Sorry I've not updated in a few days. It's been work, my friend stayed over for the night, shopping and getting merry drunk last night... not that i advise anyone to do so. xo
Miley bit her lip as she ran her hand across Shane's cheek lightly. She felt a few tears make their way to her eyes as she caught a glimpse of the ring on her finger.
It was currently 5:58am and she hadn't slept one second all night.
She thought back on the last few hours, guilt being one of the last emotions that she felt. Confused would have to be the top one, she thought she'd buried these feelings for Jason a long time ago.
A cough from Nate had broken them apart.
"What the hell are you guys doing?"
"Um..."
Miley had looked down at her hands, embarrassed.
"Guys, I thought the two of you had gotten over your feelings a long time ago. Shane is upstairs for god's sake"
"I should head to bed" Miley stood up awkwardly. "Goodnight"
As Miley had disappeared, Nate's eyes had fallen back to his eldest brother.
"Jase..."
"I don't need you to lecture me right now" Jason curled back into a small lying position, his eyes closing lightly to try and block Nate and his tears out.
"Shanes in love with her, Shane's upstairs – he could have come down at any second"
"I know Nate"
"I thought you'd gotten over her"
Jason shook his head. "I've never gotten over her; I just got good at hiding my feelings. Shane's feelings come before mine and I have to accept that. I just I don't know..."
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"Mi?"
She looked down towards Shane's smiling face, managing a sad smile back.
"What's up Mi?"
She shook her head, leaning down to kiss him gently.
"Then why do you look like you haven't slept at all and you're about ready to cry"
"It's nothing" She whispered. "Do you want some breakfast?"
"I can make some"
"No it's fine, you catch some more sleep" She smiled, kissing his cheek before standing up. Shane watched with concern as she headed out of the bedroom and down towards the kitchen, jumping as she saw Nate sat with a cup of coffee, writing away.
"Morning Miles"
She smiled as he looked up at her. "Morning Nate, what are you doing up it's like 6am?"
"I had this song floating in my head, couldn't shift it. Jason's awake..."
"Nate..."
"I'm not going to say anything. You need to speak to him"
"Good morning beautiful people"
Miley smiled at her best friend, hugging her tightly. Mitchie then headed towards Nate, leaning down to kiss him.
"Miles, you look knackered" Mitchie pointed out in concern as she turned back to look at her.
"I didn't really sleep last night" Miley waved it off as she poured herself a coffee.
"Is everything okay?"
Miley caught Nate's eyes, knowing he was urging her to tell Mitchie. "Everything's fine"
Mitchie frowned. "Fine, but you know how many times we've had this conversation before, if something's bothering you, you can talk to me"
Miley nodded. "Help yourself to some breakfast; Shane will probably be down in a minute"
"Where are you going?"
"For a walk"
Mitchie watched as her best friend headed out of the door, Jason making his way through.
"Who was that?"
"Miles, something's up with her" Mitchie replied.
"Yeah, I wonder what" Nate added, glaring at Jason, who in turn looked down, rubbing the back of his neck.
"You two aren't telling me something..." Mitchie trailed off as Shane entered the kitchen.
"Morning guys, where's Miley?"
"She headed out for a walk"
"Has she said anything to you Mitch, she was a little off this morning"
Mitchie shook her head, not failing to catch the glances between Nate and Jason.
"Um, I'm going to head off home, does anyone need a lift?"
"This early?"
"I have a few things to do today" Jason shrugged. "Lift?"
"No thanks Jase, but if you see Miley you can head her back this way" Mitchie spoke up.
"Will do" Jason headed towards the front door, as it closed behind him Shane raised his eyebrow.
"Was it something I said?"
Nate shook his head. "He had a rough night"
--
Miley turned to look behind her as she sensed a car slowing down.
"You have Shane and Mitchie worried about you"
She stopped, turning to look at him.
"I'm sorry" He added.
She shook her head. "I don't want you to be sorry, because I know I'm not, and that's what's making this 100 times worse"
"Jump in Miles, you look dead on your feet"
She smiled a little as she jumped into the car.
"You want me to drop you off at home"
She shook her head. "Not yet"
He started the car up once more, heading off towards the other side of town to a small coffee shop. Ordering the two drinks, he made his way over to where Miley was sat, eyes focused on something outside of the window.
"What are you thinking about?"
She turned to smile at him lightly. "Everything"
His hand rubbed his eyes gently, before his elbow rested against the table, his head propping itself up.
"Last night, I should have had more control on what was happening, I'm sorry for that"
She shook her head. "We both should have had more control over the situation, but we didn't and it's done and I don't regret it"
"Me either. How bad does that make me sound? You're dating my brother"
"I thought you were over me Jase, Nate told me you were"
Jason shook his head. "Nate assumed I was. I got good at hiding my feelings, only I knew how I felt and that's the way it should have stayed. You're happy with Shane, I can see how much you two love each other, and your happiness and my brother's happiness come before my own"
"What are we going to do J?" She sighed.
"I don't know. We have to promise it's not going to happen again, that next time we're gonna be in control okay?"
She nodded. "Nate's going to continually have his eyes on us now"
"Which is going to make Shane start suspecting?"
"You think we should tell him?" Miley asked, looking down at her coffee.
"Maybe, I mean I don't know how he'll react. I don't want you to lose him over this and I don't really want to lose him over this either"
"I can't lie to him – okay it's not technically lying..."
"It's keeping things from him" Jason cut in. "I'm not sure I can do that either"
Miley bit her lip, eyes travelling to the window once more. This could possibly be the end of everything she'd built and she really didn't like that feeling. "I guess we have to tell him"
"You wanna head back and tell him now?"
Shaking her head, she pulled out her phone. "I need to speak to Mitch and Lils"
"Okay. I'll ring them and I'll head and pick them up and bring them here to meet you"
"Jase..."
"It's not putting me out" He smiled. "It'll give you some time to think too"
She smiled as he stood up, coffee in hand. "Thank you"
"No problem" He leant down to hug her tightly, kissing her forehead. "Call me if you need me"
"Will do"
"Do you want me there when you tell him?"
"I'll let you know"
He nodded, waving quickly as he headed towards his car.
--
"Hey Jase, did you find her?" Mitchie asked as she spotted Jason walking through the front door.
"Yeah, she's grabbing some coffee. She wanted to see you and Lils"
"About what, is she okay?"
"I think she just needs a girlie day" He smiled slightly.
"Well where is she?" Lilly asked already making her way to her shoes.
"I'll drive you; it's the other side of town"
Mitchie nodded, running upstairs to grab her stuff.
"Jase..."
He turned to look at Shane. "Yeah?"
"Is she okay?"
"She'll be fine Shane" He tried his best to smile at his younger brother, the guilt starting to worm its way into his conscience.
"Is it something I've done?"
Jason shook his head immediately. "No it's not. I promise you on that one"
Shane nodded. "And why did you near enough ignore me this morning?"
Jason sort out Nate's eyes, the same expression as in his own. Surely Shane should have figured something out by now... but then this was Shane.
"I'm sorry bro. I had a really rough night, not feeling too good and hardly any sleep"
"Hey, if Mitch, Miles and Lil are having a girlie few hours, we should do something. I really don't feel like going home and sitting bored for the day"
"Sure, what about Frank, Mom was saying he wanted to spend some time with us yesterday" Shane turned to Nate.
"Awesome, we can head to the park or something. You in Jase?"
Jason shook his head. "I think I'm gonna head home and catch some sleep"
"Oh c'mon, Frankie wants to spend time with ALL of us, which means you to. You can grab some sleep later" Shane smiled.
"Fine, I guess"
"Okay, we're ready to go" Mitchie kissed Nate quickly before heading towards Lilly.
"I'll be back after I've dropped the girls off"
--
"Has something happened between you and Miley, you're both acting off today?" Lilly turned to look at Jason as he drove them across town.
He shook his head, as Mitchie leant forward to turn the radio down.
"Yeah, and I mean you and Nate were hiding something from me this morning. Is something wrong with Miley and only you know?"
"Nothing's wrong with her. We're here now"
Mitchie frowned, jumping from the back seat and leaning through his open window to hug him. "Thanks"
"It's fine. Look after her okay?"
"As always" Lilly smiled hugging him too, before jumping out of the car, watching as he drove off into the distance.
"Well that was weird"
"I'm starting to think this whole situation isn't a good one" Lilly pointed out.
Mitchie nudged Lilly as she spotted Miley the far end of the shop, sat staring out the window.
"Miles...?" Mitchie asked as she sat down next to her best friend.
"Hey guys" Miley managed a half hearted smile.
"We're really worried about you Miles, what's wrong?"
Miley sighed; she needed to tell them, but what if they ended up hating her. "I have something to tell you guys, about last night..."
Lilly raised her eyebrow as Mitchie placed her arm around Miley. "You can tell us anything"
"I – uh – last night after I'd left you two and gone downstairs to say goodnight to the other two, something happened..."
"..."
Miley looked towards her hands as her best friends gave her a blank expression.
"Jason and I kissed"
Mitchie squeezed Mileys shoulder a little. "That's not that bad..."
Miley shook her head. "Guys, I kissed Shane's brother. It wasn't even just a normal kiss; it was a proper make-out session. The only reason we broke apart was because of Nate"
"Nate...?"
"He'd woken up, he caught us"
"So that's why he was acting like he was with Jason this morning"
Miley nodded, wiping away the few tears that had made their way down her cheek.
"You've not fallen for Jase have you?" Mitchie asked.
"No, I just never really got over him in the first place"
"Who'd you want to be with?"
Mileys head shot up at that question. "Shane..."
"Then why don't you sound so sure?"
Miley shook her head. "I know you guys hate me right now..."
"No we don't hate you Miles"
"I need to tell Shane, everything's in his hands right now"
Mitchie nodded. "You're going to get through this; you did after the party and Alex"
"This is his brother"
"That was your step-sister"
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You sure you don't want me there when you tell him? Xo
Miley smiled a little, texting Jason back as she entered the house.
No it's fine. I'll text you once I've told him xx.
"Mi... is that you?"
Pushing her phone back into her pocket, she followed the voice towards the kitchen, stopping once she spotted what he was doing.
"Shane..."
He smiled making his way towards her and wrapping his arms around her.
"You seemed off this morning, and then the girls told me earlier you were having a rough day. I thought this might cheer you up a little"
She smiled sadly. "It's lovely Shane; really it is, but..."
"No buts now come and eat up. I have some movies, ice cream and cookies lined up for after" He guided her towards the table, before making his way back towards the island and picking two plates up.
"Chinese...?"
"Yeah, I have a confession. I didn't actually cook; I thought you'd appreciate this more"
--
Miley groaned inwardly as Shane got up to place another movie in. Why was he making this so hard for her? Smiling he sat back beside her, leaning in to kiss her gently.
"Shane, look I really need to tell you something" She pushed him away gently.
"Okay, what is it?"
She let out a sigh, turning to face him. "Last night after you'd fell asleep and everyone else had started to get ready to crash, I come down to say goodnight to Nate and Jason, Nate was asleep and Jason and I were just talking, but then something happened..."
"Did he hurt you?"
"No! Of course he didn't, you know as well as I do Jason isn't that kind of guy" Miley frowned.
"What happened...?"
"We kissed" She blurted out.
Shane's face fell into a frown as he processed the words she'd just told him.
"Shane..."
He smiled as he turned to look at her. "I love you Miley"
"Shane, I kissed your brother"
"Things happen, as long as you still want us to be together, then everything's fine"
She shook her head standing up. "Shane I want you to be angry with me, I want you to shout and curse"
"I have no right too" He shrugged.
"Yes you do!"
"No I don't Miley because if I remember correctly, I kissed someone else too! We're even"
"This isn't some stupid game Shane!"
"I'm not trying to make it into a game; I'm trying to make sure we keep everything we have!"
She shook her head, the tears making their way down her cheeks. He softened a little, heading towards her and pulling her into her arms.
"I'm sorry Mi, I didn't mean to shout"
She shook her head pulling away from him. "I want you to shout Shane; I want you to get angry. Why won't you do that?"
"Because I'm not angry, disappointed but not angry"
"How can you not be angry? I was livid when I found you and Alex"
"You had a right to be"
"Maybe this is what we need Shane, a good argument and some time away from each other"
He shook his head. "I don't want to argue and I sure as hell don't want to spend time away from you"
Miley opened her mouth to reply as her phone began to ring. She continued staring at Shane, waiting for it to stop.
"Are you not going to answer that?"
"It's just a text"
"Still it might be important"
Miley shook her head. "So what this isn't? Shane, Jason and I kissed, we made out like properly made out, it wasn't just some simple kiss. You were upstairs asleep, how can that not make you angry"
Shane sighed. "Fine, you know what I'll walk out of here right now and I won't be coming back. If that's so desperately how you want this Miley, then I'll go along with you, because I do not know what game you seem to be playing in your head"
"Shane..."
"No this is the way you wanted it, so I'm out" He jumped in as he picked his jacket up off the back of the sofa, his feet finding their way into his converse. "You can always call Jason over"
"So it is bothering you!"
"Of course it is! He's my brother for god's sake! I thought you two were over each other 18 months ago"
"So did I"
"Why did the two of you split up in the first place if you still had feelings for each other?"
"We never really dated"
"Eh?" Shane asked utterly confused.
"When I found out why you were dating Alex we decided to pretend to date too. I mean, you already thought we were. You split up with Alex and I felt guilty about what we were doing, so we both agreed to end it and hide our feelings. We both knew we couldn't be together, because of you. Jase is your brother and bloods thicker than water and you're my best friend"
"So what, you both split up because of me?"
Miley shrugged as Shane shook his head once more, heading for the door.
"Shane!"
"You ended things with him because of me; you still have feelings for him. When you fell in love with me, you were still in love with my brother. You fell in love with me, because you felt you had too!"
"No it's not like that at all Shane. I fell in love with you because I wanted to, because of who you are. You're amazing, your personality is amazing, there's nothing about you someone could not fall in love with"
Turning on his heel again, he made his way out of the open door, slamming it closed behind him.
I'm not sure....
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