p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"The plane-flight was so pleasant. The people around us didn't know Lana. So we could just chill, talk and play around a little. During the night-time where the lights were dimmed, we even kissed. It felt awesome to just be able to do that with her. It felt like I was flying, even though we obviously were... You know what I mean.../span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"Right now, we are at the baggage claim area. Lana and I are surrounded by security people. Lana and I flew to Amsterdam. She promised me she would stay with me for a while, so I am extremely happy. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"When I told her I had a doctor's appointment in a couple of days, she wanted to join me without a doubt. We talked about Fred and about his rights to this baby. We decided he wasn't allowed near her. I mean, not like I want him to, he's no father to this child. He raped me, he's no father material and he will never be able to be around her because it's just not safe. Little bean will have enough love from just me... and maybe also a bit of Lana. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"But enough thinking, let's just enjoy the moments we spend together/span/emspan lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;", I think. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"I look over to Lana, who is sleeping with her head on the window. I just spend a couple of minutes taking in this picture. She looks so perfect, her hair sticking to the window, her mouth slightly open to breathe while she's sleeping. Her hands are resting on her lap and her legs are crossed. I observe how her chest rhythmically rises and falls. She has never looked so beautiful to me. It is like we are a normal couple, but we are not. We have been brought together because of Fred, and now we are stuck in a situation where we shouldn't even be in. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"But we are making the best of it. She has accepted me and all my decisions with the first look she's given me at the convention. I hope she doesn't just stay with me because she feels bad about the entire situation. My hands go to my belly, and I start whispering to the little one. "Hi baby, this is your second plane-flight. Even though you will not remember this later on, this is a moment where I know you are happy. You're awake and I hope you can hear me..." My thumbs are caressing my belly. "I love you more than words can express and I promise to God, I will give you everything. I will make sure you are the happiest kid in the entire world, little one. I will make sure of that. I'll give you all the love in the world, little bean."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"I feel a hand on my knee and I look up. I see Lana with tears in her eyes. That makes my eyes water as well. She heard everything. I rest my head on her shoulder and she kisses my hair. "I love you", she whispers in my ear./span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;""I love you too", I say. My life feels so complete and perfect with those words./span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"Right now, we are at the baggage claim area. Lana and I are surrounded by security people. Lana and I flew to Amsterdam. She promised me she would stay with me for a while, so I am extremely happy. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"When I told her I had a doctor's appointment in a couple of days, she wanted to join me without a doubt. We talked about Fred and about his rights to this baby. We decided he wasn't allowed near her. I mean, not like I want him to, he's no father to this child. He raped me, he's no father material and he will never be able to be around her because it's just not safe. Little bean will have enough love from just me... and maybe also a bit of Lana. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"But enough thinking, let's just enjoy the moments we spend together/span/emspan lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;", I think. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"I look over to Lana, who is sleeping with her head on the window. I just spend a couple of minutes taking in this picture. She looks so perfect, her hair sticking to the window, her mouth slightly open to breathe while she's sleeping. Her hands are resting on her lap and her legs are crossed. I observe how her chest rhythmically rises and falls. She has never looked so beautiful to me. It is like we are a normal couple, but we are not. We have been brought together because of Fred, and now we are stuck in a situation where we shouldn't even be in. /span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"But we are making the best of it. She has accepted me and all my decisions with the first look she's given me at the convention. I hope she doesn't just stay with me because she feels bad about the entire situation. My hands go to my belly, and I start whispering to the little one. "Hi baby, this is your second plane-flight. Even though you will not remember this later on, this is a moment where I know you are happy. You're awake and I hope you can hear me..." My thumbs are caressing my belly. "I love you more than words can express and I promise to God, I will give you everything. I will make sure you are the happiest kid in the entire world, little one. I will make sure of that. I'll give you all the love in the world, little bean."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"I feel a hand on my knee and I look up. I see Lana with tears in her eyes. That makes my eyes water as well. She heard everything. I rest my head on her shoulder and she kisses my hair. "I love you", she whispers in my ear./span/p
p class="MsoNormal"span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;""I love you too", I say. My life feels so complete and perfect with those words./span/p