Angel: Requested by Monty G.
Summary: What if Amy doesn't get a close call?
I don't wanna lose you by Jamestown story (Leo and Amy)
She runs through the rooftops with the turtles as they holler. They weren't on patrol, they were just having fun. Amy cheers as she backflips to the next building. She stops for some reason. Leo turns to her. "Ames?" he asks. She closes her eyes. She seemed to be concentrating on something. "Hurry up, ice princess," Raph replies. "Sh," she replies. "Why?" Mikey asks. "I hear something…" she answers. They give each other a look. "I don't hear anything," Donnie comments in confusion. "Maybe if you would shut up, I can hear myself think," Amy retorts and he huffs. There. It was faint, but she heard it.
Sirens. Not police sirens, but firefighter sirens.
She gasps and starts running in the other direction. "Dudette, where you going?" Mikey asks and they chase after her. "What the heck is she talking about?" Raph asks. Leo looks at her and then sees a fire. He gasps and stops. A building was on fire. The firefighters were trying to stop it, but to no avail. Amy jumps down and runs to the building. "Ames, what are you doing?!" Leo exclaims. "My baby's in there!" a woman cries out. Amy hears a faint cry from the building. Amy runs up to the firefighters. "There's people in there, you have to help them!" she explains and tries to get past them. They block her from entering. "Miss, calm down. We've got it covered," one of them tells her. "But they need help now!" she exclaims, looking at the fire. "We'll find them. Now go home and relax, miss," another one replies before turning to the fire. She narrows her eyes.
Someone had to help. And if it wasn't going to be them…
She steps back a bit. Then she starts running towards a window. "Miss, we said-" she covers her face with her arms and jumps through the window. "Ames!" Leo shouts. She coughs and looks around. All she could see was fire. "We have to get in there!" Donnie yells. "What! They could see us!" Raph exclaims. "But Amy is in there!" Mikey retorts. "Mikey is right. We have to get her out of there," Leo orders and they were about to jump over when Leo stops them. "No. I have to do it alone," he tells them. They look at each other and nod at him.
Amy covers her mouth, coughing. She hears a baby crying. She looks around. "Man, I can't use my powers. It's too hot…" she murmurs. She sees a door, where the crying was coming from. She kicks the door open. A baby lies on a pink cloth, bawling its eyes out. "How did you get here?" she asks, picking up the baby. She looks up at Amy and giggles. Amy smiles before looking around. She looks out a window and sees the mother. "My baby!" she exclaims. Amy holds out the baby girl. "Oh, thank you! Thank you so much!" the mother shouts. Amy was about to climb out when debris falls in front of the window. "Oh no!" the mother yells and the firefighters run over to the window. "Miss, are you alright?" she hears and she coughs in response. "We need to get her out of there!" she hears.
She coughs again, looking around. The fire starts to get more intense. Her lungs were killing her. "Ames!" she hears. She coughs. "Leo?" she asks as she coughs. "Where are you?" she hears and all she could do was cough as the smoke starts to engulf her lungs. She falls to the floor. Flaming wood falls down on her.
Leo coughs and looks around. He sees an open door and runs in…
To see Amy engulfed in flames.
Leo looks in horror. "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" he shouts. "What was that?" he hears from inside. He gasps and looks at Amy. He couldn't leave her. "This way!" he hears and footsteps near towards him. He had no choice…he jumps out a back window before the fire-fighters see him. Leo blinks back tears as he jumps to his brothers. "Leo, what happened?" Raph asks. Leo couldn't find the words to express how hurt he was feeling. The pit in his stomach ached and grew with guilt and sorrow every passing second. Leo kneels down, crying like a mess. "Leo…don't tell me…" they then see her on a stretcher, being pulled into an ambulance vehicle. They gasp at the sight. "No…" Mikey whispers, hugging Raph, tears falling down from his eyes.
Donnie looks at Leo, who watches with tear-filled eyes. He sadly puts a hand on his shoulder. "They'll take her to the hospital, Leo. She'll be fine," Donnie whispers. "W-What if she's…" Leo croaks out. "Don't talk like that, Leo! She'll be okay," Donnie tells him. Leo's eyes trail down to the bracelet he got her when they started being boyfriend and girlfriend. He looks at it and sees a future. He saw all the hope and love from the past. Those memories would always be there, but the moments they shared together passed and faded too quickly. Leo cries, unable to contain his sobs. He bawled and choked on words, feeling like a monster. "I'm so sorry," he whispers as he sees the mother looking down at Amy. "I-I'll call April. She'll stay with her," Donnie explains as he picks up his T-Phone.
Leo sits there as they take away his love in the ambulance. "Leo, listen to me! She'll survive this. She has to," Raph tells him. "B-But…I want to be there…I don't want to leave her," he wept. "And she doesn't want to leave you! Do this for her. If you want to see her again, I suggest you stop being a baby and come with us," Raph explains. Leo gulps at his words. Sure, they may have been harsh, but it did the trick. "What's Master Splinter going to say?" Mikey asks sadly.
"I can't be with her so please April, PLEASE stay with her. Don't leave her side for a second," Leo hiccups from his T-Phone. He sniffs. She blinks back tears. When she heard the news, she immediately went to the hospital. She was there now, standing in front of the doors. She nods. "I promise, Leo. You have my word," she whispers softly. "A-And bring her the stuff we gave you the money for," she hears from Mikey. He sounded like he was about to break down crying. April looks at the bag. Amy's favorite flowers, chocolate, music, and comic books were in there. The guys had insisted that she needed them. "I will," April answers before hanging up. She wipes away her tears. "Hang in there, cuz," she whispers before walking inside.
She sees the receptionist. She takes a deep breath. "I'm here for Amy," she says. "Amy who?" the lady responds blankly. "Smith," April answers and the woman's eyes widen. "You mean the one who rescued that baby?" she asks. April nods. "How did you know?" she asks. "It's on the news! Everyone's talking about it," the woman answers. "Already?!" April exclaims. The woman nods. "Anyway, she's got a lot of visitors right now," she replies, pointing to a crowd of people. They were holding gift baskets, stuffed animals, flowers, and etc. April's eyes widen. How would Leo react if she wasn't able to see her? "Please, she's my cousin," she explains. The woman sighs. "I guess I can make an exception. Room 218," she answers. "Thank you. Thank you so much," April replies before heading to the elevator.
When she got there, she saw the most horrible sight in her life. Not even her father's mutation was close.
Her body was gray with a few spots of red. She wore a hospital gown, her clothes had burned off in the fire. All of her hair was gone. A breathing tube was hooked up to her face. Flowers and gift baskets were everywhere, probably from all the visitors from before. A paramedic was there, along with a mother and her child. The mother sobs and looks to see April. "Oh…hello," the mother whispers. April knew this wasn't her mom. "Um…hi," April replies. The mother looks at Amy again. "S-She risked everything…for my Cassie," she whispers as the baby giggles. April immediately knew who this was. Amy had rescued her baby. "I see…" April says. The baby drops the bear she was holding, but she didn't cry. "I think she wants your friend to have this," the mother whispers with a soft chuckle.
"I'm not her friend…I'm her cousin," April answers. "Oh…well, I'll leave you two alone now. I think I've overstayed my welcome," the mother replies, standing up. She looks at Amy again. "Thank you so much…you truly are a hero," she whispers. April smiles softly as she leaves. She turns to the paramedic. "She's gonna make it through…right?" she asks. The paramedic gulps. "We can't say for sure…" he answers. April sighs, shutting her eyes and swallowing the lump in her throat. "Amy…" she whispers. The IV started getting slower. The paramedic's eyes widen. He slams down a button and doctors immediately rush into the room. "She's losing oxygen!"
"We need to restart her heart."
"Hmm, CPR won't be any good…get the paddles."
April curls up in a ball, the stress getting to her. She knew what happened when someone got shocked with the defibrillator. One of the doctors charged the machine to 300 and rubs the paddles together, quickly placing them on her side and chest. "Clear!" Then the sound. Oh, the sound of her body jolting up then falling back down as electric currents surged through her body would haunt April forever. April gasps, covering her ears. Nothing had changed. "Charge to 400," she hears. "Got it." And they crack up the dial. April whimpers before her T-Phone rings. "Leo?" she asks. All she could hear was heavily breathing. "How is she…?"
April couldn't find the right words to say. "She…"
"DAMN IT!"
"It's over. She's gone," was all Leo heard from the doctors in the background. April gasps. "No, no, no, she's fine! She's fighting! She'll make it!" April yells into the phone. "Unplug her," he hears. Leo's sobs start up again as April hears smashing sounds on his side. "Leo, stop! Leo?! What are you doing?" April asks before the line went dead.
As did April's hope.
April sits there in a hospital chair with her head hung low. She cries into her knees as the doctor speaks to her. "Miss, when your cousin came in today, she suffered from severe burns. She was already gone when you came in," he explains. "No! No, she was breathing! That machine helped her breathe! She was fine!" April shouts. "Ms. O'Neil, her body was burnt to a crisp. Her organs had already failed due to smoke infiltration. We couldn't get blood or oxygen to her major organs in time. She was too far gone to treat," he explains. April felt a course of anger through her. "How could you say that?! NO! YOU'RE WRONG! DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE GOING TO MISS HER?!" April screams, jumping out of her seat. "WHAT ABOUT HER PARENTS?" April starts to break down. "Or her brothers?" Quiet sobs broke free from her lips and she pulls at her hair. "What about Leo?" That's when she broke down, completely bawling.
The doctor frowns and looks at his feet. "…I'm sorry for your loss," he replies. "C-Can I see her?" April sobs. The doctor nods. "Of course," he answers and slowly leads her to the morgue where Amy was placed. She wanted to scream. She wanted to scream out and run away back to the lair and make sure Leo wasn't doing anything stupid. April slowly walks up to her burned body and knew it was all over. She sniffles, wiping a tear away. She stares at Amy half expecting her to jump up and start breathing again as if it was some sick joke. But it wasn't. She was gone, and Leo could never live with this hanging over his head. He's all alone, without his brothers to keep him sane. What if he was hurting himself? April couldn't stand to even think about that.
"I'm really sorry, Ms. O'Neil. This must be heart breaking for you to see your cousin like this. Would you…would you like to make any phone calls?"
April shuts her eyes hoping to sense even the tiniest bit of life in her. Nothing. If she had been there to stop her…everything could have changed. She was blaming herself and questioning whether or not Donnie could have saved her instead. He was smart…he knew everything. It would have just been a matter of finding him in time. She wished it was her and not Amy…that way she could live her life the way she was supposed to. April starts to cry again. "I-I promised not to leave her…I left her all alone," she whispers.
April clutches her T-Phone with sweaty hands. She was about to tell Donnie and everyone else. She knew if she didn't do this now, Leo could be seriously hurt and she didn't want to take that chance. She sighs and dials Donnie. "A-April?" he asks shakily. "Donnie, where are you?" she sniffs. "A-At the lair," Donnie answers. "And Splinter?" she questions, trying not to cry. "Y-Yes…April…we know," he whispers. April shuts her eyes. "How?" she whispers. "It was on the news," he answers, on the verge of tears. "D-Donnie…I'm so sorry," she tells him. "I-I am too. She was your cousin, after all," he replies. "How are the others holding up?" she asks sadly. "Mikey won't stop crying, Raph is on the punching dummy, Splinter is in the dojo, crying…and Leo…he won't come out of his room," he explains.
"He didn't take it well?" she asks. "N-No, he smashed his T-Phone…oh my god…my sister…she's gone…we didn't even get to say goodbye," Donnie whispers with a sniff.
It's been a week or so since her death and Leo hasn't been the same. Let alone her parents. They got a call from the hospital the night after and her mother collapsed to the ground and started weeping. Her father didn't take the news well, either. Once he found out he would never see his daughter again, he disappeared. He still hasn't come home and her mother is heartbroken. She doesn't know what to do with herself now that her husband and her child are gone. But her father knew better than to cut or take his own life. He couldn't do that to his family.
Leo had locked himself in his room, after his brothers had removed any weapons or sharp things (they didn't want him getting the same idea), and hasn't come out since. He's been stone cold and distant with his family. Maybe that was his way of making sure he didn't hurt anyone and go through this heartache again. Maybe if Leo distanced himself enough, they wouldn't miss him when he leaves…
He couldn't save her. If he had, she would still be here, with him. He could have prevented this. If he had gotten there in time…she would still be alive. He killed her. He killed the love of his life by not being able to save her.
He hasn't had any sleep since and he's been slowly starving himself. Dying on the inside. Leo could still hear her voice calling his name and he swore he'd be better off in a mental institution. He sat on his bed, head drooped down, looking at his feet. He didn't care about himself or anything else for that matter. He was completely numb on the inside and his emotions weren't there anymore. He was like a robot. He grunts, getting up and heading to the bathroom. Leo slowly and carelessly opens his door and was greeted with a smile. "Leo!" Mikey exclaims, hugging his brother. But Leo pushes him aside and walks off. Mikey sniffles. "Leo, I miss her too! You can't stay like this forever! Talk to me, bro!" Mikey exclaims. Leo ignores his efforts, walks off, and slams the door.
Leo gazes into the mirror, looking at what he had become. He stares coldly at himself, mind going blank. He had huge bags under his eyes and tear stains down his cheeks. "Who are you?" he asks himself. Leo sighs, knowing he couldn't answer that anymore. He was nothing. He's just here, barely living. He stares deeper into his glossy eyes and he hears a whisper. "You're hurt, Leo Bear, but you're not a robot. Come on, smile." It almost sounded like…her… Leo shakes his head. There was no way she could be speaking to him, she was dead. He shuts his eyes. "I don't know how to do that anymore," he whispers. "…When did you turn so cold?" the voice sounded genuinely sad.
Then there's a knock at the door. "Leonardo?" Splinter asks. Leo kept quiet and waited for him to leave. Splinter knocks again. "I am not leaving until you open this door," he informs him. Leo looks down, opens the door, and tries to walk off. "Not so fast," he says, grabbing Leo's shoulder. "Look at you, my son. You are so thin," Splinter replies. Leo just stares off into space. "Leonardo, speak to me." He didn't receive an answer. Splinter sighs. "…Come with me."
Splinter brings Leo to the burnt down building and stops. Leo refused to go in. "Leonardo?" he asks. He looks down. "I don't want to go in there," he answers in a raspy voice. Splinter frowns. "You can," he replies. "I can't, Sensei!" Leo exclaims. "But you will," Splinter answers, pulling Leo inside.
Leo sits down reluctantly, hoping Splinter wasn't going to burden him with a ten-minute long speech about honor or something like that. Leo turns his head and looks at the police tape. He sighs shakily. He looks at the spot where she burned to death. He gulps. "Leonardo," Splinter starts. "You are vulnerable, but that does not mean you are powerless…pain is inevitable, surely you must know that, but misery is a choice. You decide how you want to live the rest of your life," he explains. Leo slowly looks up and finally lets out the tears he's been holding in for so long. "But I'm scared…" he whispers. Splinter nods. "It is all right to be scared, my son. That just means we have something to lose," Splinter answers. Once he said that, he immediately regretted it.
"…I already lost something."
Donnie paces around the pit. "What's wrong, D?" Mikey whispers. Donnie lets out a sad chuckle. It was more like a whimper. "I-I miss her…" he whispers. "I miss her too, dude," Mikey says sadly. "Are you all going to the funeral?" April asks softly. "If Leo lets us…" Raph answers. "I hope Leo is-"
"Let's just…NOT talk about it," Donnie snaps at Casey. He frowns and Jamie pats his shoulder. Suddenly, Raph storms in with a glare and plops himself on the couch beside his girlfriend, Ann. This causes her to wake up. "Raph!" she says in surprise. Raph looks at her, smiling a bit before letting his scowl return to his face. He crosses his arms and groans. "I…do not…like adults," he mutters. Everyone looks at him in confusion except for Ann. She smiles slightly and hugs him. "Did you do it?" she asks. "I did it," he confirms. Donnie raises an eyebrow. "Did what?" he wonders. April looks at Donnie and a frown starts to form. "Amy's dad went missing…"
"What?!" they all exclaim. "BUT! Raph found him and brought him back home," she explains. Raph sighs. "Yeah, her mom was stoked," he replies. "He saw you?" Mikey asks, his jaw dropped. Raph shook his head. "No…but he was being held by the Purple Dragons," he answers. "Why?" Casey asks. "Maybe Shredder arranged it so he could get Amy to destroy us…" Donnie murmurs. "Or maybe they were trying to get to Splinter by using Amy's dad as bait…" Lily explains. "We don't have time for this," Ann tells them with a sigh.
Leo gulps, looking at the mirror. Today was the day. Today was the day he'd say goodbye to his love…forever. He sighs shakily while eyeing his tired features. Nothing felt right about this. Why, of all people, did this had to happen to him? He felt like sobbing. Somewhere inside it felt like he should have been the one who lost his life, not her. But then, he would never leave her all sad and alone like he is now…maybe she would have moved on…it would be easy for her. She was beautiful, funny, and sweet. She wasn't a mutant stuck in the sewers…actually, she wasn't technically stuck. She could have moved out any time she wanted. But she didn't. Leo got lucky when he first met her…but it doesn't matter anymore. She was gone and it was together or nothing…and Leo has faded into nothing. He's just a sad, crazy mess. That's all he was.
He grunts, clutching his head and squeezing his eyes shut. Nothing felt normal to him anymore. "When will this nightmare end?!" he shouts.
He hears a knock on the door. He slowly opens to see everyone dressed up. "It's time, bro," Mikey whispers. "O-Okay…" Leo whispers, looking down. Donnie frowns. "We should…probably go before it starts for real," he says. Leo looks at the sad Donnie and nods. "…Should we come?" Ann asks softly. Leo stares at his hands. All he wanted to do was punch a wall. "That's what she would have wanted," he says coldly, storming out of the room.
All of them slowly trudged through the sewers with their heads hung low. Donnie made the executive decision to have her parents stay in the lair until the actual funeral started. Right now, this was Leo's time and he needed to make the most of it. Mikey sighs and Raph sniffles. No one was ready for this. After the risky walk in daylight (thankfully no one saw them), the group finally reached the funeral home. They approach the building and Leo stood there like a statue with wide, glossy eyes. All he could do was stare. She was in there. She was in there in her casket probably all dolled up in fancy clothes. Leo didn't want to see her in there. Anywhere but there. He had put her there.
Leo's breathe suddenly hitches and his mind went blank. He couldn't move, no matter how hard he tried. "Be strong, Leo. Do this for her," he whispers before they all sneak in.
He feels uneasy. Well, even more so. The vibes and energy already threw him off. They walk along the main hallway slowly. They didn't want to randomly peek in and see a random dead person. They kept their tearful gazes down on the floor, Leo leading the way. Something told him that he was getting close to her room. He quickly halts and lingers around a closed white door. Without even glancing at the name, he bursts into the room. A sad sigh escapes his lips. This was definitely her room. "Ames…" Leo whispers as he stares at her from afar. She lies in the casket peacefully, looking much better from when April saw her. Leo bit his lip and covers his mouth. Splinter places a hand on his shoulder. "Don't cry," Leo pleads with himself. One look at her and his stomach turned. The guilt slaps Leo in the face and hits him over and over again. He wished he never met her if that's what it took to keep her alive. "Ames, I-" he starts walking over to her lifeless and burnt body. He grabs her hand and flinches. It didn't feel like her soft skin anymore.
Leo looks down and frowns as a tear falls down his cheek. "…Hey princess…" he mumbles before breaking down in sobs. Leo covers his face and cries into Splinter's shoulder. "Fearless?" Raph asks hesitantly. "Yeah?" Leo asks as Splinter rubs his shell. Mikey blinks back tears as he stares at her body. "I'm sorry…" Raph whispers. "…It wasn't your fault," Leo whispers back. "You guys can say goodbye now…" he mumbles, looking away from her. They nod and slowly drag their feet over to her. They stood side by side, staring at her with tears flowing down their face. An awkward depressing silence fills the room.
Leo looks at her once more before walking over to the corner. He slides down the wall. "Why? Why?" he cries. "I'm sorry, Ames," he sobs, hugging his knees and crying into them. "I killed her…she really is gone…" he whispers. Splinter didn't know how to help him, not this time. Mikey steps up first. "Hi Amy…" he whimpers. "I'm gonna miss you. You were like a big sister to me…And that made us family, dudette. Since family means no one gets left behind, I'll always carry you around in my heart…I love you, sis. I-I didn't want you to die…you're a hero. You saved that baby, and for that, you're our hero…I-I-" Mikey starts to sob again. Splinter hugs him. Donnie pouts and wipes a tear away. "Oh Amy…" he croaks as tears flow down his eyes. "What if we were never out that day? What if I was in the lab when it happened-"
Raph frowns. "Donnie," he says. Donnie shakes his head. "I just can't help but wonder…If we had gotten there in time, I could have helped you…or if we had made you come back home…I saw what you did. I thought it was very heroic…I would have never done that. But you did, and you saved a life. The baby's doing well from what I heard from April…she ran into the mother, and she thanked you…we all thank you. For being in our lives…for being a good friend…and an amazing sister…" Donnie whispers. Raph lets a tear fall down his face. Leo just kept his head on his knees, but he had heard everything.
"What are you thinking about, Raph?" Mikey asks softly. "…I'm thinking about how much this is affecting us. This week has been hard on us. Especially for Leo," he whispers before turning to Amy. "Ice princess…you know, I never did explain why I called you that…I call you that because of your powers, and because I think you act like a princess. Amy…Leo's losing it. I'm scared he's gonna hurt himself…or worse. He'll do anything to see you. To talk to you, to hold you. I don't want to lose my brother," Raph whispers. Donnie covers his face and Mikey starts bawling again. "C'mere," Raph mutters and the three have a group hug. Splinter's eyes begin to sting with tears, but he manages to hold them back. He needed to be strong for her and his sons.
Splinter looks down at her and bows. "Amelia," he gulps. "It is troubling to see you like this, child," he whispers, lightly touching her burnt skin. "It has…it has been a pleasure getting to know you, my dear. You have made Leo very happy and overall a better, more caring person, and for that I thank you. I knew from the moment I saw you and Leonardo together, you'd make a great team. We have all grown very fond of you, and like Michelangelo said, no matter what, you are family….I'm going to have to get used to not having you around. I am happy you came into our lives, but I am also proud of the way you decided to end it. You were definitely gone too soon…you will be dearly missed…"
After everyone had talked to her except April, who barely got a sentence out without sobbing, they had left Leo alone to talk to his girlfriend. Leo calmed down a bit after he sobbed on the floor but regardless his eyes were red and puffy. He looked sick and tired. He also looked hurt and everyone knew he was too weak to do anything since he hasn't eaten or slept for a week. Leo takes a deep breath before slowly walking up to the casket. Everyone in the city had sent something to her. Mostly it was flowers, but they were still gifts. He was ready to try this again…sort of…not really… he sighs and tugs on his mask tails. This was too hard, too painful. He squeaks but quickly clears his throat.
"Hey Ames," he whispers, kissing her burnt forehead. "I know…I know you are gone and can't hear me…but I swore I could have heard you…you're making me crazy and somehow sane at the same time. If that even makes sense…you're haunting me, trying to keep me alive," he lets out a sad laugh. "It's working…if you were here-really here…I don't think you like me talking to you like this, do you?" he whispers. "I don't like it either. So I'll do something that'll make us both happy…let's talk about you," he jokes. He grabs her crispy hand and looks down at her. She looked so different…he couldn't find the right words to say. "Ames, I don't know what it is, but everything about you is so right," he smiles faintly.
"It's your laugh, your smile, it's just-you. You are perfect…I know you would tell me to not say that, but it's true," he whispers, his eyes twinkling a bit. He brings himself to reality. She wasn't going to wake up. "You make me so happy and always find a way to make someone feel better…and that's probably what I admire most. But I don't think I've shown you how strong my feelings were for you. I had so much love to give and I completely missed my chance. Yeah, we met months ago but it feels like yesterday you found me. And it feels like I haven't seen you in years. I know we are-were young and stupid…really stupid…but I-" he pauses as he feels his throat close up on him. His heart dropped and shattered to a million pieces.
"I was ready to spend the rest of my life with you. I'm still a kid, but I was planning on marrying you someday…" he sniffs and wipes a tear away. He reaches for something tucked in his belt. "I was saving up for a promise ring…but…" he sighs shakily. "But in the meantime I managed to get you this necklace," Leo cries as he clasps the necklace around her neck. It was a sapphire blue tear drop necklace. "I promise to love you forever," he murmurs, looking into her closed eyes. The horrible silence fills the room once more before Leo speaks again. "It's one of your favorite colors. When I saw it, I immediately thought of you. It's pretty and all, but not as beautiful as you…even though your hair is gone, and you look all gray, I still think you're beautiful…" Leo shuts his eyes tightly and kisses her hand before gently setting it back down. "It hurts to want something that you can't have," he cries.
"Ames, I don't think any of this was supposed to happen. What if we weren't meant to be? Do you think we'd still cross paths? …But if we were meant to be, and I think we are, why would you be taken away from me so soon? I don't know what to think…" quiet sobs pass his lips. Leo rushes to her face and caresses her cheeks with both hands. "I'm sorry I let this happen. I'm so sorry I couldn't save you…" he says, placing his forehead on hers. He cries and kisses her repeatedly. "I'm such a monster," he whispers, holding her close. Leo felt the loneliness and sorrow wash over him and he could feel himself drowning. He couldn't handle this.
He sobs, laying his head on her chest.
He gasps, shooting up in his bed, his pillow stained with tears. He pants and looks around. Was that…a dream? If it was, he didn't want to wake up from it. He starts to wonder…he sneaks out of his bed and slowly opens his door. It was quiet, that was a good sign…not entirely. He had to know. He sneaks up to the door and opens it, not knowing what he would see. He peeks in…
To see her sleeping softly.
So it WAS a dream…a horrible one at that. Leo had thought that her death was real…her death. Leo lets the tears fall down his face. He tried to convince himself that it didn't happen. But it felt real. His face filled with relief. He knew this was wrong, but he had to do this. He softly closes her door and locks it. He slides in next to her. She breathes softly as she slept peacefully, and Leo was happy to see her breathing. If she had noticed his movements, she gave no sign. Leo slowly runs his fingers through her hair, and trailed down her back where his hands rested on her waist. He pulls her closer. He was afraid she would wake up, but she didn't. At least she was a heavy sleeper. He breathes in her scent.
"Hey Ames," he whispers. Her eyes stay closed. "I-I had a nightmare…I-I thought I had lost you…" he whispers. He kisses her forehead. He stares at her intently, fully convincing himself that it was just a dream. He cups her face and she leans into his touch. He rubs his thumb against her skin. "You look so adorable in your sleep," he murmurs. "I'll fight for you and for us. I'll make every second of every hour worth your while…just please don't leave me, Ames. I'm scared…scared of losing you. I love you…so much," he whispers shakily. He then falls asleep, knowing that she was right here.
He didn't know it, but she was smiling.
Angel: I'm sorryyyyyyyy! *cries* Please forgive me for messing with your feelings…next is You'll be in my heart requested by Caterpillar. Also, I'm sorry if I didn't do your request yet…I feel like I have to say that once in a while. XD