I do not own GH or it characters. I just enjoy writing about my favorite couple who always seems to be screwed out of having a real chance.

Chapter 38

When Jason found Elizabeth, she was looking out the window, he immediately folder her into his arms. Jason could tell by her posture she wasn't in a good place.

"Ok, Sweetie. Let's hash this out one more time. I know something has been bothering you since before we watched that video. I want to know what you are feeling. Let's work this out. I love you and will do anything for you. I just need to know what is going on. We have never had a problem talking about what is going on; please don't let that change now." Jason persuaded.

"There's nothing you can do. Maybe this... us getting married thing is wrong. I mean you haven't been back long maybe there is something Helena did to you to make you not love Sam, like she did to Lucky." Jason sighed fear that this was what she was worried about, Elizabeth continued.

"Maybe when she messed with your memories of Sam and gave them to William. Helena made Luckt forget he loved me. Maybe she did something to lessen your love for Sam and it will all come back. Then you will hate me for taking advantage of the situation, I can't go through that again."

"Elizabeth, when Lucky came back, he was being controlled by Helena. Trust me if Helena were incontrol of me she wouldn't be in my custody and Nikolas wouldn't be getting prepped for surgery. I will tell you more about that later. What is going on right here is more important. The point is that I have all of my memories of us and of Sam. Yes, I was devastated when I saw Sam with Rick. However during that night with you, I realized how much I loved you. My whole world tilted and looking back I realized I had been in love with you for years. My life was full, even with you being married to Lucky, I would have moved Heaven and Earth to make a life for us, you, me, and Cameron. My brain was starting to determine the changes I could and would make to ensure my family's safety. When you said we could only have that one night, I felt my heart break, but in a different way than with Sam. When you said that it was like my soul shattered, like my life would be empty again. The time between when we first kissed and you told me only one night, I felt like my world was righted, like I was finally where I needed to be. When Carly told me that your baby wasn't mine, I died a little more. I was holding out hope that it would be mine and we could maybe work it out. You and your children became my family with that first kiss, I would have done anything for you." Jason explained.

"See how can you love me? I lied to you about who the baby's father was. Then when I thought we would not make it I told the baby was yours, then I told you not to tell anyone because I didn't want to hurt Lucky. Which in the end caused you and Sam to have problems. Then once Jake was born, I asked you to give him up because I though Lucky needed him to stay clean. Even after Lucky knew the truth I kept begging you not to tell everyone. I kept breaking you. Why did you keep coming back? Why do you still want me?"

"I wanted you because I love you, I love Jake, I love Cameron, and I love Aiden. I hated every minute I wasn't there with all of you, however I did agree that my enemies not knowing I had a son and that you had always been important to me was more important than my feelings for all of you. You know losing Jake killed a part of me and when I thought you were gone I felt like there was no reason for me to live. AS long as you were alive I was okay with us not being together. It was better to know you were out there somewhere alive and healthy, than for us to be together. Once you died my life felt over and I realized all the time we stole from each other. I told you before I knew what live was that there are no words to describe what I feel for you, it has't changed. I love you."

"You love Sam too. Don't deny it. I screwed up there too. I should have been stronger and not come to you that night. I should have just gone to the hospital. Then before you were taken Jason I liked about Danny's blood work. I didn't want Sam to get her baby back, because it would bring you back to her. I felt it was finally time for us to have a real go of things. You told me no, you told me it would be a slap in our son's face. Then you went after Danny, decided not to divorce Sam and be a family with them. The family I wanted, but could never have. It again felt like everything was taken from me."

"Sweetie, I never meant to hurt you. I was afraid of more than it being a slap in Jake's face. It was my way to punish myself for not doing the right thing when we could. I wasn't man enough or strong enough to have everything I wanted when it was right in front of me. I wasn't there to save Jake and maybe even if I claimed him someone else would have gotten to him. Now don't go thinking I only want you because Jake is alive. Thinking you were dead made me realize that we have punished ourselves enough, we should have grieved Jake together not have Sam or Lucky to lean on, it should've been us completely leaning on each other. We should have cried together, held each other and went through our memories together. That shows just another way I failed."

"No, it again it how I failed you and him." Elizabeth said and moved out of Jason's arms to sit in one of the chairs in front of the window.

"I am just as responsible for not claiming Jake. I could have gone against you. As for the Sam part, I loved her and cared about her. I knew she needed my support. When I told you no when Sam served me with divorce papers was because I felt guilt for our situation with Jake and guilt that I let Sam down, I didn't protect her baby. I wasn't going to be married to her anymore, but I also couldn't be with you, I didn't deserve that happiness. It was hard especially thinking Franco was Danny's father, but then I tried to think about how good Lucky was to Cam and Jake as well as how good Monica was to me, that is where I realized I really could love Danny as my own. Elizabeth you are my heart and always have been. Sam was never in my heart the way you were, you have held my heart since the night at Jake's. I was angry with myself after Jake was taken by the Russians and thought you would never forgive me. I was saddened with not being able to claim Jake as my own to everyone, to not being able to tell Alan or Monica. Grandfather would have loved Jake. "

Jason moved to kneel in front of Elizabeth again.

"Did I chase your demons away? I know Helena's message and Sam's earlier attitude set you off a little, but we are stronger than both of them. Are we okay?"

"I don't know. I feel like this is a dream and I am going to wake up and you will either be dead again or with Sam. I feel like I have finally lost it and I will need to be taken away."

"Elizabeth, Sweetie, I am here. I am not going anywhere. You are what I want; you are what I have always wanted. I have known that deep down but I wasn't brave enough to face it until it was too late. Do you know why I didn't kiss you goodbye at the courthouse?"

"No,"

"Let me explain." Looking into Elizabeth's eyes, he continued. "If I had kissed you or even took you in my arms one last time, I would have never walked away. There is a reason I was always drawn to you. You were always my soul. The reason I kissed you on that bridge, after I saw Sam and McBain kiss, was because I am drawn to you. With Sam and Courtney, when we decided to no longer be a couple, I was able to kiss them and felt like I would still be able to walk away. If I took you in my arms or kissed you after saying it was over, I knew I would never walk away. I would keep you forever. It broke my heart to walk away from you, every time I have had to walk away from you since the beginning, it has broken me. Even before I knew why, I knew I didn't want to leave you."

Jason leaned in and kissed Elizabeth gently on her cheek, then moved to the other cheek. Jason then planted a sensual kiss on her lips. They deepened the kiss for a few moments. Before Jason pulled away and asked breathlessly, "Are we okay?"

"Yes. I may have some doubts, but I have always loved you, Jason." Elizabeth breathed.

Jason, kissed Elizabeth again. He stood up and gently picked Elizabeth up, she wrapped her legs around his waist. They continued to kiss as he walked them over to their bed. Jason gently laid her down and removed his clothing and then helped Elizabeth out of hers. He stared at Elizabeth for a couple seconds, amazed that after all this time she was still so beautiful and all his. Jason let out a breath, he didn't realize he was holding, before moving over her and joining their bodies. They made slow passionate love, renewing their bond and reminding each other of how much time they lost and how they had a finally had a lifetime to love each other.

The two laid quietly after their love making, Jason holding Elizabeth with her head on his chest. Jason broke the silence first.

"I have some answers to your earlier questions at the hospital. If you would like to hear about it now, otherwise it can wait until morning."

"Are you sure I am able to know? I mean it is probably something that you would normally keep from me."

"There are no secrets now, I will not keep you in the dark, unless it is absolutely necessary, for your safety or the boys. We will not have any lies between us. Cody found Helena and Nikolas, they were taken to a safe place. While I was talking to Sam, which I believe went really well, she is showing Alexis the divorce papers, but only as a formality, before she promised to sign them. Cody called and informed me of that he was able to finally track them and told me their whereabouts. I showed up and was able to determine that something was very wrong with Nikolas. I had him moved so Patrick could check him out. Helena decided to give Nikolas some of our memories to make him think you two were in love, he also seemed like he was overly aggressive. Patrick found two chips that will require two separate brain surgeries. Patrick is optimistic Nikolas will recover. If anything happens with legalities since I am not next of kin I am sure we can get Sam tonsign something giving Patrick permission to donthe surgeries."

"You have to be kidding me. Helena is nuts and... Is she still alive?" Elizabeth asked sheepishly.

"For now, I am waiting to make my next move and until Nikolas is out of the woods. In case we find anything else and need more answers. She seemed to be very willing to answer questions. She knows what I am capable of and I am sure she's afraid I just may torcher her. She told me she didn't do anything to Jake's brain. She just raised him like her own son. When he was rescued he was about a year for starting his Princely training. Helena admitted Jake was young enough when she took him that she didn't need to reprogram him. We lost Jake to hurt Luke and Lucky for Luke's part in Miko's death. When we were worried about my enemies we forgot about the one who hates the Spenser's above all else. Helena's fixation on you is because of how resilient you are. You survived Lucky and Jake's disappearances and reappearances. Helena decided you were the perfect next Cassadine Queen. Which is why she made Nikolas fixate on you as well. I believe if you didn't have guards and I hadn't escaped you would have been taken. According to Nikolas your boys were to all be princes once you married him."

"Oh my God, she really is nuts! Are you sure she can't escape?"

"No, there is no way out for her. My most trusted men are on her. Cody will be back on your guard duty by the day after tomorrow."

"Can we go to bed now? I just want to fall asleep safe in secure in your arms away from all the crazy."

Jason nodded and two fell asleep quickly tangled on each other.

Authors note: Merry Christmas. Maybe I will get another one up tomorrow.