POV: Paige and Alex
Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or any of its characters, just this fic, so don't sue me.
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Chapter 38: True Love
'go out of my way and be nicer to my friends…'
…this was the deal I had made with myself.
Terri's new boyfriend Ricki had hit her and already
Hazel and I had talked Terri out of that relationship…
by putting some sense into her.
No matter how much he claimed to be her true love,
He wasn't and we all knew it.
I don't claim to know what true love is.
In fact, I had no idea…
I'd never been in love with someone like that…
I know I like Spinner a lot…
… and we do 'things' together'…
He's definitely a good friend…
But I don't see it getting to that emotional level for some reason…
I feel that Spinner isn't ready, and neither am I.
I remember Craig moving here from Vancouver…
I would have to agree with everyone who thought
that he was the hottest guy of the school…
The other day I saw Craig singing for Ash…
'Somethin' about the way you shine…
When the lights go out, I wanna make you mine…
Somethin' about the way it seems, you're always here in my dreams.
When there's no one, there no one, I'm not scared,
but I'm in love…with you.'
It sure sounded like that's what 'true love' should feel like…
Craig sure knows how to put words together in a melody…
I can totally imagine why Ashley has fallen for him.
Someone declaring their love like this…
Putting their souls and feelings out for everyone to see...
The vulnerability of it all…
Disregarding the fear of rejection…
I wondered if I would ever be able to do that…
One day it will happen to me too, but until then,
I was happy for my friends who had found love…
Marco…
Hazel and Jimmy, a perfect couple.
and Ash…
I was so happy for her…
But then Manny came to me asking for advice…
I figured it must be the song that Craig wrote for Ash
that got Manny attracted to him as well…
…ah, the causalities of that song…
…She was right there in the gym with me.
I can't believe that Craig was bragging to Spinner
about him going all the way with Ash on my birthday…
And Ash thinks… that Spinner is as pubertal as it gets?
Think again Ash...
'no, be nicer Paige …you're doing great Hon.'
I had to break the promise I made to Manny.
I told Ash about the possibility of Craig getting Manny pregnant.
Ash was so devastated and of course she broke up with Craig afterwards.
This is what love gets you…
… hurt and betrayal…
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We were just hanging outside Degrassi at the time.
I was leaning on Jay's car while the rest of them were working on
nitro fueling for Jay's car for the drag race this weekend.
I was equally excited about it and had taken Saturday morning off from work.
Sean: So Alex, Hi. Sean said as he wiped the sweat with a white towel which he tucked back in his jeans right after. 'What's with this guy today?
I just gave him a nod in return and got back to
looking at kids rushing out the front gates of Degrassi and hurrying home.
This is the third time that he'd said 'Hi' to me in the past hour.
The second time he said hi, I gave him the benefit of doubt that he had forgotten
that he hi-ed me already but the third time is just plain weird.
He better state his purpose soon, or I'm done playing cool.'
Sean: How are things? He said resting against the car beside me
Alex: good. the less said, the better
Sean: school?
Alex: fine I kept gazing at Degrassi
Sean: how'd you do on the shop test today?
Alex: how'd you think I did? a well deserved 'A' after all the studying I did…
Sean: and work? … he just 'had' to remind me of that, didn't he?
Alex: that's good too. I have Merri all wrapped around my little finger although, It caught me attention when I saw Ellie coming out of the school… with Paige… Ellie always goes directly home after school and …Paige had sensed someone looking at them and was now looking at us…
I should leave in half an hour if I wanna make it in time.
what's she doing with her?
…and they're actually having a conversation with each other?
when did this 'turn of the tide' occurred and how'd I miss it?
I'm not liking her making exceptions for Paige of all people.
I should go to Ellie and find out what's happening…
But Sean interjected and spoke again…
…'I guess going over to Ellie would just have to wait'.
Sean: Alex… there's something… I've been trying to ask you …
He said nervously, pausing frequently before finishing the sentence.
Alex: okay.
Sean: it's a personal thing…
Alex: what is it? I said casually, trying to speed up the process a bit…
Sean: I want you to know that I really appreciate you guys… you know…
Alex: yeah.
Sean: No seriously, I do. he's stalling…
Alex: great. I tried to sound enthusiastic this time. Is that what you wanted to talk about?
Sean: No… he paused then he used his thumb to point first at himself and then at me
'us' …We are friends right? I smiled at the innocence of his question
Alex: yeah, we are Sean.
Sean: so that means we can keep a secret, right?
Alex: It depends on what the secret is? but my smile told him that I was kidding
Sean: Alex… I've been thinking a lot about this… go on…
…I think that may be I should just ask the concerned person directly?
Alex: Hunh? concerned person what?
Sean: I mean… it makes sense doesn't it? Not to me, No.
Alex: I don't get it Sean… what are you talking about? What the hell is he talking about?
Sean: Well, you know … if it's better to talk directly to the person involved instead of asking others… Did Sean Cameron have a crush on me? … how suicidal of him… Jay's standing right here…
I think I'd just figured this all out...
I was now staring at him with the most baffled expression on my face,
two very raised eyebrows
and some clue of what he was trying to say;
Was 'this' what it was all about?
No wonder he was so hesitant…
Alex: Are you high? I was certain he was
Sean: No?
May be I should just remind him of Jay's presence…
Alex: oh, was just wondering if Jay gave you some…
I realized…I needed a joint myself…
Anyway, what were you saying Sean?
Sean: well… there's this girl… there we go…
Alex: okay. Did I lead him on somehow? He knows I'm with Jay. So this is what he was trying to tell me this whole time… taking a long drag, I reminded myself that I had to go to work afterwards
He must be shyer than I thought he was.
I now had taken out a joint from Jay's jacket and
…taking advantage of the fact that there was no one around…
…I lit it up…
so I passed the joint to Sean.
Alex: So…?
Sean: … that's why I was asking you earlier… if I should talk to her…?
Now you're making perfect sense, you back stabber…
how can you do that to Jay?
subconsciously, I'd looked over to Jay who was still working on the engine…
Alex: yeah, I guess.
Sean: yeah? well… you could've helped a little… Is he saying what I think he's saying? I was officially creeped out but I somehow efficiently hid my panic.
I had to revert his thoughts elsewhere…
I didn't wanna know how he thought …I could've helped.
Alex: is it Amy?
Sean: No.
he's been hanging out with us a lot…
may be that's the problem…
May be he needs a distraction…?
Alex: 'green peace'?
I hated her even more now since the fight we had in the halls, the other day…
but in this case, she could've easily been a savior…
Sean: no it's not Emma
Alex: then who is it? There was sadness in his eyes which were looking at … In fact, now that I think about it, Paige? He's doomed… At least he'll get to live…
I was seriously annoyed…
just think of someone Sean… anyone besides me…
Sean: …I think she's with someone… yeah, I've already established that much…
…Paige and Ellie…
he'd been looking at them this whole time…
Seriously?
he had more hope with me than he has with her…
what am I thinking?
…being her lap dog is a very small price to pay for your life…
Alex: are you sure she's the one you like?
Was I disappointed...?
Sean: yeah, pretty sure…
Alex: then just tell her. I'm pushing him off the cliff, some friend I am
Sean: You think so?
Alex: yeah. What's the worst that can happen, right? I punched him lightly on the arm in a friendly manner.
If she's not interested, she'll just mock you in front of the whole school,
and that should kill all the dignity you have…
besides, I'm sure she can find lots of creative ways of torturing you to death…
you should've come to me earlier when there was still hope of …
talking you out of ending your life this way Sean…
Sean: Thanks… don't thank me, I don't deserve it…
Suddenly the fact that it wasn't me he'd fallen for, didn't give me much relief.
I couldn't explain it… but a feeling of uneasiness stayed with me as
I put my burgundy hood on and walked my way up to the park bench
where Ellie and Paige were sitting...
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