Reid
It was December and the day Winter break began. Once again, Christmas did not feel cheery. It's been a few weeks since John and Marley's funeral and Remus has been everything but merry, if anything he was more solemn and more overprotective with me and Eura, not letting me out of his sight nor letting me wonder alone.
When John and Marley passed, Eura was handed off to my mum in Liverpool until we come to get her. To be perfectly honest, Remus was not thrilled about the idea of my mother having Eura. And to be frank, neither am I. She's not responsible, she has wild parties, gets drunk and what not. But then again, she was a good mum to me, so I trust her, she's different with a child especially her own granddaughter.
When she updated us on Eura with her letters Remus and I were content, but he was still nervous and it no doubt had something to do with his parent's death and more murders.
I remember the day we found out about John and Marley, the next morning at breakfast Bellatrix Black cackled and told Remus it serves them right, and that's when I lost it, I got up ran over and cut her laugh off by shooting a dozen of spells and hexes at her and achieving it, and then jumped on her punching her in face repeatedly and then I was crying really hard. I felt someone pull me off and I tried my best to fight them off but eventually they accomplished getting me away as Regulus Black dragged Bellatrix heatedly away.
It turns out that it was no other than Persephone Stardust, Nell's little sister who ended the fight. She didn't yell at me nor congratulate, she just looked at me like everything that was needed to be said was in her ice blue eyes, she seemed to understand, and she took my hand and smiled at me, it wasn't cynical and it wasn't sarcastic, it was a real smile, she then left and the next day Bellatrix stopped talking to me after that, the next day she appeared frightened of me, I found out only a week later it that Persephone used the cruciatus curse on her, instead of being happy about this, I was mortified.
I was mortified by the fact that a little girl, a sixteen year old girl used an unforgivable with such ease, coming back the next day perfectly fine as if torturing another person was normal. And right there I knew little Persephone Stardust, the ten year old girl with moonlight hair that was plaited in two neat braids tied by green ribbons, dancing in her emerald ruffled dress, with jack frost eyes wide with innocence that followed Nell around everywhere like a lost puppy, is now a sixteen year old Death Eater.
This broke my heart, and it started to make me think what kind of world was I bringing my little girl into?
Nell
The entire train ride home was spent comforting a crying Reid and trying to get Remus to talk. I still can't get over the fact that John and Marley are gone, they were muggle hippies who did nothing and they were killed.
When I found out I ran, I ran all the way into the deep depths of the woods and screamed not caring if it's killing my lungs, because I think we all know I don't care about those. It just wasn't fair, and to think that it's only the beginning.
I spent the entire day in the woods just standing there, and it wasn't until nightfall when I heard a twig snap. I already had my wand at the ready, prepared to blow someone's head off, but I immediately lowered it when I saw that it was my sister.
"Persephone you fucking scared me!"
She however did not react; in fact she didn't even smirk! She just stared at me with conflicting yet understanding blizzard eyes. She then walked over to me and wrapped her scarf around my neck and gave me a sack, I was curious to see what it was so I opened and my heart pounded when I saw it filled with galleons.
"You're not coming back home so I want to take care of you, and don't let your stupid Gryffindor pride get in the way, it's mad times out there."
I said nothing.
"I will be visiting you a lot, secretly of course."
I hugged her. She hugged back, and for a moment I felt like everything was going to be okay, but only for a moment…
Because I was basically homeless, I was spending the holidays with the Potters again this year. Charlie and Dory knew about John and Marley mainly because of their professions, and offered Remus, Reid, and Eura to stay at Potter Manor for the holiday, but they refused insisting that they have a lot of things to take care of.
The car ride to the Manor was terribly quiet, except for the Christmas carols on the radio. No one talked no one dared to talk it was just dead silence.
When we finally arrived, everyone instantly went to their own rooms, but I went with Sirius to his of course. He hasn't let go of my hand since the moment we were at Hogsmeade station. He's worried about me instead of himself, but I'm worried about him.
We removed our coats, scarves, hats, and gloves and sat on his bed in silence but still holding hands.
I desperately needed a shower but I was afraid that if I let go of his hand I will collapse.
I glared at the balcony glass doors and the falling snow; I didn't realize that snow was so awful. It's cold, it's wet, and it reminds me of terrible things. My first memory of snow was blood-stained snow, and then there was the incident last year and now this year. I hate snow.
Warm lips attached themselves onto my neck and I closed my eyes no longer seeing the snow of despair. I leaned into those lips still holding onto the hand, and moaned.
"Just close your eyes and forget, open them to remember." Sirius whispered in my ear.
I turned my head and my lips were met by the same ones who loved my neck.
And that's when the tears fell, we were both crying but we both felt better. Our lips passionately locked together and his tongue licked every cavern in my mouth, I licked his tongue and he had me on my back. Our love was told in this very kiss.
LEMONADE
Sirius slowly removed my boots then my socks, he rubbed my legs and kissed my neck then reattached his lips back onto mine and I mewled. In countless seconds our clothes disappeared and Sirius was rubbing slow, torturous circles on every part of my legs taking a very long time getting to my inner thighs, I ached with need and was wet with desire. I rubbed my bare genitals against his hard-on and he groaned/growled. Now biting my neck and roughly playing with my sore breast. I moaned and rubbed harder and he moved his mouth to my breast.
Taking my nipple in his mouth sucking, teething, kissing, and licking it while massaging the other with intensity, circling my areola with his finger and pinching the nipple violently. I took my hand grabbed his erection rubbing it slow at first but then quickening the pace.
I looked to see Sirius' eyes rolling with immense pleasure, and I grabbed his balls, his growl sounded like an animals'. I then fingered his slit and he flipped me over so that I was now on all fours, and slammed his penis into my asshole.
He had his hands gripping my hips and thundered into my tight hole making me milk his blanket with my cum as he continued to fuck me in a very rapid pace that my entire body was shaking and my eyes were rolling as I screamed and whimpered with delight.
I took my finger and starting rubbing my clit but was stopped when Sirius flipped me back onto my back and thrust his two fingers into my soaked pussy.
I cried with Euphoria, as he thrusted hard and added a third finger, he then licked my pussy all around and along with fingers stuck his tongue inside thrusting the muscle and licking up my endless nectar. He added in a fourth finger and I was pretty sure I wasn't on Earth anymore.
He sucked me up like a vacuum cleaner and then threw my legs further apart, he removed his mouth and fingers and shoved his very large dick into my pussy pounding into it mercilessly, our cries and moans were boisterous and our need was lethargic, we hungered for each other.
He was going so fast and my body was shaking, we were coated in sweat. We both climaxed and he fell on top of me panting.
END OF LEMON
His head rested on my chest and he was still inside me. I combed his hair with my fingers and kissed his head. We didn't need to say I love you, it was already said in some other way.
Right now what the both of us wanted to do was just never to let go. Sirius kissed my breast and sighed, I felt tears fall onto my stomach and I too was crying. We knew that there was more to lose and we won't ever be ready for that.
Sirius and I remained like this for two days straight, lost in our thoughts and connected to each other. We weren't ready to face the world just yet.
But we eventually got up for a shower; we just sat in the shower, sat down on the granite floor as the water trickled down on us.
We stared into one another's eyes as we held each other's hand, his hair was stucked to his head and mine was in my face. We had the longest conversation for the past days and we didn't even speak.
It was what we needed. I think it's what all of us need right now. No I'm sorry for your loss, just this.
Remus
We picked up Eura from Trish and headed back to the house. We still haven't said a word to each other, Reid and I. I felt like if I said something to her she'd snap, she's so unpredictable these days and it's making me nervous. I have to keep this family together no matter what, but when we stepped into the house that was once filled with laughter, weed, and guitar ballads and found it empty, grey, and very cold. I closed my eyes, tightened my hold Eura and swallowed my tears, I felt my insides grow stiff and I kept thinking 'What am I going to do?'.
Reid sat me down on the couch but let me hold onto Eura, she knew that our daughter was keeping me calm.
Reid went around cleaning the place up with magic, it took a few hours, I was still on the couch with Eura staring at the wall and before I knew it, it was nighttime, Reid had finished cleaning, Eura has been sleeping on my chest for hours, and I fell asleep too, but all I could see was black.
A week later Reid and I were read the will, we inherited everything from my parents, the house, their little money, everything. Except for the weed, which was in Nell's custody, we haven't decided what to do about that just yet. Eura inherited all of my mum's jewelry and clothing, and some of the money. They had letters for each of us, I had two, Reid had one and Eura had one.
My first letter went like so;
August 17, 1965
Remy our darling sweetheart,
You are our entire world, you make everything easier we never thought to have a perfect child, I think you were an angel once but decided to grace us with you; it was the best gift we have ever received, we love you endlessly. But it just occurred to us that we will pass on into our next lives one day and when we do we want you to be taken care of. So we give you the van, our clothes, our possessions, the little money we have, the music everything! I know it's not much but please I hope when you have it you will cherish it like we cherish you, there's a little bit of us in all of that.
I'm crying now can you believe it? I'm twenty years old and thinking about death (mama)
I'm keeping a hold on your mama (papa)
We want you to be taken care of Remy, the commune says they will take care of you two, they all love you so much, and everyone loves you you're just a little ball of love. We love you Remy, don' ever question it.
Love, love, love, love, love,
Mama and Papa.
P.S.
Buddha will take care of you
Commune to Commune. I always knew they loved me there was no question; they'd tell me 17 times a day and kiss me every time they had the chance. I smiled remembering the commune, Uncle Sunny was my favorite, he taught me how to rain dance and always made me laugh.
I opened the second letter and read;
December 30, 1976
Our handsome Remy,
Moonchild this is the second and most updated letter we want to give you. Moonchild stop calling yourself a monster, a monster is a horrible thing that enjoys bringing misery to others, you are definitely not that. It breaks your mother's heart and Reid's when you call yourself that. You love people, you think of other's before yourself you are the kindest person, you are a good person. Now we're going to pass on and when that time comes we don't want you to cry in memory of us we want you to laugh to smile to say 'Remember when..' when you think about us. No tears Remy, because all I remember was good times.
Take care of that Reid mama, she is the most beautiful girl in the world and we just don't mean on the surface, her soul is gorgeous. She loves you so much I see it every day, take care of her and Eura our granddaughter who is so dear and special to us, our little Eura is going to be beautiful, love her pass on the love, save the tears.
You're friends will always be there for you never forget that, tell them we love them all dearly.
Of course you, Reid, and Eura inherit everything except for the weed which goes to Nell.
Love, kisses, and sunshine,
Mama and Papa
p.s.
Eura's letter should never be open until her 13th birthday.
For the first time in a long time I smiled.
"Remus." Called Reid.
My ears rang with euphoria when I heard her voice, I missed it, I missed her.
I brought her into my arms inhaling her scent and we laughed, then Eura laughed and everything was going to be fine.
Who can say
where the road goes
where the day flows
only time
And who can say
if your love grows
as your heart chose
only time
Who can say
why your heart sighs
as your love flies
only time
And who can say
why your heart cries
when your love lies
only time
Who can say
when the roads meet
that love might be