What Doesn't Kill You
A Clique Fan Fiction
Chapter 38
This was never the way I planned-not my intention
I got so brave, drink in hand...lost my discretion
It's not what I'm used to-just wanna try you on
I'm curious for you-caught my attention
I kissed a girl and I liked it-the taste of her cherry chapstick
I kissed a girl just to try it-I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
"That bitch tried to get with Derrick again," Massie vented, pacing her room at her Friday night sleepover later that night. The other three members of the Pretty Committee were settled on their sleeping bags, already in pajamas. "We need to do something about this," Massie knew it was going back to her old ways, but she was not going to lose Derrick. Especially not to somebody like Olivia.
"Olivia's a lesbian," Dylan blurted. Kristen and Alicia turned to her, wide eyed.
"You can't just start that rumor, Dyl. That's horrible to say!" Kristen gasped.
"It's true," Dylan swore, crossing her heart as she spoke.
"Details," Massie commanded, dropping onto her bed and focusing on Dylan.
"According to Claire...Olivia kissed her and then admitted it." Dylan whispered. "It wasn't the way Olivia planned on telling people. Actually, her intentions were to never tell anybody. But I guess she'd had a crush on Claire for awhile and she got a little brave one night at a party-she was drunk and confused...she'd lost all discretion and it just happened. And according to Claire, she'd kissed Olivia back. She wasn't into it or anything-we know she's totally into Cam...but she just wanted to try it out," Dylan went on.
"Olivia once told me she was curious about that...she said that was why we were such good friends. Because I caught her attention at Massie's part," Alicia said slowly. "I just assumed she was kissing though," She whispered.
"She kissed Claire? And liked it? God, I'd hate it. All Claire ever wears is cherry chapstick! That's a disgusting taste. Believe me, when I was poor, that's what I had to wear for a while and I hated it," Kristen made a face.
"Is that why you had chapped lips?" Massie teased.
"Shut up!" Kristen giggled.
"But...Claire kissed Olivia back just to try it? God, I hope Josh didn't mind it," Alicia snickered.
"Believe me-he's a dude. He probably wanted to join them," Dylan rolled her eyes and the girls broke into hysterics.
"I don't know," Massie said slowly, once the laughter had stopped. "Outing her doesn't seem...it doesn't seem nice," She said softly. "I can't do that. But I can talk to her about it," Massie declared, standing up and pulling a jacket on over her short, Victoria's Secret night gown. It fell to the middle of her thigh and had long, baggy short sleeves. It was one of their baseball night gowns and read MEET ME IN THE DUG OUTS on it. Massie slid on UGGs and began to walk off, but was stopped by Dylan's teasing tone.
"Do you want to tell her off or turn her on?"
"I hate you," Massie giggled, crawling back onto her bed and taking off the jacket and the boots. Telling Olivia off could wait.
It felt so wrong, it felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it-I liked it
Us girls we are so magical, soft skin, red lips, so kissable
Hard to resist, so touchable-too good to deny it
It ain't no big deal-it's innocent
Olivia was a lesbian. That wasn't the first time she'd ever admitted it to herself. But this was the first time she'd ever admitted to being in anything deeper than a girl crush. She'd had one of those on Claire. But what she had on Massie was much more. Claire had been Olivia's first drabble in this world and it had felt so wrong to her. She knew she wasn't supposed to do things like that. But at the same time, it had felt so right. The night she'd told Claire had been the first night she'd ever admitted it aloud or to herself. But one silly little kiss didn't mean she was in love. Tonight though? She was. She'd kissed Claire and she'd liked it. She'd admit it. She enjoyed to kiss girls. She was attracted to them.
Girls had such soft skin...they were magical and wonderful with their red lips that just begged you to kiss them. It was hard to resist the call their had. They were so touchable-so perfect. It seemed natural for Olivia to be attracted to the same sex as her. It was forced whenever she acted like she wanted somebody of the opposite sex. Girls were much too good to deny the feelings of lust.
But her kiss was Claire hadn't been a big deal. It was purely innocent. But, what she felt for Massie was not. She only wished Massie felt the same way. That was why she didn't want Massie to be with Derrick. While she wanted Massie to be happy-she didn't want her to be happy with anybody else.