Chapter 36- Failed Him

Cross's POV-

The first thing I did upon entering my room was grabbing the most expensive bottle of wine I have recently bought. After that I lit up a cigarette and jumped onto the bed watching Kanda slowly shut the door behind him and leaning against it. He was still holding onto Mugen so I had to guess that he had to of been training before he decided to come to talk to me. His face was glistening in sweat and the muscles on his arms were twitching from over use. This boy was so predictable it wasn't even funny, but never tell him he's a rookie or you risk being killed.

Kanda was never the type to over react to anything. So seeing him like this was a real shocker. He must be really worried to have to go to someone about it. Usually he is head strong in everything and wants to handle everything himself. Well if I know one thing is that this has got to be about Allen. Other than Kanda himself and Asarina I am the only other luck bastard who knows how to correctly deal with my baka minarai. Allen has been a bit down as of late and I wonder if Kanda has come to his wits end about it. I wouldn't be surprised and I guess if I have to I'll lend a helping hand and beat some sense into that apprentice of mine.

"Okay so what is it you wish to talk to me about? I know it has to deal with Allen but get on with it I don't have all night." I tell him screwing the cork off of my wine and took a swig.

Kanda still said nothing and I watched as he leaned his sword against the door and he began to pace. It was obvious that whatever he wanted to speak to me about it was serious. He had one hand on his hip and the other hand pushed into his hair. I waited patiently for him to begin. Whatever Allen was doing it was obvious that it was sending his boyfriend into a mental frenzy. I just hoped Allen wasn't back to his cutting habits again, we didn't need that after everything that has happened.

"I'm worried about Allen." He began.

"I know, it's obvious that you are." I tell him taking a drag from my cigarette.

"No you don't understand this time it's different." He tells me bringing his hand over his face.

"How is this different Kanda? He's going through his depression like always. If you tell me he's cutting again then I will be going straight to him and setting his shit straight!" I try to reassure him but he only sighs.

"He's not just depressed sir and no he isn't cutting again I hope, but he's been calculating things. Watching us." He says and I raise an eyebrow at him.

"I'm listening." I was now intrigued by what he had to say. It's been a few days now since Narul has left and I would have to say I have noticed Allen was acting strange, but I didn't think much of anything. It seemed to me that he was acting like everyone else.

Depressed.

"Well at first I thought he was just depressed because all he did was mope around. He was avoiding me and other people. Sticking to himself. I tried to not let it get to me." Kanda began to explain again and this time I was giving him my full attention.

"Then I remembered that he just came out of a coma and I didn't want to see him fall into that state again. So, I began to watch him a bit more closely." He continues.

"And what did you find?" I ask not liking where this conversation was going. If I knew Allen and boy did I know him well was that the little brat was crafty. If anything it was always a bad idea to leave him and Narul alone because they'd cause so much shit the order would be in disarray for weeks, no MONTHS!

"He's been watching all of us very closely and when it looks like we're going to look at him he turns his head but his eyes never leave us. Next I've seen him come in and out of Asarina's room a few times now. Then when he's by himself I see him talking to himself. But that's not what worries me." He says and I am very intrigued by his case now. Allen was came off as an introvert but he was actually the opposite, but for him to be acting this way meant it was big. He was definitely up to something.

"Let me guess what has you worried is he always knows when you're near by and he shuts up instantly right?" I ask and Kanda nods his head to my statement. I nod my head in understanding before putting the cork back onto the wine bottle then got up from the bed and began pacing in the room taking drags from my cigarette.

"Listen to me Kanda, Allen is very unpredictable and is very crafty. He's always been like that even when he was a kid. He is most likely up to something. With him coming in and out of Asarina's room my guess is that he is planning to somehow help Narul in finding his mother. That wouldn't be good if he tried to leave cause knowing him he'd go on his own." I tell him and I watch as his eyes widened.

"If he tries to leave then that makes him a sitting duck for Tyki to grab him." Kanda answers and he begins to pace again.

"Look we may be over shooting this Kanda, he might just be coping with her kidnapping in his own way. He did look up to her." I try to explain to him and he only sighs, I wasn't helping much with his nerves. Well, I wasn't trying to but I was hoping he'd stop pacing and look at this more calmly than what he was. Then again I couldn't blame him since the last Allen went all weird he ended up in a coma.

"Then what do you suppose we do Cross?" He asked me walking back over to Mugen, lifting the sword up into his hands. I sighed and walked over to my open window. I watched as Lavi and Lenalee made their way back into the building. At least they were handling things a bit better than us.

"For right now Kanda I just want you to keep an extra eye on Allen. Try to find out what he's been talking to himself about. I know spying on him is probably the worst of idea's but it's the only way to keep him safe. Understood?" I asked and I watched him look to the ground thinking. We stood in silence for quite a long while and I wondered what he was thinking about.

"I'm not going to like this, I hate doing things behind his back, but I understand. I will try everything in my power to find out what he's up to." Kanda said before turning and leaving the room. I stood there and sighed. Looking back out the window I saw that it was a full moon out. I pushed my fingers through my red hair and began to think. Things were becoming out of control and it was going to take a miracle for it all to go back to normal.

Kanda's POV-

I left Cross's room with more on my mind than I had begin with, I wasn't surprised by that in the least though. He did make some really good points and it made me wandering why I had left Allen alone tonight. I was heading down the hallway gripping as tight onto Mugen as possible. This was why I slightly hated Asarina, every time something happened it resolved around her and it had negative chain reactions. I was turning down the hallway to Allen and my room when I slowed down and came to a stop. I was standing outside our door and just leaned my head against it. Everything inside was quiet. Taking in a deep breath I let out a heavy sigh and walked into the room.

A small smile graced my lips as I saw Allen laying on the bed curled into a ball hugging onto my pillow. Closing the door silently behind me I made my way quietly through the room and sat on the edge of the bed. Allen's hair was sprawled out about his pillow and his mouth hung slightly open silent snores coming from him. He looked so peaceful and I prayed that this moment could last forever. I reached over and ran my fingers through his hair leaning forward and gently kissing his forehead.

"Kanda?" His tiny voice broke through the silence and I smiled watching as his eyelids slid open. I wasn't going to waste a perfect opportunity like this one.