Sing: Love ain t a Crime!

by The Storyteller and his Books

Nearly 3 months have passed ever since the grand Re-opening of the New Moon theater. After a successful Show, the Crew is rearing to make the next one even greater, well until some Obstacles on their way appear. Sometimes it takes more than just a few people to overcome them, sometimes only a true family can Help, some might find their calling, while other find something deeper!

38. Unspoken Feelings

SING:

Love ain´t no Crime!

Chapter 38: Unspoken Feelings.

Rebecca Osbourne´s Pov:

Sadness.

It was the feeling I felt whenever I looked at my brother´s back.

Whenever he was in thought about Ashley Simons he seemed to be so far away.

I disliked her, I did not per se hated her, but I didn´t liked the thought of Lance giving himself up for her.

He had at most only 5 years to live, due to his heart disease and in my eyes he should not waste this time on anyone else than himself, not even on me...

And yet Lance has one significant failure in his character, he was far too kind to anyone..., you might at first think he is just the typical jerk but once you come behind his schemes you will find out that he is actually trying to get you the best he can get.

Ash was most likely not the only one he tried to help in such a way, Id didn´t know how many people he had already helped, however I heard that he lend some money from one of his friends and haven´t yet returned it, but a month ago I got a letter for him, from an unknown company, I didn´t meant to open it, but I was just too curious, I feared he might have gotten caught up in some shady business, so I carefully opened it and read it.

It seemed that Lance had invested the money in a small Company, which soon got famous with the Apps they invented for different aspects of the society and that he, by now, had already tripled the amount he had lent from that friend.

Of course didn´t anyone else but him and now also myself, knew about that, but I also often got calls, supposedly from said friend, who asked, in quite a harsh tone, after his money, saying that he needed it back to help his sick mother out.

Or course was I now sure that Lance knew about the reason and that he tried to multiply the amount to help his friend, without the same being able to decline the offer.

Sure Lance´s ways of doing things for others was not always easy to comprehend, but you could be sure that you would always benefit from it.

Back then as I thought that he had forgotten me, he in reality, not only laid low to make sure no one found him and Ashley, but he also began to work on raising his money, by creating songs for certain occasions, like jingles for companies, or creating CD´s under different names, selling them, making money.

By the time he came to get me, he already had saved quite a fortune, he had bought an apartment for both of us, gave me money, which I could use for personal use, even my own savings he had stocked up, which were more than just meager, due to being unwanted by my family, even by my own mother, back then I had only enough to survive for a few years once I was to be married off.

The Apartment, to which also his letters went to, was paid for 5 years in advance and laid so far from his and Ash´s apartment, so that Ash would not get to know about it, I think back then he had already plotted his whole plan through..., I was sure even without me or her, he would have been able to keep on living.

After he was kicked out by Ashley, he directly made his way towards the Apartment together with me, from which he began to further spread his strange kind of help to others.

At the question how he could manage all that, all the finance-related things, since it was most likely anything but easy, he simply replied that he did learned some things, while he was having private lessons with Alexander´s Home Teacher, which he did behind the back of his family.

He knew so much that he could most likely even start up his own company.

At the question why he didn´t just did that and lived the rest of his life with Ashley, he just replied, that he was not supposed to be standing at her side, that he was the benefactor from the shadows, who watched her and made sure she does not stray too much from the path which he would open up for her.

He said that he very well could have just give her luxus and the like, but that this would not bring her anything but pain and false friends once he is gone, our own family was the best example for that.

The strict traditional lifestyle of our family was most likely the only defense against the vultures they called friends.

In a way Lance was right, if you don´t work hard for your own fortune, in the end it is worth nothing and will only cause you problems.

My final question to him, as I asked about his future and his plans, was of why he didn´t paid the hospital for performing a Heart transplantation.

He answered to me, that it was most likely in vain, just unnecessary struggling.

His Blood-group was 0Rh-, Zero Rhesus-factor negative, a rare one, of which it gives only about 12% -14 % of compatible people worldwide and it would most likely take 1:1.000.000. to find a person with the needed blood-group here in America, then it would be a 30% chance that the person was willing to give his heart after his death, which then also depended on when he/ she was about to die.

And last but not least that it was a 50-50 chance that the Operation would either fail or succeed, it might go all wrong if the body rejects the new heart out of whatever reason.

All of this counted together was his chance of being healed just too small, as to be worth of upholding any kind of hope.

And he said all of that with a straight face as if he had long lost any hope for getting any healing and just didn´t bothered with it any longer.

But I was not able to do that, every time I think about losing Lance I felt how my heart tightened, like being clenched by an iron fist, with pointy spikes on the inside, perforating it in addition.

It only happened once that I lost my demeanor and began to cry and shout uncontrollably..., even going as far as to hit his chest, which was most likely the worst thing to do..., before breaking down in his arms.

It happened back then as we were still kids and Lance the only one I could turn to, he spoke so casually over his own death that I got mad and the more he tried to simplify the thought of his own death to me, the more I lost it.

But even if he said that it was okay, didn´t I thought so in the slightest, I was since years constantly on the search for someone suited to give his or her heart, no matter who's it was, it had to be healthy and small enough to fit his body.

No matter what, I was long not ready to give him up, to me Lance meant everything, he is the only family I still have.

I almost lost him once, as he ran away with Ashley, believe me I was more than just furious, I was inches from hijacking whatever car came my way and driving after them, back then I thought that he would never return to me, I hated the thought of being betrayed like this..., I won´t allow a second time.

In order to drive his lifespan out to the maximum, I made sure that he ate healthy, made sport and did take things easy, once he came over.

I made sure he took all the medicaments he needed and I made sure to not cause him excessive stress.

Everything which might trigger a heart attack or his disease to worsen did I forbid him.

I made sure that our friends held themselves on the no-smoking and no-overheating-any-kind-of-debate, rule.

All in all I tried to preserve Lance´s life for as long as I could, but of course I was not able to take him the stress away, which he did to himself, especially if it had to do with Ashley Simons.

If only Lance would have just told her about his condition and his reason for leaving her, then all of this nerve-wrecking farce could have been avoided.

All the pain my dear Brother had to go through thanks to that bitch.

But even if I named my concerns and fear to Lance, was I greeted with nothing from his side, just saying that it will happen when it happens.

How could he easily give up like this, didn´t he had any kind of ambition in life, even if lovelies would become successful..., did he really thought it would still be the same once he was gone?

Why was he trying to build up dreams when he don´t even have the will to see things through to the end, when he knew that it all ends soon..., was he really fine with giving it all up halfway?

I state it clear, I don´t want him to die..., what shall I do if he does, where would I end up if the only true support in my life vanishes.

Sure I had friends but they had their own lives and most of them were online friends anyways.

Online I was able to talk to people more than I was able to do so in real life, mostly due to the mobbing at school and the neglecting of my family back in the past.

Online I was able to speak my mind without any prejudice from others, but that also means that I had no other real tangible support than Lance.

I told him so often that I needed him in my life, but he never seemed to understand just how much he truly meant to me, all he ever did was patting my head, as if he didn´t wanted to listen to the true meaning in my words.

It was not simple liking or depending on him..., no I loved Lance, yes, real true, incestuous love, I don´t know how often I had imagined myself to be held by him, touched by him, being loved by him like lovers do, kissed by him like he kissed Ash, being looked at by his hungry eyes.

Sweet Jesus, I didn´t even cared that some of my Online friends unfriended me once I told them about it.

Even if they are calling me sick and perverted..., so what if I was, if the only real support you ever had and have in your life was and still is your Brother, it is only natural that you feel far deeper than simple familiarly feelings for him.

And I soon had to understand that Lance was the only true thing in my life, back then as I refused to come along with Lance, I said that I finally had found friends..., that was before I understood that these friends of mine were only interested in Lance, his talents and his ideals, even within our group of royal misfits... all they ever saw in me was only an ornament which had to be complimented, to secure the allegiance of my brother to them.

Once Lance and Ash were gone, the others kept ignoring me, I was more and more isolated by them, as if they wanted to say, it was all nice and cool but you are still none of us.

It really hurted to see that, at first I began to despise my Brother for the influence he had on others..., but soon after I was once again the outcast, I began to understand how stupid that thought was.

Lance never told anyone to become friends with me, it just happened that he was friends with them, I was the one who had pushed my way into their circle and should have been the one to be despised.

I remembered how often Lance stood up for me, infront of anyone, be it our parents, their friends, Alexander, even those bullies from School, Lance had always been there to defend me and to support me, the only rock which I could hold onto, while the current of time tried to rip me away into oblivion.

So why was he so fixed on Ashley Simons then, when I could give him love unconditionally, why did he never turned to me, was it because she was a musician, well I will surely show him that I can do just as well.

Even though I was the one to Challenge Ash, did Lance as though he had challenged her, he overtook the reins and managed all things, while I was left with nothing to do but my usual routine of caring for him, as if I was not good for anything else.

As I asked him which song I should sing, he only said that I was better to act in their Music videos, that I could act quite well.

It made me both, flustered as well as a little furious, for I too had talent for singing, if I may say so myself, and I was hell-bent on showing him that.

For that reason, I asked Nico, our Sound-engineer and the man responsible for promoting and producing Lovelies´ first Album, beyond my Heart´s Horizonand offered him money, if he helped me creating some videos and a CD as well.

Said and done, behind Lance´s back, Nico and my friends helped me to create melodies for the songs which I had written, under the name, HeartScript, of course they were all about my love and believe in Lance.

They ranged from Rock over towards Melodic Metal, I wanted to show him that I could be just as famous a Rockstar as Ashley, and now that she wasn´t really in any need of his help anymore, he could just focus on me instead.

I knew that my friends might call me selfish, but if Ash could only give him hate and I could give him love, why did he choose what pained him more than necessary?

This question bothered me so much that I even Opened an own chat blog about it, which my online friends could write their thoughts about the theme..., one particular Chatroom visitor rose above all the others though.

"Does he loves her this much..., and is there really no hope for me left?" I wrote in the Private chatroom which I had opened to talk to my only companion online, who seemed to understand me.

"Cannot tell, I don´t really know how such a mind works..., I mean normally when you get hate, you try to turn and run form it, you don´t just go and bring the same to boil and most likely to escalating someday.

Maybe he thinks that this is also some kind of twisted love, but believe me, Hate can sometimes turn into something far more dangerously.

If I were you, I would try to get him off his trip, as soon as possible, before something terrible happens, the last time he managed to get away with a blue eye..., but what comes next, a broken nose, a broken wrist..., if this goes on it might someday be a broken neck.

There is just so much of hatred a man can take before he breaks, same goes for Women, if your love stays unrequited for too long, you might come to the false assumption that you are right to get yourself his love by any means necessary.

And believe me that mentality can only backfire badly, I should know, I've been where you at and look at me, all I am now is a simple shut-in-Gamer afraid of socializing too much, who only works as a game tester, to pay her taxes and debts.

I might often complain about it, but if M&M wouldn´t care about me, I might never leave the house anymore, not even to get myself the things in life which I really need.

I mean I cannot truly force them to go buy some Tampons, underwear and the like, that still has to be done by myself, and after all they are not always home, they got a life and a Job too.

I cannot always depend on them and they do tell me this quite often.

I bet they soon will come back home from their After-work-Party to nag about me pulling an all-nighter again." Raphy23 replied to my question.

Even though she referred to herself as a She, had I no evidences if she really was a woman, I never saw a glimpse of her and by everything she could even be an old dude, or worse even a pervert..., but believe me, it did good to talk to a stranger about my problems who could relate to them.

Sometimes that is all you need to do to find yourself, when I see something like this then I do believe that god might exist.

For now I will just believe that she is a woman, either way I got nothing to lose, I never even mentioned my real name or Lance´s name, nor any other all too private matter.

Still I had to admit, the idea of creating a CD to compete with them Both, lance and Ash originally came from her.

"Anyways, how´s your recording coming along?" She asked me.

"Quite well, just today we recorded the Demo of our first few songs, wait a second I send you a sample!" I replied as I copied some files and send it over, for a while there was no message incoming., giving me time to go to the toiled, get myself some chips and a drink.

"Damn girl that sure sounds nice, can´t wait for you to bring it under the public, making this CD has been a good Idea I guess!" She stated and I smiled.

"Sure, but that honor goes also to you, if you wouldn´t have rose that idea in me, I would have never been able to do anything for my Brother.

Not only might I get famous and can earn some money to save it up for that special occasion, but this way I can also reach people far better than over my current search, for a donor heart, on the internet.

The same was until now without a single success and I am searching since about 3 years now, ever since I got my own Laptop, day by day, I slowly began to lose hope." I replied with a frown.

"Yeah I guess something like that can be hard to find, if you don´t search on any of these shady sides in the dark net.

Even hospitals might be struggling to always find the right organs which some people need and I bet it´s even harder to find a fully intact heart at all." Raphy23 answered.

"Yeah I know but I want to help my brother, not getting myself in prison, therefore I have to refrain to further look into any sort of detail, when I accidently land on such a side, even if I might find the answer there.

No matter what I need, it is bound to cost a fortune, I just hope it does not overthrows all of our limits, if it does we might never be able to pay such an Operation." I explained.

"Indeed, but believe me, if it saves a life, it is worth every expenses I guess!" She replied

"You´re right ..., still, why does all good things in the world have to cost so much?" I asked.

"I guess it's because many people have them, which don´t even appreciate their gift or might even use them bad things!" She replied.

"I guess you are right..., anyways I got to go, I have to create so more songs for the CD, those few aren´t enough, not in the slightest, to win against whatever that Girl confronts us with, if I can win against her in the competition, then I am sure that my Brother will finally see me for real and also I can show him that I am much better than that Girl!" I wrote back.

"Grab your fortune by its thorns, no matter how hard it will become never give up on your love and make sure to bring out the best of your voice, so that he won´t be bale not to turn towards you, got it!

Anyways, I got to go to too, the Boys are back..., but just as a question, what would you do if the case comes that you fail and Girl A wins, you do realize that Boy L might still not look at you the way you want to, even with all the effort you have given it, what are you going to do then.

Do you give up?!" Raphy23 asked.

"No I won't, even if people tell me that my love is wrong, wont I ever give the same up..., but honestly, if he still doesn't sees me by then, then I have no idea..., I ..., I just hope I win..., I have no idea what I would do if it all fails, but I will know it once it happens, 8/ !" I replied.

"Shall I come and cheer you on, :P ?!" I was asked.

"Huh, what do you mean, sure you can come but we will most likely not be able to see us, since we don´t know how the other looks like in real life and even if, competitors who made it through the preliminaries and are getting nominated are able to travel towards the competition for free.

But for everyone else the tickets might cost a fortune, I don´t think it is worth to lose any money for that, especially if the case comes that I do fail, don´t you think so too, 8( ?" I stated unsure of what to hold from that idea.

"Oh don´t worry about that, I've saved some money myself, also the boys are going near the location due to a job, so I will have to follow them anyways, I mean two months alone for a shut in like me is too hard..., and since I work as a freelancer, I can take my work with me wherever I want.

Also even if we won´t see each other I will still be able to hear you, I have your singing voice in my head now, so I won´t mistake it once I hear your songs, o ." She replied and I smiled.

"Well if that´s the case then I look forward, anyways SYL."

"SYL, PM me once you are back, Goodbye RebOsb3!" Raphy23 wrote before she logged out of the chatroom.

"Well I guess that was good, it is nice to speak with someone about my feelings." I mumbled as I closed my laptop.

"I guess I should listen to the songs again, to see what else I can write." I thought as I looked at the Demo CD.

Without further ado I pushed the same in my Walkman, laid down on my bed with my Drink and the chips-bag, put in the headphones and listened to the song I had written, sung by my very own voice.

(Original: I believe in you by Michael Bublé)

Rebecca:

"Time goes by
And I've been holding everything inside
But now I've got nothing left to hide
I´m worried about you, oh, you

And now I see
What kind of women I'm gonna have to be
My love for you has come so naturally
It´s just the way you live

And all I want
Is a chance to prove
How much i´m loving you

I believe in starting over
I know best that your heart is true
I believe in good things coming back to you
I wanna be the light that lifts you higher
So bright, to guide you through

I believe in you

And I don't mind
If you want to hold onto me tight
You don't have to sleep alone tonight

If you don't want to

And all I want
Is to know you're near
You're all I need here

I believe in starting over
I know best that your heart is true
I believe in good things coming back to you
I wanna be the light that lifts you higher
So bright, to guide you through

I believe in you

I know that there are times
When you search forgiveness
I know all the hate you get
You don't deserve it
Sometimes I feel my faith is just a burden
On you, you, you

I believe in starting over
I know best that your heart is true
I believe in love
You gave me reasons to

I wanna be the light that lifts you higher
So high up in the sky
I, I think we're gonna fly

I believe in starting over
I know best that your heart is true
I believe in love

You give me reasons to
I wanna be the light that lifts you higher
So bright, to guide you through

I believe in you
I believe in you
I believe in you

wanna guide you through
I believe in you!"

The song that I sang to was all about my feelings for how my brother is currently living his life, always running after and trying to care about that Woman no matter how much hatred he earns from her.

It made me sad to think about it and I hoped that this song might cheer him up a little, maybe it also will reach some people in the right places, for us to find a donor´s heart.

The next song on the other hand was my song to show him that he should stop giving himself up for others, but that it is his life and that he only has 5 more years to life for his own, if not a miracle helps us.

(Original:- Follow your heart by Scorpions)

Rebecca:

"Would you ever climbed a mountain?
Would you ever crossed the sea?
Take a look around the corner
And listen to your heartbeat

Would you ever watch the Northern lights?
Or take a ride on a ferris wheel?
It takes one step to start a journey
It's up to you to make it real

This is the time for yourself to see
That you gotta follow your heart
This is the time in your life and it's never too late
To see the light in the dark
You gotta follow your heart

Walking far away horizons
You will never walk alone
You'll be at home where your heart is
A million miles away from home

This is the time for yourself to be free
You gotta follow your heart
This is the time in your life and it's never too late
To see the light in the dark
You gotta follow your heart

Show me the way, who knows the way?
This is the only road to go
Life brings me down, life takes me up
And only, only Heaven knows

This is the time for yourself to be free
You gotta follow your heart
This is the time in your life and it's never too late
To see the light in the dark
You gotta follow your heart
You gotta follow your heart!"

I didn´t know if it was good as it is, I considered to let Ashton, Lovelies´s Background-Vocalist, sing the leads back then, but he told me that, since it is more my CD for Lance, than a normal Album at all, I should be the Lead in nearly all of the songs, unless it really wouldn´t work out with my voice.

The next song which came was about how I felt as Lance and I still lived in our parent´s house under the threat of someday being separated, as we could only trust ourselves and each other.

But also about the time as lance began to doubt on finding a cure for his disease and how he gradually gave up his hope.

(Original:- Shine and Shade by Beyond the Black)

Rebecca:

"We lived in shine and shade
And trusted in the bittersweet
But he´s a fool who doesn't see
How precious his life can be

Each triumph had a lonely side
We were always facing black and white
We were heading for the ending´s beat
Each curtain call a daring deed

The way we go, can be the way to fall
We might lose it, when we want it all
We're still living in the shine and shade
We're still swaying between love and hate

Ohhh, let our love become one!"

Ashton:

"Before the seed is gone

The fault in our harmony
Completing our life´s symphony
The cold can be more or it can be less
And it makes no difference between life and death!"

Rebecca:

"Ohhh, let our love become one

Before the seed is gone!

Don't waste it onto barren land

We're gonna shine on
In a light that we´ve never seen
Anywhere we're go we shine on
Shine on, shine on
In a land of the prophecy
Anywhere we´re go we shine on
Shine on, shine on!"

All:

"We lived in shine and shade
And trusted in the bittersweet
But he´s a fool who doesn't see
How precious his life can be!"

Rebecca:

"We´re still waiting for the best to come
And forget about what we have done
still yearning for what we´ve achieved
The fortunes and the miseries!"

Ashton:

"Will we live a lonely life forever?
So close and yet so far together
Along the way we might see it all
We long to rise and we fear to fall!"

Rebecca:

"Ohhh, let our love become one
Before the seed is gone

Don't waste it onto barren land!"

All:

"We're gonna shine on
In a light that we´ve never seen
Anywhere we're go we shine on
Shine on, shine on
In a land of the prophecy
Anywhere we´re go we shine on
Shine on, shine on!"

Rebecca:

"We lived in shine and shade
And trusted in the bittersweet
But he´s a fool who doesn't see
How precious his life can be and that my love's divine

Don't waste it onto barren land!"

All:

"We're gonna shine on
In a light that we´ve never seen
Anywhere we're go we shine on
Shine on, shine on
In a land of the prophecy
Anywhere we´re go we shine on
Shine on, shine on

We're gonna shine on
In a light that we´ve never seen
Anywhere we're go we shine on
Shine on, shine on
In a land of the prophecy
Anywhere we´re go we shine on
Shine on, shine on!"

Rebecca:

"We live in shine and shade!"

Imagining our past also made me remember Lances countless times of bravery, as he took the hits which I should have taken, how often he was screamed on and how often he defended me against whoever.

Once again it ignited deep feelings for him inside my chest and from there the heat I felt spread throughout my body.

Alone at thinking of him was lust-inducing to me, maybe he didn´t looked like an Adonis to others but to me he was far more than that.

"Lance!" I felt the hot breath of my words runing over my lips as I spoke his name and began to feel strange, it sometimes happened that alone the calling of his name made me imagining things, sexy scenes with my brother in which I was the woman he desired, not Ashley.

I kept imagining how it might feel if his entire focus laid on me, his entire love and care and even more, his entire Lust.

How he would one night enter my bedroom, slip under the blanket, kiss me and let his hands wandering over my body, how his kisses scorched my skin and how he would mark me as his, how he would play with me, sometimes rough and sometimes tenderly.

How he would turn up my lust before letting me cool of again, just to ignite it as soon as it once again reached its deepest point, how he would tease my body to overflow ith lust and arousal.

And then, when these fantasies reached their peak, I woke up..., it has always been so, whenever I thought to have reached the moment he would finally take my innocence, I just wake up, all the feelings I had, the entire arousal I felt before was suddenly gone and then I realize again, that all I had seen was but only a dream.

That's the moment when the tears come, when my heart is crushed again, by the feelings of loss, I then sneak towards my brothers room and watch him sleeping quietly, wishing to touch him but never going further than looking at him.

Once I have made sure to myself that he was here with me, I returned back to my room and slept, falling asleep in solitude.

I don´t know how often that already happened and I have no idea if Lance ever had a clue about it, if he had he never showed it to me.

And honestly..., it hurted me much more as if he would just tell me that he only liked me as Sister.

Of course I never truly asked him about his feelings to me and he never told me, that he loved me only as a sibling or if there could be something more.

I guess for him I was just there, his little sister, who was in need of protection and care, and even if I loved him with every fiber of my being, was I glad that I was at least more than a simple friend to him.

"Oh Lance , if only you would feel what I feel!" I muttered a si listened to the next song.

The Next one was most likely the truest I have ever written, it was a song about my feelings for Lance, once, now and forever.

(Original: Until Eternity by Blackbriar)

Rebecca:

"I loved you once, I´ll love you twice
I loved you in my previous lives
I know your voice, I know your eyes
You haunt me through my dreams at night!

Oh my love, we'll meet again
Like we always do in the end
Our two souls are destined to be
You and I until eternity!"

All:

"We live on and on and on, death is weak and we are strong
On and on and on, time is weak and we are strong!"

Rebecca:

"And I see you and you see me
Your eyes are like a raging sea
I´ll know it's you, You know it's true
I wont ever mistake someone else for you!

Oh my love, come take my hand
Like you have done in my dreamland
I show you every possibility
It's you and I until eternity!"

All:

"We live on and on and on, death is weak and we are strong
On and on and on, time is weak and we are strong!"

Rebecca:

"I loved you once, I´ll love you twice
I´m ready for it all and I pay the price
And when I die, just keep in mind
I'll always love you in another life
We´ll be together in another life!"

All:

"We live on and on and on, death is weak and we are strong (we are strong)
On and on and on, we are strong (we are strong)
On and on and on, death is weak and we are strong (we are strong)
On and on and on, time is weak and we are strong (we are strong)!"

It was my Song to show Lance my feelings, whether he understands it or not, it was all I could do, if even that would fail I will tell him how I feel about him, and if he rejects me..., then I at least know where I stand, whatever will happen, I won´t leave him, he is all I have and I am all he has.

If I would leave him, he might commit suicide someday, out of pain over the love he has lost, whether mine or hers.

"I won´t ever leave your side, whether you choose me or her, you won´t ever get away from me, I will stay at your side until the day you die and if you do, then I will go with you, a world without you is in no way livable for me, may we see us in our next life and then not as brother and sister, so that I can finally love you freely." I thought as I laid down to sleep.

It was late in the even ing as Lance seemed to have returned.

"Lance is that you?" I asked as I stood up to greet him.

"Hey, sis!" He simply said, his back facing me as he took off his shoes at the front door, wet from the rain outside, which seemed to have started a while ago.

"How was it?!" I asked, referring towards his mission he did tonight.

"As expected they weren´t quite happy to see me!" He stated as he turned around, his lip was bloody and his face had many bruises.

I gasped but honestly I had expected something to happen.

Needless to say that it only spoiled my anger about him and Ashley.

"I..., I just don´t get it, I know I've said I before and I will probably ask you more so in future..., but why the hell do you let her do that..., no, the question is rather of why you do that to yourself.

Are you a Masochist, is pain the thing that makes you high, if you need that just ask me and I will give you pain, which will not always bruise you, I cannot understand how you can still want that!" I stated.

"You cannot understand that, it´s just...!" Lance tried to explain but I cut him off.

"Of course I cannot understand it, how could I if you never explain it to me, this is nothing which you can just brush off with I love her and she means much to me or, I need to do that.

You don´t need to do that, you are in no freaking obligation anymore to help Ashley, she has a boyfriend now, who is far stronger and can better defend her than you could ever physically do.

After all this was your plan and she is famous now, look how many people were at her concert, it was sold out, twice a day.

She doesn´t need you anymore, you cared for that to happen, just give her up already, goddamit!" I stated in a harsh tone.

"I can´t, I cannot just stop now, I am already too deep into it, I need to make sure that she can stand strong no matter what happens in the near future, if her father tries to get you, she will need to be strong to resist him, she will have to be so famous that the whole world will get to know it if something happens to her, only that way I can defend her from her father!" Lance explained and it was the first time he told me that.

"And for that you have to be hurt, physically as well as psychically..., this is insane Lance, and believe me, I won´t stand by and watch how my beloved are getting hurt over something like this..., Ashley is 21 goddammit, she is old enough to defend herself, she is in no need for your protection anymore.

I won´t take it anymore that you come home every time, being bruised and hurt, mentally at the end, and still want to walk further straight through hell..., have you an idea how I feel about that, no..., because you never listen to me.

You said I just don´t understand, well guess again, maybe I don´t want to understand because I don´t care about it, what I care about is you and your wellbeing.

You know exactly what the doctor told you, if we don´t find a donor´s heart, you will have only about 5 years more to live and believe me, causing yourself one heartbreaking experience after another isn´t really a way to extend that lifespan.

I don´t care what you say, but I will no longer look away from what that woman is doing to you.

I will not allow you to come home with any broken body part, because of your psychological masochism!" I stated and Lance looked at me in wonderment.

"Geez, would you just leave it be, it is my Life, and I will use it as I see fit!" He stated as he walked past me to his room.

"Then don´t mind if I interfere in your plans from now on, I will take all the pain you will have to endure otherwise!" I replied.

"Don´t you dare getting in my way, I won´t forgive you if you do!" he stated before closing his door.

"I am in no need of any forgiveness, all I want is for you to live on, to make sure you can finally have what others always tried to destroy.

A life without any burdens!" I replied, more to myself, as I heard his door closing.

"We will see who has the longer lever here, dear brother of mine.

Yours causes you pain..., mine just encloses you into a golden cage!" I thought, as I went back to my own room, as my feelings threatened to overcome me again.

To be continued...

A/N: the next Chapter is out and I hope that these little plot-twists about 4 of our old Characters have entertained you.

The next Chapter will be about Rosita and her own personal family crisis.

Expect to be entertained.

Yours truly, The Storyteller and his Books.

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