We get up early and get dressed. We walk out to the van, still half asleep and I lean on Samuel. "I'll wake you up when we get there." He whispers and I smile. But that's the thing. I don't sleep, I don't know if it's because I want to see if they talk about me, or if it's because I like the idea of just lying on Samuel- ok, let's back track that thought, crumple it up and throw it in the garbage, I do NOT like Samuel, not like that anyway.
We come to a hault and the engine stops. Samuel puts his arm on my shoulder. "Nicola." He whispers. I don't move. It's all in the act. "Nicola." He whispers again and lets out a slight giggle. I shrug and rub my eyes; that's it, make it believable. I open them and fake yawn; and seal the deal. I'm proud of myself. "Nice sleep?" He asks and I nod. "Yeah. Thanks." I say and we get out. We are greeted by Erik, Zach, Nikki and Robert. "Hey guys." We smile. "Hi." We say and look at each other. "Today, we are going to film your music video." We nod. "Now, before we film, lets go in here." Robert says and we walk into a smallish room which has 10 chairs and a TV screen. "This is where you will watch each other, when you are not filming." We nod and Robert has another clipboard. "So guys, you had a conversation with Erik here the other day, and we are now looking to know your words." He says while we sit down.
"Damian?" "Numb."
"Emily?" "Used."
"Cameron?" "Misunderstood."
"Lindsay?" "Fake."
"Samuel?" "Rejected."
"Marissa?" "Flawed."
"Alex?" "Gay."
"Nicola?" "Unwanted."
"Matheus?" "Small."
"Hannah?" "Fat."
He nods and we are given white vest tops, black shorts and black sneakers to wear along with heavy jackets. We get changed (Girls first, then we leave and the guys get changed.) We all walk out and see an area cordened off with 10 boards sitting in a circle along with markers. "Ok guys, so it is going to start off with you guys writing your words on your boards." We nod and all sit around at the boards. More people start to appear and some stop and stare. We hear the music playing and start writing our words in thick black marker. When we are finished they call Alex and the rest of us walk back in. We sit down and watch him on the screen while they adjust his sign. He lip sync's along and Marissa starts to cry. I turn around to her. "What's wrong?" Lindsay asks and she says nothing, but walks out to Robert. We watch her and she walks back in by herself. "I'm changing my board." She says between tears and we stand up. "Are you sure you want to do this Marissa?" Lindsay asks and I look her in the eye. She nods and we walk out to re-shoot, we get blank boards but don't have to shoot as much.
When they shout cut we all look over at her, crying while looking at her board.
"Anorexic." I. Knew. It.