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*I Do Not Own Twilight or Vampire Diaries.

Funny how one minute you can be so close to someone,

And the next it's like you never knew them;

Never make someone your everything,

Because when they are gone you have nothing.

~Bella

Waking up in the morning was one of the most coziest I have had in a really long time. I was warm and being hugged by two really comfortable and muscular arms.

Edward was just the best feeling ever.

Wait a minute!

Lifting my head slightly I saw that my back was to Edward's chest, his arms holding me to him. Both of us were entwined in the blankets and he was here.

Oh definitely here considering his friend was wide awake and poking me.

But what gets to me the most was… he was here? Isn't his thing fuck and leave? As long as I can remember, chicks were always leaving his apartment or he was always coming home late. Well earlier in the year, now not so much but still.

He was here… with me.

Turning around in his arms I was now facing him, but I brought the blankets higher to cover my chest. I felt way too exposed which is ridiculous because he saw me completely last night.

And it was pretty amazing aside from feeling uncomfortable and not really pleasurable since it was the first time in my life. But knowing he was the first guy in my life, makes everything feel so much better for me.

Too bad it's probably going to be the last since he finally got what he wanted from me.

So for now, I'm going to enjoy the moment while I can.

He looked so cute sleeping. When does he not? At peace and looking like he was at bliss.

A little bit of his hair was getting in the way, so I moved it out of his face so I can see it completely.

And I couldn't help but smile as I continued to look at his face.

Until a thought popped into my head.

What are you going to tell your sisters.

And there I have no clue. I am screwed. I need a really good lie because both I and Edward left without saying anything. I could fake an illness and say that Edward took me home and he left to who knows where since he is good at that.

Perfect. Now lets just hope I don't screw up or something.

"What are you thinking about?" I heard Edward say in a groggily voice as he moved some hair out of my face.

"Nothing…" I said as I looked back to him.

We basically starred at each other until he spoke.

"Morning." He said smiling.

I giggled. "Morning."

"Are you ok?" He said

"Yeah, I'm fine." I said. Not really wanting to add the uncomfortable part.

He nodded before he started to stretch and I moved away slightly to put some distance to our naked bodies and cover myself in any way. I missed his heat though.

"What time is it?" He asked after he finished stretching.

I turned my head around, taking my phone from the dresser and checked. "9:30." I said and then began checking all the texts in my phone. All from my sisters asking where I was.

"Ok." He said as he continued to lay there.

I sat up and leaned myself against the wall, bringing the blankets up to cover me. I really had no idea what to do. I never thought it would end up like this. Yet I sort of like it aside from this weird situation.

"I should probably go… I have to get to an appointment today." Edward then said.

And there it was. Only I wished he had left so I didn't have to experience the pain so much.

"Yeah, I have things to do also…" I lied.

"Ok." he said before he got up already in his boxers since he put them back on last night and started dressing.

I was pretty proud of myself, I didn't make a fool of myself as he dressed.

But before leaving, he walked over to me and placed a small kiss on my lips. "I'll see you later." He said before he walked out.

Just as quick as he got in, he was out.

And that's when the water works began.

I guess that was the last of Edward. Maybe I shouldn't have given into him because he might have stuck around longer. Yet maybe not because he would have got tired of waiting. It was a lose, lose situation for me.

And even though I may somewhat regret that I gave into him, I can't completely because it was Edward. The one I love.

At least I wasn't sobbing, yet the silent tears always hurt the most.

Getting up, I walked to the bathroom wrapped up in the blanket since my sisters were gone. They were next door.

I started the shower, fixing the water up before I stepped in. My tears mixing with the water. At least I can't tell if I'm crying anymore. I pretty much wanted to stay in the shower all day. But I couldn't so after I was washed up and then just stood there as the water fell on me for a long time, I got out.

I wasn't planning on going anywhere today. I didn't feel like it, so getting dressed I only put on my sweats and tank before going to the living room and throwing myself on the couch. I stopped crying too just on time because my sisters stepped in right at that moment.

"Bella! Oh thank god you're here." Rosalie said.

"What happened?" Alice asked.

"Oh well after the show I wasn't feeling good. Edward offered to bring me back here and then he left."

"Really? Because Edward left out of the blue when you finished." Rosalie said.

"Yeah, he said he wanted to watch me sing, but also had to go to the bathroom so when I finished, he bolted to the bathroom which was where the stage was sort of and that's where he saw me." I said. And I was proud of myself. Lie was coming out smoothly.

"Oh," Alice said. Looks like they bought it too. "So are you ok now?"

"Yeah, I'm good now. First thing I did was take a shower as soon as I woke up." I said.

"Good. I wonder where Edward went last night. He came home really weird. Coming in quickly and mumbling about having to get ready for an appointment before he left for the bathroom I think." Rosalie said.

"Maybe one of his girls?" I said as a question yet trying to sound uninterested because last night I was the girl. God does that make me a bad person?

She shrugged. "Whatever. Anyways, I'm going to shower." Rose said before leaving.

"Hurry up!" Alice said before sitting next to me. "Oh and great singing last night. The guys loved it. There coming over later to cheer you on about it." She said giggling.

I smiled and rested my head on Alice's shoulder.

"You sure your ok?" She said

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just tired. You know, had to wake up during the night to take pills for my headache, but it's gone now." I said.

"Well if it comes back or something worse happens, let me know and then we'll find out what to do after.

I nodded and she turned on the TV channel surfing.

I wonder if Edward really had an appointment today. I mean he told his brothers? But why would it matter if he actually told the truth. He's gone now. Well from me.

"So when are we going home?" I asked

"Not next week, but the next I think. On Friday." Alice said.

"Why so late?" I asked.

"Because I forgot to book our flights earlier." She giggled.

"You forgot to book them earlier or were waiting till the boys go home?" I asked chuckling.

"Well a little bit of both."

"Weirdo." I said "Anyways, I'm hungry." I said getting up. "You gonna want a pizza?" I asked Alice.

"Please." She said as she got up since Rosalie finished the shower.

"Rose you want a pizza?" I yelled.

"Please!" She yelled back.

Nodding I walked to the kitchen and got to work with the pizzas.

Doing all I can to not think of Edward.

OoOoO

"Bye guys!" I waved to Elena, Katherine and Selena as they waved back saying there goodbyes.

We were just coming back from getting some lunch.

Yup. It was also Wednesday. Five days have passed since that day and I have seen Edward, but it seems like he has been trying to avoid me. And he always has this troubled look on his face. It makes me wonder why… Is it because of me?

Probably.

Sighing I stepped into the empty apartment since my sisters were probably eating with there boyfriends.

I just ate anyways.

So after changing into my shorts and t-shirt, I walked into the kitchen getting some water before walking into my room and plugging in my ipod to the stereo to play some music.

I then started to clean any clothes on the ground. I was thinking about packing, but we are going to come back here anyways. Basically all we need is clothes and shoes since we have tooth brushes and any other materials back at home. So packing my clothes will be a quick process and I don't need a head start.

But the slamming of a door scared the shit out of me.

Turning around I saw Edward leaning against my door looking… hungry?

But not food hungry.

"Edward. Shit you scared me. What are you-" I was saying until Edward walked over to me quickly before crashing our lips together, plunging his tongue in right away. Not that I protested it. I'm losing it! I can't!

I unwillingly pulled back. "Edward you need to stop." I said breathless.

"I can't Bella. I need you. The only reason I didn't come sooner was because I didn't know if you were still sore or not but I can't take it anymore." He said walking us backwards until I was sitting on the bed before he placed his lips to mine again.

And the stupid cooch was not doing anything to try and deny him. In fact she wanted the same thing as him.

Edwards hands then moved down to the hem of my shirt where he pulled it off and then feeling the skin on my back.

Shit, shit, shit, I got to stop! He just wants pussy! He doesn't want me! He is only using me!

Yeah, but this time you'll feel pleasure…

Uhm aren't you supposed to be on my side?

Oh fuck it.

After dropping the argument going on in my head, I slid Edwards shirt off him and unbuttoned his pants.

His hands moved to the clip of my bra as he unclipped it and slipped it off me.

Pulling my lips away I grabbed him and pulled him onto the bed, but I made sure he fell on his back and I was on top. I don't think he cared because his mouth went right to my breasts.

I threw my head back moaning at the feeling of his mouth there. His hands moved down to my shorts where he slipped them off me and I shrugged them off.

"Bella your fucking delicious." He said.

"Pants, off." I said as I moved to pull them off, boxers going with them as his dick sprung out.

Damn was he hard.

Moving my hands, I wrapped them around him and pumped it a little wiping some of his pre cum.

"Shit." He said and then he flipped us over, laying me on my back. Then he quickly pulled of my panties revealing my wet cooch.

We were both breathing heavily and I pretty much started panting when I felt him slip fingers inside me.

"Your ready for me Bella." Edward said as he moved himself to my entrance and slid in.

This time I got to moan with pleasure, but yet he was still big. I had to adjust.

"You feel so good." Edward groaned as he started moving in me.

"Faster." I moaned as I started to move my hips to meet his thrusts.

He complied to my request and started to move faster in me.

We were both panting now and I was staring to feel the thin layer of sweat on our skin.

"I need more of you." Edward then said before lifting my leg up and put it over his shoulder. This position let him go deeper in me.

I arched my back, moaning and then his lips were back on my breasts.

"Edward" I called out as I felt that amazing feeling start to rise in me.

"Let go baby, Come with me." Edward said against my chest.

Panting, I fisted the blankets into my hand as I felt myself rise higher.

"God Bella!" Edward groaned and that's what triggered my release as well as his and he collapsed on me. Yet he was probably trying not to crush me either.

We both lied there, tired and trying to control our heavy breathing and gain some energy.

Edward didn't pull out of me though. Instead he wrapped his arms around me, lying us in a more comfortable position and pulling the blanket over us.

Him still inside me. Amazing.

But we were silent. We didn't talk at all. I could feel his gaze down to me but I couldn't look up because I would probably say too much. My face will give it away. I mean I almost gave it away while I was moaning with the pleasure he was bringing me. I just want to say it but I can't if he didn't run yet, that would have him running. And I don't want him to leave.

But is it wrong this way? I think it is. I'm only hurting myself and letting him have what he wants. But what if I want it too? I shouldn't but I do. Because its him. Because I love him.

No, no, no don't start! Not while he's here!

I then felt Edward's hand move to my face as he moved any lose strands from it and lifted my chin up for my eyes to meet his.

Looking at his face, I couldn't tell the emotion he had. It was blank to me. Something I never saw before.

He looked at my face too. Then down to my lips where he began leaned down kissing me. And I kissed him back.

But what were doing is wrong. Sure there's that friends with benefits thing, but I refuse to do that. We don't even have to talk to know what Edward want's from me. It's been obvious. But should we talk so he knows what I want? I know we should talk because this is wrong, but I really don't think he wants to know how I feel.

And fuck, the feeling of his lips on mine did not help any of my thoughts.

So we kissed. And he got hard again in me.

And we were at it again. No words exchanged.

He just started slowly thrusting in me while I met with his hips.

To me, this was one of the sweetest things that was happening. Who knows what it was like for him.

So when we were both once again panting and reaching our climax, we both released at the same time.

This time as Edward was above me, he looked all over my face and into my eyes before he finally pulled out yet keeping me close to him.

It was still silent between us. I once again didn't dare to look up at him and just kept my head under his chin as he played with my hair.

I was confused. I don't know what is going on between us. Apart from my previous thoughts and confusion, I now had this one.

But I had two reasons in why I didn't want to talk at that moment. First, I was fucking scared. Second, I was fucking hungry now. Too much fucking activity going on.

"I'm hungry." I mumbled. As I moved myself in the blankets to get out.

He didn't say anything, just got up to pull his boxers on before I pulled the blankets with me to get my clothes back on.

I noticed he only pulled on his jeans, leaving his shirt on the ground before he lifted me over his shoulder and carried me out of my room.

Well this is odd.

"Put me down Edward!" I said trying to resist to laugh. This isn't right. I think his mind is going along with the friends with benefits thought.

"Ok." He said setting me down in the kitchen. "We're here." He said smirking.

I rolled my eyes before I moved to the fridge to get some left over pasta from yesterday night. There was enough for both of us. That is if he wanted.

"You want some?" I asked pointing to it.

He nodded. "Please."

I nodded my head before put the whole thing in the microwave and getting out bowls.

When it was done heating I poured it into the bowls and added the forks before I took the food to the table.

Edward took a seat next to me and dug in. I then got up remembering about drinks.

"You want some coke?" I asked opening the fridge.

"Please." he said.

Nodding to myself I took to cans out and walked back to the table and sitting back down, bringing my legs up with me. Bad habit.

And then we ate. In silence. Luckily for me it was at least a bit comfortable. Sort of.

I finished eating first cause I was starving since a lot of my energy was wasted, but now I was full and feeling better.

But I just continued to sit there drinking some soda while Edward finished eating. I kept my eyes away from him though.

Should I talk to him now? I mean I know I don't have to confess my feelings but I have to let him know that I'm not a fucking toy for him at least. That will surly keep him away. Great.

God I'm a mess.

When I saw that he had finished, I picked up my plate and his and took it to the sink where I washed them.

While washing them, Edward came behind me and wrapped his arms around me while he talked in my neck.

"I have to go…" He said. Of course.

"Mhm." Was all I said.

He placed a kiss on my neck before pulling back and walking to get his shirt from my room I assume.

I turned off the water and walked over to the door where he was already walking towards, slipping his shirt on and already having his shoes.

I opened the door and watched as he walked out.

"I'll see you later." He said standing there.

I nodded and stood there. He was about to start walking till I spoke. "Edward?"

"Yeah?" He said stopping and turning back to me.

"We have to talk soon…" I said

I couldn't read the expression on his face before he nodded. "I know." He said in a very low voice before he finally walked away.

He knew? What does he mean by that?

Can this get any more confusing?

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-Chanelle