Chapter 36: Goodbyes

(DISCLAIMER: I am not affiliated with Stephenie Meyer, Little & Brown Publishing, or Summit Entertainment. I do not own, nor do I have any hand in the Twilight Universe, other than a handful of silly fanfictions. This is a work of fiction, any and all similarities to any person living or dead is purely coincidental. )

I opened my eyes and shivered, the room was dimmed and my vision was fuzzy. I took a deep breathe, annoyed by the involuntary shudder from crying.

"Bella." I tilted my head up and saw Edward's face, his brow was furrowed, his eyes distant. I grabbed a fistful of his shirt and put my face against his marble chest. His cold fingers grazed my cheek softly.

"How do you feel?" Broken? Scared?

"I'm okay."

"Bella, please, be honest." His body went rigid, become impossibly harder against my face. I pulled away and turned to my other side, away from Edward's face. I didn't want to see his eyes black from not having hunted in over two weeks.

"I don't know what you want me to say Edward. I feel like a walking wreck. I'm afraid of what I'm doing to your and your family. I miss my dad."

"How is your anxiety?" He sounded distant again.

"When you talk to me like that I heightens. What's wrong?"

"Esme and Alice are fixing up the house by the hospital. Carlisle thinks a change of scenery would be good for you." He began. I felt the bed shift and looked up. His back was facing me. I felt the tears prickling.

"And you? What do you think?" I watched as he let his head fall and his shoulders crunch.

"I didn't see it Bella. We... my family and I, we don't see you as a human. You've been one of us, and we let things get so far out of hand. I can't hear your thoughts, Jasper has to stay far enough away from you so he won't lose control. Things like this are spontaneous, so even Alice couldn't have foreseen... We weren't paying attention to the human details. And we missed it." He turned to me, his black eyes boring into mine.

"You were hardly there Bella. The only time you even seemed lucid was when someone was touching you. You were hysterical."

"Edward..." his tone was changing, he was sounding slightly hysterical himself.

"I have to leave you Bella."

"Wha..."

"Please listen to me, I'm not good for you. I could do everything in the world, and still miss the smallest thing. I can protect you from physical damage, but not noticing the emotional pain... I..."

I interrupted him. "People with human families have things like this happen Edward." My voice was an octave higher than normal. He was brooding, I had stop him before he did this. "Thing happen, Edward, it makes people more vigilant."

"Stop Bella. Please. This can't work. We're too different."

My heart began pounding in my chest "Don't do this. I can't loose the only person I have."

Edward looked at the ground, closing his eyes. When he looked back, his face was cold, detached. "That's just it though isn't it. I am not a 'Person'. I'm not human Bella. I can't keep pretended for you. If put not only you, but my family in danger. I can't have that. I won't put them in danger any longer. Your job at the hospital is secure..." my ears chose that moment to stop working. Carlisle wouldn't fire me just because Edward left me. I only heard the buzz of Edward's voice, not the words.

They were all leaving. My boyfriend, my best friend. I would be alone, completely. Charlie was dead, Renee and Phil had their own lives now. My family was gone.

I moved out of the bed and grabbed a jacket from the closet that was mostly empty. A note taped to the hanger informed me that everything else was already at my new home. When I turned Edward was no longer in the room.

Gone.

It was all gone, Life, love, meaning. Gone.

Outside of the house sat a shiny new Prius, the keys were hanging from the door. I walked past it, to the clearing in front of the Cullen house. If I had been paying attention, I would have noticed that everything except the larger pieces of furniture was gone.

I walked sluggishly through the clearing and into the woods. I didn't know why, or where I was going. I simply walked.

I know, you all despise the New Mooning.

But I do want to try to follow the progression.

Don't worry though, what we missed from

Twilight will make it's presence known

soon

(Because who deny Cam Gigandet's character and be happy?)

Forgive the super shortness of things. I have a licensure exam coming up on

Tuesday - so time has been taken up by

birthday madness and studying.

Wish me luck.

Josephine