Ok I promised I would update once CLG was getting there so here it is.

If you get confused in this chap ask me n I'll explain.

One reviewer said it was impossible for Edward and Bella to have sex so early one week after Bella giving birth. What I say to this is READ THE WORDS I HAVE WRITTEN. It wasn't a week after she gave birth. Bella was released from HOSPITAL a week after giving birth but stayed at the Cullens for a MONTH before her and Edward moved back home. This will be brought up a little later with her and Jasper. But now we have a little bit of this and a little bit of that as well as grandfather Carlisle rolling around on the floor.

You'll see so I'll shut up now n let you read.

Enjoy

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~ XXXVII ~

"Baby" I called out looking for Edward. "Jasper where is he? I thought he was in the kitchen but he's not there." I said rather worried.

"Don't worry Bells I bet he's just getting something out of the car or something. You did buy a lot today." He laughed softly but it didn't reach his eyes and I knew he was worried too.

"Yeah you're probably right. And it's not my fault, we had to get things for the baby shower." I defended half heartedly.

"All I can say is your man is lucky he wasn't the one carrying all the bags." He laughed.

"What don't you like our little trips anymore Jazzy?" I whimpered in mock hurt. He just knocked my shoulder playfully and laughed.

Just then the I heard Cadence call out for me. "Maybe he's in with the kiddies. You keep unpacking and I'll go." He assured me before turning and walking back to the triplets' room. I smiled to myself as I held up the little jumpsuit in front of me.

For some reason a cold chill ran through my whole body. "Jasper? Edward?" I called out but there was no answer. I swallowed hard as I walked slowly down the hall. "Cadence sweetie? Lizzl, Coop?" I called out. The door to their room was open ajar as I pushed it open. What I saw there would haunt me forever. I looked down at Jaspers unconscious form and panicked.

"EDWARD!" I yell but get cut off when I feel something sharp pierce my stomach and a hand clamp down over my mouth. I look back and see the blade sticking out of my abdomen and his cold eyes.

"Shh. You'll wake the kids." He sneered dragging me over to my angels' bed forcing me to look down.

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"NO!" I scream bolting upright out of bed.

"Bella?" A voice whispers in my ear wrapping their arms around my waist and I scream louder. "Shit! Bella. Bella. Bella look at me. Bella love. ANGEL LOOK AT ME!" The voice urged grabbing hold of my face. I knew that voice.

"Edward." I whispered clinging and sobbing into his chest.

"Bella shh it's alright. You're safe. I'm here." He tried to soothe me as I cried it all out. I couldn't believe they were back worse than ever. And what the hell was the end of that one?

I took a deep breath before lifting my head to see Edwards concerned face. "It's alright. I'm ok." I said my throat dry from the sobbing. Edward lifted his hand cupping my cheek tenderly as he wiped away the tears and I leaned into his touch.

"Carlisle and Jasper?" Was all he said knowing that I needed to talk about it. Carlisle had been my doctor ever since the beach incident and I felt safe around Jasper and had gotten a lot closer to him since James shot him. He had told me what had happened and ever since he has been incredibly protective of me. Almost as much as Edward. Ok maybe not, I don't think anyone could be as protective of me as Edward. I had made him and Alice godparents to Elizabeth and we went out for a day every Thursday with each other after my sessions.

We grabbed the babies after getting changed and headed to Carlisle and Esme's. I messaged Jasper on the way and thought about calling Emmett but decided against it. I was silent the whole way and could feel Edwards' concerned gaze on my face but I just looked back at my babies in their seats in the back.

"Bella." Edward said grabbing hold of me when I was out of the car. He grabbed my arms and pushed me up against the car pressing his body to mine as he cupped my face in his hands, his face filled with pain. I reached a hand up and cupped his cheek as he leaned into my touch. "I can't lose you Bella." He whispered touching his forehead to mine.

"You wont. I promise." I whispered closing my eyes as he moved closer touching his lips softly to mine. The kiss started off soft but soon turned aggressive and we were both panting, putting as much as we could into the kiss. We only pulled apart when I heard Cadence cry out, yes I could tell the difference between my babies cries. "We better go in." I said quietly looking in his loving eyes.

Edward wiped away the stray tears that had ran down my face. "Come on." He murmured and moved so we could get the babies. I grabbed Cadence while Edward got the other two and the bag.

"BELLY BEAR!" I heard Emmett's booming voice sound as soon as I walked through the door, sure enough when I looked around I noticed that everyone was there.

"Emmy Bear. Umm hey." I said warily, moving Cadence to my left arm so I could give him an awkward one armed hug. "What… What are you all doing here?" I asked everyone.

"Well Jasper said you were coming around and I assumed it was about the wedding so I told Emmett to come." Alice chirped up. I saw Rose in the background mouth an apology to me and glared at Alice.

"Why would you think it was about the wedding?" I asked somewhat angry.

"You can't be serious Bella. The wedding is like four months away. We're running out of time here and there is still so much to do." Alice stated as if it should be obvious.

"Alice." Edward said in a warning tone as he walked in with Elizabeth and Coop in his arms.

"Edward." She said back.

"We are not having a big wedding Alice." I said and her head snapped towards me and she glared at me. "Don't you glare at me Alice Cullen. This is our wedding not yours. All I want is Edward and all he wants is me. We don't need any big fanfare, we just need each other. So it's going to be a small simple wedding." I told her sternly. She went to say something back but I cut her off before she even had the chance. "Now if you'll excuse me, I came to talk to Carlisle. Jasper?" I said handing Cadence over to Emmett with the biggest smile on his face. Edward handed Coop to Rose and Elizabeth to Esme before wrapping his arm around my waist. Carlisle indicated for us to follow to his study. I sat down with Edward and Jasper either side of me and Carlisle opposite.

"Now Bella. Where do you want to start?" Carlisle asked sounding all professional.

"The nightmares are back. They're worse." I said quietly.

"Are they the same as before or…?" He asked.

"No. I mean yes. I don't know. They start the same but last night…" I shuddered at the memory.

"She woke up screaming and started panicking when I tried to comfort her." Edward said looking at his father.

"Ok well just take your time and walk through it Bella."

I nodded before continuing. "Well it started off the same as all the others. Those nights when I was with him, the club, the beach…" I swallowed hard before continuing.

"It's alright Bella. Go on." Jasper said grabbing hold of my hand to calm me.

"I'm with Jasper at the house and we can't find Edward anywhere. Cadence calls out for me and Jasper goes in to check on her. Only he never comes back. I go in to see what's happening and then…"

"And what Bella?" Both Edward and Jasper asked at the same time.

"And nothing. That's when I wake up screaming." It wasn't a complete lie but I just felt I shouldn't continue. I sighed. "I don't understand Carlisle. It has been over a month since what happened at the beach and over a year since I left him and that hell. Why are they getting bad now?"

"Bella you were in an abusive relationship for years. You've been through hell this past year and that is bound to leave scars. I don't mean just physical ones and you've tried so hard to keep it locked up that its going to come and hit you full force if you're not careful. But you also have to think of all the good things that have happened. You found Edward, you are a beautiful young mother to three perfect babies and you're getting married in a few months." He smiled at me and I couldn't keep the smile off my own face.

"Thank you Carlisle." I said gratefully.

"Now come on I want to play with my grandchildren." We all laughed at Carlisle for that. I had never seen a grown man so excited over playing with baby toys, he was even more of a kid than Emmett and that was saying something.

"Bella you still up for this afternoon?" Jasper asked pulling me aside from Edward so he wouldn't hear what we were up to.

"Yeah definitely. Thank you so much Jazzy." I nodded and hugged him briefly before walking back out to my fiancée who was watching his father and mother down on the ground with our little angels. I smiled to myself looking at my family hoping to always see this image. But I couldn't shake the feeling that it wasn't going to last.

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Ok so you are going to be confused now and that's what I want.

Ask me if you want to know anything and I'll let you know as much as I'm willing to give out at the moment.

You might not see the point in this chap but it is a crucial part in the story.

As for Bella and Jasper you'll find out what they're up to in the next chap.

Reviews make me happy so…

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