A/N: Chp dedicated to KlainePuckurtLover... if i was there i would hug you but since i'm like half way across the world so hope thsi suffice... though this chp is sad but I'm sending you a virtual hug *hugs*... and don't keep it bottled up... let your feelings out once in a while, honey :) stay strong

and for you guys... don't kill me after this chp... if so I'm going to hide under a rock..

ignore my spellings... I have a headache and fucking cramps... -.- and I'm annoyed at the pain! I'll re-edit later

Chapter 14: Lies

"I-I, I don't understand I thought you and you're brother weren't in contact" Kurt said looking at the city lights in confusion as he sat up and moved out of Blaine's arms.

Blaine nodded as he told Kurt the story "we weren't I went to Sebastian, the man who is Cooper's dominant, he knows about hybrids more than I do, and I couldn't go to Finn or your parents and I kept seeing how worried you were and how scared Hayden was, it broke my heart, I just wanted to let you two live happily. So that's when I left on my 'business trip' I went there to talk to Sebastian and it's been years since I've seen Cooper, and I- he was so happy, I didn't want him to be happy! He ruined my life, and he could have done something to help Jade, but he didn't and I just wanted to hurt him so bad and-"

Kurt noticed that Blaine had started rambling in frustration, he moved towards Blaine and cupped his cheeks as he said soothingly "Blaine-Blaine, hey, deep breath, calm down, honey"

Blaine nodded and took a deep breath before he started explaining the rest "Sebastian thought that Hayden's dream had something to do with us, the closer we get the more our bond strengthen, and I told Sebastian about you, and turns out we were already mated and we didn't even know about it. The first time when I drank from you and… when you… were unconscious, I gave you my blood, it sealed the bond between us, though we never felt it because we weren't intimate that way, and I was fucked up back then… I didn't understand it but now I do, we were always meant to find each other that's why you didn't date anyone after I compelled you, and that's why I couldn't even let a guy touch me because it felt wrong, and the day when we fought and I left you, and you were screaming my name, it was because it's hard for us to be apart… I know this is a lot to take in, considering our past"

"yes… it is… but I expected it to be, at least now I know why it hurt so much when you left me, and why I didn't want to date anyone, but… how come Hayden has my memories?" Kurt asked, taking Blaine's hand in his.

"I don't know… that's why I need to talk to Sebastian, because i don't want to go to my great-grandfather of all the people I know"

"What about Santana?" Kurt asked thinking about the options they had.

"Even she can't help us" Blaine said.

"I'm not sure about this, how can we trust them?"

Blaine nodded, understanding Kurt's fear as he told him "Sebastian knows our secret and he still hasn't rated us out… at this point, anything could happen"

"I'm scared… what about Lord Rowden?" Kurt asked, nibbling on his lower lip.

"I promise we won't need him…" lie Blaine knew this was a lie, because all he needed was to be absolutely sure that this was one thing that only Rowden could solve, and he knew that he was the only solution to this, but he couldn't tell Kurt, at least not yet, he couldn't tell Kurt that this could possibly get himself killed.

Kurt looked at Blaine for any trace of doubt, he sighed and rested his head on Blaine's shoulder wrapping his arms around his torso as he said "okay… but promise me, you won't ,let anything bad happen to Hayden or yourself, promise me you won't leave me"

"I promise, I'm going to keep you safe, I love you, and I won't let anyone hurt my family" once again Blaine knew he wouldn't be able to keep this promise, they're lives were already at risk because people had started to notice Blaine referring to a hybrid as his son, after his breakdown at Hayden's old school.

"I love you too, I'm never saying goodbye to you" Kurt said, Blaine bit his lip and buried his face in Kurt's hair holding him tight and hoping all their worries could just vanish all at once… but it was too good to be true.

"Kurt what's all this?" Blaine asked, he walked into the kitchen Monday morning the day when Sebastian was supposed to come to their pent house. Kurt was all dressed up and wearing an apron as he whisked a batter and placed a baking tray in the oven.

Kurt looked up still whisking the batter as he said trying to keep his calm "oh, I just woke up and had a sweet tooth for baking"

Hayden was sitting on the kitchen table; he looked at Blaine and whispered in his ear "Daddy bakes when he's stress"

"Oh" Blaine nodded; grimacing at the thought of Kurt being in stress was not a good thing, especially when he was nervous as hell.

"Why is he stressed? Is it because of me?" Hayden asked Blaine looking at his father with worry.

"What, oh no, we just have a lot on our minds lately" Blaine said rubbing Hayden's back.

"It is because of me" Hayden said knowing that Blaine was lying to him.

Blaine sighed and nodded saying "yes, but don't worry, we're going to get –"

*door bell rings*

"They're Kurt eye widened as he exclaimed, taking off his apron and walking out of the kitchen in panic saying "their! I haven't finished decorating them and-"

"It's okay Kurt, you know what I'll talk to them meanwhile Hayden can help you decorate, won't you Hayden?" Blaine said to Kurt and then to Hayden who nodded and walked over to his Daddy, taking his hand and pulling him into the kitchen.

"watch over your Daddy" Blaine whispered to Hayden before Hayden walked to the kitchen, Blaine fixed his clothes and looked through the peep hole before he opened the door, and right there standing in front of him was Sebastian, with Cooper standing right behind him.

….

"Hello, Sebastian… Hello Cooper…" Blaine said as he opened the door for them

"So this is where you live?" Sebastian said looking around the pent house.

"It's actually Kurt's pent house" Blaine told him.

Sebastian nodded as he looked at the pent house, clearly impressed with the selection of decor "the kid sure has good taste in décor… so where is your boyfriend and your baby boy"

"Kurt?" Blaine called, sitting across from Sebastian and Cooper.

"I'm coming!" Kurt called out from the kitchen.

"So when you called me to come here as soon as possible, I expect Hayden's situation is worse" Sebastian asked.

Blaine nodded and told him "his dreams are still all bad memories of Kurt's"

"And are they vivid?"

"so much that Hayden describes the exact situation of the dream, as if he was there watching all of it happen just now" Sebastian was about to question him once again but someone cleared their throat and when Blaine looked up he saw Kurt standing nervously in the living room

"Um, Hello, I'm Kurt" he said introducing himself.

Sebastian smiled and said "pleasure to meet you… I can see why Blaine couldn't let go of his sugar baby" he winked teasingly at Blaine.

"SEBASTIAN!" Blaine growled, his eyes darkening in rage.

Sebastian shrugged and this time Cooper spoke up as he looked at Kurt apologizing "sorry, he does that, I'm Cooper, and well you already know that's Sebastian my husband"

"Husband?" Blaine and Kurt asked at once.

"Oh didn't I tell you I married your brother? It must have slipped my mind" Sebastian said with a smirk.

"It sure did" Blaine said his eyes narrowing at Cooper.

"Don't act like you give a shit about it anyway, Blaine, when were you so concerned about what goes on with my life" Cooper said rolling his eyes at Blaine.

Blaine scoffed at Cooper and said bitterly "I never was concerned about you of all people, Cooper"

"Guys, can you stop arguing" Sebastian said out loud and reached for Cooper's hand.

Kurt looked back and forth at Cooper and Blaine, he could feel the intensity in the room as the two brother glared at each other, Kurt walked over to Blaine and sat down on the arm of the sofa, he placed a soothing hand on Blaine's shoulder and rubbed circles in his neck, Blaine looked at him and clasped their hands together.

"So before this turn to a blood bath of the Anderson rivalry, can I talk to you and your son alone?" Sebastian asked looking at Kurt, Kurt bit his lip with uncertainty, not sure whether to trust Sebastian alone in a room with his son, he looked at Blaine who nodded and said "call me if you need me, I'm not leaving you"

"Okay… Blaine can you show Sebastian to the home office, I'll go and get Hayden" Kurt told Blaine and Blaine led Sebastian up the staircase of the pent house while Kurt went to get Hayden from his bedroom.

It had only been thirty minutes of Kurt and Hayden talking in the home office, while Blaine and Cooper sat across from each other without saying a word.

"Hayden jade Hummel?" Cooper said arching an eyebrow at Blaine.

"What?" Blaine asked his mind clouded with the possibilities of how Rowden would react to knowing what Blaine has done.

Cooper shrugged as he said "no, nothing just thinking someone who tends to be all superior all the time would want to name his son after himself and not after his hybrid sister"

"I would never name him after him" Blaine snapped at Cooper, when his brother mentioned about their father.

"you know what's strange you despise dad so much and yet your anger is just like him, no wonder why you raped Kurt when you met him" Cooper pointed out, making Blaine speechless, Blaine looked away from him and out the window, Cooper took a deep breath before he said.

"I know what you're thinking… and it's suicidal"

"What's suicidal" Blaine asked.

"going to Rowden… you already switched sides to be some fucking saint and protect the hybrids and now actually going to grandfather, and telling him that his favorite grandson is just another fuck up who actually went against his laws is going to get you killed, and not to mention your son"

Blaine huffed and said bitterly "at least I'm trying to be optimistic, but thank you for that insight"

"You do know you can get your son killed if Rowden finds out that you had knocked up a HUMAN!" Cooper told him and this really broke Blaine's control and his hands balled into fists as he gritted his teeth before snapping, yelling at his older brother.

"You think I don't know that, Cooper!" Blaine snapped.

"seriously Blaine, as much as I hate you, for fuck sakes don't go to Rowden" Cooper tried to talk Blaine out of it once more, though he hated Blaine but he knew that what Blaine was doing would have no good end to it.

"What am I suppose to do then, he knows more than any of us and your so called husband isn't much of an expert now is he?" Blaine asked, his eyes turning pitch black.

"Well at least it's better than getting yourself and your mate killed"

Blaine got out of his seat and yelled "I don't have a choice! Okay! You think I want to put Kurt in danger? You think I like the thought of losing someone who is close to me! I already lost everything! And what if Hayden gets worse! What the fuck do you think I'm supposed to do then?"

"Blaine?" a voice called from the stair case and when Blaine snapped out of his rage he looked up to find Kurt standing there with Hayden in his arms, who was looking at Blaine in fear, they had heard what Blaine just said, Blaine mentally cursed himself.

"Oh, uh…" he tried to cover it but Kurt said

"Sebastian said that we would have to go to Lord Rowden" he told him.

Blaine sighed knowing that his lie wasn't going to work as he said truthfully "that's the only option left, this is way out of my hands"

"Tell me you won't get yourself killed if we go to him?" Kurt asked his eyes narrowing at Blaine, he knew what Blaine would say and he came out right when Blaine said

"We won't" Kurt set Hayden down on the floor and said

"You're lying, you just said-"

Blaine finally snapped he huffed and said loudly, making Hayden flinch "can we not talk about who's going to die or not!?"

Before Kurt could speak, Sebastian said looking over at Cooper "I think it's time for us to leave Cooper, bye Blaine, and it was nice to meet you Kurt and Hayden" they bid them goodbye and hurriedly left the pent house not wanting to be there when the two mates would end up arguing

As soon as the door was closed, Kurt looked back at Blaine and said "you said to me you won't let anything happen to us?"

"And I promise it won't" Blaine said, lying once again.

And this time Kurt didn't buy it, he started yelling at him "you're fucking lying again! Why aren't you telling me the truth!?"

"It doesn't matter" Blaine muttered looking away from Kurt's heated glare.

Kurt shouted at Blaine, walking over to him as he grabbed his arm as he said "fuck it doesn't matter?! You don't care what will happen to me if I lost you?! Did you even think of that?"

Blaine turned to face Kurt, his eyes blazing red as he yelled, letting out his much control anger "I DID THINK OF THAT DAMN IT! I THINK OF IT EVERY DAY!"

Kurt started to ask "Then why do you keep saying I- Hayden… go to your room, please" Kurt said looking over his shoulder knowing Hayden shouldn't be here to listen to this.

"Daddy I-" he tried to argue but Kurt didn't let him.

"Please Hayden, don't argue with me" as soon as Hayden's bedroom door closed Kurt turned to face Blaine as he said

"Why are you avoiding it?"

"I'm not" Blaine said, he knew Kurt was right, he was avoiding it.

"Then why the fuck did you say that you won't let anything happen to us" Kurt said, and it wasn't a question.

"And I won't" Blaine said defending himself.

Kurt shook his head as he told Blaine "you know it's a risk! I'm not going to Rowden! And neither are you!"

"Yes I am!" Blaine yelled at Kurt.

"NO YOU ARE NOT! I don't want to lose you! You can't leave me!" Kurt said.

"Would you fucking stop being clingy for one second and hear yourself! Our fucking past is killing Hayden! How long do you think he can bear this shit before it drives him to the edge!"

"We'll think of something! I heard what Cooper said and this isn't a fucking option I want! It's too much of a big risk! What if he kills you"

"Then let him! The fuck I care! I already broke the law by fucking with you!" Blaine said gesturing his hands towards Kurt, making Kurt eyes fill with tears at the sharpness of Blaine's words.

"And you think I'll be okay if you die! I can't bear being away from you!"

"Well you didn't care to think about that for FIVE FUCKING YEARS! You were happily living your damn life and chasing your dreams with a perfect life and a perfect family while I moped around because all I could do was watching you from the sidelines!"

Kurt eyes widened in shock as he yelled back at Blaine pointing at him as he did "as far as I remember I didn't ask to be compelled! It was your fucking decision! Just like this is that you won't let me make a decision for myself! You always do that! You always made my decisions for me! You think I like the thought of being away from you all these damn years and knowing that you compelled me without my say in it!!"

"I didn't have a choice! You wouldn't leave!" Blaine shouted.

"Because I didn't want to! What good did compelling me did! I still fucking remember everything that you did to me!"

"You think I like it! Do you actually think I like knowing about our past when you conveniently try to move on from it! We can never forget the fucking past Kurt!" Blaine said sharply, towering over Kurt glaring down at him.

Kurt looked away as he muttered "at least one of us can try to!"

Blaine sighed in frustration and turned away from Kurt as he said to him in anger, not knowing what he was going to say would hurt Kurt so much when he said "I didn't ask for any of this! I didn't ask to run in to you in that bar and then have a fucking kid! Which I didn't even plan for! And then fall in love with you!"

Kurt was taken aback at Blaine's harsh words, his lips trembled and he looked at Blaine in speechless-ness , he turned away and wiped his tears rolling down his cheeks, he took a deep breath and said brokenly "I'm sorry if I was so much of a burden for you, I didn't know that loving me was such a big job for you, so I'll make it easier for you now…" Kurt said walking out of the living room towards Hayden's room.

"Where are you going?" Blaine asked when he saw Kurt had left, he followed behind him, still in rage.

Kurt turned around and shouted, he wasn't going to stick around here if this is how Blaine felt about him after all these years. "I'm leaving! I can't be around someone who thinks that all our relationship was a big burden for you! Take the damn house! After all it never really was mine!" Hayden stood there looking back and forth at his parents.

Blaine's clenched his jaw and snapped "you know what fine! Go! Leave! I lived five years without you when you didn't even know about me! I think I can live just fine!"

"Daddy-" Hayden said in fear, holding the bag Kurt gave him.

"Not now, Hayden just get your stuff" Kurt ordered him watching Blaine walk out the room, he wiped his tears.

"But-" Hayden said

"please, Hayden" Kurt pleaded And left to get his own stuff, getting only the essentials, he was too broken hearted to care about the way he was shoving his stuff in a suit case, he just needed to leave.

When Kurt and Hayden had packed in a few minutes, Kurt grabbed Hayden's hand and he placed his key on the living room table where Blaine was standing looking out the window. Kurt waited for Blaine to turn around and apologize but he dint he just stood there wordlessly gazing out the window.

Kurt sniffed, feeling his heart shatter as he said to Blaine "you know… I didn't ask for this either… but I lived with it, because I thought what we had was enough to forget everything that happened with us… I didn't know I was just being an unnecessary burden for you…goodbye, Blaine" Kurt then opened the door and walked out of the pent house, feeling a hole burning inside his heart as he closed the door behind him and leaving his soul mate behind.

Blaine heard the door close and as soon as it did he grabbed the lamp from the side and smashed it into the wall, falling down on his knees he grabbed his hair as he started to cry, cursing himself that after all these years of controlling his rage. At the very last movement when he was stressed he snapped at Kurt, which even he knew was unnecessary and he let his anger get the best of him.

And now all he wanted was to crawl back to Kurt and beg him for forgiveness. But he couldn't move, he couldn't bear looking at Kurt knowing how much he had hurt him when he knew Kurt was right to be scared for losing him, he was scared too, he never wanted to let go of Kurt, and Kurt was right that this was a risk of getting himself killed, but he just wanted to give Kurt a life without no worries, and for Hayden to be a normal hybrid.

None of this was normal, their past and their love had never been normal. And yet Blaine just couldn't stop himself from saying all those things, when he knew he didn't mean it.

He pulled his hair sharply as he screamed pulling his knees to his chest, he wrapped his arms around his knees as he sobbed, crying into his arms for Kurt to comeback, even though he knew he was just a big fuck up… that's all that he ever was.

A/N: I have no words…. Just don't hit me! Or kill me! Well at least not yet…

This is a bitter taste of reality… no good happens when two people are stressed out and especially when one of them has his own inner demons.

NEXT CHAPTER PREVIEW:

"H-he s-said he didn't ask for any of t-this… a-and he d-didn't even stop me f-from leaving!"

"Honey you both are stressed out, just give him time and-"

"w-what I-if this all really was a b-big mistake, mom?"