won't be," I answered. "Is that a boy Beatrice?" dad's voice sounded. Ugh. Great. "Uhm, yeah," I bit my lip. There was silence. "So, we'll be over in 20 then. Goodbye," mom says and ended the call.
Tobias looked at me. I couldn't read his expression. "I'm sorry, you don't mind do you?" I asked nervously. "No, not at all. They must have missed you," he offered a polite smile. Wow. If he's making an effort to be nice, I'm totally introducing him to my parents. "Would you stay? While they're here?" I ask, hoping he'd say yes.
He hesitated. "Why, what's wrong," I ask nervously. "It's just. In this form? I'm a devil, Tris, unless you haven't noticed," he pointed to his horns. Right. "I know, maybe in human form?" I suggested. "Yes, of course. And then they'll either think I'm human or ask me to transform into 'my ethereal form' to check out my 'gleaming halo' or wings and it'll be disastrous onward," he rolled his eyes. "Correction, my dad. By the sound of it, you and mom had a long conversation," I noted. As if that helps in calming him. He looks as if he's avoiding my stare. He scratched the back of his neck. "Uh, yeah. More or less."
"So, you'll be going?" I ask. Say no. "Yeah, I suppose. Sorry. I'll come back soon. By soon, I mean tomorrow, okay?" he said. Dammit! I told you to say no! Why aren't you a psychic?
"Yeah, okay," I answered with a heavy sigh. Another day ending with no Tobias. But I know he's here. He'll always be here for me.
"Byebye angel," he chuckled. OH MY GOD. As in literal in a mocking way, or because he thinks I'm one, which I am, but oh my this is so confusing, even I'm confused.
Quickly thinking of a reply, I used the first one that came to mind. "Bye ass," I rolled my eyes.
He feigned hurt. "Did you just…?" he faked a sob. "Thought you didn't notice," he smirked. "Shut up," I mumbled, feeling my face go hot. Now he'll know I've been checking him out. "Relax, Tris" he laughed.
With a last smile, he walked out, leaving me alone in the room to wait for the arrival of my parents, and possibly hours worth of lecture about how I should not have a boyfriend.
I am so freaking awesome to be able to upload yet another chapter. Silent yay for me! This time, I got my laptop back! With help from my sister though the help doesn't even make sense to any sane person. At least I hope they won't take it away from me ever again. I've missed this baby! And I missed being able to upload new chapters every once in a while although not often. I enjoy rambling for no reason lol. Since updates on life sometimes bore people, I'm not gonna tell you any of mine hehe not that you guys care, you'll just be getting shorter author notes, yeah? Anywho, how are you guys doing? I wish you guys in perfect health and have wonderful lives so all of us can be happy yay! Trust me, I care for each one of you and I'm here for anything you guys want to say :) Oh, and my appointment went well, I guess. But now my mom thinks I'm a tad bit crazy and depressed and so does the doctor so she's planning on taking me to a psychologist lol. Okay then, super long A/N, sorry :/ 'til then, bye guys! :D