Glazed Feelings
Part 36
Rizzoli and Isles are the property of TNT and Tess Gerritson. I am only borrowing them for some shameless love. Thank you all for you encouragement. I appreciate your continued reading and reviewing. I start teaching summer school this week. Strangely enough I am teaching math. It should be interesting. As always please enjoy, your humble bard, Deanlu.
Jane woke alone to moonlit darkness. The bed sheet that dripped off her body would have reminded anyone of a painting by Dega. She could see low flickering light down the hallway as soft Spanish guitar music filtered into her hearing. She could see the shadows of movement reflecting off the walls.
"What is she up too?" Jane wondered. After their lovemaking on the beach, Maura had helped Jane back to the house. There they had showered to warm their bodies from the cold surf. Their lovemaking that followed had been slower, patient, and complete causing the detective and doctor to drop off into sleep afterwards wrapped in each other's arms. Now hour's later Jane rose looking for her fiancée. She wrapped the bed sheet around her body like a toga and wandered slowly down the hallway to the living room. She was totally surprised by what Maura had done.
"Hello love," Maura's deep, husky voice called out to Jane. Jane smiled as a shiver ran down her back and a warm coil of love wrapped around her heart. Maura had placed a quilt with multiple pillows on the floor in front of the fire place where a small fire blazed to ward off the chill of the night. She had set out a tray of cheeses, sliced bits of chicken, sliced baguettes, and honey. Chilling in a small cooler were bottles of water and juice. The one thing Jane was not happy to see was the small tray of medication set out for her to take. Jane grimaced a little, but could not ignore the white silk robe wrapped doctor beckoning her to come hither. Jane walked over to Maura as if being reeled in on a string. Maura took her hand helping her recline on the pillows next to her. She handed a few slices of cheese to Jane. "We haven't eaten in a while and I need you to keep your strength up detective." Jane smiled taking a bite of the cheese even as the whisper of doubt spread through her mind.
"I can see you doubt Jane. I promise I will try and prove to you my loyalty and faithfulness every day." Maura said as Jane enjoyed the repast set before her. While Maura's confession had done a great deal to banish most of the doubt in Jane's mind the detective still felt insecure about how easily she had been taken down by Eric. She was struggling on whether she could be the protector and strong partner Maura needed. "What? Tell me Jane." Maura's soft, clear voice whispered as they lay enjoying the meal.
"Maura, are you sure I am the strong partner you want? I mean I am not sure I can even protect you? I seem to have failed on that miserably. If anything the warehouse, the kidnapping from BPD, hell, even the time Patty broke into your house proved that." Jane said as gentle fingers covered her lips. Maura saw how deep the doubt went in her lovers eyes. This was not going to be easy for Jane to overcome.
"Yes, you are everything I need. You are a strong partner. You are having a rough time right now, but you will be strong in body again soon. Please honey, do not doubt yourself. You make me so happy. You heal the holes in my soul and the rips in my heart. Let me help you heal Jane." Maura's voice caused Jane to shiver as it took a lower octave. Jane sighed closing her eyes and banished the doubt for now. It was no use in fighting this love between Maura and her. It was too strong. It had literally possessed both women completely in every way. She needed to stop having doubts. She needed to start letting Maura's love and Dr. Fontaine's advice begin to heal her. Jane opened her eyes to Maura's worried look.
"Sorry, please bear with me. This may take some time." Jane said as the doctor held her hand running her thumb back and forth across it. "I promise that I will work hard to get myself back to where I was Maur." Jane ran her fingers along Maura's jaw accidently leaving some honey from her fingers. Maura went to wipe it off until Jane grabbed her hand. Maura look into her lovers eyes to see dark pools of liquid desire reflect back at her. Jane rose on her knees letting the bed sheet fall away. Maura gasped taking in her lover. No matter how many times she looked at Jane she would never stop desiring this woman. Jane's body was that of a hero's in Maura's mind. The scars that decorated it only added to the doctor's attraction and desire for Jane as it reminded her of how selfless and courageous this woman was for others…for her. Jane bent low nipping, kissing, and suckling along Maura's jaw until she had every drop of honey. Jane moved back to recline on the pillows again with a self-satisfied smirk on her face. "Sorry, didn't mean to cause you to get sticky." Maura let go of the breath she was unaware she had been holding. Jane watched as the flustered woman tried to pull herself together.
"I can tell being in love with you is going to be a very pleasurable experience." Maura said as she fed Jane a piece of the baguette with honey on it. Jane took the piece of honey covered bread allowing her tongue to skim over Maura's fingers removing the honey and causing shivers to appear on the women's skin. Jane and Maura continued to enjoy their meal exchanging affection and tenderness as their ardor grew again. The two women made love until dawn's faint purples and pinks stained the sky. Maura woke to the late morning sun coming through the windows. She was wrapped in Jane's arms being held tightly even as Jane's breath came in fast, shallow staccatos as the detective suffered through another nightmare.
"Shhh, Jane, he can't hurt you. Shhh, I am here Jane." Maura whispered gathering in closer to Jane pressing soft kisses to her breast where Jane's heart beat erratically. A fine sheen of sweat that had nothing to do with their earlier lovemaking had broken out on Jane. "Shhh, I'm here Jane. You are protecting me. I am here Jane. I love you." Maura's voice continued its attempt to sooth and assures the dreamer until consciousness returned. The doctor noticed tears now leaked from Jane's eyes even as her movements and hold lessened. Maura planted soft kisses on Jane's breast and shoulder area whispering softly. Jane woke to Maura's steady embrace and soft kisses.
"Maura?" Jane's raspy, confused voiced called out.
"I'm here Jane. Don't worry. I love you." Maura said reassuringly. Jane began coughing. A small cough, but a cough none the less that worried the medical examiner. She gently braced her hand on Jane's chest hoping this wasn't the return of the bronchitis.
"It's okay. Doctor Reynolds told me I may have the cough off and on the rest of the week. He said it was just my system recovering. No need to worry Maur unless it becomes persistent again." Jane said as she sat up releasing Maura and grabbed the nearby water bottle. A few swallows later and Jane was breathing better. She leaned forward placing her elbows on her knees and rested her head in her hands. The dream was bad. It had her nervous and a little off kilter. Maura slid in behind her resting her head against Jane's shoulder and molding the rest of her body to the detective. She listened to Jane's breathing satisfying herself that the young woman was okay.
"Will you tell me about your dream or is it too fresh?" Maura asked knowing the dreams sometimes needed time so Jane could distance herself from the images that terrified her. Jane raised her head and looked at the embers of the fire.
"It's stupid. I should know it's not real. It always starts the same." Jane stopped shivering, but not from the cool breeze. Maura reached over grabbing the nearby blanket and wrapping it around them.
"Go ahead. It's only a dream. It can't hurt you. I'm here Jane." Maura said kissing her lovers shoulder reassuringly. Jane leaned back into Maura absorbing her loves support and taking comfort in her touch.
"I…Can we go into town today Maur? I need to get out for a short while." Maura could tell Jane was avoiding, but she allowed it. Maura squeezed Jane hugging her tightly.
"Sure. How about we shower and then have breakfast in town. I know this little place that serves great eggs. Dr. Fontaine will want to see you later today. No more avoiding her Jane." Maura said as she went to get up. Jane grabbed her hand pulling her down for a kiss.
"Thank you for not pushing." Jane said softly rubbing noses with Maur and kissing her cheek. Maura kissed her back and looked Jane in the eyes.
"You're not off the hook detective. You will talk to me Jane. I love you and I will fight for us." Maura said softly kissing the detective one more time. Jane watched as Maura stood and reached out a hand for her. Jane realized at that moment Maura was so much braver than she was inside.