Chapter 38

Raven Pov

Finn gently set Raven down on their bed, sitting her on the edge with her feet dangling over the side.

Bellamy had taken Harper and Miller into the Dropship, locking them in the top compartment, and positioned two guards outside to make sure they didn't try to escape.

He had Clarke look Monty over in the main compartment, and had asked if she could look after him through the night. Monty had gone into complete shock after the death of James, who's body still remained in the woods where he had died.

By the time they made it back to camp, Raven had been exhausted, but it was nothing compared to the way Clarke looked. She now had to take care of Emile, Ella and Monty, so when she had offered to come to her tent to take care of her injuries, she had told her no.

Finn had started to protest at that, saying that she really should let Clarke take a look at her to make sure that she was all right, but eventually gave in, and offered instead to help her clean her wounds.

She watched as Finn walked over to the bucket of lukewarm water in the the corner of their tent, bending down to pick up the rag that hung over the side.

He hadn't said a word to her on their way back to camp, but she didn't think that he was still angry. But, his expression as they walked was impossible for her to read – something that didn't happen very often, and she wanted desperately to know what he was thinking.

Finn came back over to her side, the rag now slightly wet with water, and he gently took her right hand in his. Raven flinched back before the rag even made contact with her bloody wrist, and Finn looked at her, giving her a wry smile.

"My brave Raven's afraid of a little water?" he said jokingly.

Seeing him smile again made the pain she had felt since being tied up lessen just the slightest bit.

"Be careful, Finn," she said in a quiet voice.

Finn bent down to kiss the palm of her hand, then sat down on the bed beside her.

"I'll try."

Finn slowly brought the wet rag to her wrist and Raven had to squeeze her eyes closed when she felt a wave of dizziness brought on by pain wash over her. She gasped, holding tension in her shoulders and neck until he had washed all of the blood away from her wrist, and gently set in down in her lap.

Raven opened her eyes to see Finn take out one of the cloth bandages that Clarke had given them, and wrapped it around the same wrist he had just washed.

She watched his face as he did this, his expression soft and thoughtful. Before he could finished, Raven leaned in and kissed him, suddenly feeling the urge to do so, so strong that she couldn't resist.

Finn immediately stopped wrapping the cloth around her wrist and after a pause, kissed her back. It was slow and gentle, unlike most of the kisses that they shared. He treated her like she was made of glass and for once, she didn't mind.

Finn was the first to pull away, his eyes having darkened a considerable amount as he took a deep breath of air.

"I need to finish with your wrists. Don't worry, there will be plenty of time for that later though," he said lightheartedly, and she smiled a genuine smile at him.

She hated it when she and Finn fought, and was glad that he wasn't mad at her anymore. But, she could still tell that he was bothered by something, and was afraid to know what it was.

"Are you okay?" she asked.

He looked up at her confused. "Of course, why wouldn't I be?"

"Come on Finn, we've known each other our entire lives, I think I can tell when something is bothering you, so go on, spit it out," said Raven, trying to sound like she wasn't afraid of his answer.

What if he thought that she had cheated on him with Monty? They hadn't done anything wrong – not really.

"I don't know," he said, shaking his head, then got up to dunk the rag back in the water.

She waited until he turned back around so that she could see his face, before continuing.

"Please, tell me, you're scarring me. You never keep things from me," she said.

Finn sighed. "I know that I've been busy lately," he said, taking a seat on the bed again and looking deep into her eyes. "I don't mean to ignore you, but things are just a bit chaotic at the moment. I promise though, that I will make more time for you."

She didn't know what to say to that. She thought that he was going to be mad at her for the way he had caught her acting around Monty, but instead, he was the one apologizing to her.

When she didn't say anything, he continued.

"Just answer me one thing, and we never have to talk about it again."

She swallowed the lump in her throat.

"Did you cheat on me?"

His face held no expression in it as waited for her to answer. The calmness with which he had asked her the question made her want to scream.

"No!" she said quickly, standing. "I would never – never do that to you, I love you."

It was only when she saw the shock on his face that she realized that tears started streaming down her face. The guilt that she had carried with her for so long all caught up her at once.

Ella had warned her that even flirting with Monty would lead to something bad, but she never thought that harmless flirting could have the potential to ruin her and Finn's relationship, so she had just ignored her and did it anyway.

"On, no, Raven, don't cry," he said, pulling her into a hug. "I'm sorry, I know that you would never cheat on me."

She cried even harder at the sureness in his voice, even though he had caught her flirting with Monty just the other day.

"I'm so sorry, Finn," she whispered into his shoulder between sobs.

"Lets just forget about it, okay? If you say nothing happened, than nothing happened," he said with a soothing hand on her back.

Finn slowly backed them up to the bed, and sat her back down, taking her left hand in his. His kissed her palm like he had done to the right one before cleaning the blood away from her wrist once she was able to stop crying.

Once he had finished with that one, he threw the rag into the bucket of water and wrapped her wound in the clean cloth, and dried her eyes with his thumbs, cupping her face in his hands.

He then bent down to take off her shoes one at a time and slipped her pants off her legs, leaving her in her underwear, then took off his own shoes, pants and shirt and lifted the blanket back. They both slid under them and Raven sighed when he pulled her against him, feeling safe in his arms.

"I love you, Raven," Finn whispered in her ear.

"I love you, too," she whispered back.

He pulled her head down for a kiss, and she couldn't help the smile that came to her lips.

A/N: There just isn't enough time for me to fit as much in as I want to into forty chapters as I said that I was going to do, so I've decided to push it up to around fifty chapters instead. I finally got all the characters together that I wanted to and I think that I want to write about them a little longer. ;)