RICKY'S POV

When I woke up, Amy wasn't laying next to me. I got up and walked over to Denise's crib. There was a note.

Don't freak out. I took Denise for a walk. I didn't want to wake you, you looked to peaceful. We went to the park, so you could come meet us there, or wait for us to get back.

I love you,

Amy

I'm glad that was there, because I would've freaked out. I got dressed and brushed my teeth, then walked down to the park. I looked at my phone, it was 8 in the morning. It was still kind of cold out. I looked around for Amy, and saw her sitting on one of the benches, holding the baby. I walked over to her. I saw her smile when she saw me. I sat down next to her and took Denise. She started to fall asleep. I smiled down at her and put her back in the carriage. I sat back down next to Amy.

"Come on, let's take a walk," she said and jumped up.

I smirked and got up with less enthusiasm. She started to walk and push the carriage.

"So, what time did you guys leave," I asked.

"I dunno, probably around 7:30, or so."

"Oh. Why didn't you just wake me up?"

"I thought you could use the rest."

"Oh, thanks, I guess."

"Ricky, are you going back to school?"

"Oh yeah, I forgot all about that. I dunno, baby, you need my help with Denise, right?"

"I can manage for six or seven hours on my own."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm sure."

"Alright, I'll go back on Monday."

"It is Monday."

I laughed.

"Oh yeah, I'll go back on Wednesday."

She giggled. We walked all the way down to the lake. She stopped and I looked down at her face. She was obviously thinking about that night at band camp again. I pulled her close and kissed the top of her head.

"That won't happen again, baby, I promise."

"I know," she mumbled into my chest.

She pulled away and started walking back. We were silent for almost the whole way. She seemed angry. I stopped her and asked why she was mad.

"I'm fine, I'm just thinking."

"Yeah, but thinking about what?"

"You know what I'm thinking about."

"Do you trust me enough to believe I'm never leaving you again?"

"Yes, but can I ask you something?"

Oh god, I knew what she was about to ask. I grinded my teeth.

"Sure."

Don't ask me that…..

"Why did you leave me then?"

DAMN! I KNEW IT!!!

"Baby, I left you then because I was stupid. It's a long story."

"I need to know."

She had a right to know.

"Ok so, I saw you walking up to the lake and I thought you were beautiful. I thought you were going to be different from the other girls. I wanted to change. But I couldn't. I couldn't change the way I was, but that was back then. I wanted to actually talk to you, get to know you. But after I kissed you, it was like my body wasn't keeping up with my mind. And when you fell asleep, I just left. I couldn't see you, because I would feel horrible. I did something I told myself I wouldn't do. But I did it. I wanted to talk to you, but I couldn't. I couldn't face the facts. So I stopped talking to you all together. But that doesn't mean I didn't think about you every second. I'm sorry I left, but I'm not going to leave again."

I didn't even notice that she had started crying. I sat down next to her and pulled her close. She cried into my shoulder and I rubbed her back.

"I'm sorry," I said.

She pulled back. She kissed me and got up and started to walk back to the house. She was still crying the whole way back. I tried to calm her down, but she didn't try to say anything. I figured she just needed some time to think, after what I had just told her. She went into our bedroom and I didn't try to follow her. I went into the guest room and thought about what just happened. What if she broke up with me? I couldn't deal with that. After about an hour, she walked into the doorway. Her eyes were still red. She walked over to me and took my hand………………